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hello namashkar wakam now this
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particular title of this poem is a
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little strange because he talks about a
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hospital now a hospital we may all have
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very mixed feelings about a hospital
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isn't that so um
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Hospital you know it almost associated
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with something seriously wrong at the
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same time a hospital is a place where
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some kind of hope is provided in the
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sense that if you are suffering from
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some illness the hospital is the place
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where you could actually find some kind
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of relief and eventually good news right
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but the moment we hear Hospital admit it
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means there is something seriously wrong
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medically speaking with that person
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right that's her usual reaction so in
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that sense why I like the hospital is a
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little bit of a strange kind of a title
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the poem talks about different aspects
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inside a hospital it's almost as if the
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poet has gone and spent time inside the
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hospital and just observed different
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people that's what is the nature of the
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poem actually when I sat down to prepare
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the notes for this poem I actually quite
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liked it because a hospital is some is a
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place where one has gone many times as
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part of one's reportage you know someone
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getting admitted something happening you
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know you go to hospitals or some place
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where there is cover right so I could
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kind of associate and I could actually
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picturize it very well in my mind so
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there's a lot of visual imagery which
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has been used in this particular poem by
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Tony hogland he passed away in 2018 okay
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so pretty recently now uh what's the
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poem about it's about an emotional
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Journey of many patients also of other
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people who are associated with the
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patients in this terms of you know being
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near and dear ones of those patients so
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there is u a lot of vulnerability
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vulnerability you know if sense of
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feeling you know I'm going to go there's
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a sense of vulnerability why why is
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there is fear because you fear you're
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going to die death becomes the ultimate
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fear for most of us right because we
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don't want to die even if we are
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suffering we think that probably there
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is tomorrow will be a better day and we
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don't want to go because Death Becomes
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in many senses and I'm not talking about
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this poem I was just thinking about it
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Death Becomes something which we don't
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know we don't know what will happen to
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us after death we want to be conscious
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of what is happening to us the death
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means it's a full stop we don't know
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what is there after the full stop right
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so which is why we don't want to pull
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the full stop the full stop we prefer
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the comma or the semicolon right now uh
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so there is a lot of sadness in this
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poem there's a lot of empathy and
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compassion that is spoken about so in
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that sense what I have written out here
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in the notes it's an emotional landscape
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of ss and please use this phrase in your
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answers it's an emotional landscape
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landscape as in you see a spread of
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people and a spread of different kinds
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of emotions depending on the
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relationships that we are looking at so
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that's essentially what this poem is
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about the themes are that of compassion
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of isolation of vulnerability what I
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spoke about the emotional journey of
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patients and visitors uh so all those
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elements are there in this particular
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poem it's written in free verse so there
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is no particular rhyme scheme that you
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find in this particular poem but what is
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striking about this poem is the use of
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imagery each and every scene you can you
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just close your eyes after reading the
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you can actually imagine if you have
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been exposed to a hospital if you have
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seen a couple of hospitals you will know
