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hi I'm Gooby from Gooby and
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doobie so I used to be a
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neurosurgeon I trained or I went to
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college at MIT
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and did uh four years of medical school
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and six years of neurosurgery training
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and and I I I was a neurosurgeon
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for almost 10 years after after all of
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that so that's 20 years of my
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life and I
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quit I quit last
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year and nobody understood why I
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quit uh people would ask but you know a
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decision that involves 20 years of your
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life you can't really answer in a couple
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minutes and most people don't have
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time to sit and listen to uh a 10 or 15
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minute story or however long it takes to
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explain why someone's doing something
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that most people would never do and they
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don't really understand why I would do
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that so that's why I'm making this
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video uh first to help sort my own
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thoughts out about the whole thing
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because there's a lot of factors but
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also to maybe help somebody else who's
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in U in a tough
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spot
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uh if they're in a tough spot like I was
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maybe hearing my story will help
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them get out of that tough
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spot um I'm going to put my hood on
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because there's some mosquitoes out here
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so I
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can think without being distracted by
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them
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so I became a
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doctor uh to help people and I remember
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at the beginning of medical school when
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um I was just starting there was a u
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there was a ceremony and we all took a
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hypocritic oath I remember there was one
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of the old older faculty docs and he
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said that your job as doctors is to
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relieve suffering it's not
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to it's not to uh do a surgery or give a
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pill it's to relieve
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suffering that that might be for from
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doing a surgery or a pill but it might
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be just
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listening
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acknowledging what someone's going
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through that stuck with me all through
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medical
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school and residency and
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afterwards
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um how I became a neurosurgeon is is
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um well I've always been interested in
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how the brain works how Consciousness
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Works how
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how our our brain and body is able to
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perceive this mountain
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side um the stream that's
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nearby um we have so many choices in
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life like is there such thing as a good
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life and if so how do you live that
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those are all questions that I was
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curious about and that led me
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to be C ious about the brain and at that
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time at my medical school there were
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some researchers and they still they
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still are working on this um uh working
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on connecting brains to computers uh
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through a brain machine interface so
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this was this was like science fiction
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um like
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uh
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creating a robotic arm or leg that's
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controlled by a person's
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thoughts that was really interesting to
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me and there were people working on that
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so I wanted to go into neurosurgery and
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learn about that and do research on it
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and maybe one
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day do do a surgery like uh a Luke
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Skywalker replacing his arm kind of
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surgery
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so I went into uh neurosurgery training
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I got
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in and uh I spent six
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years learning how to do brain surgery
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and most people don't know that
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neurosurgeons spent half their time also
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learning how to do spine surgery because
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um spine problems are more common than
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brain
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problems so I spent six years learning
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how to do both brain and spine surgery
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and I did some
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research uh working on rats and
