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Spiritual Awakening a phrase that
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carries both promise and Peril light and
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darkness many Seekers are drawn to the
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idea of Spiritual Awakening with the
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hope of finding peace Clarity and divine
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connection but what if the process
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itself feels more like a storm a deep
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inner struggle a shedding of parts of
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yourself you thought you could never
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live without why does Spiritual
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Awakening feel so painful today we're
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going to explore this profound Paradox
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Spiritual Awakening isn't a simple
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process it's not just about feeling
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enlightened or suddenly walking in a
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state of bliss in truth it's a deep
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unraveling of the self it's a journey
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through confusion grief and raw
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vulnerability before the light of
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understanding can break through the
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darkness let's dive in and together
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we'll try to understand the deeper
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currents that make Awakening feel so
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intense imagine for a moment that you've
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lived your whole life with a tight grip
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on who you are your identity your past
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your story everything you know about
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yourself your beliefs your relationships
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Everything feels like a solid structure
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a foundation but then something shifts
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you feel a spark a deep calling to
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something more the spiritual path opens
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up before you and you take the first
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step into the unknown at first it feels
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like the beginning of something
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beautiful a connection to something
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greater than yourself an opening to The
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Mysteries of life but soon the process
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becomes less like a peaceful stroll and
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more like a battle within you feel
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overwhelmed disoriented maybe even
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betrayed by your own mind why does it
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have to hurt so much why can't it just
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be a gentle unfolding the answer lies in
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the nature of Spiritual Awakening itself
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it's not a linear process it's a
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disruption a disturbance of everything
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you've known and held on to Awakening
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calls you to shed layers of conditioning
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to dismantle the identity you've built
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over years and to confront the parts of
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yourself you've been avoiding this
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process is as painful as it is necessary
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it's akin to an old building being torn
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down to make way for something more
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beautiful more aligned with your higher
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self but the demolition is messy loud
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and uncomfortable the first major hurdle
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in Spiritual Awakening is the death of
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the ego the ego is the part of us that
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says I am this person I am my name my
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career my accomplishments my desires
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it's the false sense of self that we
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cling to often without realizing that it
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is a barrier to True freedom but when
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Awakening Begins the ego starts to crack
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and sometimes it shatters entirely this
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process can feel terrifying without the
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ego who are you what is left the ego
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might seem like an illusion but it's an
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illusion we've spent our whole lives
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identifying with it is after all the
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lens through which we view the world
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when it dissolves it's as if we're left
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naked in the face of an immense
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unknown this is the core of the pain of
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Spiritual Awakening the profound loss of
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the self but this loss is not as it
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seems the death of the ego is not the
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end but a
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transformation just as the caterpillar
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must dissolve in its cocoon before
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emerging as a butterfly so too must the
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old self be dismantled to allow for a
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higher more expansive self to emerge
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this is the Paradox of Spiritual
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Awakening it often feels like a death
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but it is also a rebirth in many ways
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the pain comes from resisting the
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process the ego as much as it is a
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prison is also a comfort zone it's
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familiar and that familiarity creates a
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false sense of security letting go of
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the ego means letting go of everything
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that you thought was you this is not an
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easy task the resistance to this process
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the fear the grief the confusion is what
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creates much of the pain of Awakening
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when the ego starts to fall away it's
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not just ideas and identities that are
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dismantled it's also emotional baggage
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that has been carefully stored away over
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the years you've accumulated emotions
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memories and traumas that you've tucked
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into the recesses of your subconscious
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now now with the ego beginning to
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dissolve these hidden parts of you rise
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to the surface the pain you feel during
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this part of the process is not just the
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pain of losing the ego it's the pain of
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confronting your own unresolved issues
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every unhealed wound every emotion
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you've repressed every moment of
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suffering that you've never allowed
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yourself to fully feel will surface
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during this time and because these
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emotions have been buried for so long
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they can feel overwhelming when they
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finally emerge this emotional Purge is
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not something we can control it's like a
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river that has been damned for years and
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once the Dam breaks the water surges out
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all at once it can feel chaotic
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frightening and unbearable you may find
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yourself crying for no reason feeling
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bouts of anger or experiencing deep
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sadness without knowing where it's
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coming from however this emotional
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release is necessary it is part of the
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healing process for awakening to be
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complete all of the layers of emotional
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buildup must be cleared and much like a
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storm clearing the air the emotional
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pain that arises during this time will
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eventually give way to a clearer more
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authentic sense of self one of the most
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intense and challenging aspects of
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Spiritual Awakening is what is known as
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The Dark Night of the Soul this period
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is often described as a profound inner
