What's it Like to Take a Life? | On Killing | Cut

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUH4A0z7gTY

Sintesi

TLDRIn this gripping and remorseful account, a former addict shares the details of a disastrous drug deal that led to an unintended death. Struggling with addiction and unable to manage his finances, he was involved in a minor drug operation. He describes a tense meeting set up by a girl with her brother-in-law from Chicago, which spiraled into violence. Despite recognizing the danger, he felt unable to extricate himself from the situation. During a confrontation in a house, a young woman, mostly unconscious from partying, was accidentally shot in a struggle when she latched onto the barrel of a gun. He reflects on the event years later, bearing the guilt and haunting memories of the violent scenes.

Punti di forza

  • 😔 A former addict recounts a fatal drug deal.
  • 🔫 The situation escalated quickly into violence.
  • 🚫 Despite planning to leave, he felt trapped.
  • 👧 A girl was accidentally shot during a struggle.
  • 💭 The tragic event still haunts the narrator.
  • 📸 Vivid memories replay like a photo album.
  • 🔗 Connections between Chicago and Minneapolis were in focus.
  • 🎉 The victim was intoxicated from partying.
  • 🕵️‍♂️ The narrator had to check the house for safety.
  • 🔌 Co-defendants cut telephone cords during the incident.

Linea temporale

  • 00:00:00 - 00:04:33

    The narrator reflects on their past as a drug addict and their involvement in a crime. They recount being asked to facilitate a drug connection for someone from Chicago in Minneapolis. During the deal, tensions rose when the drug was not as expected, leading to violence inside the house. The narrator expresses regret and acknowledges their role in the tragic events, including a girl being accidentally shot during a struggle. They convey the lasting impact of these memories, comparing them to an unerasable photo album.

Mappa mentale

Mind Map

Domande frequenti

  • Who was involved in the drug deal?

    The narrator, a girl, her brother-in-law, and co-defendants from Chicago and Minneapolis.

  • What details does the narrator recall as strange?

    Driving 300 miles, entering a house to check it out, and being involved in violence.

  • Why did the narrator stay during the incident?

    He felt it was "too late" to leave once the deal started.

  • What happened to the girl involved?

    She was accidentally shot during a struggle when she grabbed the barrel of a gun.

  • What was the emotional impact on the narrator?

    The incident haunts him, and he blames himself for being there and involved.

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Scorrimento automatico:
  • 00:00:01
    - [Voiceover] Has anyone ever called you a murderer?
  • 00:00:03
    - [Voiceover] Yes.
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    (suspenseful music)
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    I was an addict for most of my life.
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    And I couldn't afford to pay for my drug habit
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    from what I worked and still pay the bills and that.
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    I wasn't a big time drug dealer.
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    A few pounds here and there.
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    A girl came to me and said she wanted me
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    to meet her brother-in-law
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    and he needed some connections.
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    He was from Chicago and he wanted some connections
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    in the Minneapolis area.
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    I agreed to do this.
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    To set up this drug connection.
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    What were weird details you remember?
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    Well, I slept part of the way.
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    It was a 300 mile drive.
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    When we got to the house I had to go in
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    and check things out to make sure
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    it was a safe place to go into.
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    So I went into the house.
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    I talked with the guy.
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    He showed me a pound.
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    I just looked at it.
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    I didn't say nothing to him.
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    I went back out to the car and I told the other guy
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    it wasn't what it was supposed to be.
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    He seemed to get a little upset about that.
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    He handed me the gun.
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    We went into the house.
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    And I was walking with the guy that actually
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    owned the house where we were at.
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    And I was walking to the kitchen with him
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    where the product was still on the kitchen table
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    and that's when my co-defendants hit the guy
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    that brought us there with the gun butt.
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    He was bleeding pretty good from the back of the head.
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    I thought he had actually busted his skull open
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    from the way it looked,
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    because I could see a greyness.
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    My co-defendant cut the telephone chords
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    and tied them both up on the floor.
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    - [Voiceover] Why didn't you feel the need to just leave?
  • 00:02:09
    - [Voiceover] Why didn't I feel the need to leave?
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    I should have left.
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    But it was too late to leave
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    because you're in the middle of a deal
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    and once something like this starts,
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    you just don't walk away from it.
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    I went upstairs and I found a girl.
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    There wasn't supposed to be anybody else
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    who was supposed to be there.
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    She was passed out.
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    I really had a hard time getting her awake.
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    It took several minutes to wake her up.
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    To get her back to where she understood
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    what I was saying.
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    It was St. Patrick's Day and they had been out partying.
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    Partying all night.
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    She was so wobbly I had to actually hold onto her arms
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    to start with, you know?
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    I finally got her up on her feet,
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    that's when she reached out
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    and she grabbed a hold of the barrel of the gun
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    and I pulled back to pull the gun out of her hand
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    and the gun went off
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    and she was shot.
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    - [Voiceover] She struggles with you with the gun,
  • 00:03:26
    gets shot in the temple, and you saw no blood?
  • 00:03:29
    - [Voiceover] No, I didn't see any blood at all.
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    Uh, it was just a little dark hole in the side of her head.
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    I don't know how to describe it anymore than that.
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    - [Voiceover] Do you feel like it was her fault
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    that she was shot?
  • 00:03:46
    - [Voiceover] No, no.
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    Of course not.
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  • 00:03:48
    - [Voiceover] It was my fault.
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    It wasn't her fault at all, you know?
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    It was my fault for being there, you know?
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    And for doing this.
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    That's one thing that sticks with you forever
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    even though its been decades,
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    it's the pictures of the girl, of the bedroom,
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    the other bedroom, of the guys laying on the floor,
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    it's like pulling out a photo album.
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    It never ever goes away.
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    It's there constantly.
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    (suspenseful music)
Tag
  • addiction
  • drug deal
  • violence
  • regret
  • accident
  • guilt
  • memory
  • Chicago
  • Minneapolis
  • death