Woman Dies & Meets God on the OtherSide (NDE)

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概要

TLDRErica McKenzie shares her profound near-death experience, detailing her journey from a life filled with struggles related to body image and addiction to a transformative realization of her true self. During her experience, she felt an overwhelming sense of love and connection with God, leading to insights about judgment, beauty, and the importance of love in life. Erica emphasizes that true beauty comes from within and that each person's life is valuable. After her experience, she became a hospice nurse, dedicated to helping others find peace and love in their lives.

収穫

  • ✨ Near-death experiences can lead to profound self-discovery.
  • 💖 True beauty comes from within, not societal standards.
  • 🙏 Love is the essence of life and connection with God.
  • 🌟 Judgment hinders self-love and acceptance.
  • 👩‍⚕️ Erica became a hospice nurse to help others find peace.
  • 🌈 Life is a gift; make a positive impact while you can.
  • 💬 Communication and honesty are vital in relationships.
  • 🌌 Every individual's life is valuable and important.
  • 🌱 Embrace your gifts and share them with the world.
  • 💪 Overcoming struggles can lead to a deeper understanding of oneself.

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  • 00:00:00 - 00:05:00

    The speaker describes a profound experience of leaving their body, feeling exhilarated and grateful for their life. They reflect on their small-town upbringing in Nebraska, where they felt a strong sense of community and participated in various activities. However, they also recount the pressure they felt regarding their appearance, leading to struggles with bulimia from a young age.

  • 00:05:00 - 00:10:00

    The speaker shares their journey through addiction to a diet pill, which they took for nine years, leading to severe health issues. They describe manic behaviors and the strain it put on their marriage, culminating in a moment of crisis where they realized they needed help but were too ashamed to admit it.

  • 00:10:00 - 00:15:00

    After a near-death experience, the speaker recounts being taken to a church by a stranger, where they felt a divine presence and let go of their earthly struggles. They describe a feeling of expansion and love, realizing that their true self is not confined to their physical body.

  • 00:15:00 - 00:20:00

    In the afterlife, the speaker experiences a life review, filled with love and understanding from God. They learn that judgment is the opposite of love and that self-judgment leads to toxic behaviors. They are given gifts of patience, beauty, knowledge, and wisdom to take back to Earth.

  • 00:20:00 - 00:25:00

    The speaker witnesses souls being lifted to heaven and feels God's sadness for those left behind. They understand the importance of free will in choosing a connection with God and the love that fuels the soul's journey.

  • 00:25:00 - 00:35:02

    Upon returning to their body, the speaker struggles to communicate their experience to medical professionals who doubt their story. They eventually find healing and strength, realizing the importance of love and connection in life, and feel compelled to help others through hospice nursing.

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ビデオQ&A

  • What did Erica experience during her near-death experience?

    Erica felt an exhilarating sense of freedom and love, realizing her true self beyond her physical body.

  • How did Erica's past struggles influence her life?

    Erica faced body image issues and addiction, which led to a near-death experience that changed her perspective on life.

  • What message did Erica receive from God during her experience?

    God emphasized the importance of love, free will, and the value of every individual's life.

  • What did Erica learn about judgment?

    She learned that judgment is the opposite of love and that self-judgment can hinder self-love.

  • How did Erica's experience affect her view on life?

    She now advocates for love, compassion, and the importance of making a difference in the world.

  • What gifts did God give Erica during her experience?

    God gave her the gifts of patience, beauty, knowledge, and wisdom.

  • What was Erica's realization about beauty?

    True beauty comes from within and is not defined by societal standards.

  • How did Erica's husband react to her experience?

    He initially struggled to believe her but later supported her and felt remorse for doubting her.

  • What does Erica encourage others to do?

    She encourages people to embrace life, feel loved, and make a positive impact.

  • What profession did Erica pursue after her experience?

    She became a hospice nurse, wanting to provide peace to others facing death.