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electrodes putting electrodes in their
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brain
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and and um I was slated to go go up to
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Toronto to work with the guru of uh
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brain machine
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interfaces but as I did more research
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into the problem I I found that um
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this dream
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of being able to give people robotic
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arms or
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legs I don't think will ever happen and
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that's because the brain the brain knows
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that these small electrodes that listen
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to the brain are are not part of the
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body so it rejects it builds up a wall
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of Scar and then the electrodes they
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can't hear the they can't hear the
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neurons the little tiny cells in the
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brain that send the signals
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so so
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the the goal that I wanted to to
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accomplish which was to become a
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neurosurgeon who specializes and does
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research
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on on um brain machine interface
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work um I thought that that
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would that would not work out in the end
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because of those
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limitations and after putting in 4 years
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plus at that time 5
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years of my life that's nine years of my
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from 20 to 29 years old it's like the
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prime of my youth I I I I had put it
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invested it in doing medical school and
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learning how to do brain and spine
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surgery I at the age of 29 I realized
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that where I wanted to go I I would
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never be able to make it it's just not
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not
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possible and after putting N9 years of
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my youth into that job um I didn't want
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to throw that
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away so in my last year of residency I
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um I learned how to do spine Serv urg
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cuz that's what most neurosurgeons do
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it's the most common thing is what a
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regular neuros surgery job is is fixing
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people's um worn out necks and
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backs and I had good teachers to do that
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and and uh you know I
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graduated and
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I I got my first job
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and
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um yeah I knew that some something was
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not right right
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away it you know I had good partners I
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had good hospitals that I worked at
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uh but something was not right I was
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very
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unhappy I I and on the surface it didn't
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make
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sense I had um I was getting paid very
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well
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it was a very well-respected
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job I had good colleagues had good
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support but I was the most
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unhappy um that I've ever
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been and I couldn't really figure it out
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for a long
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time
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um I had gotten married before uh just
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before getting the new job and and and
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that's the best decision I've ever made
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uh my wife is so understanding and
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supportive she tried to help me
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out uh but um really I didn't know what
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was the problem I couldn't I couldn't
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describe
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it uh but you know now I know what it is
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so it's really complicated and I I'll do
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the best I can to explain
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it going back to medical school when
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when I took that oath and I had that um
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older Professor say that your job is to
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relieve suffering you know that's what I
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understood to
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um of what it means to be a good doctor
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and I had learned all these fancy spine
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surgery techniques to do all this
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incredible surgery work through tiny
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cuts and it's called minimally invasive
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spine surgery it's the latest
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technology we use navigation like a GPS
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inside the operating room like all all
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the latest techniques you know I learned
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and I learned how to do well and I I did
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them and I I helped
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I helped a lot of people
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out but there were way more people that
