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lysergic acid diphthalidamide also known
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as acid is a potent psychedelic that if
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taken in high doses a person will
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strongly manifest visual and auditory
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hallucinations this is coupled with
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dilated pupils elevated heart rate and a
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strange phenomenon called ego
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dissolution this is when your own person
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your sense of self turns into nothing
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disintegrates you are no longer a human
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you're no longer yourself and what's
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left is the lsd experience what's left
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is the trip
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this video will cover one story in
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particular a haunting experience about a
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man whose perception was radically
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altered by this substance the story that
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i'm about to tell you and one similar
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like it can all be found on one website
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arrowwood.org a place where trip reports
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are shared both good and bad and if
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after this video you are interested in
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reading more stories like this the link
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to arrowid.org can be found in the
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description box down below
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our first story is from hiyabx
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about 10 years ago i bought my third tab
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from a guy in my hometown in norwich uk
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it was a strawberry tab and i was told
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that had been double dipped the guy had
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a reputation of selling good acid so i
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happily gave him my cash my being in
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norwich was just a social visit over a
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couple of days and catching up with
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friends on the last day there i decided
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to drop a tab and use my friend's home
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as a trip hq
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he knew what i was up to he had gone to
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work and left me his keys to make myself
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comfortable
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i took the single lsd tab in the late
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morning in a positive state of mind with
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no worries or anxieties i began to come
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up on the acid towards lunchtime it was
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the first time and the last time i'd
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ever trip alone
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outside it was a glorious sunny day but
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i was happy enough in my temporary
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sanctuary to not really think about
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going outside after a while the lsd rush
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started blazing up my spine and racing
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through my guts i felt a little uneasy
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but i had enough in mind to allow myself
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to just go with it and just wait until
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the rush plateaued
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after a while it calmed down i decided
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to sit upstairs in the house and listen
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to some music on the radio in the sunlit
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bedroom i was having a wonderful time
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watching floral escher type patterns
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breaking over my skin i enjoyed looking
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in the mirror looking at my grinning
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face and this distinct map contour
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patterns gently washing over my flesh it
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really seemed like a great start
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well i vaguely recalled deciding to go
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downstairs again for some reason and the
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next thing i recall was awakening on the
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floor of the dining room alone the first
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thing i noticed was that there were blow
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flies buzzing around a bowl of cat food
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on the kitchen floor which was in view
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i remember feeling perplexed as to why
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both flies had two bright neon after
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images in red and blue
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i sat up and tried to figure out why i
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was on the floor in the first place now
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it's worth pointing out before i take
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you down this helter skelter that
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somehow because of my blackout i had
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completely forgotten that i'd taken
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anything at all
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prior to tripping though i wrote myself
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a note of reassurance in case things got
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too weird so sitting up on the floor
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still i found my note and tried to read
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it alas because i was on acid the words
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made no sense to me instead they morphed
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like alien glyphs and danced around the
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piece of paper
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it was then my last little link of
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sanity crumbled and i heard my voice
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utter the terrifying words i've gone mad
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i had a feeling that i had to be
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somewhere else which then got heightened
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by the digital watch i was wearing
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suddenly beeping a time alarm at me but
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i had no idea why or what it meant so i
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left my sanctuary and i later found out
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that i left the back door wide open thus
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making the house entirely a burglar's
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free-for-all
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i remember waking up almost on autopilot
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on a busy street heading towards town i
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saw one of my old teachers who saw me
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but the only thing i did was force a
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grin and keep on walking and i did
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indeed walk not so much as a conscious
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effort or with any sense of intent i
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felt utterly out of control i collided
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with someone carrying their shopping
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vaguely heard them cuss at me as i
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continued my stride i turned down a
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passageway between two houses and
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strolled through the back door of a
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house i'd once lived in then passed the
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new inhabitant and out the front door
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i walked into the city center from there
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i still don't know how i survived
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crossing roads but i did from there i
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strolled into a city cafe where my
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friend's son was working he saw me and
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said hello but in my acid adult state of
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autopilot i just walked past him into
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the main cafe and sat down
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then i stood up and walked out of the
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cafe without uttering a word other than
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being completely out of lunch on lsd at
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that time on the trip i don't recall
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hallucinating instead i felt like a
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puppet on a string guided by some
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subconscious walking mechanism which had
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its own design on where i should be and
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there certainly wasn't any cognitive
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thinking that guided my actions
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after the brief cafe episode of the trip
