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I love
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basketball I played in high school I
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grew up playing basketball and the
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reason why I loved playing was that was
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kind of my escape from the outside world
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like anytime I was mad or like upset or
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like sad or like feeling lonely just say
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let's go hoop let's go ball get away
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from it all and basketball was kind of
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my outlet to get out of a lot of the
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things that I was feeling and one day it
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it was at a grad party literally and we
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were playing basketball with someone my
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friends and I planted my feet and I went
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to Pivot but my leg didn't move with me
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and my knee popped at the time I didn't
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think it was that serious I was like oh
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you know I probably just sprained it or
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something went to the doctor and he was
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like yeah bro you you tore it up tore
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your miniscus I was like so I was okay
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doc what are we looking at and he was
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like well you know we're going to give
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you a crutch crutches we're going to
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give you a brace and you're going to
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have to ice Elevate you know the whole
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process and you're not going to be able
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to play for pretty long time and hearing
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that I was like oh like I was devastated
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cuz I was like dang that was my Escape
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like that was my way to get out of
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things unfortunately I rushed my way
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back like I I got rid of the crutches
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really early I got rid of the brace
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really early I was limping around I
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couldn't stand to think that basketball
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was living without me and that like oh
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that was my Escape I can't do that like
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I can't give up that for no reason like
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you know so I convinced myself that I
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was strong enough to play Still granted
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I I couldn't jump as fast I couldn't run
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as fast I couldn't do a lot but you know
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I I convinced myself like okay I feel
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okay to play like I'll play so I played
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for like a month after that maybe two
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months and then same thing happened my
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knee popped and I was like dang I
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injured it again and the crutch and the
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brace again and I did this for like
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three or four times where I kept rushing
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myself back into injury because I missed
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the game so much and I missed basketball
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so much and I missed the Comfort I got
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from it and I missed the the just escape
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from the outside world that basketball
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would give me and I I rushed the process
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of my healing and I feel like that's a
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lot of us and not necessarily well So
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Physical injuries but I feel like that's
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a lot of us with our spiritual injuries
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and our spiritual hurts and our pains
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and wounds that are on our heart that
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maybe you have been injured spiritually
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that maybe someone Did You Wrong to
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where they left a pretty big slash on
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your heart and you're in a position
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where you want to rush back and you know
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try to get comfort with another man and
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another woman and let me tell you
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something here that you are
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brokenhearted and the Lord sees that and
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the Lord wants to take the time to heal
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you the right way in the Book of Psalms
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it says the Lord is close to the
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Brokenhearted that he saves those who
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are crushed in spirit and a lot of times
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we don't give ourself time to heal
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because we close off our hearts because
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we've been hurt yet the Lord is close to
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us so don't forsake the power of His
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closeness you see I think of how
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differently it would be if I took the
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time for my knee to heal the first time
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I probably would be in a lot better
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position I probably would have been in
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the same place I was before I got
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injured but because I rushed
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I allowed that hurt to not only not be
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addressed but to continue to hurt myself
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you see God knows you're hurting God
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knows your heartbroken God knows that it
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feels like your heart is dropped to the
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bottom of your stomach but he is near as
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he's promised and you know I wasn't
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planning on sharing this but me
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specifically a lot of people have been
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asking for my testimony right now I
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guess my current testimony I am going
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through the most heartbreaking most
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heart-c crushing breakup right now and
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it doesn't take away the fact that it
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hurts doesn't take away the fact that I
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feel wounded and I feel broken and
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honestly every night I'm
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crying but I've never felt safer in his
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arms and I promise you that he is close
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to the Brokenhearted that he is close to
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those who are crushed in spirit and your
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heart might be broken right now your
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heart might be wounded right now but
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trust me the Lord wants to heal you the
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right way and the Lord wants to heal you
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of all your wounds and all the things
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that have been done to you
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that he never meant for this trauma or
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these trust issues or this pain to come
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upon your life no he weeps When You Weep
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but the Lord wants to heal you the right
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way and I think the wisest thing to do
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especially in a time of fresh wounds and
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fresh pain is to give yourself time to
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heal in the Book of Psalms it reads a
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horse in a vain hope for deliverance
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despite all its great strength it cannot
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save and no matter how strong you think
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you are emotionally no matter how strong
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you can try and convince yourself that
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oh I feel great oh the knee feels good
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you know I want to get back in I'm I I
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can't can't can't end up on that note I
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need another girl need another guy the
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truth is no matter how hard you try to
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convince yourself that you are capable
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of continuing on with this
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hurt I'm here to convince you that God
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wants to do it the right way and God
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wants you to heal right this time that
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there is no path to Deliverance in a
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spirit that is unwilling to accept the
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fact that they need help the horse's
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hope in the scripture is in vain because
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they are hoping for something that they
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cannot obtain by its own physical
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strength and you cannot obtain healing
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by your own physical strength that no
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matter how hard you try to convince
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yourself no matter how many times you
