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there's this idea in
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union psychology called the
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circumambulation and jung had this idea
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that
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you had a potential future self which
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would be
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in potential everything that you could
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be and that it manifests
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itself moment to moment in your present
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life
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by making you interested in things and
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the things that you're interested in are
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the things that would guide you along
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the path that would lead you to maximal
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development
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now it sounds like a metaphysical idea
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or a or a mystical idea even but
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but it's not it's it's not it's a really
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profoundly biological idea the idea is
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something like well
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you're set up so that you're
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automatically interested in those things
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that would
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fully expand you as a well-adapted
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creature
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well like there's nothing radical about
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that idea
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how well what else could possibly be the
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case unless
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there's something fundamentally flawed
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about you that is what
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the situation would be it's kind of
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interesting to think about how that
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would be manifest moment to moment but
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the idea is something like
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well your interest is captured by those
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things that lead you down
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the path of development well that better
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be the case
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okay so that's fine and so there's some
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utility in pursuing those things that
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you're interested in that's the call to
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adventure let's say
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so and the call to adventure takes you
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all sorts of places now the problem with
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the call to adventure is like what the
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hell do you know
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you might be interested in things that
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are kind of warped and bent
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and often it's the case that when new
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parts of people manifest themselves
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and grip their interest say they do it
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very badly and shoddily
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and so you stumble around like an idiot
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when you try to do something new
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that's why the fool is the precursor to
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the savior from the
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from the symbolic perspectives because
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you have to be a fool before you can be
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a master and if you're not willing to be
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a fool then you can't be a master so
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so you're gonna it's an error
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error-ridden process and that's also
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laid out in the old testament stories
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because the first thing that happens to
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all these patriarchal figures when
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god kicks them out of their father's
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house when they're like 84
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is that they they run into all sorts of
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trouble and some of it's social and some
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of it's natural
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some of it's a consequence of their own
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moral inadequacy
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so they're fools and but but the thing
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that's so
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interesting is that despite the fact
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that they're fools they're still
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supposed to go on the adventure
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and that they're capable of learning
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enough as a consequence of moving
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forward on the adventure
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so that they straighten themselves out
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across time
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and so it's something like this this
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circumambulation that jung talked about
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was this
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continual will return to this this
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continual
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circling in some sense of who you could
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be you might notice for example that
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there are themes in your life you know
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when you go back across your experiences
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you see you kind of have your typical
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experience that sort of repeats itself
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and there might be variation on it like
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a musical theme but it's
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it's like you're circling yourself and
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getting closer to yourself
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as you move across time that's the
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circumambulation now
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you remember that for a second we'll go
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back to it okay so imagine that
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something
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glimmers before you it's an interest
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that's dawning
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and you decide well first of all you're
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paralyzed you think well how do i know
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if i should pursue that
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it's probably a stupid idea and the
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proper response to that is
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you're right it probably is a stupid
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idea because almost
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all ideas are stupid and so the the
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probability that as you move forward on
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your adventure that you're gonna get it
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right the first time
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is zero it's just not gonna happen and
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so then you might
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think well maybe i'll just wait around
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until i get the right idea
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and which people do right so they're
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like 40 year old 13 year olds which is
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not a good idea
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so they wait around until it's waiting
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for godot until
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they finally got it right but the
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problem is you're too stupid to know
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when you've got it right so
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waiting around isn't going to help
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because even if it
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the perfect opportunity manifested
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itself to you
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in your incomplete form the probability
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that you would recognize it as the
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perfect opportunity is
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zero you might even think it's the worst
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possible idea that you've ever heard of
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anywhere
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highly likely highly likely so
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so you have there's nietzsche called
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that a
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will to stupidity which i really liked
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so
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because he thought of stupidity as being
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it you know it's it's
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you have to take it into account
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fundamentally and work with
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it and so and so you can take these
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tentative steps
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on your pathway to destiny and you can
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assume that you're going to do it badly
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and that's really useful because you
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don't have to beat yourself up it's
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pretty easy to do it badly
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but the thing is it's way better to do
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it badly than not to do it at all
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and that's the continual message that
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echoes through these
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historical stories in genesis it's like
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these are flawed people
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they they should have got the hell out
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of their house way before they did
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um and they go out and they stumble
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around in tyranny and famine and
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self-betrayal and and
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violence and but it's a hell of a lot
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better than just rotting away at home
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and that's the that's great so that's
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good and so why is that well
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okay so you you start your path and you
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think that you're heading
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you know towards your star and so you go
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in that direction and
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then because you're here the world looks
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a
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particular way but then when you move
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here
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the world looks different and you're
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different as a consequence of having
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made that voyage and so
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what that means is that now that thing
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that glimmers in front of you is going
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to have shifted
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its location because you weren't very
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good at
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specifying it to begin with and now that
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you're a little sharper
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and more focused than you were it's it's
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going to reveal itself with more
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accuracy to you
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and so then you have to take a
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you know it's almost like 180 degree
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reversal
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but it isn't because you know you've
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i mean you've gone this far and that's a