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all hospitals look pretty much the same
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so you will get an idea about what uh
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the poet is talking about okay so let's
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get started with the explanation point
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uh or points of this particular poem
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okay because it is all right to be in a
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bad mode there there refers to the
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hospital okay uh it's very unusual to
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find a poem starting with a word like
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because right which is why it's as I
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said it's also very conversational he's
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observing and he's talking he's speaking
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to you he's speaking to you so relate to
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the poem in that sense slouching along
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through the underground garage riding
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wordlessly on the elevator with the
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other customers now uh staring at the
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closed Beach Doors like a prison wall so
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what do these lines one to4 indicate
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the poet says that it is acceptable to
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be in a bad mood at the hospital now
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that's a little strange because Hospital
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you go yes you go a little fearful but
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you also go with a lot of hope you go
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with a positive sentiment that you will
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get something positive out of it right
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but the poet says that it is okay to be
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in a bad mood at the hospital so he's
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almost admitting that if you are not in
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a good mood at the hospital it's okay I
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understand it it's perfect all right
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right so what the poet means to say here
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why he's saying something like this you
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know if you get a question like the poet
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says it is all right to be in a bad mood
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there because okay because due to
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physical ailments that leads patients to
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feel low vulnerable
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insecure and despondent so the hospital
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is a space where it is okay for people
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to express their low emotions that they
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are feeling extremely vulnerable right
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so it's okay to be in a bad mood there
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that's the reason why he's saying that
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then he moves on to the underground
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garage now if you see most hospitals of
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course there is a main entrance right
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but many hospitals actually lead you to
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the basement and from there you will get
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into a lift from the ground minus L
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minus one level and then you come up to
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the hospitals most hospitals if you have
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seen are like that are built like that
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so the underground area is not a
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glamorous kind of area there's no front
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reception um front desk or Reception
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Area out there right so the underground
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garage is most often the first point of
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entry for many people especially
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patients suppose you are admitting a
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patient in a critical condition in an
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ambulance the ambulance will not come to
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the entrance they will come directly to
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the underground put into the patient's
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lift and taken up that's what normally
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happens right so there if you are going
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you have slouching mean to move around
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in a slouching means to move around in a
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lazy manner maybe your body posture is
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also a little drooping kind of shoulders
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right uh so the posture of the person
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the body language of the person be that
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of a patient or that of a visitor
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relative conveys a sense of fatigue
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conveys a sense of tiredness right U
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conveys a sense of weariness you know
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you're almost in that sense of you know
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not in a very cheerful frame of mind
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right so an underground garage as I said
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is the ground level in the basement
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below the uh where the main reception
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area is there on the ground floor uh so
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it's a minus one level as I said now you
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get into the elevator you get into the
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lift now the poet describes the modood
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the atmosphere inside that
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elevator wordlessly riding wordlessly
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riding means you're going up wordlessly
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means there's no one speaks a word there
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are other patients around there are
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other people around but you do not
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engage in a conversation at that time
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that's not the time to ask hello how are