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crisis an experience so disorienting and
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painful that it feels like everything
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you've ever known has fallen apart it is
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a time when the very Foundation a of
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your reality is shattered leaving you
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feeling unmowed lost and utterly
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disconnected you may feel as though
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you've lost your connection to your
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higher self your spiritual path and even
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your sense of purpose in life the very
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things that once gave your existence
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meaning seem to dissolve Into Thin Air
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leaving you with a raw aching
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emptiness The Dark Knight is not a
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literal night but a metaphorical one an
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all-encompassing internal Darkness where
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it feels like no light can penetrate in
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this space the ego has dissolved but
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there is no new sense of self to take
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its place you may feel as though you
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have entered a void where everything
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familiar and comforting has been
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Stripped Away the life you once knew the
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relationships the work the activities
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that once seemed so important no longer
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hold any significance in fact you might
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even begin to question the meaning of
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life itself why are you here here what
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is the purpose of your existence it's as
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if you are a drift in an ocean of
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uncertainty and the answers you seek
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seem forever
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elusive this experience is often
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referred to as an existential crisis
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because it forces you to confront the
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very fabric of your being The Dark
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Knight strips you of the identities and
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labels that once defined you and in
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doing so it leaves you feeling exposed
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and vulnerable it's as though you are
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standing on the edge of a great Abyss
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with nothing to cling to the Mind
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usually so full of answers has become
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silent unable to provide any comfort the
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soul once so sure of its path seems lost
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in the darkness you may feel abandoned
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by the Divine disconnected from the
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sacred and utterly alone the vastness of
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the universe which once seemed so full
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of possibility now feels empty and
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indifferent But Here Lies the Paradox
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The Dark Night of the soul is both an
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intense suffering and a profound
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opportunity for
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transformation while it may feel like
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you are losing everything in reality you
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are being stripped of the illusions that
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have held you captive this is not a
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punishment nor is it a sign of failure
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it is a right of passage an invitation
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to go deeper into yourself than you ever
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thought possible it is only through
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facing this void this Abyss that you can
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uncover the truth of who you really are
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during the dark night you are forced to
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confront the parts of yourself that
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you've been running from your deepest
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fears your doubts and your insecurities
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the false self you've built the
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identities you've clung to for
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protection are tested to their very core
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you come face to face with the parts of
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yourself that you've ignored suppressed
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or denied the ego in its struggle to
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maintain control will try to cling to
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Old beliefs old patterns and old
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identities it will resist fight and
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grasp at anything that might offer a
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sense of security but the more you try
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to hold on to these Illusions the deeper
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the pain becomes it is in this
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confrontation with the darkness that
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true spiritual growth occurs The Dark
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Knight asks you to let go of everything
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you thought you knew about yourself
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about life and about the Divine it
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challenges your attachment to certainty
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to control and to the Need For answers
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it is a process of surrendering to the
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unknown of allowing yourself to be
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stripped bare and humbled and though it
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feels unbearable at times this surrender
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is the key to your transformation in the
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silence and emptiness of The Dark Night
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you may begin to glimpse a deeper truth
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about yourself a truth that transcends
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the limitations of the ego the pain of
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The Dark Knight is the pain of surrender
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it is the pain of letting go of your
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expectations of your need for things to
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unfold in a certain way you must
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surrender not only your external
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attachments but also the internal
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beliefs and stories that have shaped
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your identity as you release these you
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make space for something new to arise a
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new sense of self one that is not
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defined by the roles you've played or
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the labels you've worn it's a process of
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becoming rather than being a shift from
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identifying with the form of the ego to
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recognizing the formlessness of the Soul
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The Dark Knight is often marked by a
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deep sense of grief but this grief is
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not not just about loss it is a grief
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for the false self the self that has
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been built on the foundations of
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Illusion in this morning you are
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shedding the skin of who you once
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thought you were making way for the
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emergence of your true Essence it is a
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painful process of purification but it
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is also a necessary one just as the
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caterpillar must dissolve in the Cocoon
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before emerging as a butterfly so too
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must you dissolve in the dark night
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before you can be reborn into your true
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nature there may be times during the
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dark night when the darkness feels
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overwhelming when the pain seems endless
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and when it feels like you will never
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find your way out but even in the
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deepest moments of Despair trust that
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the light is still there waiting to be
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rediscovered the Dark Knight is not
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Eternal though it may feel that way in
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the moment it is a process A Passage
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through which you are being transformed
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and as you move through it you will
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begin to experience moments of clarity
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of peace and of connection once more