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    When I left my body, it didn't
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    hurt. And when I took that last breath,
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    it was like now I can really breathe,
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    like really breathe. And it was the most
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    incredible, exhilarating feeling. It was
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    like, "Oh, this is me. This is really
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    me." And it was like I was
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    expanded. I remember just like watching
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    everything unfolding. I remember seeing
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    the ambulance was still driving there
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    almost in the parking lot coming to me.
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    They get my body on the stretcher and
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    they start doing life-saving measures to
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    get me to the hospital. I just remember
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    watching all of this almost like it's a
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    movie and having these feelings like,
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    "Oh my gosh, these people really care.
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    They don't even know me. Look how hard
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    they're they're trying to help me."
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    I now started admiring my body and
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    going, "Yes, I'm grateful for that body.
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    I'm grateful for my time here, but
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    that's not really me.
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    I'm Erica McKenzie and I'm from Arapo,
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    Nebraska. Small town in Nebraska.
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    Actually, a town of about a thousand
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    people.
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    no stop lightss in town or anything. Uh
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    you didn't lock your doors. In fact, you
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    left your keys in the ignition in your
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    car. Most generally, it was very much
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    this small community. Everyone knew
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    everyone. Looking back now, there are so
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    many things I actually do appreciate
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    about it. I was able to participate in
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    everything I wanted to. I was the editor
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    of the newspaper. I participated in
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    plays and in the marching band and in
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    jazz
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    band. There came a point when I was in
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    junior high where all of a sudden it
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    mattered what you looked like and you
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    were judged for it. And I for whatever
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    reason was the person that put a
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    tremendous amount of pressure on myself.
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    And so I just kept thinking, okay, well,
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    I'm not good enough. That's why people
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    are making me feel bad about my
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    appearance and myself. And so what can I
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    do to change
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    it? I began to do things to my body to
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    try to change so that people would like
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    me and they would let me in their friend
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    group or fit in, you know, and um
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    bulimia. That's what my thing was at 12
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    years
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    old. Looking back now, I was never
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    overweight. Even though I saw myself
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    like
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    that, didn't matter how much older I
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    got. High school, college, being a young
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    bride, then going on and being a mother,
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    working in the workforce, there always
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    seemed to be at times this um
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    judgment where I would feel the pressure
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    again to oh no, okay, I'm not good
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    enough, you know, what am I doing wrong?
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    And that was the bulimia pattern. It
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    just stayed with me and that's how I
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    coped with
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    it. Fast forward to my first nursing job
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    out of school was for some doctors that
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    prescribed fentamine, fenfen, which is a
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    class 5 narcotic. It's a diet pill. And
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    back then it was all the rage and people
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    were taking it for weight loss.
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    I never experimented with drugs growing
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    up or anything. Just had alcohol. And so
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    I didn't realize how
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    addictive it is. And I didn't even see
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    it that it was controlling my life. I
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    was completely addicted to it. And it