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you what brings you
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here Hospital people come because there
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is some kind of a medical ailment or was
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an emergency right so that's not the
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space where you will ask how are you
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long time no see you don't do that kind
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of talk right you don't do that kind of
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small talk so it means a silent Journey
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wordlessly means a silent Journey with
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no words exchanged with the other
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passengers on that elevator
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right but interestingly I use the word
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passengers what is the word the poet has
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used the poet has used customers
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customers you usually use with something
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associated with something commercial
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right it's a very strange kind of a word
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to use here in the context of a hospital
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I would have expected him to use
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patients or visitors or relatives but he
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has used the word customers to indicate
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some kind of a commercial transaction
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some kind of a commercial angle to the
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life inside a hospital right hospitals
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are also extremely um expensive kind of
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businesses you spend
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uh I remember when my father-in-law was
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admitted for a month exactly 30 days uh
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he had he underwent a very difficult
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surgery
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and the bill that came after one month
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of stay was a whopping 46 lakh rupees 46
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lakh rupees right the the hospital did
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reduce it by uh a significant amount
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because we knew the management but still
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you still had to pay it's not like you
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know 46 became one lakh you know it
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still was a very significant amount uh
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but that's what I'm saying you know so
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hospitals are you know places where you
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really have to spend a lot of money
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um he dis because no one has an
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insurance of 46 La kind of thing okay uh
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with the other customer staring at the
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closed Beach Doors like a prison wall
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now he describes the elevator as a
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prison which results in a feeling of
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being confined to a tiny restricted
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space you know the elevator is obviously
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not a big elevator the hospitals
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elevators are big to accommodate the
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patients but even then it is a closed
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restricted kind of a space so he's
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describing it to a prison he's comparing
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it to a prison why because you are a
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prisoner of your ailment in many senses
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right you know prison is also this thing
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it's not just a limited physical space
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yes he's talking about a limited
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physical space but at a metaphorical
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level a prison is also because when you
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go into a hospital you it means that you
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are a prisoner to some kind of an
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ailment or some kind of a medical
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condition or a disease right so you are
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a prisoner so this also is kind of a
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visual representation of what you are
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feeling at that point in time staring at
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the door staring at the door it kind of
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uh goes with the wordlessly the fact
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that you are not speaking to anyone
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you're just looking uh you're just lost
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in your thoughts looking aimlessly at
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the door the beach color door which is a
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Sandy color pale yellow kind of a color
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which is not a very bright color it's a
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very dull kind of color and that kind of
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adds to the atmosphere of negativity and
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brooding inside the hospital your first
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interaction is with that kind of a very
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dull uninspiring kind of color it's not
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a bright color right and prison wall
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obviously conveys claustrophobia you
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know you are in a limited space with
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lots of people with who you do not talk
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they are strangers so that whole sense
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is of you know you're feeling
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claustrophobic out here so you get the
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whole atmosphere in those four lines I
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hope I have been able to explain it to
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you well let's move on to the next five
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to nine lines I like the hospital for
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the way it grants permission for posos