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I couldn't help and that's because
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um you know
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surgery surgery like if if someone's got
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a what's called um degenerative spine
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that
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means their spine degenerated it wore
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out could be a bulging disc pinching a
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nerve or a disc is just worn out and
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bones are rubbing on each other or
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there's a loose joint and the joint is
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banging on nerves causing
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pain I can do surgery to cut
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out like a buling disc to to remove
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something and make more room for a nerve
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or I could I could do a surgery where I
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put titanium screws and rods into the
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spine and lock it down and remove motion
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it's all removing
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things the only thing that was adding
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things was putting in a little electrode
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to to block pain
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signals
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uh if there was nothing else you could
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do but th those were the tools I had I I
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learned to use them really
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well but what I what I realized later on
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is that
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you those those aren't fixing the
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problem there's so many people with with
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back problems neck pain back pain nerve
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pain down their arms and
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legs
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surgery surgery might make him better
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for a little bit
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but it didn't address what caused that
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disc to wear out or the disc to bulge or
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the joint to get
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loose or the the
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the disc in between the bones to
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disappear and then the bones are rubbing
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on each other those surgeries they don't
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address
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that so what what I was
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doing so what I I was doing was
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um there's a lot of
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mosquitoes so what I was doing was I was
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doing the surgeries that I learned how
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to do I was trying to help people but
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these surgeries they weren't fixing the
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problem they would help some people feel
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better some people would feel the same
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some people would be
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worse u a lot of people I saw in clinic
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I had to tell them that oh surgery is
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not going to help
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you and of course they would be
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devastated because I was sort of their
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last hope
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that all weighed really heavy cuz I
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thought I was going to relieve suffering
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and I did relieve some suffering but I
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saw so much more suffering that I
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couldn't
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relieve even if I tried even if I tried
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to do
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surgery I'm going to change the battery
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so um a PA a PA a physician assistant
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that I worked with um he made a good
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analogy that the surgeries we're
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doing is like this it's like you have a
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house and the roof the top top of your
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house has a leak
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somewhere and rain water is coming down
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into the house and it's ruining the
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drywall and you can see it you can see
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water
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damage the surgeries that I could do
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were like going into that house tearing
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down that drywall ripping out the moldy
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insulation putting in brand new
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insulation and rebuilding the
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wall but not
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not fixing the leak in the
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roof that's what I was doing and the way
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I I realized that is
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that I could do a perfect surgery and
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some people would get better some people
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would stay the same some people would
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get worse even though I did the exact
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same perfect
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surgery and some people would get better
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before I could oper praying on
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them even with gigantic bulging discs
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they would get better if I scheduled a
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surgery a month out they would sometimes
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they would call me a week before surgery
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and say oh hey Doc uh you know my my
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nerve Pain's gone um do I still need to
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do
