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(coffee dripping)
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(people talking indistinctly)
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- Y'all want some more coffee?
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Hello?
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Y'all want some more coffee?
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- Not yet.
- All right.
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(people talking indistinctly)
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- Making coffee
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especially without
using the type of coffee
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that they sold in prison, sold
in jail, commissary coffee.
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Going through the process
of brewing the coffee,
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you know and making a coffee
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and not just for myself,
for my coworkers.
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That I'm able to
use a coffee pot.
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That I'm able to use
this type of little gismo
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that once upon a time I didn't
even know how to operate.
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This a blessing.
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That I'm able to wipe the water
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that I just spilled for more.
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Like I said, a machine,
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a coffee machine that I
didn't know how to operate
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when I first got here.
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That literally,
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it took my coworkers
to teach me how to use.
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Yes, it's like being a baby
again, being a toddler.
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And being needed to be
guided on everything in life,
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even the simple things
like making coffee.
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It's an honor of self.
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It's just a smell of freedom.
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Alice, whose cupcakes are these?
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Those cupcakes.
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They yours?
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Is it possible for us
individually to rehabilitate?
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A hundred percent.
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And even against all odds.
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Even when people are pushing
against you not to change.
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Because ultimately, it's
up to us to rehabilitate.
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It's up to us to change.
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And if we're given those
avenues and the tools
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to be able to change,
we will change.
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(instrumental music)
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This is the place.
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This is where I wanna be at.
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You know what I'm saying?
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I was blessed to
be given a chance
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by Precious Blood
Ministry of Reconciliation
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to be part of the
housing program.
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And it's a housing
program available
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to return impacted
citizens like myself.
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- I'm glad that you actually
are staying committed.
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- [Marcelo] My friend.
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My partner, good peoples,
one of my advocates,
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you know, mentor Jojo.
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Joseph Mapp, right?
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- We try to live out
the restorative model
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of giving people who were
system impacted a chance,
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myself being one of 'em.
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- It was like
breathing fresh air
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when I found out that he had
became the program director
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for Precious Blood
Ministry of Reconciliation.
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My family don't understand
why I choose to live
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in a housing program, right?
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When they have plenty
of place for me, right?
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And then I tell 'em, listen,
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it's not just the
roof over my head,
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it's the environment
that I'm returning to.
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The program with the rent
is that Precious Blood,
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since it's a non-for-profit
organization,
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they cannot profit
from the housing.
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So what they do is that
they collect that money,
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they save it for you,
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give you that money
back and double it.
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They will match that money.
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For the simple strength
of you having enough money
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to have a down payment
security for an apartment
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and enough money maybe for
two or three months rent.
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(door slams)
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That's one of the blessings
that I was fortunate to have.
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(instrumental music)
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(wind blowing)
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I grew up in several cities.
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Unlike my family, moved
from places to places,
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but I spent majority
of my time in Chicago.
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Between Chicago,
Philadelphia, and New York.
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Chicago was the
first city I lived
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in the mainline United States.
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We moved from Puerto Rico
when I was 10 years old.
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Family problems, you know?
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And my mother escaping
abuse, verbal abuse, you know
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which is the worst, anyways.
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And she grabbed
me and my siblings
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and moved us to Humboldt Park.
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I was about 10 years old
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and because of my little
gang banging affiliations
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as a kid, at age 10 I
caught my first case.
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Like at 11, I got
caught with a gun.
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And by age 12, 13ish, I got
caught with crack cocaine.
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Was sent to a juvenile hall
for two to four months.
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I turned that two to four
months to two and a half years.
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I didn't come home till
I was 15 and a half.
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Coming up I know I did
a lot of crazy stuff.
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And that at any given time
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the police would
come and pick me up.
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(instrumental music)
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I was told that
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one of the little
fellas had got killed.
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(police sirens)
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And he was 15 years old.
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And we literally could see
the homicide detectives
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pulling the sheet over the
kids' head, over the body.
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I didn't believe in
sending somebody off,
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like giving a gun
to somebody else
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to do harm to somebody else.
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I felt it was my obligation.
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The kid should have never
been part of the block.
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Should've never been
part of the gang.
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Immediately it just like
triggered something.
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I gotta retaliate, you know?
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Then it just dramatically,
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(gun shot)
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I just took their life.
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It was just no
longer a wanna be.
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That was me, you know?
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And I was always told that
by age 21 I was gonna die.
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That either I was gonna die
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or I was gonna spend the
rest of my life in prison.
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The self-fulfilling prophecy,
you know what I'm saying?
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I'm like, okay.
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Everybody see this,
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think that must
be true, you know?