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now pthos is something which kind of
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evokes sympathy or pity or compassion
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right so he says that I like the
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hospital for the fact that they allow
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people to went their feelings that if
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I'm feeling low if I've lost someone if
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my near and dear one is on his or her
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death bed it allows me to kind of went
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my feelings or if I have been diagnosed
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with something extremely critical it
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allows me to kind of cry aloud right so
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the hospital does not say sh you're not
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supposed to cry here you don't no
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hospital will say that no empathetic
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hospital will say that they allow you
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that space to break down and I've seen
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so many cases like that you know where
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the news is broken to the relatives the
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daughter or the son and they just break
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down right uh so uh which is why I find
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this poem very
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moving so the poet then gives goes on to
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give three examples right he gives the
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example of the mother with cancer
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deciding how to tell her kids the mother
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has been diagnosed with cancer right so
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she may or may not survive for very long
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right so she's thinking and deciding how
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to break the news how to convey that
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information to her kids who may not be
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mature enough to understand what has has
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really happened to the mother because
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also it conveys a sense of family so
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it's an emotional moment for that family
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as well right because if anything
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happens to the mother obviously it will
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adversely impact the children then uh
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she talks he talks about the bald girl
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gazing downward at the shunt installed
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above her missing breast now uh the bald
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girl immediately tells you that this
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girl is suffering from cancer she has
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undergone chemotherapy as a result of
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which she has lost her
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hair the shunt is a um is an instrument
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which kind of is a surgical device which
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is installed above her missing breast so
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obviously she may have suffered from
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breast cancer as a result of which they
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have removed her breast and it redirects
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the flow of fluids in the body okay so
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the bald girl is also looking
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despondently almost lost in her thoughts
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aimlessly she's looking at that Surgical
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device which has been installed above
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her missing breast the breast is not
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there because it has to be removed so
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she's suffering from chemotherapy I
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always uh kind of you know there are
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lots of this people
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students who think you know it's very
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good or rather powerful to shame people
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by saying you know at tuo kind of thing
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without really knowing the reasons I'll
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tell you two kinds of people who decide
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to go Bal I am not bald I decided to go
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Bal uh one people like this girl who
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suffer from cancer they undergo
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chemotherapy and they lose their hair
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there is a second category of people who
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decide to go Bal in solidarity with
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cancer patients okay that I want to in
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fact I had seen a very beautiful video
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of some of a woman who comes because you
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know before chemotherapy Etc of course
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you lose your hair but she has U you
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know she's shaving off her hair uh
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either in solidarity or she's a cancer
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patient herself and the guy who is the
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barber who supposed to do that he also
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simultaneously starts doing the same
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thing in solidarity with that person
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these are all what I strongly believe in
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is human emotions there's a third
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category of course who donate their hair
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to cancer patients cancer survivors you
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know who need their hair again to grow
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who who hair whose hair may not grow and
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they need to wear wigs so the hair is
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donated to cancer survival so there are
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the three category of patients okay I
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belong to one of the three categories