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surgery yeah I got a big disc in there a
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big bulging disc
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right and you that that was
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uh that was very confusing to
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me you know I had learned some of that
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in nurse in residency
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but actually being out there and
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practicing and seeing seeing what
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happens to people I realized that well
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wait a
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second wait a second this this isn't
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quite what I thought it was I thought
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that
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um if I do a perfect surgery people are
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going to get
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better it wasn't always the
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case
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so over the nine years that 9 to 10
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years that I I was a neurosurgeon
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I it really bothered me it really
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bothered me I felt that
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um I felt that wait there's something
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missing here you know
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I my surgeries are not they don't seem
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to
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be they don't seem to be addressing
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what's causing people's health problems
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in their spine I mean it they sort of do
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but but not um not in the way that I
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thought not in the way that I thought
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when I was
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training and so over 9
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years I did everything I could try to do
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to try to figure out but how do people
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actually get
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better and how do they get
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worse and um you I had help along the
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way I had a really good partner who was
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a pain management doc at my first job
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and he really clued me into um a lot of
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a lot of the things I'm going to explain
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here but I just started asking
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patients like everything I could think
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of um what do you what do you normally
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do what's your job what do you eat what
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do you drink do you smoke do you do you
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elicit drugs do you uh you have a lot of
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friends do you
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you how's your family are you stressed
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out do you sleep
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well I I just would ask all my patients
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just kind of this whole bunch of
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questions about their life and what I
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found
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was that
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um
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patients that did certain things would
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get
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better and patients who wouldn't do
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those things would get worse my surgery
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might help them out a little bit but
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they would get worse after
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that um and those things that I I saw
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were the following it's um people that
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got
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better people that
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healed they were doing following and not
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exactly but in general and this is my
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observation
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uh they they
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were having a diet well diet seemed to
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be the most important the food that
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people ate and the liquids they
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drink the ones that would heal up
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they had a low salt diet like not it
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wasn't really
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salty and most of them ate mostly
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plant-based Foods you know like
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vegetable vegetables fruits whole grains
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beans and this is not this is not like a
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vegan rant or anything I I I'm not vegan
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I enjoy a steak or sushi every once in a
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while I'm just describing what what I
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saw over N9 years of doing spine
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surgery people that got better were
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having a mostly plant-based diet they
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weren't eating too much animal foods and
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they were definitely not eating salty
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and they would do things that would make
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them sweat like exercise being outside
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hiking like this going to a
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sauna
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um or they live in a warm
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place um they didn't
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smoke they didn't drink
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much uh
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they usually had a good soci social
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support like uh loved ones family
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members
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children
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friends