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This is who I am.
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But by age 20, before
I caught this case
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I had so much in the streets
and in and out of the system
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that I was already tired
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and I was ready to change.
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That was the last
day from that point
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that I was incarcerated
to April 7th of this year.
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And I've done almost 21 years.
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(cars passing by)
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Nine months before I
came home, I believe.
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And it's like in the, one of
the peaks of the pandemic.
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Now I'm getting scared
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'cause now it's like,
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okay, it's getting here.
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I no longer can tell people
I got two years left,
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three years left, one year left.
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I went through the months now
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and the months now are flying.
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And I'm thinking, okay,
what's gonna happen?
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Am I gonna have furniture?
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Am I gonna have food?
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Am I gonna be living?
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'Cause my state of
mind at that moment
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was that I was going
into a halfway house
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with a bunch of other dudes.
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I didn't know that we
actually get an apartment.
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(instrumental music)
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First impression, you know.
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I want to be able to,
people to understand that
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I could wear the cheapest of
clothes and still look good.
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The clothes don't
make me look good.
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I make the clothes look good.
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You know what I'm saying?
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I still hate the
fact of individuals
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showing me they ass cheeks,
you know what I'm saying?
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And it's something that my
father like, cultivated in me.
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And it remained, you know.
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Especially being in
a culture in prison
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that a lot of times it's
like we attribute to
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an individual
sagging their pants.
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And as you exhibiting yourself,
you know what I'm saying?
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You know, and that's a
no-no in prison, you know.
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That's why when people ask me,
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man, how is it man?
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Did it hit you?
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When did it hit you?
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And I'm like, boy, it
haven't hit me yet.
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Being free haven't hit me yet.
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Despite the fact
that I enjoy freedom,
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despite the fact that I am free,
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I'm still afraid
to open my keys.
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I'm afraid of getting
home at certain time
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because of the fear of
what the streets got.
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What I notice in the streets.
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The mentality of individuals.
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So the good feeling to open
the key from coming from work.
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(inhaling)
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(exhaling)
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Yeah that's nice.
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And it's a big, it's
a culture shock.
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Hearing the little creeks
of the wall, the floor.
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You know how the late at night
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when everything's quiet,
00:09:43
you hear the little
noises in the house?
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And I will get up and I
will check the windows
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and I'm like, 'cause
I literally thought
00:09:51
somebody was gonna come in
through the windows on me.
00:09:58
For the first time, I was
actually witnessing drama.
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'Cause I understood drama
00:10:03
and I understood the little
sensation that we go through
00:10:07
that the body let us know
that, man, you bout to snap.
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Stop.
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You know?
00:10:15
Now I'm like, well I went
through a lot of stuff.
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And I'm like, I grabbed a knife.
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Literally, I went
into the kitchen
00:10:23
and I grabbed one of
them butcher knives.
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And for the first
month of being out,
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I slept with this big old
knife under my pillow.
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The crazy part is
that I do this.
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This is when I'm
not, when I'm off.
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When I'm working from
home, I'm gonna clean.
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Anything that's hidden,
don't get clean.
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In prison we call it
a hygienic challenge.
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You know what I'm saying?
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You know.
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So, cause you know,
in prison we got,
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we live in a small space that
is a bathroom, slash bedroom,
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slash dining room, slash
living room, slash study hall,
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slash, slash, slash, slash.
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I was tied in and out
(indistinct) the whole.
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You know, a prison went from
prison, 24 was a day in a cage.
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And most of my sig
sentences or periods
00:11:20
were because I was
fighting with cellies.
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So after a while I have to say,
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okay, it's now.
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It's a fact that it's
not them, it's me.
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So now in order
for me to fix this,
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I gotta see what's
tickin' inside of me
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that bothers me so much that
I'm fighting with individuals.
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So what I did, I
came with a solution.
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I said, I just not
gonna expect cellmates
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to automatically clean
00:11:48
because I refuse to feel like
I'm living in a jail cell.
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(water running)
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(instrumental music)
00:12:00
Is anxiety part of
my everyday living?
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No doubt about that.
00:12:08
Like I eat, I poop,
and I sleep anxiety.
00:12:16
To be able to been locked
up for 20 plus years
00:12:20
and come home to a world
that was no longer that world
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when I first got incarcerated
is as a returning citizen,
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I wear that out on my
sleeve day and night.
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I fear that the smallest thing
might land me back in prison.
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So anxiety is my best friend
and my enemy at the same time.
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Why my best friend?
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Because it keeps
me on my square.
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And I say my enemy because
it's too much anxiety.
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And if I don't recognize
that and get too lax with it,
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you cannot just believe
that there's no other way.
