“我握著她的手 放著她最喜歡的音樂......”
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TLDR这个故事描述了一个年轻男子与他的妻子在争吵中发生了暴力事件。男子由于长期的心理健康问题,最终在一场争执中失控,导致了悲剧的发生。尽管他努力回忆并解释事情的经过,他对自己行为的悔恨之情深重。他的内心挣扎与情感在整个事件中贯穿始终,表露出他对关系的渴望及对不理智行为的深度反思。男子尝试重新审视自己与伴侣的关系,表达希望能改善和解决问题的愿望。
Takeaways
- 💔 男子因争执导致的极端行为。
- 🧠 长期心理健康问题未得到解决。
- 😢 深切的懊悔与反思。
- 🤝 对关系的渴望与解决问题的愿望。
- ⚖️ 法律干预后果。
- 🚨 妈妈的建议促使他自首。
- 😞 对自己的行为感到羞愧。
- 💬 希望能够改善沟通和理解。
- 🕰️ 反思过去的情感纠纷。
- ❤️ 对伴侣的深厚情感和歉意。
Garis waktu
- 00:00:00 - 00:05:00
在这一段中,叙述者将女友带到浴室,播放她喜欢的音乐。尽管她处于濒死状态,叙述者努力掩盖她的伤口,似乎在试图进行某种安慰。
- 00:05:00 - 00:10:00
接着,叙述者拨打911,母亲在电话中得知儿子声称杀害了妻子,警方开始跟进这个紧急情况。
- 00:10:00 - 00:15:00
警察赶到现场,发现浴室有血迹,并开始寻找嫌疑人。随后,警方与嫌疑人进行联系,嫌疑人正在驾驶一辆蓝色的RAV4。
- 00:15:00 - 00:20:00
嫌疑人与警察通话,描述了与妻子的争吵和他在驾车期间内心的挣扎,谈及与父母的沟通以及他内心的痛苦和挣扎。
- 00:20:00 - 00:25:00
嫌疑人表示他在争吵中经历了很大的情感冲击,提到过往的心理健康问题,解释了自己在冲突中的无力感和愧疚。
- 00:25:00 - 00:30:00
警方试图深入了解事情的经过,嫌疑人描述了与妻子的争吵,每次争吵的细节表明两人关系的复杂性和紧张气氛。
- 00:30:00 - 00:35:00
嫌疑人回忆起双方的争吵情况,指出妻子威胁要报警,并重提女友烧掉护照的事情,为自己的情感波动和极端反应提供背景。
- 00:35:00 - 00:40:00
在进一步的询问中,嫌疑人承认脆弱的心理状态和潜在的自我伤害倾向,说明他长期以来未得到妥善的心理治疗。
- 00:40:00 - 00:45:00
随后,嫌疑人回忆了事发当天的事情,讲述了他的想法和感受,进一步揭示了他与女友之间的紧张关系。
- 00:45:00 - 00:50:00
在这是一个痛苦的回忆中,他回顾了自己对女友的感情和想要复合的愿望,同时强烈表达了悔恨和缺乏可控能力的感觉。
- 00:50:00 - 00:58:56
最后,嫌疑人表达了对已故女友的深切怀念,以及他在事情发生后所经历的痛苦和内疚,努力寻找向前的出路。
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故事的主要事件是什么?
故事叙述一名年轻男子与妻子发生争执,并在情绪失控后做出极端选择,事后感到深切的懊悔和反思。
这起事件发生的背景是什么?
事件发生在一桩情感纠纷中,涉及长期的心理健康问题和夫妻间的沟通不良。
男子对妻子的感情怎么样?
男子对妻子有深厚的感情,希望能够解决他们之间的问题,并对此次事件感到极度遗憾。
在事件中,男子的心理状况如何?
他提到持续的心理健康问题和未得到有效处理的困扰,这对他的行为有一定的影响。
这起事件的结局是什么?
事件的结局涉及法律干预,男子意识到自己的错误并试图自首。
男子对自己行为的看法是什么?
他认为自己的行为很糟糕,感到自己是一个“坏人”,并对造成的痛苦感到懊悔。
故事中提到了什么样的情感问题?