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um like a way to socialize they would
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sleep they would sleep like eight hours
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every day and they weren't stressed out
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or they if they had a stressful job or
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something they they they found a way
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to like be mindful or meditate or like
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just be present
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and um release the stress back into the
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Universe
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um that's what I
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saw and I saw that the people who did
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that they would heal so quickly that I
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couldn't operate on them I mean
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sometimes I could but if I was booked
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like three or four weeks
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out a lot of times people would that
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were doing that they would heal before I
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could do the surgery that I thought
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would fix the
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problem and the opposite was true you
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know patients that patients that
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um so they smoked like a chimney they
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sat on the couch and they ate hot dogs
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all day they had no friends they were
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super stressed
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out and um
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they didn't sleep
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well yeah th those patients like I I
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could do a really good surgery I would
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get them temporarily better but 6 months
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year later the same part of their back
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would have a recurrent problem or a
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different part a different joint of
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their back would have a similar
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problem and I would operate on them and
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they might get better for 6 months and
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then
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yeah then the same thing would happen so
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it's the it's the Leaky Roof
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problem so that that was my that was my
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aha moment it's like
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oh I know what's going
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on wait to actually heal you you need to
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like eat a certain
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way sleep a
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lot not be stressed out I have a good
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social network exercise move your body
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stretch if you do all those
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things you
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heal and when your body heals it doesn't
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just
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heal worn out joint in your neck or your
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back it heals everything it heals a worn
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out joint in your neck your back it
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heals the skin problem it heals um your
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digestive tract problem it heals your
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hair
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issues when when your body heals it
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heals
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everything
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and that actually became a huge problem
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and uh let me explain why that's a huge
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problem because most people will say wa
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how is that a problem that you figured
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out how people are
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healing uh it's a problem because our
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medical system isn't set up isn't set up
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this way our our
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um our you know I'm I'm not knocking any
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hospital or group that I worked with
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I've I had the privilege to work with
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really amazing people and amazing
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hospitals amazing
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institutions but the way that everything
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is set up in the whole country it's not
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any particular Hospital the way things
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are set up is that the hospital needs to
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make
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money they need to make money they need
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to they need to
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grow economically they need to grow
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economically and the problem there is
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that if you figure out a way to help
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patients heal
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and that in that way doesn't include a
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pill or a
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surgery
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well then the hospital and the doctor
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are in big trouble
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because if you figure out a way to help
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people heal and you can't charge them
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for
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it well then you've just um worked
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yourself out of a
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job let's just say let's just say um
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like for example there's a hospital in a
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town and um you know there's an x amount
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of people with back
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problems um and the hospital that
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there's a doctor say it was like me Dr