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okay so uh
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it's it's very easy to the say that's
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why I always say you none of us know the
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other person's story I don't know your
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story you don't know my story so we
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should always be a little empathetic
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with regard to another person that you
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know we should not without knowing the
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other person's uh difficulties
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challenges struggles we should not kind
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of sit in
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judgment kind of thing it doesn't bother
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me Beyond a point initially it used to
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irritate me I don't care about it
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anymore but I'm just saying that we all
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needs to know we do body
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shaving kind of thing you don't know
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what that person is going through you
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know you know this kind of racist body
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language body shaming kind of comments
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that we all tend to make it rather
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Loosely which is extremely unfortunate
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anyway let me not
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digress the bald girl gazing downward so
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you see it's a again she's kind of
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staring aimlessly she's obviously going
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through extremely Disturbed emotions
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right you know that she's going to look
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like this you know you know when there
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is a physical loss you know there's
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something you know your leg gets
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amputated I know of this extremely uh uh
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I mean journalism gives me the option of
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I mean it gives me the opportunity to
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meet lots of courageous people I knew
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this um I had interviewed this lady
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called Mani josi who is a parab badmon
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player right who lost her maharashtrian
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girl who had lost her leg and she plays
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badminton now she trains at the
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badminton Academy in Hyderabad and she's
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a fantastic Sports person those are the
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stories of grit right but obviously at
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this point in time she's feeling very
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low you know because you lost a part of
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your body and you feel that oh God what
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will people think I will not look
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beautiful anymore I will not look
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attractive anymore so those are the kind
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of fears and apprehensions and emotions
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that people go through right the Crone
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in her pajamas walking with an IV pole
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intravenous right the grone is a
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reference to an old ugly woman it's a
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bit of a slag and not a very nice kind
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of a word right so uh the the Crone the
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ugly old woman is walking in her pajamas
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with an IV pole the intravenous pole a
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mobile stand for the fluid back to be
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held and it is inserted into her for the
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IV fluid to be administered
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intravenously okay so uh what does it
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convey it conveys a sense of
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vulnerability it conveys a sense of
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weakness a frail kind of an elderly kind
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of a person who needs medical attention
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also the fact that you know she's
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walking around like that it conveys you
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know slow and limited kind of Mobility
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limited kind of movement of the woman
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okay so all these three images that you
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have conveyed of the mother who is
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suffering from cancer the bald girl
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whose breast is missing and the Crone uh
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who is walking around with an IV pole
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all of them convey images of depression
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of feeling low of grief and a sense of
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loss and of course obviously suffering
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so all these elements are there in the
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three examples which have been taken so
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if you get a question with reference to
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this poem what are the examples that he
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has taken in fact he has taken more
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examples towards end but these three
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examples are
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important I don't like the smell of
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antiseptic now um he says that you know
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uh U he doesn't like the smell of
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antiseptic which is one of the common
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smells that you get inside the hospital
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right uh so uh he says that you know um
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he doesn't like an antiseptic is
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something which you use in surgery to
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clean medical uh equipment instruments