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long ways to get that
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far but that's a lot farther than
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you would be if you just stayed where
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you were waiting
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and so it doesn't matter that you
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overshoot
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continually because as you overshoot
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even if you don't learn what you should
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have done you're going to continually
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learn
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what you shouldn't keep doing and if you
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learn
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enough about what you shouldn't keep
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doing then
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that's tantamount at some point to
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learning at the same time what you
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should be doing
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so it's okay so it's like this
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now what's cool about it though i think
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is that as you progress
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the degree of overshooting starts to
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decline right
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and that we know that there's nothing
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hypothetical about that
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as you learn a new skill like even to
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play play a song on the piano for
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example you overshoot madly you're
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making all sorts of mistakes to begin
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with and then
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the mistakes
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they they disappear there's a great ted
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talk i think it was about
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this guy set up a really advanced
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computational recording system in his
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home
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and recorded every single utterance his
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young child
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made while learning to speak and then he
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put together
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the child's attempts to say certain
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phonemes
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and put them in the list and you can
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hear the child deviating
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madly to begin with and then after
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hundreds and hundreds of repetitions
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just
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zeroing right in on the exact phoneme
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so you know you might not know this but
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when kids babble because they start
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babbling when they're quite young
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they babble every human phoneme
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including all sorts of phonemes that
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adults can't say
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and then they they die into their
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language
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so that after they learn say english
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then there's all sorts of phonemes they
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can no longer hear or pronounce but to
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begin with it's all there
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which is really quite interesting but so
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they see as they learn
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a particular language they zero in on
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the proper way to
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pronounce that and their errors minimize
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and every time you learn something
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that's how it is and that's really
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useful to know too because
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it means that it's okay to wander around
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stupidly
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before you fix your destination now you
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see that echoed in exodus right
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because what happens is that the
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egyptians or the hebrews
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escape a tyranny which is kind of
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whatever you do
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personally and psychologically when you
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escape from your previous set of
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stupidly held and
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ignorant and stubborn axioms it's like
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away from that tyranny it's like great i
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freed myself from that
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well then what well you think well now
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i'm on the way it's no you're not now
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you're in the desert
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where you wander around stupidly you
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know and worship the wrong
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things until you finally organize
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yourself
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morally again and head in the proper
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direction so that's worth knowing too
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because
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you think well i got rid of a lot of
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things baggage excess baggage that i
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didn't need in my life and now
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everything's okay it's like no it's not
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you've got rid of a whole set of
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scaffolds that were keeping you in place
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even though they were pathological now
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you have nothing
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and nothing actually turns out to be
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better than something
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pathological but you're still stuck with
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the problem of nothing
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and and that's well that's exactly why
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exodus is structured the way that it is
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it's that
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you escape from maternity it's hooray
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we're no longer slaves yeah well now
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you're
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nihilistic and lost it's not necessarily
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an improvement
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but it is but it is the pre see it's
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also useful to know
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that because you can also be diluted
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into the idea that
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imagine that you're trying to become
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enlightened which might mean to
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turn all those parts of you on that
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could be turned on you think well that's
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just a linear pathway
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uphill you know it's just from one
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success to another it's no it's not
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it's like here you are and you're not
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doing too badly and the first step is a
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complete bloody catastrophe it's
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worse and then maybe you can pull
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yourself together
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and you hit a new plateau and then that
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crumbles and shakes and
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bang it's worse again and so because
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part of the reason that people don't
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become enlightened is because it's
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punctuated by intermittent deserts
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essentially by intermittent catastrophes
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and if you don't know that well then
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you're basically screwed because you go
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ahead on your movement forward and you
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collapse and you think well that didn't
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work i collapsed it's like no
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that's par for the course it's not
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indication that you failed it's just
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indication that it's really hard
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and that when you learn something you
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also unlearn something and
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the thing you unlearned is probably
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useful and unlearning it actually is
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painful
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you know let's say if you have to get
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out of a bad relationship it's like not
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every
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not any rel there isn't any relationship
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that's a hundred percent
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bad and so when you jump out of it well
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maybe you're in better shape but you're
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still lonesome and disoriented and you
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don't know what your past was and you
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don't know what your present is and you
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don't know what your future is it's
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that's not that's why people stay with
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the devil they know instead of
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you know looking for the devil they
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don't know so
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so anyways the fact that you're full of
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faults
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doesn't mean you have to stop and thank
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god for that that's a really useful
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thing
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and the fact that you're full of faults
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doesn't mean that you can't learn
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and so you can pause it an ideal and
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you're going to be wrong about it
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but it doesn't matter because what
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you're right about is positing the ideal
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moving towards it
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if the actual ideal isn't
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conceptualized perfectly well first
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surprise surprise because like what are
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you gonna do that's perfect
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so it doesn't matter that it's imp
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imperfect it just matters that you do it
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and that you move forward
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so that's really that's really positive
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news as far as i'm concerned because you
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can actually do that right
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you can do it badly anyone can do that
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so that's
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that's useful okay so like if you were
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an efficient person you would have just
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done that
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but you're not but who cares you know
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you still end up in the
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in the same place and maybe the trip is
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even more interesting who knows
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probably too interesting
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you