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the situation just went from bad to
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worse somehow i navigated myself through
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nourish and then began to head in the
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direction of the city's central park as
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a child i'd always felt a sense of
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friendliness and comfort there but now
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in my fried state of mind the familiar
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comfort of this park had shifted to its
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polar opposite i was now hallucinating
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on top of everything else the people in
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the park were walking around but my
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perception had begun to distort their
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heads and faces beyond any form of human
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recognition if you could imagine for a
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moment being surrounded by people in a
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busy place where their heads had been
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removed and replaced by squids and
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octopus you might begin to accurately
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picture the scene confronting me in this
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park everyone had tentacles smothering
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their faces and dangling down their
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necks like fleshy snake beards even the
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women and children were not exempt from
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this disfiguration the octopoid heads
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were white in appearance and each person
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seemed to have baleful staring eyes
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where their ears should have been even
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in my state of autopilot i felt nothing
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but sheer terror at this alien swarm of
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people walking around me my feet
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obviously decided to take evasive
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maneuvers because i then found myself
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out of the park having crossed yet
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another treacherous main road and was
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now heading towards a multi-story
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apartment block
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i recall that i got inside the building
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somehow and wandered in circles on one
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of the floors of the apartment block i
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seemed stuck in a loop of wanting to get
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out walking around a circle of short
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corridors and arriving at a janitor's
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cupboard i would open the door expecting
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to find an exit and be confronted by the
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dead end of cleaning products and brooms
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i would repeat this several times like a
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fly that desperately flies around in
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circles around the kitchen only to
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collide with the same window again and
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again and again
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i don't remember how i finally broke the
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loop but i did the next thing that
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happened was the memory of walking
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around some side streets into someone's
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back garden via alleyway and i recall a
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middle-aged woman looking a little
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afraid of me because i was in her yard
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and seeing her rush into the house
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closing the door behind her i left the
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yard and i think i walked between two
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garages the gap between them was tight
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perhaps i tried to go through it anyway
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in my mind i was being trapped inside an
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ever tightening spiral that i
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relentlessly marched along as the spiral
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tightened my body would begin to crush
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if it were to continue down the spiral i
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would surely be crushed to my final atom
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this realization broke me out of my loop
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and then i quickly realized that i was
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next to another main road in norwich in
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front of someone's garden while looking
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at the garden in front of this house the
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inside of my mouth felt like plant
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matter and when i tried to scream my
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tongue shot out a mix of flesh and
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thorny rose stem the situation was
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utterly hopeless and it's getting worse
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and worse with each lysergic internal
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minute over the other side of the main
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road was a dental repair workshop it was
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a discreet looking place and it looked
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just as much as part of the houses that
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were above it i recall that i walked
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into this workshop to the surprise of
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the men who were working there i think
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they said hey where do you think you're
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going etc but i was too far gone and on
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my way out again still under the
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guidance of the momentum and hidden
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agenda of this autopilot within me the
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adjacent street began the final demise
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of my terrifying trip and you'll have to
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indulge me in this part and go with the
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flow of reality and abstract woven
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together first off like a lemming i
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walked across this side road onto the
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pavement and then promptly plummeted a
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good seven feet into someone's basement
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flat there had been probably been a
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flight of steps leading down to this
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concrete pit but i didn't see them and i
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wouldn't have known what to do with them
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if i had
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i guess i clamored up the street level
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again and limped my way up to the street
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which was a bit of a cul-de-sac part of
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my subconscious memory must have
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recalled that an ex-girlfriend had lived
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there and i found myself walking up to
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her old front door which was one of
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those aluminum framed double glazed
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types i recall my reflection in the door
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looking somewhat like a francis bacon
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painting a mixture of anguished flesh
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and black oils dripping like blood down
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my body i was falling in internal
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darkness like a fleshy sack of bricks as
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i fell forever i would crash through the
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intermittent pains of glass that would
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shatter and tear me in never-ending
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descent with the sound of breaking glass
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was the wavering crescendo of the word
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mad repeating in waves
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mad
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mad
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mad
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mad
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mad
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over and over and over as i plummeted i
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ripped and torn into darkness with
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splinters of glass falling beside me
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these visuals and in auditory
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hallucinations brought me down to my
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knees i was now a seven-year-old child
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laying on the pavement my best friend's
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parents stood over me feeling concerned
