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yo what's up guys
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um just logged in for a minute and I
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started talking to guildy I was like
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whoa this guy's still online like he's
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online he's back so like I just been
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like having thoughts like Reminiscing on
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the past playing like I'm not really
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playing the game I'm just looking like I
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logged in I'm looking at the game
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looking at what I've like done all the
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stuff like I'm pretty much B
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uh I'm
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missing two Ruby sanctum items which is
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no big deal getting Ruby syum items is a
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pain in the butt but they're like I got
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them on
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normal
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but And in regards to like gear I'm
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stacked I I need to lower the Discord
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volume can barely hear myself the music
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is too loud I muted muted it for the
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videoz I don't want to get copyright but
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um shoot long story short I've just been
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thinking like what if I revived hopeless
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apathy or revived Sparta right
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so I've been thinking
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uh like what what if I just
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like like what if I came back to war
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Main and rebuilt the guilds and clans or
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you know communities or like just built
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a community from the ground up with uh a
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completely different Foundation than
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what I had from before right
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um so I I don't know I mean like maybe
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you guys could tell like I've been
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working out a bit like [ __ ] you see
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the definition and the
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muscles a little bit
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like I don't know I'm not like
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flexing uh or saying anything like I'm a
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badass obviously you still I'm like fat
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as [ __ ] still so I'm I'm I'm working on
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myself is all I'm trying to say is uh I
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want to I want to build like a community
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in the game that's a lot less toxic than
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what we used to have uh have in the game
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so the entire Point okay so like take a
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take a look at this uh you know this
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this right here this name so you could
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take a look at this right here
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uh what does that
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mean it means you're hopelessly
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apathetic you have absolutely no hope in
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in life there's nothing for you in the
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future uh your depression has overtaken
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you and you're to the point where you're
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numb you you don't feel anything and you
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don't know if you're ever going to feel
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something but you're you're just
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wandering you're looking for something
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and the idea of this clan this Guild was
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the cure to your depression right like
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instead of wanting to like uh you know
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end it all or you know commit not alive
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or something like that you you play with
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the boys and in the game and you forget
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about all the the a apathy all the you
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know lack of feeling or depression that
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you have and that was the initial point
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this was I think I like made the the
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clan or the guild name uh around Co time
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and so like a lot of people like it
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wasn't just one person like it wasn't
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just me like feeling this like it was a
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lot of people feeling uh apathy and you
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know hopelessness just like everybody
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just felt kind of depressed playing wow
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for like 12 hours a day 18 hours a day
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some ridiculous amount
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um you know we just like just grinding
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having fun you know enjoying ourselves
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instead of like being
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hopeless uh so
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like the The Guild name was a reminder
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of like what awaits us if we if we
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didn't have each other
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so it it was a really great name in my
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opinion I like I like the guild name uh
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along with Sparta like the role playing
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in Sparta was like I'm King leonitis of
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Sparta this Sparta and then I can't like
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Guild kick it was uh I had a macro where
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like I click a button pink and then it
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would spam in all caps this is Sparta
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and then it would kick the guy right
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right
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after Jo and Joey Joey shimi just got
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kicked from the The Guild um by King
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leonitis or something and like the up at
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the top where it says Guild Master over
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here it would say um what's it called it
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would say like King Le king leonitis or
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King of Sparta and it would say leonitis
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right so all in all like it was really
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cool like how deep we got into the role
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playing um then there was a lot of
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flaming a lot of goofy stuff we all like
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I mean like there was a lot of toxicity
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but like you know I'll would be like
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you're [ __ ] dog [ __ ] like you know I
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like I took a lot of [ __ ] from like
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trick 2G and like other content creators
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and what not but like I I had my
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personality which I I thoroughly enjoyed
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it like uh like being a bit of a dick um
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back then but it was it was fun we we
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had good times uh most of the people
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that played with us kind of said that we
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were toxic and [ __ ] but all
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all it was just a really good time
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everybody that was in the clan enjoyed
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it everybody in the clan kind of got
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behind the wheel but now I'm I'm working
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I'm working out I'm exercising I'm
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taking care of myself I'm in a much
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better head space mentally like I I've