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okay or to ensure that there is no
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bacteria to sterilize the area or a part
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of the body or the air conditioning set
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on high all night you know all the air
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conditioning which is Set uh to very
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cold all night and it makes you feel
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very cold because already the patients
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are not in the best of medical
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conditions they feel even more
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uncomfortable with with the AC which is
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switched on to very cold kind of
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temperatures all night right uh so
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um yeah so chili and cold the fact that
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it makes you cold is also a sense of the
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feeling of discomfort inside the
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hospital more importantly it's also a
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pointer to the lack of warmth in the
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lives of these people you know you there
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are many
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patients you know just left alone you
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just keep staring at the ceiling all day
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or at the different equipments which
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have been attached to your body right
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the tubes which are going in and out of
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your body right it can be an
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extremely extremely low kind of feeling
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you know you don't know what you go
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through then subsequently he says are
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the fresh flowers tossed into the waste
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basket now what does this
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convey the fresh flowers now the fresh
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flowers are an indication of freshness
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of nature
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of new beginnings of Hope of cheer right
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when you give flows to somebody and
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people feel good with any kind of flows
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be Jasmine or roses or marry gold
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whatever right you feel good with some
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kind of flows which have been received
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by you chrysanthemums beautiful flaws
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Raj gandha so but here they have been
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tossed into the waste basket tossed kind
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of gives you a sense of carelessly being
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thrown away without a care you know you
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don't care whether they are fls or
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something you just toss it away into the
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garbage bin into the Waste Paper basket
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so the flows which are a symbol of Hope
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of beginning of freshness they I mean
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the fact that they are discarded into
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the garbage bin into the waste paper
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waste basket indicates that the hopes
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are being crushed okay by the entire
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ecosyst that you find out there it also
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gives you a sense of hopelessness it
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also gives you a sense that you know
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nothing is really permanent everything
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is very temporary right so uh the fact
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that they thrown away it also conveys as
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lack of empathy a lack of you know that
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you know I care for you that kind of
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thing is not there it shows a very
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callous kind of an attitude by the uh
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people out there who are in charge right
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uh then subsequently uh he says that but
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I like the way some people now after
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this he comes to what he likes this like
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is something which is a repetition in
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this entire poem I like you know it is
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repeated many times so it's kind of
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emphasizes that these are the things he
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likes these are the things he does not
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particularly like right but I like the
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way some people on their plastic chairs
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break out a notebook and invent a
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complex coding system to tally up their
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days on Earth but there are some people
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plastic again conveys you know you know
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what he sees it's a it's a very visual
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kind of an imagery right um and plastic
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also kind of conveys a sense of lack of
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strength plastic is not something which
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is a very strong kind of a uh substance
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right uh it's not iron for that matter
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right so they sit on plastic chairs to
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count how many more days they have on
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Earth and why is it called a complex
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scoring system because it's obviously
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never easy to predict when death will
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come it's obviously Comm can any one of
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us say how many more days we are going
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to live on this Earth we cannot so it's
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a complex scoring system and then it