故事中探讨了沟通不善、情绪管理失控以及因心理健康问题而导致的极端行为。
在这起事件中,男子的家人有什么反应?
他在事件发生后向母亲求助,母亲建议他自首并及时联系警方。
事件中涉及的具体暴力行为是什么?
暴力行为是由情感冲突触发的,具体细节涉及肢体争执和情感伤害。
男子希望通过这次事件传达什么?
他希望反思自己的行为,向他爱的人表达歉意,并希望能有机会重来。
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- 00:17:54time I got ready for bed I hoed in and
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- 00:18:01refusing to speak to me and my
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- 00:18:09up that quick fired a lot of things in
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- 00:18:16forward to my wife so I can have some
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- 00:18:25my head got me overthinking
- 00:18:29and I just needed something to calm down
- 00:18:31so I went to a smoke shop to get a I've
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- 00:18:41and was like you said before that you
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- 00:18:46make you stop so I tried several times
- 00:18:49and I before I bought last night's Vape
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- 00:20:16relationship but she killed my hope no
- 00:20:20matter what I've always wanted to put
- 00:20:23myself in to make it work and it didn't
- 00:20:26work so when I came back she
- 00:20:29told me she burned my passport in front
- 00:20:32of the apartment door by like 5 ft a
- 00:20:35little to the left and the mulch she she
- 00:20:38really did it she were my passport and
- 00:20:42that that's what happened for the rest
- 00:20:44of the night she wanted she wanted me to
- 00:20:46leave the place wanted me to pack up and
- 00:20:49leave her alone or else she would scream
- 00:20:51and that would let the next door
- 00:20:53neighbor know that to report me to the
- 00:20:56authority and all I wanted to do do was
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- 00:21:20to make it work and talking with it
- 00:21:22enough and she was pressed on leaving
- 00:21:26this morning so we slept
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- 00:21:32to make it work I don't know how many
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- 00:22:00off this morning 520
- 00:22:035:20 um what happened from then until he
- 00:22:06left the apartment and you called your
- 00:22:07friend she BR your passport last night
- 00:22:09and you came home and you saw it what
- 00:22:11was that like what was that conversation
- 00:22:13like was she yelling was she trying to
- 00:22:16leave in like what what did you say to
- 00:22:18her we didn't raise our voice she
- 00:22:21alerted the next door neighbor if
- 00:22:23anything unusual happens go ahead and
- 00:22:26call the police and I I just came home
- 00:22:29and she said heard your passport are you
- 00:22:32happy so I believe my social security
- 00:22:36card was also
- 00:22:38inside passport she could have burned a
- 00:22:41lot more things she could have destroyed
- 00:22:44more of so she didn't treat you very
- 00:22:47well is what you're saying right okay
- 00:22:50but when you notice that your passport
- 00:22:52was was burned but I wasn't there so
- 00:22:55tell me what what you said to her so I
- 00:22:57could always get they I told her I could
- 00:23:00always get a new passport maybe get a
- 00:23:02new social security card it's like I I
- 00:23:06forgave her upfront and all she said was
- 00:23:09have enough efficacy inside a
- 00:23:11relationship to stop vaping she can
- 00:23:14always get a new boyfriendhusband that's
- 00:23:17not as problematic as me then I just
- 00:23:21wanted to make it work I want of course
- 00:23:24I want to give up bad habit I want to be
- 00:23:30better but it it all Tak take
- 00:23:35time also and she told me she called my
- 00:23:38friends last night after she burned my
- 00:23:40passport like
- 00:23:42hey your friends failing in life he he
- 00:23:46he can't make it he he W be so
- 00:23:49fruitful in
- 00:23:51his becoming of a better person he he's
- 00:23:54always going to be like this so she was
- 00:23:56telling your friends last night that you
- 00:23:58were you basically wer like a good
- 00:24:00person we're going to fail in life and
- 00:24:02she's telling all your good friends all