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asking what happened
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he hit his head someone says call an
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ambulance someone says and during all of
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this a disc shaped hole appeared above
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me with someone's arm reaching down to
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try and pull me up into safety i tried
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to reach up to the grasping hand but i
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couldn't then the hole disappeared
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after that moment i was staggering along
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the street again at the bottom of the
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cul-de-sac my gaze lifted into the sky
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and the sky's gaze fell upon me each
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cloud was now a giant type of
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amoeba-type organism covered in dots
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which pulsated in color like the skin of
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a cuttlefish each giant amoeba had a
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giant blue human looking eye observing
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me i could hear voices taunting me
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telling me i was stupid telling me how
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thick i was for looking for the answers
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telling me i had [ __ ] consciousness
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the amoebas seemed to be singing a
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never-ending song which was something
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like this i am an unschematic peel and
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if you ever know what i feel then i know
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that i felt like this before and i
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always knew what i was timely for and
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this was repeated a thousand times i
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briefly saw existence as a giant clock
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face of a billion dots between each
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second the dots were clicking forward in
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a relentless advance like the movement
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of the second hand and i realized in
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that moment each dot was the equivalent
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of someone's lifetime my internal
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monologue was running this entire time
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it described that living and dying was
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part of this internal chain and that the
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clock was measuring it all then the
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monologue started laughing at my dismay
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in reality i became conscious enough to
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recognize that i've been stumbling
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through a children's play area at the
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base of the cul-de-sac it's worth
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describing to you a little bit about the
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geography of the area i was adjacent to
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the cul-de-sac was a small path that
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leads about four flights of stone steps
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leading down to the street below this
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street is called park lane and if you go
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through the gap in the fence at the back
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of the children's play area there's a
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steep overgrown embankment that leads
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down to a flint gravel parking area at
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the rear of the park lane hotel guess
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which route i took in reality i patched
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the gap of the fence failed to notice
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the dangerous drop below and then
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tumbled down the embankment into the
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flint parking area i was crawling on my
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hands and knees by this point a piece of
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flint had torn the palm of my hand
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making it look like a stigmata wound
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which was pretty appropriate to the
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following delusion once i looked up from
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my palm
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the entire parking lot looked like a sea
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of holes after looking up from the
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ground i noticed that i'm in a white
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void with an infinity of swarming black
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dots i could hear air raid sirens in the
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sounds of buzzing i looked down again at
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the sea of dots and i noticed a cross
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which had a festering pile of bloody
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guts and organs spread across it
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staining the wood and crimson the guts
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were smothered in wasps stinging the
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ruined flesh causing venomous pestilence
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it was an image of impossible pain and
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then the monologue returned booming over
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the sirens and droning over the wasps
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this is christ he is still suffering for
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your sins still paying the price more
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laughter than a fleeting moment of
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reality i just chose to cross the park
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lane i wanted to leave i collapsed in
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the gutter on the other side of the road
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my jacket was gone and i noticed i was
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covered in cuts and grazes at that very
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moment a wasp had landed on my elbow and
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was making a snack for itself of my cuts
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i remember trying to brush it away and
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it sting me as i did i managed to get
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this wasp off of me and i noticed there
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was a woman pushing a pram and looking
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at me with concern and for a moment
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looking at her granted me a second of
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sanity but the moment she was outside of
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my sight i was thrown right back into
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lsd hell my body was a giant green mass
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of flesh punctured all over by cactus
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like thorns that had grown from within
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and broken my skin on the way out i had
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no arms and legs i was more like a mass
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of tendrils my form was that of pain and
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nothing more and nothing less a brief
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flash of a police car pulling up beside
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me and someone getting out
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i was in pain floating in a sea of holes
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there were billions of holes each one a
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passage leading into an identical ocean
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of swarming black dots
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the monologue told me there was only one
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hole which led me away from here
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and in one blink
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i was in a hospital lying on a padded
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vinyl mattress with medics standing
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around me
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i noticed i was human shaped again and
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at that very moment the door swung open
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to reveal a idyllic countryside scene
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of green hilly pastures bathed in
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glorious sunlight and a friendly looking
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oak tree in the foreground view
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if only i could crawl through those
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doors i would be safe my soul saved but
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i couldn't move
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the door swung shut and opened again and
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now i could see a hospital corridor
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instead of the fields someone was being
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pushed past on a stretcher and in that
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moment i knew that my salvation was lost
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i was thrust back into the sea of holes
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it seems that my gaze in any direction
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would erase the black dots and their