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    was an awful secret that I I hid from
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    everybody including my husband because
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    this pill you should not be on long
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    term. The way it was pharmaceutically
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    designed, it was to be on for a handful
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    of months under doctor's supervision. It
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    was never designed to take for nine
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    years. And I found a doctor who was
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    willing to prescribe
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    it. Unfortunately, the biggest side
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    effects of this medication are you don't
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    eat and then I didn't sleep at all. I
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    mean, this medicine, I guess what they
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    say now, having an opportunity to
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    research what I was on years later, it's
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    equivalent to like speed. Um, it makes
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    you just go, go, go. You're you just
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    keep going. You're never tired. Well,
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    try to not eat or sleep for nearly 9
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    years.
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    I could start to feel physical side
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    effects and problems from taking the
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    medication and it was terrifying,
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    especially like breathing where I would
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    lay down to try to fall asleep at night
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    and um I just like feel myself finally
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    drifting off only to be violently awoken
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    getting out of bed and jumping up and
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    down trying to get my breath. It was
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    like my lungs weren't remembering what
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    to do and it feels like it's starting to
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    shut down. It's
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    terrifying. Over and over I live this
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    scenario. I was doing very manic things
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    like I'd be out in our yard midnight
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    with a flood light digging a trench to
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    make a homemade like waterfall thing run
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    through the back of our yard.
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    Well, if you're a landscaper, I guess
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    that's, you know, relevant. But, um, if
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    it's 1 in the morning, you know,
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    midnight, um, that's not a normal thing
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    to do. There were so many behaviors that
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    I started having because of not eating
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    and sleeping. I mean, it's just like
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    very manic. And my husband was just so
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    worried and he didn't understand what
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    was going on. And like I said, I denied
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    everything. I wouldn't let him in. I was
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    embarrassed. I I was so
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    ashamed. My husband sat me down one day.
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    He had had just about enough that night
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    before was especially bad where I really
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    thought I was dying. I couldn't catch my
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    breath and I was having a hard time even
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    jumping. Usually jumping up and down
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    would at least like restart things. Um
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    this time it wasn't really helping so
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    much. So it was kind of a difficult
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    night and I was up most of the night.
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    Matter of fact, I don't really even
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    think I went to bed that night. And so
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    then he sat me down the next day. He was
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    exhausted. He said, "You know what? We
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    can't continue like this cuz I have to
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    provide for our family and the kids need
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    you." I should have just told the truth.
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    I should just said, "I'm not okay. We
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    need to get the ambulance. I need to go
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    to the hospital." That's what I should
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    have done. But again, I was filled with
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    so much shame and um you know, I said I
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    I'm I said I'm okay. I said, "I probably
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    just need really good sleep." And he
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    goes, "Okay, well, you got one of the
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    kids in bed, your bed waiting for you,
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    you know, so that's not going to happen
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    here." I mean, we had a tiny house, you
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    know, and he's like, "Are you okay to
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    drive?" And I just hid it from him. I