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after the storm of ego death emotional
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purging and the dark KN a subtle yet
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profound shift begins to unfold within
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you imagine it as the first rays of dawn
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after a long stormy night slowly the
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pieces of your true self those parts of
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you that have been obscured by layers of
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Illusion fear and attachment begin to
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emerge from the rubble it is as though
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the ground of your being is being
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cleared
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ready to allow the light of your deeper
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Consciousness to shine through at first
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it may feel like a faint glimmer a
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momentary flicker of clarity in the
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midst of the chaos you might catch
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yourself pausing just for an instant and
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realizing that the world around you is
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not what it seemed a sense of presence
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of aliveness emerges from within as
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though you're suddenly more awake than
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you've ever been this is the Awakening
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of
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Consciousness a new layer of awareness
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begins to arise lifting you out of the
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fog of confusion and into a more
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expansive luminous state of being for
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some this shift feels almost ineffable a
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quiet yet profound sense of peace that
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pervades even the most ordinary moments
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you might look at a sunset or a flower
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and suddenly feel deeply connected as
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though you're part of the scene not just
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an observer of it your senses seem
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heightened more alive and the boundaries
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between you and the the world around you
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seem to soften it's as if you've
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dissolved into the vast flowing river of
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existence no longer separated by your
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small individual identity but deeply
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woven into the greater tapestry of Life
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the sense of being here alive and
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connected to all that is takes on a new
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meaning in those moments the mundane
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disappears and the ordinary becomes
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extraordinary time seems to lose its
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grip on you moments stretch and bend and
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you no longer feel Tethered to the the
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ticking clock you experience eternity in
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a single breath space too begins to feel
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less solid and more fluid you might feel
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as though you are everywhere at once an
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expansive presence that extends beyond
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your physical form the distinction
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between inside and outside self and
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other dissolves what once felt like a
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rigid separate reality now feels like a
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flowing interconnected dance of energy
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this new sense of being can be deeply
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uplifted
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it's as though you've been blind your
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entire life and now you've had your eyes
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open to the vastness of
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existence you might feel a deep sense of
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wonder at the sheer beauty of the world
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a connection to the Divine that runs
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through all things there is a Clarity
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that was previously hidden a sense of
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knowing that transcends words or
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concepts you begin to realize with awe
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and humility that you are part of
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something far greater than yourself an
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in interconnected Web of Life
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Consciousness and energy yet
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paradoxically it is also this very
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expansiveness that contributes to the
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discomfort of Spiritual Awakening as you
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shift from the confined self of the ego
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to the boundless awareness of the true
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self you must let go of everything you
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once thought you were the identity that
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you so carefully crafted over the years
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the roles the labels the stories begins
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to crumble away piece by piece your
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sense of self is no longer anchored in
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the familiar Contours of your past
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experiences your achievements or your
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relationships you are no longer defined
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by the roles you play the expectations
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you fulfill or even the narrative you've
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told yourself about who you are this
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Letting Go can feel like an unsettling
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freefall you're standing at the edge of
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a precipice knowing that to move forward
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you must leap into the unknown it's
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disorienting because the familiar ground
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you once stood upon has shifted beneath
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you it can feel like losing yourself
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like being pulled apart at the seams
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unsure of who or what is left and yet in
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this very moment of disintegration
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Something Beautiful is also emerging the
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dissolution of the old self is creating
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space for the true self to emerge an
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authentic sense of being that is no
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longer bound by the limitations of
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identity in the midst of this process
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you may experience moments of deep
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loneliness even though your
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Consciousness has expanded there can be
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a Feeling of disconnection from the
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world around you you begin to see things
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differently to perceive layers of
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reality that were previously hidden and
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it can create a sense of isolation you
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might look around and realize that those
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closest to you friends family even
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spiritual communities seem to be living
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in a different reality one that no
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longer resonates with your own the
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language they speak the values they hold
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the concerns they have all seem to be
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anchored in a world no longer in habit
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this disconnection can feel jarring you
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may try to explain your experience to
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others but it's as if the words fall
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flat unable to fully capture the depth
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of what you're going through you are no
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longer sure how to relate to others in
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the same way the roles and relationships
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that once felt like a comfort zone now
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seem like a veil over the truth of your
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being in this space between the old and
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the new you may feel like an outsider in
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your own life no longer fully attached
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to the old world but not yet fully
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immersed in the new one you are in a
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kind of Lial space caught between two
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worlds the one you have known and the
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one you are beginning to perceive this
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in between State can feel like a deep