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(heavy breathing)
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For years, I never told
someone good morning.
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Literally, I've been with
cellmates that I never spoke to.
00:13:18
Only, "excuse me", "let
me get by", that's it.
00:13:23
Hey, Telia are you going out?
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They said, close the door,
I'm closing this door.
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Or Joe, I gotta go to school.
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You need this door open?
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Those type of words.
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I never said goodbye,
goodnight, good morning.
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And yeah, the thanks, you
welcome, and stuff like that
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because that's just natural.
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Is something that outta respect.
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- [Trainer] You need
to take your time
00:13:43
and stay right
here to open it up.
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Open it up.
- I got you.
00:13:46
Trauma is real, you know?
00:13:48
And until we're put
in that situation
00:13:51
and really understand how
much we've been traumatized,
00:13:56
then we never will know
how is it in that moment.
00:14:02
How does it feel telling
another person wholeheartedly,
00:14:06
"good morning".
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(laughing)
00:14:09
Now that's a good worker.
00:14:10
That's a good warmup worker.
00:14:13
I love people wholeheartedly,
00:14:14
but it's hard for me to show it.
00:14:17
You know, it's hard for me to
00:14:20
and sometimes when
I do show affection,
00:14:22
it's like come off the wrong
way, you know what I'm saying?
00:14:26
And I don't like
being seen as phony.
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(basketball dribbling)
(people talking indistinctly)
00:14:35
(instrumental music)
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- His name is Marcelo.
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I named him after myself.
00:14:42
I remember the day I came
home, April 7th, right? 2022.
00:14:48
And make into Chicago
00:14:51
and me and my two sisters
and my mother being hungry.
00:14:56
But I wanted to see him first.
00:14:58
That's the first
thing I wanted to do.
00:15:03
(birds chirping)
00:15:16
So why you gotta really
assume immediately
00:15:19
that a person gotta be
aggressive with you, bro?
00:15:22
- Nah bro, that's just the
way you answered the phone.
00:15:25
- This is not the first time.
00:15:26
- It's not just me.
00:15:28
And I don't talk to
you no type of way
00:15:30
for you to feel like you
can talk to me like that.
00:15:33
If you were to talk to
my mother on the phone,
00:15:35
would you respond to
my mother in a way,
00:15:37
like that?
00:15:38
Would you talk to her-
- Like what?
00:15:39
All I said was I'm
heading that way.
00:15:42
- But you said it in an
aggressive tone of voice.
00:15:44
I wouldn't have took it that
way if it wasn't like that.
00:15:46
I'm not talking to
you no type of way,
00:15:48
so don't talk to me like that.
00:15:50
One thing that it is hard
for him to accept the advice
00:15:56
that I give him because
he expects it from someone
00:15:59
who is his age or older.
00:16:00
He doesn't expect to hear
that from me who is his son.
00:16:03
- The only way a person
can correct something,
00:16:06
if you've actually pinpoint-
00:16:07
- Well I just pinpointed it.
00:16:09
And one thing I always
tell him is like,
00:16:12
I've been through
these things to know
00:16:15
when and what is right and
I'm not always correct.
00:16:19
I'm not trying to say
that I'm smarter than him.
00:16:22
But in some aspects,
I can show him things
00:16:25
that he probably doesn't know.
00:16:27
- We probably just
take a walk this way
00:16:28
and then walk this way.
00:16:30
Be connecting with a son of mine
00:16:32
that was born
roughly a few months
00:16:34
after I caught my
case and had not spent
00:16:37
not a single day with
him in the free world.
00:16:40
And my question was,
how do I balance that?
00:16:42
How can I be a father
without being too hard on him
00:16:46
because I don't have
the rights to do so.
00:16:48
I hate when you be
doing that, bro.
00:16:50
I just like, 'cause
it make me feel like
00:16:54
you really don't even
want me here, bro.
00:16:56
His mother was his father.
00:16:58
His mother was his mother.
00:16:59
His mother was his everything.
00:17:01
And then the individual
that actually raised him,
00:17:05
that I love him to death,
God bless his soul,
00:17:08
you know, that actually
became my brother,
00:17:13
was killed just two years ago.
00:17:17
How do I come out and be
able to make this individual
00:17:20
understand that I am
not coming in here
00:17:23
to rule anything in your life?
00:17:37
That I'm your father.
00:17:39
I'm your dad.
00:17:40
I'm your friend.
00:17:41
And we could go from there.
00:17:43
You don't have to be afraid.
00:17:45
You want to gimme your toy?