- 00:24:03this right
- 00:24:33how did it how did it get to it's
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- 00:25:06would beat me with a pencil there was no
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- 00:26:17for but before y'all went to bed she was
- 00:26:21okay you guys went to bed at the same
- 00:26:23time together did you sleep in the same
- 00:26:25bed with her did she sleep somewhere
- 00:26:26else s okay what time did you guys go to
- 00:26:30bed past 12 was that midnight okay
- 00:26:33explain that so when you guys got to
- 00:26:36bed how was
- 00:26:38that she
- 00:26:40didn't the same b as
- 00:26:43me I just wanted to hold her and
- 00:26:45reassure her that everything's going to
- 00:26:47be okay that I'm going to turn out
- 00:26:49better I wanted to let her know like it
- 00:26:52does take time I don't remember how many
- 00:26:55times I had to reassure her and she
- 00:26:58quietly go to sleep So eventually you
- 00:27:01guys just fell asleep how long was this
- 00:27:02conversation it felt like at least
- 00:27:05little about an hour okay you guys
- 00:27:07didn't wake up in the middle of the
- 00:27:09night and talk about anything else okay
- 00:27:12so 520 hits what happens to 520 my alarm
- 00:27:15went off I gave up on the alarm so we
- 00:27:18actually woke up at around 6:30
- 00:27:21basically me the whole time I was trying
- 00:27:24to make it work I was talking to
- 00:27:26reassure her she said since last night
- 00:27:29that she was going to move out she was
- 00:27:31going to pack us up when we woke up okay
- 00:27:34so she's starting to pack some things up
- 00:27:36okay and I was getting ready to go to
- 00:27:38work I had water and some
- 00:27:41snacks I was scared she was going to do
- 00:27:44something to my belongings too
- 00:27:47especially the shirts she tends to be a
- 00:27:51petty person before when we broke up
- 00:27:54before she said something along the
- 00:27:57lines give me back the shirts I bought
- 00:27:59you give me back I want I was willing
- 00:28:03like I didn't tell her this but
- 00:28:05unconsciously I was I was willing to
- 00:28:08like live in my car for a couple nights
- 00:28:10just to process things if she didn't
- 00:28:12want to if she didn't she couldn't find
- 00:28:15a place to crash I was going to let her
- 00:28:18live for a couple nights I threw all my
- 00:28:21most of my clothes in my car all my
- 00:28:24clothes off the rack I came back and she
- 00:28:27was saying things like oh so you're
- 00:28:30packing to leave I guess I will stay and
- 00:28:34I Tred to explain to her like I'm scared
- 00:28:36you do something to my stuff but I'm I
- 00:28:39want to stay because we agreed to this I
- 00:28:42will allow you to stay here for a couple
- 00:28:44more nights if you can't my head was
- 00:28:47hurting at the top of the morning I
- 00:28:49didn't take my medicine last night I
- 00:28:52couldn't find it she displaced my
- 00:28:56portble charger and my m
- 00:28:58so you said maybe like instigate you bit
- 00:29:01more like you're you're right here but
- 00:29:03she's saying things are going to
- 00:29:05escalate a little bit more is that right
- 00:29:07do Mar it correctly yes okay Happ she
- 00:29:10even said again like I will scream I
- 00:29:14will call the cops why would she why
- 00:29:16would she say that again because over
- 00:29:18the course of the relationship she felt
- 00:29:21like I haven't made any progress in
- 00:29:24terms of bettering myself okay did she
- 00:29:28scream a lot to try to get the neighbors
- 00:29:30attention and stuff to get you in
- 00:29:32trouble she communicated with the
- 00:29:34neighbors last night she told has she
- 00:29:36done before though no she always put in
- 00:29:40okay call authorities
- 00:29:57okay
- 00:30:26foree
- 00:30:56for
- 00:31:26foree
- 00:31:51for where my
- 00:31:53head hurt the most in my life
- 00:31:59I tried to ask her where she put my
- 00:32:01medicine where she put my portable charg
- 00:32:03in she wouldn't tell me she just kept
- 00:32:06ring to I will scream I will call the
- 00:32:09cops on you I will throw you in jail
