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hey I hope you're good it's wild to
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think that it's been a
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year you'll have either spent the last
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365 days pursuing your dreams or
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allowing time to pass either way a year
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has come and gone and I'm hopeful that
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you've stuck with it and just know that
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whatever happened I'm proud of you
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dreams are a funny thing I don't even
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know where they come from but the thing
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is we all have them and the question is
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do we dare to go after them we've all
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heard those weird motivational gurus
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tell us how and why we should go after
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our dreams but I think when it comes
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down to it we simply don't know how I
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mean sure it's so exciting to talk about
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how you want to go and achieve all these
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great big things but where do we
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start before I set out to achieve this
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dream I wanted to get honest with myself
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what was the motivation behind all of
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this for as long as I can remember I've
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always thought that I wasn't good enough
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was this pursuit of something great to
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convince myself that I was good enough
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or maybe it was for those watching I've
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carried so much stress for years worried
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about what others perceive me as
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successful a failure maybe achieving
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something I worked so hard for would
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silence my thoughts I knew that as the
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days and months would go on I would
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eventually have to come face to face
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with the true
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motivation either way it's time to move
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forward in the Journey of creating
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something new it seems like inspiration
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plays hide and seek surrounded by what
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seems like everyone doing something
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incredible I find myself stuck unable to
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take my first step forward due to
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uncertainty lack of vision but more
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importantly unsure that whatever I do
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will ultimately be worth it
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but instead of letting those thoughts
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lead me it was time to make a change and
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embrace them not waiting for the perfect
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opportunity to present itself but to
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create the opportunity and to step into
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the
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unknown KCK it our Story begins on July
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1st 2023 it all started with an idea an
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idea to document my life and share it
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with others but the idea didn't start
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here we have to go back to January the
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first half of 2023 had led me to
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re-evaluate my life it's not that my
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life was falling apart in fact it felt
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like my life was overall pretty good I
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felt like I was going down a path I once
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recognized but now I no longer find
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familiar and inwardly my childlike
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passions were slowly dying and I
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realized something needed to change I
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slowly started to think about films and
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how I could share and document my life
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in a way that I could use real stories
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and lessons I've learned to share with
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others this idea slowly grew for 6
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months and on July 1st 23 it was time to
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make it a reality the plan was simple
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post a video once a week for a year how
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hard can it be turns out it's really
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hard waking up early every day coming up
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with new ideas every week filming
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editing working balancing relationships
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it all starts to pile up until
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eventually
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[Music]
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burnout running is a practice I
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implemented a few years ago it allows my
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mind to slow down and it gives me a
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sense of moving forward it had been 152
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days since I first started and up until
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this moment everything had been centered
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around me it had led me to a lonely
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isolated and dark place 5 months into
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this journey I had hit what felt like
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Rock Bottom I had been non-stop with
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little to no results and I was
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completely depleted in these moments of
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Solace and silence old thoughts of
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motivations would arise
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why am I doing
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this and more importantly who am I doing
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this
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for in the silence I found that My
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reasonings weren't fueled by the desire
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to achieve something great because I
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loved it it was to prove to others that
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I was something more than my own
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perceived thoughts of how I was viewed
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these insecurities had driven me to an
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unhealthy routine where work seemed to
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take more of a president than anything
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else and because of this wrong
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motivation it had led me to the point of
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exhaustion and emptiness nothing would
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be enough until I could finally be proud
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of who I
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[Music]
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was it's been a busy year full of highs
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mixed with a lot of lows I've had to
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learn Who I Am by going through
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discomfort Challenge and a lot of
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struggle I'd be lying if I told you all
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of this happened because of me the
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reality is that's not true
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[Applause]
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I've been able to Chase my dreams for
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the last 367 days because of the people
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who have encouraged me loved me and told
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me to keep moving forward even when I
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didn't know how I've had to borrow faith
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and strength from others in this Pursuit
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Of My Dreams I've learned a valuable
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lesson there's no dream fulfilled that
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will prescribe a greater identity it
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won't remove your deepest insecurities
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and it won't fill any emptiness that you
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may feel dreams however give purpose
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they give you a reason to move forward
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to challenge yourself and to allow you
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to see who you really are if you step
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into the unknown it invites others in
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and allows them the courage to go after
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theirs but overall the last 365 days
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were amazing and here's to the next 365
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days ahead of
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us so one year ago I decided to upload a
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YouTube video and it was in hopes that a
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year from then which would be now I
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would be able to look in front of the
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camera and say I'm a YouTuber I remember
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just thinking this is not going to work
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this is definitely not going to work and
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I was putting in about 12 hours not I
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was probably putting in about eight
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eight targeted hours like really
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efficient hours where it's like I'm
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filming I'm writing I'm editing once all
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the excitement and um like I feel like
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when you start a new dream or you're
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like I'm actually going to go after this
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it's really exciting for the first like