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    said, "Yeah, I'm totally fine." He goes,
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    "You know, that holiday in or whatever
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    down the street, he's not even a mile
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    from our house." He goes, "You will go
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    there and you're going to check in right
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    now and you're going to call me when you
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    get to the room." He says, "You are
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    going to sleep. You need to get rest."
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    I drove, like you said, to that Holiday
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    Inn, got to the counter to check in. The
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    gal behind the counter says to me, "I am
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    so sorry, honey. We have no room at the
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    end. We are completely booked. There's a
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    convention and you know, there wasn't a
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    lot of hotels out there at that time."
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    I started getting like really
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    lightheaded, almost like I just couldn't
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    even it was like she was blah blah blah
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    blah. But she was trying to be helpful
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    and explain that there was another hotel
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    about 2 miles up the road. But part of
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    me was feeling
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    like I'm going to pass
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    out. And when I
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    do, I can already feel I can't breathe.
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    My lungs is I'm having a hard time. But
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    this time I'm not going to wake up.
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    I'm just crying at this point in the
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    car. I'm like, "God, I can't do this." I
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    just said, "Please get me to this next
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    hotel, God. And I will
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    rest." I finally pull into this parking
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    lot of this
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    hotel. I was very lightheaded walking
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    and checking into the front desk there.
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    When the door
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    shut, I said, "Okay, I I like to take
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    baths. It's very relaxing. Um, maybe I
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    should just take a nice warm bath and
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    calm down. And then maybe calming down
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    enough will get me in this kind of a zen
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    space that I can actually lay down and
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    um, take
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    rest. I began to run the water to fill
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    the bathtub.
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    All of a sudden, I get this impending
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    doomful feeling that if I get in the
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    bathtub, I'm going to pass out in the
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    bathtub and I'm going to drown and no
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    one's going to find
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    me. It was this feeling that I didn't
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    have time even to shut the water off. It
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    was like a ticking time bomb and I was
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    running out of time.
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    I just found all of the energy that I
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    could and I fled out of the hotel room
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    and I didn't have my car keys, didn't
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    have my ring, didn't have my
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    identification, didn't have shoes on. I
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    remember running across the parking lot
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    and I get to the very last lane and a
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    car almost hits me. The gentleman gets
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    out and he runs around to me. He's like,
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    "Are you okay? Are you okay?" You know,
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    and I knew this was my lifeline. and I'm
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    crying and I'm trying to get words out
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    to make sense. Um, the man spoke very
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    broken English. I was having a really
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    hard time understanding him, but I knew
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    he wanted to help me. And he opens the
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    door, the passenger door for me to get
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    in. And sure enough, I look down on the
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    passenger seat and I have to pick this
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    book up because it's I got to be able to
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    sit down and it's a Bible. He had a
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    Bible and that was God's sign that I
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    should go with him is what I felt. I had
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    this peace in my heart. So, I got in, he
  • 00:10:51
    shut the door, he's trying, he's like
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    crying cuz he almost hit me, you know,
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    and he doesn't really understand