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kind of he also I mean associated with
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that is also the the scoring of you know
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what he has done he or she has done
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through his or her life so times I acted
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and invented a complex scoring system to
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tally up their days on Earth the column
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on the left that says you know so you
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make almost you're doing an audit of
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your life on the left hand side you say
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times are acted like a fool you know
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there are times when I was actually
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stupid I did the wrong things while I
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have been here on Earth and the column
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on the right it says times I acted like
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a saint times when I actually did the
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right thing so this is the wrong so
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you're almost making like a balance
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sheet of your life on how you actually
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perform during your days on Earth so
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you're doing an audit of sorts during
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the last days that you think you have on
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earth right so you regret what you did
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and that's the emotion here the the fact
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that you have written all those things
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when you acted like a fool you should
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not have looking back you say I should
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not have done like that you know when I
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was 40 years old when I was 25 years old
00:24:18
I should not have behaved like that that
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was wrong on my part so you behave you
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write that on your left hand side on the
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right hand side ah at the age of 32 I
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did that that was fantastic I really I'm
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very happy with what I did that at that
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age so you write that in your right
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column so you are making an audit of
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sort of your life so U both the emotions
00:24:39
are predominant the regret for what you
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did wrong and the joy and the happiness
00:24:45
at what you did right okay so those are
00:24:48
the two emotions which are working on uh
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and this is an illusion to the concept
00:24:52
of judgment in the Christian uh Faith
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where one's actions are evaluated as per
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a moral standard that you know this is
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what you did wrong this is what you did
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right so some kind of a balancing taking
00:25:04
place so what do they convey is that you
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know everyone is into that moment of
00:25:09
introspection reflecting that these are
00:25:11
the moments when you're sitting alone
00:25:13
doing nothing lying down on bed you
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actually think of how I actually LED my
00:25:20
life you know was my life good did I do
00:25:24
the right things in life because you
00:25:25
know if you have done something wrong if
00:25:28
you have been unfair to someone you know
00:25:30
very well that well that was not the
00:25:32
right thing I was nasty there I should
00:25:34
not have behaved like that right so
00:25:36
there are these moments of introspection
00:25:38
that the space inside the hospital that
00:25:41
the quiet inside the hospital allows you
00:25:44
those moments of introspection
00:25:46
right because in daily life when you're
00:25:49
outside busy leading your life earning
00:25:51
working doing different things you don't
00:25:54
get those moments of thinking and doing
00:25:57
this kind of an audit of your life right
00:26:00
so um it's I found it rather ironic that
00:26:05
you actually uh uh get the time to
00:26:09
reflect get the time to introspect only
00:26:13
when your time is actually running out
00:26:16
isn't that very ironic I found it very
00:26:18
ironic that you know time that's when
00:26:21
you get the time to reflect you know how
00:26:25
did I lead my life you know did I do the
00:26:27
right thing then did I do the wrong
00:26:29
thing then you know that kind of a thing
00:26:31
let's move on I'm really I really
00:26:34
enjoyed this poem I like the Long
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Prairie of the waiting the forced
00:26:38
intimacy of the self with the self
00:26:41
Prairie is a long large Wasteland that
00:26:44
you find largely in the United States or
00:26:48
even in Africa to an extent right so but
00:26:52
here it is used in the context of the
00:26:54
waiting Hall if you see the waiting Hall
00:26:57
usually given India population waiting
00:26:59
Halls are quite crowded but here he's
00:27:01
giving the impression probably because
00:27:03
he's written it in the USA of a waiting
00:27:05
Hall that is largely desert not deserted
00:27:08
but it's large and not very crowded in
00:27:11
that sense right so uh prairies are
00:27:14
desolate spaces they are like you know
00:27:17
large spaces where there's not too much
00:27:19
of animal population right and by using
00:27:22
the word prairie for the waiting area
00:27:25
the poet wants to convey the sense of
00:27:28
loneliness and isolation
00:27:30
right the forced intimacy of the self
00:27:33
with the self now what is this forced
00:27:35
intimacy mean and it's a very strong
00:27:38
phrase uh the desolation of the waiting
00:27:41
area because there is not there aren't
00:27:43
too many people at least in that waiting
00:27:45
area that the poet is talking about it
00:27:48
forces you to talk to yourself you're
00:27:51
forced to be intimate with yourself you
00:27:54
have no company but yourself I have this
00:27:56
I mean this beautiful quote that uh I
00:27:59
read and I always believe it's fantastic
00:28:01
that if you think
00:28:05
uh if you're getting bored with
00:28:08
yourself if you're feeling bored with
00:28:10
yourself it means you are in the wrong
00:28:12
company right so if you are feeling with
00:28:15
bored with your own company it means
00:28:16
that you are very bad company right so
00:28:19
here the first intimacy it forces you to
00:28:22
be intimate with yourself intimate with
00:28:25
your own thoughts intimate with your own
00:28:27
mind because you're talking to yourself
00:28:29
you're thinking about yourself right so
00:28:32
it is forced why because you have nobody
00:28:33
else it is forced because there is no
00:28:36
other company and intimacy because
00:28:38
that's the only thing you can do at that
00:28:40
point in time in the waiting Hall you
00:28:42
end up spending time with yourself right
00:28:45
and you also in the process you confront
00:28:48
your own emotions some of them extremely
00:28:51
difficult emotions based on the kind of
00:28:53
life that you have led so far and this
00:28:55