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been thinking like I really don't want
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to touch World of Warcraft or play World
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of Warcraft ever again because like it's
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just going to cause negativity and like
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you know bad feelings uh it's going to
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turn me back into that person that I
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don't want to be um which is pretty much
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just a toxic [ __ ] [ __ ] who
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doesn't like anybody or anything like I
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I used to say
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like if I could press one button and
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like just get rid of everybody I would
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kind of and I don't think that way no
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more uh or at least I don't feel that
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way I don't think I ever thought that
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way like that like that would be a good
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idea but more so like I like I felt that
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way like it was like I don't like people
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um I like like that's how I I felt like
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I just like like like I said with the
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apathy like the depression of Co and
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[ __ ] like the the way everybody was
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feeling it was just like like bit of
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emptiness inside right
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um it was also like uh 2020 I think was
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the time when all of the [ __ ] was
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hitting so 2017 like 2017 2018 I got
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through really rough uh breakup with my
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ex
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fiance
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um and Chester Bennington the lead
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singer of lincol Park had had died you
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know the suicide uh situation and he was
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my role one of my role models so I was
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just like damn like I was questioning
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things I was like this is rough like and
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my life was going through a whole bunch
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of [ __ ] so I was just like eh and then
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after that 2019 another guy like I
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looked up to and like really like kind
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of idolized to to an extent I mean you
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can't really idolize rappers like as if
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they're Gods but like you got you could
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follow along no what not but juice World
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juice world was uh was a big
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dude that I really
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respected um his music was really
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good
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uh he like not only did he like rap
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about drugs and stupid [ __ ] but like he
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wrapped about like some serious stuff
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you know like like real things that
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really mattered
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um yeah I mean like all in all like it
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was really good
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so uh juice and Chester just dying like
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back to back and then me getting one of
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the best jobs in my life just to lose it
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all to co and having Co hit and diving
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into my savings losing my savings and
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you know just everything just Molly [ __ ]
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my ass like straight into depression so
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I was just I was like
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H
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um but yeah I don't I'm not that way no
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more I like I started working saving
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money doing my thing uh like I feel I
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feel better like I feel much better I'm
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happier I
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like I I'm a different person completely
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in my
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opinion like maybe I have a a bit of
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a a bit of a like a same mindset you
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know like like obviously you could
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change but you're still the same
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person but I'm not I'm not like
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everything I used to be right and I
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think I i' like to think that I got rid
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of a good bit of the negative traits and
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so I I don't know I've been thinking
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about coming back I've been thinking
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about uh considering playing on war main
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white main or one of these servers again
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bringing the boys together getting
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everybody in the Discord together and
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making more World of Warcraft content
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I've been thinking about finding some
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admins and
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moderators and whatnot so like building
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the channel back up uh paying people
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hiring people uh in terms of like
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Channel growth you know not not like an
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official job but you know like something
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like I don't know $20 $40 a month or
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something $50 a month
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um I don't know just some dude in like a
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different country so they can make more
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money than what they're making and I can
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uh get the help that I need to build up
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whatever Guild Clan or server I want to
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do and just
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like I don't know like you use use the
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idea of like paying people to help me
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build something
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more I don't know like I I just like I'm
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having ideas just swirl around in my
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head uh I got like hundreds and hundreds
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of coins I have currency in a bunch of
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different games I've been thinking about
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just
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like doing something more that's that's
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what I want to do is like just I want to
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I I want to like get back into it a
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little bit like I mean look at this I
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got a I got Shadow Mar like three
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different characters or
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something um maybe I can get back to to
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Warman Community like help people get
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geared
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um I don't know maybe even do GD KPS and
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stuff so I can do
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giveaways
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like that could be that could be a thing
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like the the we if we make a guild and
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then I get like four four admins that
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I'm paying to like raid with me or
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something and build the clan like so
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it'd be like my team of five admins we
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find like six moderators and then we