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    English. Well, and I'm trying to
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    communicate with this man that I I need
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    to go to the hospital. I need help. I'm
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    dying. And so, he drives up the hill.
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    It's not even a mile away. And he pulls
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    into this parking lot. There's this hu
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    really tall big man in the parking lot
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    waiting for us. They both um had to
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    carry me um out of the car and into this
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    building which was a church. So he had
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    taken me to his church and that was the
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    pastor that was helping
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    him. He said, "Are you okay? Who are
  • 00:11:33
    you?" Okay. I couldn't remember my name.
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    I didn't
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    know. He kind of got really pale. He
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    knew I was going to die. He knew it. And
  • 00:11:45
    he said, he slammed his fist on the desk
  • 00:11:47
    to get my attention. He said, "Do you
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    believe in
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    God?" I just remember saying with every
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    breath, "I believe in God." And when I
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    said that, all of my breath left. It was
  • 00:12:01
    so forceful. I was up on the ceiling.
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    There was no way for me to get back in
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    my body. I just had to let
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    go. When I took that last breath, it was
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    like now I can really breathe, like
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    really breathe. And it was the most
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    incredible, exhilarating feeling. It was
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    like, "Oh, this is me. This is really
  • 00:12:23
    me." And it was like I was
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    expanded. I remember just like watching
  • 00:12:32
    everything unfolding. I remember seeing
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    that the ambulance was still driving
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    there almost in the parking lot coming
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    to me.
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    They get my body on the stretcher and
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    they start doing life-saving measures to
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    get me to the
  • 00:12:44
    hospital. I just remember watching all
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    of this almost like it's a movie and
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    having these feelings like, "Oh my gosh,
  • 00:12:53
    these people really care. They don't
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    even know me. Look how hard they're
  • 00:12:56
    they're trying to help
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    me." I now started admiring my body and
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    going, "Yes, I'm grateful for that body.
  • 00:13:05
    I'm grateful for my time here, but
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    that's not really
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    me. I remember feeling this angelic
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    presence to my right. It just enveloped
  • 00:13:17
    me with love and I let go is the best
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    way to say it. As soon as I had this
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    like ease of letting go, then that's
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    when I started moving up this
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    tunnel. Now I'm traveling at like this
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    supersonic speed. It was exhilarating
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    and it was filled with so much love that
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    there were so many moments when I was in
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    the tunnel that I thought, "Oh my gosh,
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    I I don't know if I can fit any more
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    love into this feeling because I'm going
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    to
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    burst." I didn't see the angel
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    physically with my eyes, but I didn't
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    need to. Um, the best way to describe it
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    is the human five senses that we
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    recognize here on Earth in our bodies
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    are confining. When I was in that form
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    without the human shell, they weren't
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    confined anymore. And so I was able to
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    see not just like with these eyeballs,
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    right? It was bigger than that. It was
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    so much bigger. So I could see and feel
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    the angel. And the angel was so
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    incredibly beautiful and had this
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    connection to me. It was like how can
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    one person get that much
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    love? We travel for quite some time and
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    I felt the angel presence leave that was
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    replaced with this overwhelming presence
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    of
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    God. God was with me and all around me
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    and it was the stars everywhere.
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    I was in the galaxy. It was the most
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    incredible feeling. And at the same
