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So about 6 months ago, I am still in
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high school at this point. I'm sitting
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in class and somehow the conversation
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turns to me. The teacher starts talking
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about me in my
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videos and a girl from across the class,
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she yells out to me and she asks me,
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"Jack, do you have any advice for my
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face going red?" And I know she's taking
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the piss
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because her friends are laughing, she's
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laughing, and everyone knows this is one
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of my biggest insecurities cuz I can't
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control it. My face just goes red when I
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get extremely anxious and I'm an
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extremely anxious person at heart.
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Always have been since I was, you know,
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10, 11 years old. So, what do I do in
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that situation? I'm meant to be the dude
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who makes these types of videos. I'm
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meant to be the strong do. But I wasn't
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that in that in in that situation. I
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just looked out the window and said
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nothing cuz my anxiety took over. So, I
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remember getting home that night and
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logging onto me computer and asking chat
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GPT, "What is the best thing I could
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have done in a situation like this? How
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can I learn from it?" But because it
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gave me such a good response cuz chat
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JBT is like a self-confirmation bias, I
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started asking it more and more and more
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deeper questions. Questions you should
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probably ask in therapy or some [ __ ] I
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don't know, maybe that's just me, but
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I'm sure someone can relate to me out
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there with that.
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So because I'm expressing these emotions
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that have been bottled up for a
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while, that feeling that that crave for
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intimacy is very intense. It's like all
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my emotions have been amplified. And
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intimacy, the the sexual desire is the
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strongest desire in the body. It makes
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sense.
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And coincidentally, at this time, I had
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a video go pretty viral that was
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targeted for males and females.
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So, I think 13 13 million females saw
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that video. So, I had a lot of females
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on Instagram DM me. I've never gotten
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this before. I've never got this influx
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of female attention ever in my
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life. So, it takes me over. Yeah,
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there's plenty of, you know, very
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attractive women who reached out and
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lust took over again. And I relapsed, I
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think, like every day for a week. Not to
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pornography cuz I don't watch that
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anymore, but just still things I think I
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shouldn't have
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done. And to combat this shame and
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guilt, cuz it was heavy feelings of
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shame and guilt. It was, it was
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heavy. I start talking to these girls
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more.
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I
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start romanticizing a future about them
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because I'm a very romantic type of
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person. That's just who I
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am. I can't I start I start, you know,
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[ __ ] imagining futures with girls who
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I'm not who I know aren't for me because
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I was desperate. I was I'd never really
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gotten this feeling before ever. It was
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something really new and exciting to me.
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But I knew at the back of my mind the
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majority of these girls I was talking to
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were just
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bored. They weren't actually interested
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in me. I wasn't actually interested in
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them. It was more of a lust instead of
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love. I was just desperate. And that is
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disrespectful to myself and that is
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disrespectful to the ideal woman who I
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genuinely admire. And I knew that it was
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just clouded by lust at that time. So I
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made that video. I fell back into Last
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Again, boys, which is pretty popular.
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Has nearly like a million views nearly.
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Um, which is crazy for something like
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that. I got out of the
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rut. I locked in. Exams were coming up,
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so I really needed to. And I graduated
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high school. And I couldn't wait to get
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out. Yeah. To experience, find my
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people, connect with people who, you
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know, I can I can emotionally relate to.
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But I fell back into the rut
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again because all I was doing was
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[ __ ] the only time I'd go outside was
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to make a
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video. I'd just be inside like reading.
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I would train at home. I would plan
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videos at home. That's all I
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do. So
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that feeling for love came up again. I
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craved it again just like I did around 6
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months ago. heavy. I Every single human
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craves love. Every single one of them.
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And they always do cuz it's human
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nature. We can't combat the feeling.
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Everyone craves it. So I accepted
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it. I accepted to myself that love is a
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beautiful thing. Always will be. It just
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depends on how you respond to it. And I
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think I responded to it in a good way. I
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accepted
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it. I
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did. It is so normal to crave love.
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you you know if you're watching this
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video, you've probably been single your
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whole
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life. It's
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normal. And you're not alone. There is
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so many people because of social media
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and
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[ __ ] There are so many people in your
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position. 100%. I am. I had a girlfriend
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at 12 years old. I don't count that.
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I've never had a
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girlfriend. I'm not ashamed to admit
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that. I'm 19. I'm still a young. Like,
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why are you in such a rush?
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You are still so
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young. And I speak to myself. I'm
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speaking to myself here, but I'm
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speaking to you as
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well. This is literally the worst
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version of yourself that there will ever
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be. You are only going to get better and
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better and better and
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better. Now, assuming that you get
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better every
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day, what's the
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rush? I'm not telling you this because
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you want to hear it. I'm telling you
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this because you need to hear it. Just
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like you were when you were a kid. All
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you wanted to be was an
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adult. When you became an adult, you
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realized the problems of becoming an
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adult. And then when you became an
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adult, all you can think about was the
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pleasures of being a kid because you
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forgot about the problems of being a
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kid. Even though as a kid, all you
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thought about was the problems of being
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a kid. And it's exactly the same with
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single life, especially as a young man.
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But it's probably the same for
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women. It's all you think about is a
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negative.
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And it's not like when you do get with
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someone, you're not going to enjoy it.
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And all you all you want to be is a kid
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again. All you want to be is single
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again. No, probably not. Assuming it's a
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person that you are genuinely compatible
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with. But
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you maybe I'm coping, but I I really
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don't think I am. I am going to regret
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if I don't do this. I am going to regret
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not spending single life to its fullest.
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110%. Because there's benefits to
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both. What's up, bro? How's it going?
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Oh, [ __ ] I didn't recognize you.
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[ __ ] hell. No, it's a good view,
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though. So, I'm like, [ __ ] it. I'll get
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a video. But, um, how you guys going?
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But, as I was saying, I just came across
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a couple of mates from
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school. Enjoy this
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[ __ ] Enjoy it, bro.
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Fall in love with the process of
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becoming the man that attracts your
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ideal. Fall in love with it cuz you will
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miss it one day 100%. There'll be parts
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of it that you
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miss. Put some respect on yourself,
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bro. Respect your time. Respect your
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energy. Transmute that feeling into what
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you know is best. Don't act out of
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desperation. Choose a girl because you
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can, not because you need to. I hope you
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enjoyed this video. I kind of lost me
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flow there, but I hope it's valuable.
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All right, much love, bro. And I will
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catch you in the next one.