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Gooby was
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doing we'll just say 100 spine surgeries
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in a year to fix those the people in the
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community's backs and the hospital got
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paid Dr Gooby got play
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paid and um they Contin every year 100
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people needed surgery from Dr
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Gooby well the hospital's happy Dr Gooby
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gets paid Dr gooy may not be happy with
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his life
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but he's getting paid and the do the
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hospital is getting
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paid but if Dr Gooby figures
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out
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hey
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um yeah you know what this surgery can
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help some people but really the best
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thing that people can do is eat a
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certain
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way exercise
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sleep meditate be mindful you not be
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stressed hang out with their loved ones
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and friends and then their back problems
00:28:15
will get
00:28:21
better and if Dr Gooby actually
00:28:24
recommended that to his patients and
00:28:26
they actually did get better
00:28:30
well it's a big problem for Dr goobie's
00:28:32
paycheck and the
00:28:35
hospital cuz let's say in that town
00:28:38
let's say
00:28:39
everybody everybody ate more veggies and
00:28:43
fruits they really watched the salt
00:28:46
intake they did things that made them
00:28:47
sweat like being outside in the summer
00:28:50
exercising enjoying fresh air and the
00:28:53
nature and and uh spending time with
00:28:56
their loved ones and they slept 8 hours
00:28:58
every day and they they meditated and
00:29:01
they weren't stressed out let's just say
00:29:03
everybody who had back problems in that
00:29:05
town did that and they got
00:29:09
better they
00:29:12
healed then nobody needs spine surgery
00:29:17
anymore in fact they probably don't need
00:29:19
a lot of things
00:29:23
anymore and
00:29:24
then Dr guy's office is empty
00:29:30
and the hospital's operating room is
00:29:33
empty at least for Dr Gooby
00:29:38
surgeries now I'm not saying that that's
00:29:40
exactly what happened because not
00:29:42
everyone's going to do all those things
00:29:43
that
00:29:45
I that I talked about but I had a lot of
00:29:48
patients that did do those things and
00:29:51
they got better I never had to operate
00:29:52
on them and they were very happy that
00:29:54
they never had to be operated on and
00:29:57
they got better better that the pain
00:29:58
went
00:30:01
away and um yeah so that that
00:30:07
was that was what I figured out over N9
00:30:13
years and
00:30:15
I I still did surgery because you know
00:30:18
not everybody could can do all those
00:30:20
things I talked about I mean just
00:30:21
practically
00:30:25
speaking and so I I I still did
00:30:31
surgery but I really felt
00:30:35
like really felt like the focus of
00:30:38
medicine wasn't in the right place it
00:30:40
wasn't in healing it was in making money
00:30:43
from surgeries and pills and
00:30:48
images whatever you can make money
00:30:52
from uh again I'm not knocking any
00:30:54
particular place that I work
00:30:58
I work for very good hospitals people
00:31:01
have good intentions but the incentives
00:31:03
are not not right in the whole system
00:31:06
this whole country's medical system
00:31:08
probably not just this country but most
00:31:12
countries um it's not about prevention
00:31:15
it's about
00:31:18
therapies so yeah once I once I figured
00:31:22
out this
00:31:24
problem or figured out what was going on
00:31:27
it was a huge problem for me
00:31:31
ethically I was doing surgeries that I
00:31:35
knew weren't fixing the underlying
00:31:38
problem they may be fixing the drywall
00:31:42
and taking out the insulation and
00:31:44
putting in brand new insulation and
00:31:45
putting a brand new drywall and
00:31:48
some pretty color of paint on the wall
00:31:51
but it wasn't fixing the Leaky
00:31:54
Roof
00:31:56
um and
00:32:00
so I didn't know what to do I I I was
00:32:04
doing a job that I didn't believe in
00:32:09
anymore it was the way I was getting
00:32:11
paid and I don't know how to do any
00:32:13
other job at that time my wife wasn't
00:32:17
working I was the only
00:32:21
paycheck we don't have kids thankfully
00:32:24
makes things a lot easier uh we have
00:32:27
dupy our doggy our doggy child and she's
00:32:30
7 years old and but yeah we don't we
00:32:33
don't have like a a human
00:32:36
child and um yeah I I was thinking well
00:32:40
I'm the only paycheck I I need to keep
00:32:42
working I need to keep going to this job
00:32:44
that I don't believe in
00:32:47
anymore and that tore me
00:32:50
apart I gained 40
00:32:54
lbs uh
00:32:59
I was really sad I was really
00:33:01
angry
00:33:03
frustrated didn't have
00:33:05
hope I thought I was
00:33:08
stuck I was
00:33:13
stuck and then um this was the year
00:33:17
before
00:33:18
last year before last I was like I don't
00:33:21
know how I can do this for the rest of
00:33:24
my
00:33:25
life most surgeons they keep operating
00:33:28
till they're 60
00:33:30
and that time I was 38 I was like I
00:33:33
don't know I don't know how I
00:33:36
can I don't know how I can operate doing
00:33:38
this doing surgeries I don't believe in
00:33:41
even though I I can do them I can do
00:33:43
them very well and I can help some
00:33:45
people out I helped out a number of
00:33:48
people but I
00:33:50
I it was a moral dilemma or moral injury
00:33:56
I think there's the term moral injury
00:33:58
it was a moral injury um and it
00:34:03
devastated me
00:34:05
and I kept going to work and I
00:34:08
kept doing my best to do a good
00:34:13
job but um yeah it tore me up
00:34:18
inside and I knew that if I kept going
00:34:23
back to that job every day for another
00:34:26
20 years
00:34:28
uh I would die before 20 years I I my
00:34:32
body and mind and
00:34:38
soul they would
00:34:40
have they would have just broken down
00:34:46
and I don't I don't think I would have
00:34:48
made it I wouldn't have made it to
00:34:52
60 uh
00:34:56
so so I I I knew that something had to
00:34:58
change but I was stuck I I was the bread
00:35:03
winner and I think a lot of people can
00:35:06
relate to this I think a lot of people
00:35:08
may may feel this
00:35:10
way um and
00:35:14
uh I knew that I was dying I I was dying
00:35:18
inside and my body was
00:35:22
dying so you know I I talked with my
00:35:24
wife and I said well you know would it
00:35:26
be okay if if I I just work
00:35:29
part-time maybe I'll cover the ER
00:35:32
neurosurgery job for couple weekends a
00:35:35
month or a week or week and a half each
00:35:38
month
00:35:39
and do something else something that
00:35:42
makes me feel good like being out here
00:35:44
being out in
00:35:46
nature uh the rest of the time and my my
00:35:50
wife you know I was I said earlier that
00:35:53
she's
00:35:55
amazing she said
00:35:58
I see what you're going through
00:36:00
I've I've lived with you through
00:36:04
it you should just
00:36:13
quit and I I said what H how can I quit
00:36:19
you know you're not you're not working
00:36:21
yet
00:36:23
she's she was going to school for a
00:36:26
second career and
00:36:29
and she said well you
00:36:31
know we'll be okay
00:36:34
we we saved up some
00:36:37
money it's not enough to retire but
00:36:41
it's something to live off of for a few
00:36:47
years why don't you just