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spiritual void a place where nothing
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feels solid or certain the ground
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beneath you seems to have disappeared
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and you are left to float in an
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uncertain space unsure of where you
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belong
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you might feel like you're drifting
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untethered without clear direction or
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purpose it can feel like a form of
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existential vertigo an overwhelming
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sense of disorientation as you navigate
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this new terrain of
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Consciousness but this sense of
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loneliness and disconnection is not a
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curse it is a sign of transformation
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it's a reminder that you are no longer
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defined by your past by the old labels
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and attachments that once gave you a
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sense of security the world around you
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may feel unfamiliar but that's because
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you are now seeing it through a new lens
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a lens that is more expansive more
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connected and more aligned with the
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truth of who you really are this process
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of Detachment while painful is also
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necessary for your spiritual growth it's
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the space where the old self is being
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shed so that the new true self can
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emerge you may also begin to notice a
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deep sense of surrender arising within
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you it's as if in the face of the
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unknown you are beginning to release
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your grip on the need to control to
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understand to figure things out there is
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a profound acceptance that comes with
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Awakening A surrender to the flow of
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Life To The Mystery of existence and to
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the truth that you don't need to know
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everything the need for certainty for
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Clear answers begins to dissolve instead
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you embrace the present moment as it is
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knowing that the deeper wisdom of the
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universe will unfold in its own time
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this period of rebirth though filled
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with beauty and peace is not without its
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struggles the shift from ego
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Consciousness to a more expansive
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awareness is like a birth process a
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painful but necessary breaking out of
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the shell of the old self into the
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fullness of the
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new the peace and Clarity that accompany
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this transformation are profound but
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they don't come without the discomfort
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of letting Letting Go the discomfort of
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disconnection and the discomfort of
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living in a world that no longer feels
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quite the same yet as you move through
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this process something extraordinary
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happens you begin to trust more deeply
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in yourself and in the universe you
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start to realize that though you may not
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have all the answers you are no longer
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lost you have found something deeper a
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sense of inner truth that cannot be
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shaken by external circumstances the
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loneliness begins to fade as you realize
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that you you are never truly alone the
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universe your higher self and the flow
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of life itself are always with you you
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are always connected always held even in
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moments of seeming isolation in this new
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sense of being you begin to understand
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that Awakening is not an arrival at some
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distant goal or destination it is a
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continuous unfolding a journey of
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Discovery surrender and expansion and
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with each step the boundaries of your
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former self dissolve more and more until
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All That Remains is the infinite Eternal
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presence of who you truly are the final
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and often most challenging phase of
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Spiritual Awakening is integration
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Awakening itself is not a destination
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but a journey it's not enough to have a
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breakthrough Moment of clarity you must
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now learn how to bring that awareness
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into every aspect of your life this
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phase can be painful because it requires
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aligning your actions your relationships
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and your choices with the new sense of
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self you've discovered as you begin to
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live in accordance with your higher
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Consciousness you may experience
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resistance the world you once knew will
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seem to contrast sharply with the new
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reality you've discovered you may face
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challenges in your relationships your
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career or your daily life as the old
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ways of being no longer serve you the
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pain of this phase is the discomfort of
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change the discomfort of living
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authentically in a world that often
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prioritizes illusion over truth however
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it is through this integration that the
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greatest growth occurs each challenge
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you face becomes an opportunity to
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embody your Awakening more fully every
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moment of discomfort is an invitation to
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continue shedding the layers of Illusion
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and step into your true power Spiritual
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Awakening is a process that asks for
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everything it demands that you release
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your attachments your identities and
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your attachments to The Familiar it is a
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journey of deep pain and Deep Beauty a
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dance of Destruction and creation but in
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the end the pain of Awakening is a sign
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of growth it is the labor of giving
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birth to a new more expansive self one
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that is free from illusion one that is
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fully aligned with the essence of who
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you truly are in the words of reer Maria
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rilka the purpose of life is to be
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defeated by greater and greater things
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the pain of Spiritual Awakening is not a
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punishment it is a necessary part of the
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process of becoming who you are meant to
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be embrace the pain for it is the
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gateway to True Freedom trust the
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process even when it feels unbearable
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for it is leading you to a deeper
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understanding of yourself and the
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universe if this exploration resonated
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with you share this with others who may
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be walking their own path of Awakening
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let us walk this journey together
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supporting each other through the pain
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and beauty of the transformation we all
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must undergo
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