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tell yourself I'm good this neede feel
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good my heart feels fine the truth is
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God wants you to take the time to fully
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heal and the scripture right after that
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I love it it reads but the eyes of the
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Lord are on those who fear Him on those
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whose hope is in his unfailing love not
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the failing love of a man not the
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failing love of a woman cuz you've been
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there and trust me I've seen it too that
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man shall fail you chariots shall fail
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you the world will fail you but the
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Lord's love will never fail you why hope
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in the things of of her texting you back
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or him trying to apologize no do not
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hope in those things for a hope in the
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Lord there is refuge and fullness of joy
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and yet you will never experience that
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unless you take the time to heal it can
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be so easily to for us to rush into
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another relationship rush into another
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friendship rush into another thing but
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the truth is these wounds happen and
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that's a part of our life but we cannot
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be healed unless we acknowledge the fact
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that okay Lord I'm going to take the
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time to heal the right way and just like
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you know a physical injury the doctor
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told me the biggest thing I needed to do
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with my knee was to rest and it can it's
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it's so practical but there is a
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power and resting interesting right how
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a physical injury were required to rest
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in order to heal but I think spiritually
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it is just the same you want to be
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healed rest Psalms 23 is one of the most
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well-known Psalms and that's for a
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reason the Lord is my shepherd I lack
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nothing well I lack a lot of things I
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lack uh her apology I lack uh his
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closure I lack uh her love I lack a lot
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of things and a lot of times we base our
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healing on the things that we think we
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want like oh I I'll be healed if she
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just texted me back I'll be healed if
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you know he just apologized my heart
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would be fixed if they just talk to me
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back and maybe we could talk it out when
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none of those things will bring you rest
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other than the
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shepherd the Lord is my shepherd and I
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lack nothing healing comes from knowing
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that you won't be healed from anything
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else or anyone else other than the
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shepherd the Lord Almighty Yeshua the
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ultimate savior the thing is you don't
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need closure my brother you need need
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Jesus you don't need his affirmation my
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sister you need Jesus the next verse he
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makes me lie down in Green Pastures he
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leads me beside Quiet Waters God what do
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you mean you make me lie down I got
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places to be uh I got her to text I got
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him to text um I'm trying to get married
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by 25 I want three kids by this age I
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have places to go what do you mean lie
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down and it's interesting that he says
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he makes me lie down because I think of
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a sheep why would you make a sheep lie
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down well in the context of a sheep I
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feel like a lot of of us have wandered
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off from the shepherd a lot of us have
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tried to go make our own path saying oh
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Shepherd I don't need you I I think
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there's better grass this way as a sheep
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you might have wandered off to a point
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where you can't even see the shepherd
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anymore but you're too focused on the
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grass around you like oh this is so good
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this is so great and then the Wolves got
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to you why because the shepherd wasn't
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there to protect you because you were
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away from the presence of the shepherd
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and now your legs broke and now you have
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wounds and yet you're still trying to
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continue forward but you have a broken
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leg you can't get far on a broken leg
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just as much as you can't get far on a
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broken heart our Brokenness will only
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cause more hurt and our Brokenness will
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only cause more pain so lie down in his
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presence and allow him to heal you you
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aren't resting in darkness you're
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resting in the Green Pastures of life
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and even though your leg is broken even
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though your heart may be troubled trust
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that you are in just the place where you
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need to be and he leads you besides
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Quiet Waters not the busyness of all
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this relationship stuff no but by the
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Living Waters of his goodness rest and
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let God heal you the right way take the
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time to heal and rest don't run to
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anything else but rest in him it's okay
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to rest my friend if I'm keeping this a
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three-step program with how to get your
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knee better AKA like your broken heart
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the biggest thing that has been so hard
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for me in what I'm going through right
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now but I know that it was necessary and
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I know that it is so key that healing
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cannot happen with a Harden
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heart and what stops a heart heart
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forgiveness oh I didn't want to hear
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that I didn't want to hear that bam you
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don't know she did me dirty bam you
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don't know no he cheated on me b i get
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it trust me if you knew I get it but
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forgiveness is key and forgiveness is
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necessary for Spiritual healing
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spiritual healing from betrayal from
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hurt from being swindled from being
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backstabbed and the thing is you're
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right maybe they don't deserve to be
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forgiven maybe they hurt you real bad
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and you want to take Vengeance in your
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own hands trust me maybe they don't seem
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like they're worthy of forgiveness but
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if we're thinking of it that way when
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were any of us worthy of forgiveness
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Peter asked Jesus how many times do I
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forgive a man who's done something wrong
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against me how many times do I forgive
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someone who sinned against me like seven
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times Peter probably thought that was a
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lot but Jesus said no um actually 70 * 7
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now Jesus wasn't saying 490 times but
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this statement is so profound and
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knowing that forgiveness shouldn't be
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limited we should freely forgive as the
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Lord has freely forgiven us it isn't the
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fact of deserving Vengeance it isn't the
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fact that they they they deserve to
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apologize to you it isn't the fact that
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they deserve to feel the hurt that
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you're feeling cuz trust me I know
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that's what you're thinking I know you
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we've been talking for a little bit but