- 00:32:12obviously I didn't want that but I
- 00:32:13wanted my medicine and needed my
- 00:32:15portable charger and I needed to go to
- 00:32:18work because I had planned to be at work
- 00:32:22at 7 I was not the person everybody saw
- 00:32:26me at I wasn't
- 00:32:28moner looking
- 00:32:31back I still can't
- 00:32:35believe I did such things I don't want
- 00:32:40to I Can't Describe what
- 00:32:46happened seems to me I think it's pretty
- 00:32:48apparent that you're very remorseful and
- 00:32:50sorry for what you
- 00:32:53did obviously people who have no remorse
- 00:32:56and could care L by about people don't
- 00:32:59act the way you're acting I can tell you
- 00:33:02everything that happened afterwards but
- 00:33:04did she fight you at all verbally
- 00:33:07verbally she's being verbally abusive to
- 00:33:09you at what point did it turn physical
- 00:33:12with y'all to and were you in where were
- 00:33:14you in the house or were you outside I
- 00:33:16was outside okay where at in the house I
- 00:33:19was by the wall divider iic opposite
- 00:33:22from the entrance of the kitchen and and
- 00:33:25what happened right there she told me to
- 00:33:27stop gasing lighting hurt stop
- 00:33:29gaslighting myself I'm just making
- 00:33:32excuses what what happened right there
- 00:33:34when it turned physical what was the
- 00:33:35first thing that happened between youall
- 00:33:37two you're worried that your clothes are
- 00:33:38going to all get damaged she's making
- 00:33:40you feel terrible she's calling your
- 00:33:41friends I understand that I just need to
- 00:33:44know at what point and what happened
- 00:33:47when it turned physics between you two
- 00:33:49what was she saying and what was your
- 00:33:51reaction it was like 20 seconds every 20
- 00:33:54seconds repeat what I have said
- 00:33:58like I want you to move out and not
- 00:34:01scream and not make it so difficult for
- 00:34:04us every 20 seconds since I came back
- 00:34:07and she said you're moving out felt so
- 00:34:11useless my head was hurting I was
- 00:34:15thinking to myself like really up
- 00:34:18you really got yourself and her to this
- 00:34:20point where it's no help and what
- 00:34:23happened at that point I like to
- 00:34:27subscribe to the lawyer
- 00:34:54exactly I'm a lawyer you want to speak
- 00:34:57to your own lawyer and tell him or
- 00:35:00her clarify what you're saying to us Ben
- 00:35:03has been has been asking you to to tell
- 00:35:06the hardest part for you to tell right
- 00:35:09and you said you want to skip that part
- 00:35:12to collect my memories and my emotions
- 00:35:16so I can tell it to my lawyer or do you
- 00:35:20want to tell us about nothing further I
- 00:35:24can keep telling okay I called my mom I
- 00:35:27try to C her several times and I
- 00:35:29couldn't get a hold of her kept
- 00:35:32panicking more and more started trying
- 00:35:35to clean up the blood and she eventually
- 00:35:40called me I told her everything and she
- 00:35:43told me to stop cleaning up and call the
- 00:35:48police turn myself
- 00:35:56in
- 00:36:26foree
- 00:36:56for
- 00:37:26foree
- 00:37:56fore for
- 00:38:31talk for about 40
- 00:38:33minutes I still could not process what
- 00:38:37was going on what happened so I turned
- 00:38:40to my friend Cole I told him like make
- 00:38:44it to work
- 00:38:45today I told him I wanted him
- 00:38:50to work hard
- 00:38:52as become successful
- 00:38:57I wanted him to take care of his
- 00:39:04family yeah asked me what happened is me
- 00:39:08and my girl doing all
- 00:39:10right I told him what happened he told
- 00:39:13he said well we got to fill it fill it
- 00:39:17what you wouldn't be able to do I feel
- 00:39:20terrible about that I feel about
- 00:39:22terrible about a lot of things I've
- 00:39:26never admitted much to becoming a
- 00:39:28Christian but I've always believed in
- 00:39:31God and and that I want to be a good
- 00:39:35person like I
- 00:39:37always like I said my mom told me to
- 00:39:41call bu turn myself I accepted I agree I
- 00:39:45was going to turn myself in but I
- 00:39:49couldn't think straight all morning went