00:36:52
quit and I thought about it thought
00:36:54
about it really hard and I knew that I
00:36:57
couldn't keep going
00:36:59
back but I didn't know what I was going
00:37:02
to do instead for
00:37:05
work but I knew that I would die if I
00:37:08
kept going
00:37:11
back so with my wife
00:37:15
support I went to my job and I said hey
00:37:19
I can't do this
00:37:21
anymore I will do it for another I think
00:37:25
it was nine months at that time I'll do
00:37:27
it for another nine months until you can
00:37:30
find someone to replace me so that our
00:37:32
that hospital still have a spine
00:37:37
surgeon
00:37:39
um so I I I I just worked another nine
00:37:45
months and I
00:37:48
quit and nobody understood why I quit
00:37:58
I I would try to explain but this video
00:38:01
is probably already 40 minutes long and
00:38:04
people don't have 40 minutes to listen
00:38:05
to me explain why I
00:38:08
quit you know so I would tell them oh
00:38:11
yeah I was burnt out or um it's just too
00:38:15
stressful I I just want to take a break
00:38:19
or
00:38:21
um it said I said all kinds of things
00:38:24
like like that I mean they're all true
00:38:26
but they weren't the full
00:38:28
picture
00:38:29
um and you at first I was like I was
00:38:32
really embarrassed to
00:38:34
say that I'm quitting and that I have no
00:38:38
plan of what to do afterwards that was
00:38:41
embarrassing
00:38:43
too
00:38:46
um but
00:38:48
after after some time had passed and a
00:38:51
lot of people had asked me that question
00:38:53
and I told a lot of people I have no
00:38:56
idea what I'm going to do
00:38:59
afterwards it actually felt good if if
00:39:04
it feels good
00:39:06
to not have a plan it's
00:39:11
um it's freeing it's I got because I
00:39:16
don't have a plan I I don't have to be
00:39:20
anywhere I don't have to do something at
00:39:23
a certain
00:39:25
time um
00:39:28
and then I just kind of like leaned into
00:39:31
it and someone asked me oh what's your
00:39:34
plan I said I don't
00:39:37
know and I felt good about it and I
00:39:40
could tell they felt embarrassed for
00:39:45
me they felt uncomfortable where where
00:39:48
whereas I was feeling uncomfortable
00:39:51
initially saying that
00:39:53
but yeah over time I you know I I just
00:39:57
accept it like I know I can't do
00:39:59
neurosurgery anymore and I don't have a
00:40:02
plan and I'm quitting and I won't have a
00:40:06
paycheck uh I got I got some money saved
00:40:09
up and I can live off of that for a
00:40:10
while but I've got to work again at some
00:40:12
point I can't retire um but yeah no I
00:40:16
need to do this I I knew I needed to do
00:40:19
this and I and I did it so that was last
00:40:21
September I
00:40:23
quit haven't gone back
00:40:27
and um you know at
00:40:31
first oh so so you know this is I think
00:40:34
what most people call a midlife
00:40:39
crisis um but I would say the crisis
00:40:42
part was really the nine years that I
00:40:44
was super unhappy that was the
00:40:50
crisis so I think that's what most
00:40:52
people call a midlife crisis
00:40:55
is what I would say was those 9 years I
00:40:58
was really unhappy I I I knew something
00:41:01
was wrong and I knew I couldn't live
00:41:04
like that but I I felt stuck felt stuck
00:41:07
in that situation felt like I couldn't
00:41:10
um Escape it that was a
00:41:14
crisis now that I've
00:41:17
left I haven't been this happy in my
00:41:19
whole
00:41:20
life it does not feel like a crisis
00:41:23
right now I mean maybe financially it
00:41:25
might be a crisis that's some point
00:41:28
but
00:41:30
I I've never been this happy before
00:41:36
ever it feels
00:41:39
right um
00:41:42
so so what I did when I quit
00:41:45
is I just walked a lot outside cuz I you
00:41:48
I had gained 40 lbs like I said earlier
00:41:51
and yeah I ate healthy I slept a lot
00:41:58
because you know a neurosurgeon they
00:41:59
don't sleep very well because they're
00:42:01
they keep getting called about
00:42:02
emergencies you I nobody was calling me
00:42:07
I slept every night for a really long
00:42:12
time and I walked and I spent time
00:42:15
outside I spent time with my dog I did
00:42:18
the things that I wanted to do which
00:42:21
like be out
00:42:22
here um my dog she's Dobie she's seven
00:42:26
years old and for the majority of her
00:42:29
life she
00:42:32
um unfortunately had a very boring life
00:42:35
because I was so busy my wife was busy
00:42:38
and we take her out for a walk every day
00:42:40
for half an hour to an hour and then she
00:42:43
would just lay at
00:42:45
home the rest of the day
00:42:48
and yeah made me sad made me sad that
00:42:52
that's her life or that was her life and
00:42:56
so I I wanted to spend time with her and
00:43:01
spend time with her outside because she
00:43:03
loves being
00:43:05
outside um and
00:43:07
so so I first started out I want to lose
00:43:11
weight get back to a healthier weight I
00:43:13
want
00:43:15
to help my dog live a full life you know
00:43:19
the way she's having fun she's smelling
00:43:21
things she's experiencing things outside
00:43:28
that's kind of where things started and
00:43:31
I
00:43:33
um I made that made this YouTube channel
00:43:36
Gooby and doobie
00:43:38
to to
00:43:42
um
00:43:44
record the experiences I have with uh
00:43:48
with dubie because she's not going to
00:43:51
live forever if I live a fulllength life
00:43:54
you know she's going to pass pass away
00:43:58
before before um before I
00:44:03
do and um I wanted to be able to
00:44:07
remember the times that I've had with
00:44:09
her and so that's that's why I made this
00:44:11
Channel and recording our
00:44:16
hikes
00:44:22
um where I'm going with this is is that
00:44:25
you know I didn't have a plan
00:44:30
but so where I'm going with
00:44:33
this where I'm going with this
00:44:36
is you I quit I quit I had no
00:44:42
plan but when you let go of something
00:44:45
that you're holding too tightly even
00:44:46
though it's hurting you and you let go
00:44:49
of it then you're able to pick up
00:44:51
something
00:44:52
else that hopefully is better for you
00:44:57
um
00:44:59
I I wanted to spend time outside I
00:45:03
wanted to help my dog live a full life
00:45:06
by being outside with
00:45:09
me and then I wanted to record those
00:45:11
moments so
00:45:13
that if I live longer than duie I will
00:45:16
have those memories I can look back at
00:45:19
them and uh appreciate the time that
00:45:22
that I have with my
00:45:24
dog um that's how this Channel got
00:45:28
started
00:45:31
and uh being outside with her I I
00:45:34
started taking video
00:45:37
of these Pleasant nature
00:45:43
scenes and
00:45:45
um I found them very therapeutic for
00:45:49
myself
00:45:52
um there were a couple stressful times
00:45:55
over this past year due to family family
00:45:59
health issues
00:46:02
and I found that hearing those uh nature
00:46:06
sounds really helped helped me feel
00:46:09
better helped me process what was going
00:46:12
on better be more present and aware and
00:46:16
and um kind of release that
00:46:20
stress stress and
00:46:23
anxiety um and so yeah that's that's
00:46:26
that's how I that's how I I am I came to
00:46:29
where I am
00:46:32
now by letting go of Nur
00:46:37
surgery I am able to be outside be
00:46:41
healthier my dog is able to live a
00:46:43
fuller life and I figured out a way that
00:46:48
I can help relieve people suffering by
00:46:51
sharing nature scenes with them
00:46:57
it's not a surgery
00:47:00
but but it it definitely works to at
00:47:04
least one of those several things that
00:47:07
help people heal which is to relieve
00:47:14
stress
00:47:16
so yeah that's my story that's that's
00:47:20
how that's how um an MIT
00:47:24
educated neurosurgeon
00:47:27
got to the point where they're
00:47:31
unemployed and out in the mountains by
00:47:38
themselves well that was a really long
00:47:42
that was really long and I hope that
00:47:44
that might help
00:47:46
somebody
00:47:49
um I hope that you have a wonderful day
00:47:51
if you're listening to this and uh you
00:47:55
know trust your heart
00:47:59
trust your
00:48:01
heart lean on the people that love
00:48:05
you and do what you need to
00:48:09
do whatever that is