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it's it's not about that because if that
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were the case with our heavenly father
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then we would all be thrown in jail we
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would all be crucified with him that the
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wages of sin is death and we all fall
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short in the glory of God imagine how
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many times his heart is ACH because
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we've sinned against him and that's the
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heart of forgiveness that helps me
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because it's not the fact that they
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deserve bad because we all deserve bad
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if that's the case but it's the fact
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that forgiveness has freely be given to
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me so to stop this Harden heart I shall
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forgive back that holding a grudge is a
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lack of forgiveness that idolizing
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Justice is a lack of forgiveness that
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wanting to hurt them back is a lack of
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forgiveness yes they might deserve bad
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in their flesh but just as we have been
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forgiven so shall we forgive you can't
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afford to harden your heart you have so
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much more in store you have so much to
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look forward to you have so much
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promised to you by our own very God
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don't let resentment take the place of
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your healing Ephesians 4: 31-32 says let
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all bitterness let all wrath let all
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anger let all evil speaking let all
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dissonance let all of these things leave
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your mind but forgive one another as God
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in Christ has forgiven you it be easy to
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repay evil for evil that you might have
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done been done wrong that you might have
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been betrayed and you're hurting right
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now but Apostle Paul says do not repay
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evil with evil but instead bless and
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that's so hard but as we give him
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Vengeance he returns a heart of
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forgiveness he returns a heart of Peace
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he returns a heart of healing we receive
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healing when we choose forgiveness
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Psalms 55 is probably one of the most
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heartbreaking Psalms because David he's
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hurt he's in anguish and he's been
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betrayed and he's been swindled and he's
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been heartbroken not only by his best
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friend but also his son that they both
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turned their backs against David and now
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David was running away and because they
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wanted to kill him he was so heartbroken
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because he says oh how easy it would be
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if it was an enemy insulting me then I
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could bear it but oh the fact that it's
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my own flesh and blood it makes it all
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the more worse and I know the feeling
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that you've put trust in this person now
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that they've betrayed you now you got
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trust issues and now you got these
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things in your heart and how much more
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it hurts to be wronged by someone who
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you thought knew you son forgive
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her daughter forgive
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him son forgive him and daughter forgive
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her for they don't know what they do do
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and I promise with that lens you receive
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healing it's not about eye for an eye
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it's not about a tooth for a tooth it's
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about letting God heal you and if you
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focus on the justice of others you will
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never focus on the healing of
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yourself so don't focus on what the
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other person deserves but allow the Lord
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to heal your heart by taking time by
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resting and by forgiving and by those
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three things as well as a partnership
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through prayer through petition through
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thanking God for the storms ahead of you
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and even the storms that you're in right
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now I promise you my friend healing will
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happen a lot faster than you think it
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will you take the time to heal you take
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the time to rest in his arms and forgive
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those who hurt you and trust me healing
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comes when you recognize that you need
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help and you won't find that help in
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another man or another woman but you
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find it in God and although it hurts to
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be alone right now better is a righteous
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man in pain than a evil man who is hard
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in his heart in Jesus name name amen
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it's been rough for your boy and I know
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with you too I can only imagine your
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situation like God knows you're going
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through it too but think of that as a
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reason to smile like dang like my God is
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walking with me my God is letting me
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rest in the season my God is letting me
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walk with him so acknowledge the
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presence of God acknowledge that he's
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right there say holy spirit thank you
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for being here because when everyone
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left me you're the only one here for me
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Lord is good and his mercy endureth
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forever
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um we're going to pray for this healing
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season that you're in let us pray you
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want to hold my hand let's go father we
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acknowledge your presence in this
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room I thank you Lord that whatever this
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person is walking through God they are
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not walking through it alone but they
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are walking with
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you so God let them be reminded that you
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are right there next to them God show
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them that you're there for them Lord and
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I thank you Lord that as we continue to
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take the time to heal Lord that we're
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not healing by ourselves but we're
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healing with the creator of the
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universe so God teach us how to forgive
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Lord teach us how to be still and know
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that you are here and teach us God to be
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comforted amidst our pains and
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struggles that although we might be hurt
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although we might be injured we take joy
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Lord in knowing that we have the
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ultimate physician by our side to heal
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our
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Brokenness so Lord let us not focus on
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anything around us
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let us trust that we are exactly where
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we need to be in the arms of the father
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who heals
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all I thank you Lord for making us
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righteous and I thank you Lord for
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healing us each and every day bless this
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person God in Jesus name amen if you
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need prayer drop it in the comments I
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know what you're feeling through you're
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not alone I came inside today because it
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was raining and it's night time but
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thank you for your faith can't wait to
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see you soon God bless
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you and he heard and he answered I saw
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the Lord and he heard and he answer I
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saw the Lord and he heard and he
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answered that's why I trust him that's
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why I trust him I saw the Lord and he
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heard and he answer I of the Lord