- 00:39:51to Wal range just enjoying the aspect of
- 00:39:56freedom
- 00:39:58had the last bit
- 00:40:00of
- 00:40:02time that me and her would had enjoy
- 00:40:07together in different
- 00:40:09circumstances she Lov chocolate I loved
- 00:40:14mint chocolate so I went and bought some
- 00:40:18I was crying inside the
- 00:40:20store C with that asking me like where
- 00:40:24are you what kind of music are you
- 00:40:26listening to referring to
- 00:40:30music was he on fun with you that whole
- 00:40:32time yeah it was worried for
- 00:40:36me I didn't want to run away on the way
- 00:40:40back I was called by no color IV and
- 00:40:44then another panic choice I made was I
- 00:40:47marked the call I took a detour trying
- 00:40:51to beat the chocolate also bought a alol
- 00:40:56and said like Rel the pain I mean I was
- 00:41:01experiencing thing so I took a lot to
- 00:41:05Palm PS not full Palm PS but like one
- 00:41:09full palm of I don't know I don't mean
- 00:41:12to cut you off but in your car I could
- 00:41:14see from the window it was like a red
- 00:41:16and clear plastic bottle of Tylenol
- 00:41:19looked like it was a bigger bottle was
- 00:41:20full is that the one you're talking
- 00:41:22about it was
- 00:41:24probably I bought two because it was
- 00:41:26prob would
- 00:41:45I didn't know how much I needed to take
- 00:41:48to release myself of the headp but I can
- 00:41:52tell you I had no intention of myself
- 00:41:55overdose so you you you have like some
- 00:41:58you have chronic headaches chronic
- 00:42:00migraines when it comes to situations
- 00:42:03where she instigates you take
- 00:42:05prescription medicine for your headaches
- 00:42:07I was prescribed at the Orlando Health
- 00:42:10Hospital like as a like imatra or bir
- 00:42:15something it's a headache medicine it's
- 00:42:18a mood stabilizer you know what it's
- 00:42:21called it starts with
- 00:42:24m m
- 00:42:31is that the only medicine you take that
- 00:42:33was supposed to be prescribed with more
- 00:42:35I couldn't afford more like they gave
- 00:42:37you prescriptions but you couldn't fill
- 00:42:40them yes the same medicine something
- 00:42:43else I believe Abilify
- 00:43:04okay I couldn't afford it because it was
- 00:43:06too expensive and I had no insurance and
- 00:43:08I had plans to get insurance before I
- 00:43:13bought before I filled in more
- 00:43:17prescriptions did you feel like it was
- 00:43:20helping when you got it I felt less
- 00:43:24urges to vape she likes to threaten to
- 00:43:29throw me in
- 00:43:31jail falsely because we have a fight but
- 00:43:34I don't but you I'll touch her but she
- 00:43:37threatens to say you touched her is that
- 00:43:41what it sounds like both times she would
- 00:43:45talk down upon me talking like I have no
- 00:43:49efficacy or drive to make it better and
- 00:43:53she would like to go on the phone with
- 00:43:56her friend
- 00:43:58openly in front of me and talk like oh
- 00:44:01he's he's such a piece of sh he likes to
- 00:44:04not take accountability he makes such
- 00:44:07unhealthy habit and decisions and like
- 00:44:11doing it so you can hear it right like
- 00:44:14to hurt your feelings intentionally
- 00:44:16right and her friends would reciprocate
- 00:44:18her back it's like a positive feedback
- 00:44:21Mo and the second time I just I just
- 00:44:23kind of take it and I like a fantasy
- 00:44:26like
- 00:44:27oh it it will all work
- 00:44:31out she will come around she would tell
- 00:44:34me she loves me and like reassure me and
- 00:44:38encourage
- 00:44:40me but then that that never happens she
- 00:44:43says I'm sorry I said those
- 00:44:46things no like she would like we would
- 00:44:50move past that she never would apologize
- 00:44:53and she would be like you need to do
- 00:44:55this you need to you need to stop the
- 00:44:59bad habits you need
- 00:45:00to is the only bad habits she had a
- 00:45:03problem with was The Vaping before it
- 00:45:05was that's not that serious before it
- 00:45:08was the it was
- 00:45:10prioritization about income money
- 00:45:15work if she felt like I was cheating I
- 00:45:18said sorry I would it would never happen