00:17:47
- Seeing him with my daughter
00:17:48
makes me feel like if
he never went to prison,
00:17:51
he would've been a great father.
00:17:53
The only thing is, me and him
both feel like he needed that.
00:18:00
Because if he would've
never went down the path
00:18:02
that he went down
00:18:03
and the events that took
place never took place,
00:18:07
he probably be dead.
00:18:09
He needed those lessons in life
00:18:11
to take them where
he needed to go.
00:18:13
And now he's back out and he's
a completely changed person.
00:18:17
- Hello.
00:18:21
(instrumental music)
00:18:33
(speaking Spanish)
00:18:45
- Oh, it's a big difference
holding my mom's hand.
00:18:48
If I'm just supposed to hold
her hand in a visiting room
00:18:52
and in a prison jail
00:18:54
versus holding her hand in the
backyard of a friend of mine
00:19:03
is priceless.
00:19:05
- There's things that are
like, they're out of our hands
00:19:10
but only in my faith is the
one that's gonna help me.
00:19:13
And I'm telling him that he
have take care of himself
00:19:17
and like, rest and
don't work too hard.
00:19:22
He's working too hard.
00:19:23
Like, he was like 21 years old.
00:19:26
So right now he's free
00:19:27
and I think he want
to grab everything.
00:19:29
Like, do everything at once.
00:19:32
- Locked up really
didn't comfort me
00:19:34
because I was trying to ensure
they didn't come for my mom.
00:19:41
(birds chirping)
00:19:45
And it doesn't come
from me out here either.
00:19:47
Just give me
assurance, you know,
00:19:50
it just giving me
a peace of mind
00:19:54
and still have my mother here.
00:19:55
And being in prison and
witnessing a friend of mine
00:20:02
not losing but one of their
parents, but losing both.
00:20:04
And me always asking God,
00:20:07
please don't let
me go through that.
00:20:12
- I'm so, I'm happy
because I have him like,
00:20:18
again with me.
00:20:19
'Cause 21 years is a long time.
00:20:24
- How do I balance
having my mother?
00:20:28
How do I balance going to school
00:20:30
and being able that I
keep up with my studies
00:20:33
while working two jobs,
00:20:35
reconnecting with a son of mine
00:20:37
that was born roughly a few
months after I caught my case
00:20:41
and had not spent not
a single day with him
00:20:43
in the free world?
00:20:46
How did I, my question
was, how do I balance that?
00:20:49
(instrumental music)
00:20:58
When I started working
here outta Restore Justice,
00:21:05
people hear about
being an apprentice
00:21:07
and they automatically
think that we don't get paid
00:21:09
or that we get paid little.
00:21:11
And we're not, we get a salary.
00:21:14
- I think what would be
helpful is to think about
00:21:16
the work that you
did Marcelo here.
00:21:19
Where you were thinking about
00:21:22
what you would say
to a legislator
00:21:24
about how long sentences
don't make us safer.
00:21:27
- Despite the fact that I
was sentenced to 45 years,
00:21:31
it didn't take no 45 years for
me to be able to understand
00:21:34
that I meant I needed to change.
00:21:36
- I think our
experience in IDOC,
00:21:39
gives us more
credence to come home
00:21:42
and advocate for
these kind of issues.
00:21:45
- Right now, at this moment
00:21:46
my project is to shadow,
00:21:49
to learn how to
become a lobbyist.
00:21:54
- Hey.
- Hello, rep.
00:21:55
How you doing?
- Nice to see you.
00:21:59
- Hello, man.
00:22:00
- Welcome to Restore Justice.
- Thank you.
00:22:03
- It's quiet.
00:22:05
Y'all make a lot of noise,
but it's quiet right now.
00:22:08
I like that.
00:22:10
- And you be surprised
'cause before coming here,
00:22:12
who would've thought a
bunch of white ladies
00:22:16
be helping a bunch of
black and brown people?
00:22:18
You know, be able to be
successful when they come home?
00:22:21
Come here.
Where you going?
00:22:23
Come here, Joe.
00:22:24
(laughter)
Come here.
00:22:26
- I was gonna try to creep away.
00:22:27
I didn't dress up today.
- This is
00:22:29
the one that made it
happen for all of us.
00:22:31
- Not really.
- Jovie Case.
00:22:33
- Nice to see
00:22:34
Welcome to our home.
00:22:36
- This was to see my
everyday dealings.
00:22:39
And in my everyday dealings,
00:22:41
I deal with due to
my apprenticeship
00:22:46
and what we do here
in Restore Justice.
00:22:48
And the main go ahead
in Restore Justice
00:22:50
is to be able to affect,
influence, and change policies.