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    time, I'm like, "Wow, I'm home." I knew
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    I was home. That was home, not Earth.
  • 00:15:08
    For the first time, I had that
  • 00:15:10
    realization. It was so incredible to be
  • 00:15:13
    with God in that presence.
  • 00:15:17
    And I remember having these like just so
  • 00:15:20
    many feelings and thoughts coming
  • 00:15:22
    flooding through my mind almost like a
  • 00:15:25
    rolodex. And God was as soon as I would
  • 00:15:28
    think it, God would answer it and God
  • 00:15:31
    would fill me with more love. And so
  • 00:15:32
    there's this big teaching moment that's
  • 00:15:34
    happening. And then I remember God
  • 00:15:37
    telling me to look in front of me. And
  • 00:15:39
    I'm looking in front of myself and I'm
  • 00:15:41
    admiring all the incredible stars and
  • 00:15:44
    I'm seeing something. I'm like, "Wow,
  • 00:15:46
    that's interesting. the stars are doing
  • 00:15:47
    something and they're lining up and they
  • 00:15:51
    made a huge huge curtain and I saw the
  • 00:15:55
    stars part and 3 2 1 countdown and life
  • 00:16:00
    review of Erica McKenzie and then the
  • 00:16:03
    first picture on this movie screen was
  • 00:16:05
    me in the hospital. My mom was holding
  • 00:16:07
    me. She had just given birth to me.
  • 00:16:11
    We start at that moment of the day I was
  • 00:16:14
    born and we proceed to live all of these
  • 00:16:18
    moments in my
  • 00:16:20
    life. One of the first memories was I
  • 00:16:23
    was losing my first tooth in first grade
  • 00:16:26
    and then I remember uh like in third
  • 00:16:28
    grade winning the spelling bee and then
  • 00:16:32
    graduating from high school, getting
  • 00:16:34
    married, becoming a mother. And I
  • 00:16:37
    remember as we were reviewing them, I'm
  • 00:16:40
    getting filled with all of this love and
  • 00:16:42
    admiration from God and teaching moments
  • 00:16:46
    that were all positive. I'm relishing in
  • 00:16:49
    that. I'm basking in that. I I just am
  • 00:16:53
    starting to feel like though this human
  • 00:16:57
    rational side of me which was wait. I
  • 00:17:01
    was raised in a Christian home where we
  • 00:17:04
    were taught that you would be judged.
  • 00:17:06
    You were a sinner. So then I start
  • 00:17:09
    panicking and I'm thinking,
  • 00:17:11
    okay, God is not judging me. Why am I
  • 00:17:14
    not being judged? Well, remember God and
  • 00:17:17
    I, it was like telepathy telepathically.
  • 00:17:21
    So I'm having these thoughts and God's
  • 00:17:22
    reading my thoughts and he replaces it
  • 00:17:25
    with love. God loved me. God did not
  • 00:17:29
    judge me.
  • 00:17:32
    Judgment is the opposite of love. That
  • 00:17:36
    is what God was trying to start to make
  • 00:17:38
    me
  • 00:17:39
    understand. We have no right to judge
  • 00:17:43
    anybody else. And we have no right to
  • 00:17:46
    judge
  • 00:17:49
    ourselves. If you judge yourself, you
  • 00:17:51
    can't love
  • 00:17:52
    yourself. I had it all wrong when I was
  • 00:17:55
    on Earth. I wasted so much time judging
  • 00:17:58
    myself. and look what I did to myself.
  • 00:18:00
    The toxic behaviors that I did that led
  • 00:18:02
    to my
  • 00:18:06
    death. I remember God telling me to look
  • 00:18:09
    to my right. Then all of a sudden in
  • 00:18:12
    front of me appeared this big pair of
  • 00:18:15
    eyeglasses that you wear to see except
  • 00:18:18
    for this wasn't normal size. This was
  • 00:18:20
    the size of like a small Volkswagen bug
  • 00:18:23
    vehicle. It's the best I can describe.
  • 00:18:25
    And God told me to put them on. And
  • 00:18:28
    there was no way. How would I be able to
  • 00:18:29
    put those on? I mean, they're the size
  • 00:18:31
    of a vehicle and I'm a person. I
  • 00:18:34
    remember my hands going and picking up
  • 00:18:37
    these huge glasses and pulling drawing
  • 00:18:40
    them near to my face and putting them
  • 00:18:42
    on. And you know, by the time they got
  • 00:18:44
    to my face, I put them on, they fit me
  • 00:18:47
    perfectly. And God said, "Now look."
  • 00:18:52
    This time I saw everything that wasn't
  • 00:18:56
    in the first life review and God
  • 00:18:58
    explained to me that these are the
  • 00:19:01
    things that you're going to be seeing
  • 00:19:03
    that are important to
  • 00:19:06
    him. One of the first memories I was in
  • 00:19:10
    Brownies when I was a little girl and we
  • 00:19:12
    were at the rest home. I had wandered
  • 00:19:14
    off from the group. They came to find me
  • 00:19:17
    and I was in one of the residents room
  • 00:19:21
    and I was sitting on her lap and I was
  • 00:19:23
    brushing her hair and I was singing
  • 00:19:25
    Jesus loves me, that song that you learn
  • 00:19:28
    in church um to her and the amount of
  • 00:19:33
    love that that woman felt back was
  • 00:19:39
    just so powerful.
  • 00:19:42
    just that little thing that I
  • 00:19:47
    did. So many times we don't pay
  • 00:19:50
    attention to those things that we're
  • 00:19:52
    doing that really are making the
  • 00:19:53
    difference. We don't put value to them.
  • 00:19:55
    We don't think they are important. And
  • 00:19:57
    here God was teaching me through this
  • 00:19:59
    whole lesson that that's all that
  • 00:20:02
    matters.
  • 00:20:06
    My eyes are being led to look up and I'm
  • 00:20:09
    looking past the stars and I see appear
  • 00:20:13
    in front of me
  • 00:20:15
    bookshelves. The biggest bookshelf
  • 00:20:17
    you've ever known because it's so tall
  • 00:20:21
    that it's disappeared past, you know,
  • 00:20:24
    the farthest point that I could
  • 00:20:26
    see. Appeared on all of the shelves were
  • 00:20:29
    gifts. They were all so individually
  • 00:20:32
    incredibly
  • 00:20:34
    different. And then God started telling
  • 00:20:37
    me, Erica, when you were born, I gave
  • 00:20:40
    you the gift of patience and I gave you
  • 00:20:42
    the gift of beauty. I didn't think I was
  • 00:20:45
    pretty. If I was, like I told God, it's
  • 00:20:48
    not true. Why was I treated like that?
  • 00:20:52
    He gently stopped me in my tracks and
  • 00:20:55
    corrected me and he said again when you
  • 00:20:59
    were born I gave you the gift of
  • 00:21:01
    patience and I gave you the gift of
  • 00:21:05
    beauty. And in that
  • 00:21:08
    moment I understood for the first
  • 00:21:12
    time what the gift of beauty really
  • 00:21:16
    means. It's not what I was taught to
  • 00:21:20
    believe. what
  • 00:21:22
    mankind
  • 00:21:23
    believes. This was what God believes is
  • 00:21:27
    beautiful. And it was the beauty came
  • 00:21:30
    from within my heart. My
  • 00:21:34
    heart. And it was such a relief for the
  • 00:21:37
    first time to really not just hear it,
  • 00:21:40
    but to feel it that I was enough.
  • 00:21:49
    All of a sudden, in front of me appears
  • 00:21:51
    the Earth. It's
  • 00:21:53
    huge. And it's close enough that I can
  • 00:21:57
    feel all of my family and
