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myself and my two sisters were raised by
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a single mother in a small town in
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Kentucky and my mother was an
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outstanding role model for all of us she
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truly epitomized what it meant to be a
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good caring and loving human being in
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this world but also stand up strong and
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defend
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yourself and there were some things that
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she said to me starting at an early age
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that I practically heard every Day of My
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Life as a young boy and then
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occasionally as I was progressing into
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becoming a young
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man the first one for me is the most
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powerful one the most
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prophetic you know she would say Barry
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just because you can does not mean that
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you
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should now
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that's that's pretty powerful don't
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gloss over that don't just say that's a
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nice saying think about about it and all
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of its
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implications think of all the times in
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your life as I've thought about all the
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times in my life should I really have
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done
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that we're all going to make mistakes
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and all we can do is learn from them and
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if we don't learn from them that's our
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biggest
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mistake the other thing she used to say
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is Barry always do the right thing
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simply because it's the right thing to
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do
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again really do some deep thought about
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that and think about that it's truly a
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powerful message that's easy to gloss
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over and saying that's a cute saying
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that's a neat saying I agree with that
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saying but applying these two things in
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your life and every aspect of your life
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are not always easy especially as life
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brings you challenges and
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difficulties as those of us who get at a
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certain stage in our life we've all gone
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through them we'll all continue to go
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through them it is is this thing called
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life you know I've done a great deal of
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uh self-reflection and soul surging over
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the last 24
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hours there's a couple things that I've
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said and done that I didn't really see
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the potential issue associated with them
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but yet we don't really know how they're
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going to impact other people and what
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message am I sending
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you know this whole channel has been
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deeply humbling from the very beginning
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deeply
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humbling I never intended to start this
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channel it was all done by accident as I
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was recovering from a neck surgery at a
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spinal neck fusion
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done at the very end of the pandemic
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while everybody who hadn't been working
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was returning to work but I was still
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out for a little bit
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longer and I didn't have anything to do
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and I was bored and I came in here and
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sat in this chair in this room and I
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made my first video that really took off
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and I said and I really started reading
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the
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comments and they were all so grateful
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for the things that I had
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shared and I said wow I can't believe
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that one little thing May has making
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such a difference in people's lives so I
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thought let me just kind of keep trying
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this and see kind of what goes the the
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goal of this channel has always been to
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help people it always has been you know
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every so often I say to myself Barry you
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just kind of need to stop the YouTube
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channel you know it's it's eating up a
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lot of your time you know you need to
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pursue other things in life but then I
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read through all the comments and all
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the
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videos and those are also deeply deeply
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deeply
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humbling that people are telling me that
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I am helping them and how can you stop
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if you're actually helping people that
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said not everything I does not
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everything I do is perfect
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not at all I've made some mistakes along
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the way and I've made a big one here
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recently where I should have anticipated
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the potential of that better than I did
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I failed myself and I failed my
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mother and and I'm deeply regretting
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that this can be hard at
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times harder than you think you're
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putting all this effort and work into to
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it and not really making any money from
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it so I certainly don't do this for
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money but it's rewarding knowing that
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I'm actually helping people out there
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and that's what drives me and motivates
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me but then again two you know in this
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channel I average probably and I'm I'm
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an incredibly small Channel but I
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average a couple hundred thousand views
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a
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month that is mind-boggling isn't
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it my videos are watched a couple
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hundred thousand times a month all over
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the
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world sometimes I've just gloss over
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that but going through
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this I've really really had to think
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long and hard about
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it you know I'm affecting people all
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over the world and that comes with a
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great deal of
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responsibility
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and you know I'm just a guy sitting in
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here trying to share everything he's
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learned with folks out there that's
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really all I'm trying to do
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but it it it it really goes to say that
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I've really got to think really better
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and do a better job than I've done at
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times I think for the most part even
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after self-reflection I'm proud of the
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majority of videos that I've made there
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have been some including one here
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recently that I didn't realize at the
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time the implications of it but I
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certainly do
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now and and I realize I I shouldn't have
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done it look if I've got a if I've got a
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Counterpoint against someone else that
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may be saying
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something I've got to think long and
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hard about how I approach that do I
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really need to mention that person's
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name if I disagree with because I'm not
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arguing with them I'm not I'm not upset
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with I'm not trying to point fingers or
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anything like that I'm just getting in
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the discussion saying maybe I hold a
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different viewpoint on that than they do
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well if that's the case you know one of
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the things I thought last night I'll be
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honest with you I didn't get much sleep
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last night night one of the things I
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thought about last night was Barry if
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you wanted to make a counterargument why
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didn't you just say here's the title of
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the video and here's my
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perspective why did I need to bring
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somebody else into it what was the point
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of
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that I'm certainly not trying to ride
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someone else's coattails I could give a
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darn if this channel grows another
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viewer if it's going to grow like that I
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want it to be because people find me
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someone that you can relate to that has
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gone through many of the struggles
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you've gone
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through and can try to help you make
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better decisions for you in your
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studio so I should have thought that
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through better and I didn't and it's
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been I've gotten an extra big dose of
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humility here and I've really had to
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reflect upon that I really made some
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huge mistakes
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granted they weren't premeditated they
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weren't pre-thought out it was not
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intentional but that doesn't matter that
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doesn't
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matter always do the right
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thing because it's the right thing to
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do Barry just because you can does not
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mean you
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should and then it really started to
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said and I I have I have been blessed
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with this opportunity
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to have an impact on other
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people it comes with a great deal of
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responsibility that I've always taken
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seriously but I need to take it more
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seriously I need to really think about
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it and so as this channel progresses
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you're going to see some course
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correction and the things I talk about
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and the things I just stay away
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from I'm not doing it for any other
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reason other than it's the right thing
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to
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do and it if I don't want to be that
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person I've never wanted to be that
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person and if I'm affecting other people
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in a negative way I'm not achieving my
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goal I'm not achieving the objective I'm
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here to
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help I'm not here to tell somebody else
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where they may be wrong that's not my
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place you the viewer can come to your
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own conclusions on that you don't need
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me to tell
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you so last night I went through my
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entire catalog of
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videos I think I had over 400 video
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since I started this and I it took time
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went through every single one of
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them and I deleted four or five videos
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from my channel including a couple that
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I made
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recently because the more I thought
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about it I said does this potentially
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fall into that
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category and if it had even one bit of
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Iota of possibility it got
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deleted and because I I don't want that
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to be who I am it's never been who I am
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but I can certainly put myself in the
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shoes of other people and understand why
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they may feel the way they feel and for
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those of you may be saying well other
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people need need to have thick skin they
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need to be able to handle it that's not
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for you to say and that's not for me to
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say do you think somebody couldn't say
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that about you at times do you think
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other people couldn't say that about me
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at times we're all human beings we're
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flawed we're flawed I've never met a
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perfect human being because they don't
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exist no matter how much they try no
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matter how hard how hard they try to be
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a good human
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being we all make mistakes we all have
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moments of bad
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decisions the important part is to learn
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from
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them and rest assured I have learned
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from this because I would rather give
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all of this up than be that person
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because it is not who I am
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so yes I had a large dose of humble pie
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last
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night and for for some of the people out
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there that I've um said something that
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maybe I shouldn't have I'm sorry I
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really am I'm truly sorry and I do
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regret
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it all I can do is move forward all I
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can do is not repeat
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repeat the mistakes of my
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past that's all I can ask of myself none
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of us can go back in time and change
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things all we can do is move forward
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learn from our mistakes and continue to
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grow regardless of what age we may
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be thank you for listening have a great
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day bye-bye