00:22:54
And policies in the sense
of criminal justice reforms.
00:22:59
By the grace of God
and Restore Justice.
00:23:02
and people like Jovie Casendun,
00:23:04
we getting a chance to
actually have a second chance.
00:23:07
Yes, I would love my
records to be clean.
00:23:10
Why?
00:23:11
Because there are things in life
00:23:13
that I would love to conquer,
00:23:15
that I would love to be part of.
00:23:17
That record will not allow
me to be in those spaces.
00:23:21
And the fact is that
people are realizing
00:23:25
that injustice is happening
in and out the system,
00:23:28
by the system, right?
00:23:30
Laws been passed
that now allows me,
00:23:34
after I believe five years
after I'm off parole,
00:23:37
that I can actually
get my record,
00:23:40
not only sponged
completely, but a seal.
00:23:44
If I could succeed
and be successful,
00:23:48
why not bringing
others with me, right?
00:23:50
- Exactly.
- You know.
00:23:51
Did I ever imagine myself being
in this side of the fence?
00:23:54
Hell no.
00:23:56
Because at once upon a time,
00:23:57
almost looking at politicians
that full sh individuals,
00:24:01
you know, worthless.
00:24:03
Not until I really started
getting into political science
00:24:06
in college that I
started learning
00:24:09
the ins and outs of
what makes society spin.
00:24:13
- And I think
you're right, right?
00:24:14
My father, he was a felon.
00:24:17
He served his time, got out,
00:24:21
seen all types of areas with him
00:24:22
and the struggles that
he had to go through.
00:24:25
And so, doing this work is
really passionate for me.
00:24:27
It's personal and I don't
think that we should,
00:24:32
you know, limit anyone from
being able to take care
00:24:36
of their families.
00:24:37
- I was fortunate to at
least not only have my,
00:24:39
get two associate's degree
when I was incarcerated,
00:24:42
you know, and it took
effort for me to do that.
00:24:45
Not because it was
just being handed out.
00:24:47
- [Lakesha] Right.
00:24:49
- And despite the fact that
I was able to get 50 credits,
00:24:51
almost 50 credits,
upper level credits
00:24:53
with the University of
Illinois Urbana-Champaign,
00:24:55
the university still got a box
banning us convicted felons.
00:25:00
And unless legislation
is being pursued,
00:25:04
and not only pursued, but to
secure and put into the laws,
00:25:10
this university is gonna
continue to use this little box
00:25:13
to-
- [Lakesha] Discriminate.
00:25:14
- [Marcelo] Yeah
to discriminate.
00:25:15
- [Lakesha] To discriminate.
00:25:17
(instrumental music)
00:25:23
- When I first went to the
Department of Corrections,
00:25:25
I couldn't either read nor
write in both of my languages.
00:25:30
My L1 is Spanish and
I wasn't able to read
00:25:34
or write in Spanish.
00:25:38
You know, even in my native
language, it was broken.
00:25:40
And once I got in school
and I was given that chance,
00:25:43
I never looked back.
00:25:45
Then for my GED after three
months, I got into college.
00:25:48
Two, three years later I
got my first associates.
00:25:50
A year later I got
my second associates.
00:25:52
Then I ended up being enrolling
in the upper level courses
00:25:56
with the University of
Illinois at Danville.
00:25:58
I earned like 50 credits.
00:25:59
And at this moment I need
like 21 residential credits
00:26:02
to get my bachelor's degree.
00:26:04
I took advantage and
I had connections
00:26:06
and I was able to take
three to five classes
00:26:08
in the semester.
00:26:09
For me to be able,
breaking my back,
00:26:12
for me to be able to get my
certificates and my degrees.
00:26:18
(instrumental music)
00:26:23
10 years from now
will be 51 years old.
00:26:26
And one thing that
really used to get me
00:26:30
was the fear of aging,
especially aging in a jail cell.
00:26:35
The fear of dying
in prison, right?
00:26:38
My thing is that I'm always
excited to come and work
00:26:41
for Restore Justice,
00:26:42
because I know we make a change.
00:26:46
And as long as I'm
part of that change,
00:26:49
I feel that I'm
worth the effort.
00:26:56
I'm worth the people's
love and caring for me.
00:26:59
And if I can get that
energy from a human being
00:27:03
that is that positive energy
00:27:05
that allows me to put a
smile on my face, you know?
00:27:09
'Cause once again I said I'm
a victor, I'm not a victim.
00:27:13
When they say, you are a "vic".
00:27:15
Yeah, I'm a victor, right.
00:27:17
You know?
00:27:19
Victorious.
00:27:21
(instrumental music continues)