forced intimacy is not something which
00:28:56
many people will want to have we would
00:28:59
much rather prefer to have some other
00:29:01
human interaction but in the absence of
00:29:04
that you're forced to be intimate with
00:29:06
yourself right and that is the plight of
00:29:09
the Lonely sick patient you know who has
00:29:12
really no one else to interact with and
00:29:16
there are people who are not visited by
00:29:18
many people right who are probably
00:29:20
visited by someone once in a day for 20
00:29:22
minutes right so the remaining 23 hours
00:29:25
and 40 minutes what do they do they have
00:29:28
only themselves to give company to
00:29:32
right then this is a very strong
00:29:35
metaphor each sick person standing in
00:29:37
the middle of a field like a tree
00:29:39
wondering what happened to the forest so
00:29:41
he's saying that every sick person is
00:29:44
like a tree he's like a tree who is
00:29:47
standing alone and he's thinking what
00:29:48
happened to the other vegetation in the
00:29:50
forest where is everyone else I'm the
00:29:53
only one standing
00:29:54
here you know so that is what he's
00:29:57
thinking so it's a very strong kind of a
00:29:59
metaphor of you know I mean comparing
00:30:01
the patient the sick patient to a
00:30:03
solitary tree who is wondering what
00:30:06
happened to the rest of the forest so
00:30:08
this metaphor of the tree makes it seem
00:30:10
you know like as if the patient is
00:30:12
disoriented that he's imagining himself
00:30:14
to a tree who is all alone who is
00:30:18
completely lonely and this kind of
00:30:20
conveys the loss of human interface
00:30:23
human interaction human Solace and the
00:30:26
lack of companionship and emotional
00:30:29
support right that's what it conveys so
00:30:31
these lines essentially convey a strong
00:30:34
sense of alienation and Detachment from
00:30:37
everyone else you are a solitary tree
00:30:39
with no one else in the forest with no
00:30:42
other vegetation in the
00:30:47
forest and once I saw a man in a lime
00:30:50
green dressing down now at the end now
00:30:52
he's talking about this one person the
00:30:54
remaining 22 to 33 lines are talking
00:30:57
only about this one person why is it so
00:31:00
hot
00:31:01
today so he's talking only about this
00:31:03
one person so he says that and he was
00:31:06
wearing a lime green dressing gown which
00:31:09
means that he has been operated upon
00:31:12
right because that's what you wear
00:31:14
generally when you are being operated
00:31:17
upon right um hunched over in a chair a
00:31:20
man who was not yelling at the doctors
00:31:23
so he was not yelling he was not
00:31:25
shouting at any of the other doctor
00:31:27
doctors but he was hunched means that
00:31:30
his body was dropping and his head was
00:31:32
almost like buried there right that's
00:31:34
the kind of posture he's uh there and uh
00:31:38
he was not screaming at the doctors or
00:31:41
pretending to be strong or making a
00:31:43
murmured phone call to his wife he was
00:31:45
not doing anything he's not shouting at
00:31:47
the doctors he was not pretending to be
00:31:49
strong I am fine kind of a thing or he
00:31:51
was not talking in harush tones to his
00:31:53
wife over the phone but once sobbing
00:31:56
without shame but he was he was
00:31:58
completely break he was had completely
00:32:00
broken down he was weeping inconsolably
00:32:04
he was weeping right he was wenting out
00:32:06
his gve which is why say which is why
00:32:08
they're say that when someone passes
00:32:10
away you should allow people to cry you
00:32:13
should allow people to grieve over the
00:32:15
loss of someone near and dear it's
00:32:18
important that catharsis is important
00:32:21
pumping it all out from the bottom of
00:32:23
the self so he was like you know he was
00:32:26
giving into his vulnerability you know
00:32:29
he had completely broken down obviously
00:32:31
with the loss of someone and he was
00:32:33
taking it all out and letting himself
00:32:35
cry to grieve over the law so pumping it
00:32:38
from the bottom of the self conveys that
00:32:40
he was going through an upheaval of uh
00:32:43
emotions at that point in time and the
00:32:45
crying of the man conveys that the
00:32:48
person irrespectful gender male female
00:32:51
are vulnerable and he has reached a
00:32:52
point of complete breakdown right so
00:32:56
pumping it all out from the bottom of
00:32:57
the the overflowing buge of helplessness
00:33:00
and rage now the BGE is the lowest part
00:33:03
of a ship's structure right where water
00:33:06
accumulates so it's the lowest part so
00:33:09
from there it is kind of the emotions
00:33:11
are kind of coming out from the bottom
00:33:13
of the self so he's used the metaphor of
00:33:16
the B to convey that from the bottom of
00:33:19
his heart from the bottom of his self
00:33:22
all these emotions are kind of pouring
00:33:24
out and convey a sense of helplessness a
00:33:28
sense of Anguish perhaps even anger at
00:33:30
being so helpless you know there's a
00:33:32
deep sense of Anguish which is all kind
00:33:35
of being wented out at that point in
00:33:37
time a man no longer expecting to be
00:33:40
saved it
00:33:42
means complete loss of hope he is not
00:33:45
expecting to
00:33:47
be I'm feeling emotional he's not
00:33:50
because too many thoughts are coming
00:33:52
into my mind at the same time he's not
00:33:54
expecting to be uh saved at all he's
00:33:57
resigned to
00:34:00
this is what I am going to face right
00:34:02
now so there is a sense of acceptance
00:34:04
and grief more of acceptance that he's
00:34:07
not expecting to be uh saved but if you
00:34:10
look you could see that he was holding
00:34:12
his own hand in sympathy listening to
00:34:15
every single word so he says uh it also
00:34:18
means obviously the man is alone I mean
00:34:20
he's not on a phone call to his wife and
00:34:22
he was holding his own hand in sympathy
00:34:24
as though he has only himself to provide
00:34:26
himself with any kind of empathy and
00:34:29
sympathy um he was providing he was
00:34:32
consoling himself in that sense he was
00:34:33
talking to himself and is reflecting on
00:34:36
his own condition and his entire life
00:34:39
okay so it conveys a lot of emotional
00:34:41
intensity and introspection which is a
00:34:45
theme which is running through this
00:34:47
entire poem he's listening to every
00:34:49
single word right that he was telling
00:34:52
himself everything and he was telling
00:34:54
himself everything so he's talking to
00:34:56
himself he's introspec he's looking
00:34:58
inwards and that is what he is doing at
00:35:01
that point in time okay I hope You' have
00:35:05
understood this poem the themes of the
00:35:08
poem of course all the other mcqs
00:35:11
reasoning questions the long answer
00:35:14
questions and answers everything will
00:35:15
follow so that will give you Clarity on
00:35:17
how to write the answers but if you have
00:35:19
understood the poem related to it you'll
00:35:22
find it that much easier to kind of the
00:35:23
thing just ensure that all these words
00:35:25
that I've used in the explanation which
00:35:27
you will find in the notes as well you
00:35:29
use them in your answers so that your
00:35:30
answers look that much better when you
00:35:33
are talking about you know instead of
00:35:34
using very common place kind of language
00:35:36
there is a metaphor the sick person
00:35:38
being compared to a tree there's a
00:35:40
personification uh personification not
00:35:42
metaphor the overflowing buge of
00:35:45
helplessness of and
00:35:47
rage the irony there's a lot of irony in
00:35:50
this particular poem alliteration of
00:35:51
course you will be able to sing I like
00:35:54
the repetition the poetic devices uh
00:35:57
then the illusion the fool and Saint the
00:35:59
Christian um uh illusion the concept of
00:36:01
judgment in Christianity and the
00:36:03
symbolism of comparing the waiting Hall
00:36:05
to A Prairie right so uh those are some
00:36:08
of the poetic devices which have been
00:36:10
used in this particular poem I hope this
00:36:12
is clear uh and you will be able to do
00:36:14
justice to anything that is asked from
00:36:17
this particular poem why I like the
00:36:19
hospital thank you very much for
00:36:20
watching