  • 00:21:59
    friends. I see something that doesn't
  • 00:22:02
    look
  • 00:22:03
    natural. I remember telling myself,
  • 00:22:06
    gosh, what is that? You know, and no
  • 00:22:08
    sooner am I thinking, oh, what is that?
  • 00:22:10
    And studying it, I'm able to like laser
  • 00:22:12
    focus on it better. And I I can see that
  • 00:22:15
    it's flames of fire, and they're
  • 00:22:17
    engulfing the planet. So now I have this
  • 00:22:21
    impending sense of
  • 00:22:23
    fear, almost uncontrollable fear, and
  • 00:22:26
    I'm terrified. And I say to God, "Oh my
  • 00:22:29
    God, my kids are down there, my family,
  • 00:22:31
    my friends, you know, the animals are.
  • 00:22:33
    What's God help? Look, there's there's
  • 00:22:36
    flames. There's fire." I'm seeing these
  • 00:22:39
    flicks of this almost mercury
  • 00:22:42
    consistence and they're like shooting
  • 00:22:44
    off between all the flames all over the
  • 00:22:46
    earth and I'm watching them and they're
  • 00:22:49
    coming up and they're going above me and
  • 00:22:51
    now they're going past me into I wasn't
  • 00:22:54
    allowed to turn around at at the time
  • 00:22:56
    but I knew they were going into heaven.
  • 00:22:59
    There was hundreds and then thousands.
  • 00:23:02
    God explained to me those were the
  • 00:23:05
    souls. They were lifting off and look at
  • 00:23:08
    them. They were all unscathed from these
  • 00:23:12
    flames. Every time it was going past me,
  • 00:23:14
    I had like this flood wash over me of
  • 00:23:17
    relief. I was so relieved that they were
  • 00:23:23
    saved. This is the first time that I
  • 00:23:25
    ever felt sadness, tremendous amount of
  • 00:23:28
    sadness from God. I find myself trying
  • 00:23:31
    to comfort God, saying, "No, no, God,
  • 00:23:33
    look, they're okay. They're fine. It's
  • 00:23:37
    okay. They're all going into heaven.
  • 00:23:38
    They are fine. And he said to me,
  • 00:23:42
    "Look." So, I had to look again. And
  • 00:23:45
    what I didn't see the first time, I'm
  • 00:23:47
    now seeing there was these little
  • 00:23:49
    flickers. The souls that weren't lifting
  • 00:23:52
    off, and he was sad for them. They were
  • 00:23:57
    being left
  • 00:23:59
    behind. This sadness from God was so
  • 00:24:03
    strong. It was not like him losing one
  • 00:24:06
    child. It was like him losing so many
  • 00:24:08
    children all at once. That's how
  • 00:24:11
    profound it was. And I said, "No, no,
  • 00:24:13
    no. You You can help them. I know you
  • 00:24:15
    can help them. Help
  • 00:24:17
    them." And he said,
  • 00:24:20
    "Eric, when you were
  • 00:24:22
    born, I gave you and I gave each of my
  • 00:24:27
    children the gift of life. But with the
  • 00:24:30
    gift of life hand in hand I gave free
  • 00:24:33
    will and free will is the
  • 00:24:37
    choice. Everybody gets to choose if they
  • 00:24:40
    want that love connection with
  • 00:24:43
    God. The love
  • 00:24:47
    connection is the
  • 00:24:50
    energy. What is needed our souls when we
  • 00:24:53
    are there the fuel is the love
  • 00:24:56
    connection. If we choose the love
  • 00:24:58
    connection, the free will, they are
  • 00:25:00
    lifted off. That's the energy they
  • 00:25:03
    need. All of the focus from him, his
  • 00:25:05
    heart at that moment was hurting for the
  • 00:25:08
    ones that were choosing not to have that
  • 00:25:14
    connection. After the very last soul
  • 00:25:17
    flew past me and I knew went safely into
  • 00:25:20
    heaven, I expected that this was my time
  • 00:25:24
    to be able to go in and join everybody,
  • 00:25:25
    all the souls into
  • 00:25:27
    heaven. And I remember just like super
  • 00:25:31
    excited and feeling like running, like
  • 00:25:34
    I'm going to start running now into
  • 00:25:36
    heaven and, you know, join everybody.
  • 00:25:38
    And I was like frozen in my tracks
  • 00:25:40
    almost unless God stopped me. And um
  • 00:25:42
    said, "Uh, oh no, no, child. You're not
  • 00:25:48
    staying." And he said, "Before I send
  • 00:25:50
    you back, I want to have you take your
  • 00:25:54
    gifts of, you know, patience and beauty.
  • 00:25:57
    And now I want to give you two more
  • 00:25:58
    gifts. I'm going to give you knowledge
  • 00:26:00
    and
  • 00:26:01
    wisdom. And when you go back, I want you
  • 00:26:05
    to be quiet and
  • 00:26:07
    listen to the people that I put into
  • 00:26:10
    your
  • 00:26:10
    life. And then when you speak, you will
  • 00:26:14
    take patience, beauty, knowledge, and
  • 00:26:16
    wisdom, and you will change millions of
  • 00:26:19
    people's lives. And I remember trying to
  • 00:26:22
    quickly come up with an argument to
  • 00:26:24
    rebuttal that with God. But before I
  • 00:26:27
    could even argue it, I remember feeling
  • 00:26:29
    like I was pushed into this
  • 00:26:32
    tunnel. This tunnel was completely the
  • 00:26:37
    opposite of what I came up to heaven in.
  • 00:26:40
    This was extremely slow. And I remember
  • 00:26:44
    hearing something, but it was very
  • 00:26:46
    faint. I had to really listen. And I'm
  • 00:26:51
    like, "Oh my gosh, that's human voices."
  • 00:26:54
    And it was
  • 00:26:56
    terrifying. Everything was negative. It
  • 00:26:59
    was angerfilled, loathing, hate, just
  • 00:27:03
    the most awful things you would ever
  • 00:27:05
    hear in
  • 00:27:06
    conversation. And then I'm feeling
  • 00:27:09
    something now from the bottom of me. I
  • 00:27:12
    can feel hands all over me, pulling on
  • 00:27:14
    me. I am right hovering above them and
  • 00:27:18
    they're trying to pull me down because
  • 00:27:20
    they I'm the only light they can see.
  • 00:27:22
    And I'm terrified because with every
  • 00:27:24
    sense that I can feel their fingers,
  • 00:27:27
    it's draining the life force out of me.
  • 00:27:30
    I was not home. God was not there. And
  • 00:27:33
    the only thing I could do as I cried out
  • 00:27:35
    to God, I said, "God, help me. Please
  • 00:27:38
    help me. I love you. I don't want to be
  • 00:27:41
    here." When I cried out to him, I had
  • 00:27:44
    established that love connection again.
  • 00:27:48
    And as soon as I did that, I could feel
  • 00:27:50
    all these hands reluctantly lifting off
  • 00:27:52
    of me. They couldn't pull me anymore.
  • 00:27:54
    And I was now lifting back up high
  • 00:27:57
    enough that they couldn't reach
  • 00:27:59
    me. I had this connection with God the
  • 00:28:03
    whole entire time. It was the fuel
  • 00:28:06
    propelling me back to Earth. And
  • 00:28:09
    eventually, I found myself hovering over
  • 00:28:13
    my body in the emergency room. And I
  • 00:28:16
    knew the inevitable, which was I was
  • 00:28:20
    going to have to go back into that body.
  • 00:28:23
    I looked down at my body. I didn't have
  • 00:28:25
    enough time to even think or argue
  • 00:28:26
    anything else. And I got forced right
  • 00:28:28
    back into my
  • 00:28:30
    body. I regained
  • 00:28:33
    consciousness. I look at my husband and
  • 00:28:36
    he's so
  • 00:28:38