- 00:45:22again the same with the baking like I
- 00:45:24would just throw all that if she felt
- 00:45:26like I wasn't
- 00:45:27communicating well I was willing to go
- 00:45:30above and beyond and communicate with
- 00:45:32her and being honest with her even
- 00:45:35though I have been honest I have nothing
- 00:45:37more to prove but I still had to prove
- 00:45:41more I still had to prove myself for
- 00:45:44through her definition I was shating I
- 00:45:47didn't take care of my debt at the pace
- 00:45:50that I said I would and then it was what
- 00:45:54what Deb is that is there a Deb
- 00:45:57so that's one of the things she's been
- 00:45:58she's been giving you a hard time about
- 00:46:01was some credit card debt that that you
- 00:46:03racked up yes by yourself like it wasn't
- 00:46:06her dad it was used for the
- 00:46:09purpose of
- 00:46:11us protecting recreational and then all
- 00:46:14of a sudden it was real high and you
- 00:46:16need to take care of it I got it down
- 00:46:19and then I got back again because I was
- 00:46:23we were going through moving and
- 00:46:25relocating well once we were having a
- 00:46:28nice conversation driving around in CI I
- 00:46:31got into a car accident so I had to put
- 00:46:35fa amount
- 00:46:37into the credit
- 00:46:55card
- 00:47:14for so so why did it happen this morning
- 00:47:17she wouldn't listen she wouldn't
- 00:47:19understand you after everything was over
- 00:47:21what did you clean up with did you have
- 00:47:23to go get some sort of
- 00:47:25supplies or did you just Ed stuff you
- 00:47:27had around the house stuff I had around
- 00:47:29the house a SpongeBob I had paper towels
- 00:47:33I had um allpurpose
- 00:47:37cleaner get rid of the blood on the
- 00:47:39walls and the
- 00:47:40forest trying to wipe away the residual
- 00:47:44and then where did you did you just
- 00:47:46throw all that in the garbage I had a
- 00:47:48garbage
- 00:47:55bag
- 00:48:25fore
- 00:48:53for did I do
- 00:48:58I couldn't do anything myself and hold
- 00:49:19her did you try to save her life I tried
- 00:49:23to by pressure so you did try try to
- 00:49:26save
- 00:49:28her did you think about calling for an
- 00:49:31ambulance tried to come for carried her
- 00:49:35to the
- 00:49:38bathroom
- 00:49:40music I was holding
- 00:49:44her she was dying and I was just trying
- 00:49:47to cfor
- 00:49:54her I love her
- 00:50:01I played our favorite music if she would
- 00:50:05have spoke if she had the ability to she
- 00:50:08would have said and call the of
- 00:50:13dying part of me while cleaning up with
- 00:50:17thinking like
- 00:50:20oh she's going to come home and be so
- 00:50:25pissed but she was
- 00:50:29I always felt happy when I
- 00:50:31cooked she said I should be a chef I put
- 00:50:35all my love into
- 00:50:36cooking taking care of the
- 00:50:40place I want seasoning I research the
- 00:50:43ways to make the food good I just dry r
- 00:50:47i just dry me try to cook it the best I
- 00:50:51can I thought everything was going to
- 00:50:54feel I was thinking about
- 00:50:57the things I would say to
- 00:51:02her which would have been
- 00:51:08[Music]
- 00:51:11what I would
- 00:51:13have if she was here right now with us
- 00:51:15in this room what would you tell
- 00:51:18her hey
- 00:51:19[Music]
- 00:51:22baby I'm sorry they had to go this way
- 00:51:29just wanted to go to work today come
- 00:51:31back and see
- 00:51:34you I just wanted to be with you I don't
- 00:51:37want to be with anyone
- 00:51:39else if we were all break again I
- 00:51:42wouldn't want to touch another woman
- 00:51:46wanted to get myself after want to go
- 00:51:49get
- 00:51:52home I want us to compromise
- 00:51:56I want you to leave is that why you did
- 00:51:58it
- 00:51:59Teddy you think she was going to leave
- 00:52:01you and never come back and leave you
- 00:52:03all
- 00:52:09alone
- 00:52:25water
- 00:52:55for
- 00:53:25foree
- 00:53:53for Winter Park High School
- 00:54:25foree
- 00:54:55fore
- 00:55:25for
- 00:55:55foree
- 00:56:25for
- 00:56:55for
- 00:57:25for
- 00:57:55fore
- 00:58:25for foree
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