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masses for the first time in this
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nightmare i felt a sense of conscious
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hope i began to wipe swaths of dots by
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sweeping glances in the void around me
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what have you taken i was gaining hope
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by the minute stripping the black dots
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away removing these taunting false exits
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what have you taken was it acid
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surrounded by self-created white void of
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comfort i i gazed at the final bunch of
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black dots and i knew my release from
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hell was merely held by these remaining
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few he's out of it still
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i gazed at all but two black dots away
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these two now had a bridge akin to a
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line seen in a dot-to-dot puzzle in my
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mind my voice returned as i stared at
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each dot i heard my internal voice
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yelling one two one two one one two then
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the two dots looked like my own hands
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with cuffs around them the black line
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bridge had become a visible chain
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the white void had faded to become a
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hospital room i was in fact on my back
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on a hospital bed with my arms taped
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behind me i was looking through my legs
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at my wrists grazed with the rubbing
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pressure of police handcuffs around them
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and then i yelled get these [ __ ]
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handcuffs off me get them off of me in
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the room with me were a male and female
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police officer they had obviously been
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the people who had lifted me from the
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park lane gutter and taken me to the
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hospital the male officer obliged my
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demand and removed the cuffs and the
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female police officer asked me stuff
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like my name and if i knew where i was
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but the best thing i could muster was a
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brief groan they both looked a bit
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frustrated and left me in the room on
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the hospital bed alone i was rapidly
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regaining my sense of self and conscious
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of reality i recalled that i indeed
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dropped acid sometime earlier my
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hospital surroundings and the amount of
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cuts and bruises i had were a
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confirmation to me that whatever i'd
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done it had seriously backfired big time
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i sat on the edge of the hospital bed
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noted a number of missing items i had
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recalled having on my person prior to
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all of this i found my pumps in the
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bedside cabinet and put them on then i
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took my first deliberate steps across
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the room the bizarre nature of this
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entire episode had one final twist
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installed for me
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i recall walking to the door of my
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single bedroom and opening it a few feet
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away from me were the two police
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officers facing each other having an
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intense conversation about what to do
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about me they were so engrossed in their
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discussion that neither of them noticed
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as i came out of the room and began
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walking down the hospital corridor there
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was a window that stood from floor to
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ceiling the type that pivots in the
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central vertical axis so judging that i
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could fit through the gap i squeezed
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through it there's little left to tell
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of this story except to say my walk from
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the hospital to the train station was
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quite distressing i was in a lot of pain
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had stitches on my chin my elbow and
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hand my right forearm had swollen up
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purple making it look like popeye's
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right hook
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i was still semi-hallucinating but very
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aware of how i'd nearly died and how i
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had a lot of explaining to do when i got
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home to my girlfriend there were no
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legal repercussions for giving the
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police the slip i had caught a train
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back home to a village in suffolk which
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was outside of the norfolk police's
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jurisdiction however they had contacted
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my father who was in norfolk so i had a
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quite a bit of explaining to do for him
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too
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in retrospect it was the worst day of my
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entire life
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it was the closest i can imagine to
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having full-blown psychosis i think it
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was nothing short of a miracle that i
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didn't end up over someone's car bonnet
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or worse do i believe the monologues and
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symbols of that day
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i'm not entirely sure i do
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i now understand the intense adrenaline
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bursts while hallucinating are
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responsible for dragging the mind into
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an abyss of fear in the worst possible
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scenarios i kind of feel that i would
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have had a very bleak outlook for life
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in reality if i believed for a moment
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that anything i saw on that trip was
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true i've had some other trips which
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were glorious and the polar opposite of
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that day so i tend to agree with adilas
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huxley that heaven and hell are both
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valid states of consciousness it all
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depends on where the person is at and
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how we navigate through the psychedelic
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state which determines which destination
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we arrive at if anything puzzles me
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about that day it would have to be the
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blackout i experienced early in the trip
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i suspect that if i had not lost
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consciousness i probably would have not
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forgotten that i took a drug and
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therefore wouldn't have panicked myself
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into an eternal hell fractal
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this trip report was shared on october
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5th 2003 and it functions as a
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cautionary tale as to why you shouldn't
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experiment with potent psychedelics but
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to those who have tried psychedelics i
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want you to share your thoughts about
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this bad trip in the comments down below
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and even if you've never tried
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psychedelics i want to know what your
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thoughts are on this bad trip i hope you
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found this video interesting go ahead
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