    just he's just so grateful and I could
  • 00:28:41
    feel the love from him and relief.
  • 00:28:45
    And I remember, oh my god, I I have got
  • 00:28:49
    to tell him what just happened to me,
  • 00:28:51
    you know? I have got I've been to
  • 00:28:52
    heaven, man. Okay. Well, I had no voice.
  • 00:28:56
    No voice. Nothing was coming out of my
  • 00:28:59
    mouth no matter how hard I tried. And
  • 00:29:02
    they're like, "Rest, rest." You know,
  • 00:29:04
    the nurses are giving me the IV fluids
  • 00:29:06
    and everything like, "Don't even try to
  • 00:29:08
    talk." They're like, "You need to rest."
  • 00:29:14
    I awoken to the doctor walking into the
  • 00:29:17
    room. He said, "Oh, you're with us. Good
  • 00:29:20
    morning, Mrs. McKenzie. How are you
  • 00:29:22
    doing this morning?" I'm just like, "Oh
  • 00:29:25
    my gosh. Oh, no, no, doctor. Don't do
  • 00:29:27
    the health assessment yet. No, no, no.
  • 00:29:28
    We don't have time for that cuz he's
  • 00:29:29
    like going to start, you know, listening
  • 00:29:31
    to my heart and all that kind of stuff."
  • 00:29:32
    And I'm like, "No, no, no. I've just
  • 00:29:34
    been to heaven. I've been with God. I
  • 00:29:36
    have to tell you what he told me.
  • 00:29:39
    I watched the doctor's face. All the
  • 00:29:42
    color just drained instantly from his
  • 00:29:45
    face and his body and he just left as
  • 00:29:48
    quickly as he
  • 00:29:50
    could. A short time later, the doctor
  • 00:29:53
    comes in with the nurse and my husband
  • 00:29:56
    and says, "We're really glad that you're
  • 00:29:59
    okay and you're really lucky that you
  • 00:30:01
    have a husband that loves you so much
  • 00:30:03
    because you need help." and he's agreed
  • 00:30:07
    to let you go to one of the best
  • 00:30:10
    facilities in the country. They were
  • 00:30:12
    sure that I had bipolar and I was
  • 00:30:15
    mentally ill. Based on the accounts of
  • 00:30:19
    the events that unfolded from when they
  • 00:30:21
    talked to like the pastor and the man
  • 00:30:23
    that was driving the vehicle and when
  • 00:30:24
    they said, "Well, she didn't have shoes
  • 00:30:25
    on. You know, she was running across the
  • 00:30:27
    road. She didn't have anything. Her keys
  • 00:30:28
    and everything, he left them in the
  • 00:30:30
    hotel." Those don't sound like logical
  • 00:30:33
    choices, right? And so you can only
  • 00:30:35
    appreciate and understand they're just
  • 00:30:37
    going with the little information that
  • 00:30:39
    they're trying to piece together to
  • 00:30:40
    figure out what is going on with me. And
  • 00:30:43
    so yeah, it was just a really, you know,
  • 00:30:45
    interesting experience when the first
  • 00:30:48
    person that you try to tell that you had
  • 00:30:49
    a near-death experience and you had this
  • 00:30:52
    beautiful experience with God being told
  • 00:30:55
    that you're
  • 00:30:59
    crazy. I ended up going to the male
  • 00:31:02
    clinic in Rochester, Minnesota on the
  • 00:31:04
    psycho
  • 00:31:05
    board. I was away from my family, my
  • 00:31:08
    husband, and they weren't allowed to be
  • 00:31:09
    there. I was there almost a month and
  • 00:31:12
    learning that as profound as everything
  • 00:31:15
    that had just happened to me, that I
  • 00:31:17
    couldn't talk about it because when I
  • 00:31:20
    did talk about it there, um that's when
  • 00:31:23
    a new medicine would get added.
  • 00:31:26
    I got to the point where I was drooling
  • 00:31:29
    all the time. I couldn't function. Those
  • 00:31:32
    medicines definitely have a place. But
  • 00:31:35
    when you're taking them and that's not
  • 00:31:38
    what your body really needs, it does the
  • 00:31:42
    opposite. I had to learn to deny my
  • 00:31:46
    experience. They said, "Well, did you
  • 00:31:48
    really go to heaven? Did you really see
  • 00:31:51
    God?" And I learned that when I denied
  • 00:31:54
    it, then my medicines, I started getting
  • 00:31:56
    less medicines. Take. Oh, she doesn't
  • 00:31:58
    need that one. Oh, let's titrate her
  • 00:31:59
    down a little bit more on this one.
  • 00:32:01
    She's fine. Oh, she's finally
  • 00:32:02
    stabilized. See, never happened. The
  • 00:32:05
    experience never happened. And that's
  • 00:32:06
    how I got
  • 00:32:10
    out. My husband sat me down and he's
  • 00:32:13
    like, "You are back. You are yourself.
  • 00:32:17
    You're strong. and I'm so glad you
  • 00:32:19
    trusted me to let you, you know, go to
  • 00:32:22
    the doctors and let them manage your
  • 00:32:23
    care. And that's in that moment is when
  • 00:32:25
    I told him, I said, "Well, I'm so glad
  • 00:32:27
    that you think I'm back cuz I am and I
  • 00:32:30
    am stronger than ever, but it's because
  • 00:32:31
    of
  • 00:32:33
    God." I told him that I'm not crazy. I'm
  • 00:32:39
    not bipolar or anything. I said, "I had
  • 00:32:42
    a near-death experience. I did
  • 00:32:44
    die." He just broke down crying. He felt
  • 00:32:48
    so bad for not believing me because he's
  • 00:32:52
    known me since I was 18. The person that
  • 00:32:54
    I was before all this stuff, you know,
  • 00:32:56
    so he knew that I was back and I was
  • 00:32:58
    telling the
  • 00:33:01
    truth. I don't have all the
  • 00:33:05
    answers. All I can tell you is what I
  • 00:33:08
    feel from what I've gone through with
  • 00:33:09
    this experience.
  • 00:33:12
    learning to let the ego
  • 00:33:15
    die and let God's thoughts and ways of
  • 00:33:19
    how we're supposed to be living here,
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    which is all about love. It's all about
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    advocating for each
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    other. I felt compelled to do hospice
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    nursing because I was terrified of dying
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    before this happened to
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    me. And now I just always think I would
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    love everybody to have this peaceful
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    feeling. Most people walking around
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    today do not feel that they are
  • 00:33:49
    loved. Each and every one of us are very
  • 00:33:54
    important. What we all bring to the
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    table is so valuable and we are so
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    loved. Life this is a gift. Enjoy
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    it. Find a way to get it satisfying to
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    you so that you want to be here while
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    you're
  • 00:34:13
    here, but make a difference while you're
  • 00:34:15
    here.
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  • near-death experience
  • self-discovery
  • love
  • addiction
  • body image
  • God
  • judgment
  • beauty
  • hospice nursing
  • life lessons