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month but then when you continuously
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wake up and you continuously don't see
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results that excitement starts to kind
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of like dwindle I remember I called my
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dad
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and I just I I kind of asked I was like
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I just don't think it's going to work he
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told me he's like the the the reality is
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it might not work it might not work and
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when I heard that I kind of was like a
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little bit taken back cuz you want to
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hear from the people that like support
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you like it's going to work you just got
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to keep going it's going to work it's
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going to work and I remember he just
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told me it might not work like it might
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not and when I heard that it kind of
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just changed my perspective because so
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often we hear from these motivational
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gurus and these people that really want
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you to succeed like just keep going just
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keep going like it's going to work all
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your dreams are going to come true yada
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y y but there is an aspect where it it
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might not work and I remember
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hearing that three months in and
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thinking look it it might not
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work but I said I was going to do this
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for a year and no matter what happens if
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it works or doesn't work I want to stay
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true to doing it for a year and that
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actually shifted something in my mind
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because instead of like my goal being
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that something I can't control happens
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like views and people liking my stuff
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and being able to do all this stuff
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because of other people I I was able to
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then shift my focus to maybe it doesn't
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maybe this doesn't work but I can
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control posting a
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video like once or twice every
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month for a year I can control that and
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if my dream is to be a
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YouTuber then it requires something I
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can control which I can do and that's
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posting a video so when my dad told me
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that it really put my expectations into
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check and I was like that's that's true
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your dreams might not come to pass but
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that's probably because your dreams are
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constructed in a way where it's
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dependent on other people and so my
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question to you is what if your dreams
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weren't dependent on other people's
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reactions to said thing but what if
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whatever your dream was was dependent on
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the ability that you have to wake up in
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the present moment and make a choice to
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go after something you can build and
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that you can
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control I don't know that was something
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that
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I I experienced three months into this
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dream journey and I think if I didn't
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make that shift I would have burnt out
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and I would have stopped but because I
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decided to stop worrying like if other
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people will like my
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stuff it it it like it did something so
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I just finished editing the video and I
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was just watching it and I just wanted
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to talk about brick really quickly I'm
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fully sponsored by them I'm not trying
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to like hide that fact but over the last
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year it's been hard to stay focused
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especially when you start to lose the
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momentum that you started with and I
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find myself getting distracted with my
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phone a lot or I use Instagram to get
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inspiration and then all of a sudden I'm
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like scrolling so much um that's why I
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use brick physical device you get the
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app you brick your phone you put it up
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to the device it's brick
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and now when I go to Instagram or
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something I literally can't until I like
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physically touch this device again so
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I'll do this and then I'll take this guy
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and I'll throw it away and I'll put it
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in the kitchen I'll put it in my car and
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I'll literally not be able to use my
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phone it's allowed me to stay super
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focused I just wanted to mention them
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because they really have like helped me
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a whole lot and I'm not going to bark on
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and on about them but definitely check
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them out um I'll put a link in the
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description destion I'll try to get a
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discount code as well if you guys want
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to use it technically I am living out my
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dream right now that I had a year ago
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where I'm making enough money to pay my
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bills off of YouTube which allows me to
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make more YouTube videos but still I'm
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looking forward and
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thinking oh but I'm not there yet oh I
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need this oh I need that and it's like
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there's this carrot dangling in front of
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me and I'm just like trying to grab it
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trying to grab it but I forget to look
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in the past and think wow I've literally
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come so far I should be proud of myself
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I don't feel that way I don't feel that
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way at all which is crazy all I can see
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is forward and what I don't have I just
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hope that you hear these things that I'm
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saying and realize like your
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dreams are
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important and there's something to be
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gone after but at the same time you have
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to have like realistic expectations and
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realize like it takes a lot of hard work
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and
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you just have to like when you get to
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that place that you always wanted to to
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take a moment and be like man this is
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like this is really powerful and this is
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really great because I think a lot of us
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do get to places we once dreamed of and
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instead of looking back and thinking wow
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I've like come really far we kind of
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look forward and say like dang I've I'm
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missing so much and I have to do so much
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more work but um
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yeah I think if if if you've made it
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this far in the video only about 20% of
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you will make it this far um and if you
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are a part of that 20% I actually just
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want to say thank you I want to say
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thank you because the 20% that have
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stayed for these videos are the ones
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that have actually increased the video
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projection and the algorithm to pump it
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so you guys genuinely have changed my
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life and I'm so grateful to say that you
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know we're we're a 20% family um and if
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you're a part of the 20% leave a comment
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letting me know what your dream is where
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you want to be one year from now and I'm
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so excited to make another video one
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year from now and seeing where you guys
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are and how far you guys have come so I
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love you all and I'll see you in the
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next one one sip of coffee really
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quickly
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peace