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have like 14 other people and we just do
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a bunch of raids and do gdkp every
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single raid or something bring boosters
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or something I don't know like the ideas
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are countless there's there's countless
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and countless ideas uh I can pay Editor
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to like you know edit my videos so I
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don't need to so I can make more content
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I I don't know there's there's a whole
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lot of like stuff that I can do to
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progress things forward but I want to
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make this video like the whole reason
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I'm making this video and talking to you
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dudes is because
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I want to get your guys' feedback on if
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I should come back to wow what I should
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do if I should come back to Warman if I
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should uh come back to making content
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for you guys and
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um
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yeah pretty much it like I I want to
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know like what you guys
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think
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um in regards to the reasons I left I
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mean like the dudes calling me pedos and
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[ __ ] uh [ __ ] on me making [ __ ]
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disgusting disain disdainful uh things
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you know losers making content about me
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uh because I have like a I made a silly
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face in one of these videos I'm going to
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be using a webcam pretty much in all my
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videos from now on uh you can make uh
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whatever videos you want you can [ __ ] on
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me however you want I genuinely don't
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give a [ __ ] at this point
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um whatever I do going forward I'm not
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going to contribute all of my time I'm
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not going to go back to playing World of
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Warcraft for 12 to 18 hours a day
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or some crazy [ __ ] like I mean I like I
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remember I was living eating sleeping
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and breathing on this game
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um I would log in and have 10 windows
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open um I would Farm every single zone
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for every herb while farming every zon
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and classic so I would have a multibox
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program Open I would Farm uh winterfall
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fir Waters and like solo molten core and
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[ __ ] some crazy stuff so I be like
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soloing molten core to farm uh stuff
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there and farm all the rare materials
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from the trash mobs while simultaneously
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farming each and every uh like corner of
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ice Crown shalazar Basin for adder's
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tongues and Lich blooms and stuff I'm
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not I'm not going to be like that try
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hard anymore I genuinely don't care
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um I'll Whip off the [ __ ] debit card
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and buy whatever I need or something
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like I I'm
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uh I'm not I'm not going to like you
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know I'm not going to cry if somebody on
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world like a World of Warcraft private
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server is bullying me or harassing me
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I'm just going to move on to next
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character next account I genuinely don't
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give a
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[ __ ]
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um you guys can like like the haters can
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continue lying on my name uh saying
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whatever they want about me it's not
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going to change who I am or what I'm
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doing it's not going to affect my life
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um and unless you guys doxed me and like
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found my place at work and you actively
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like you know did illegal [ __ ] to harm
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me
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uh
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then it's no big deal I genuinely could
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care
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less so yeah I think I'm going to start
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committing to getting back into content
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creation that I I I for sure know that I
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want to get get back into the content
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creation I want to get back into the
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swing of things I don't know what
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content I'm going to create I know I
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want to make like some content that I
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find enjoyable to make if I don't find
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it enjoyable then I'm not going to make
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the content that's what I'm going to do
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is that's going to be number one I need
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to find something sustainable that I
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enjoy doing um in terms of content
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creation and
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then jeez my throat is hurt
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no yeah
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um just finding something I enjoy and
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then finding something that works for
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the audience so something that you guys
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like I've been playing Path of Exile a
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lot uh I've been playing a whole bunch
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of different Steam games I've been
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thinking about project zomboid zomboid
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seems fun a lot of people voted uh in
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the Discord for Minecraft videos so I've
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been thinking maybe I can do Minecraft I
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I always like said [ __ ] Minecraft
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because it's like too basic but I don't
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know I can humble myself force myself to
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play it for a few hours see if I can get
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into it I played a lot of games with
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[ __ ] Graphics or S like simple simple
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games and I find them fun and enjoyable
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so you probably get into
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it
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um yeah I was thinking about doing um
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you know like anime review as well like
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invincibles
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Invincible Dragon Ball Z stuff like that
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reaction content is also cool to me uh I
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could probably do that I was going to do
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uh gameplay lore
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so um I don't need to specifically play
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World of Warcraft every single day to uh
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completely so I don't need to play The
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World of Warcraft thing and raid every
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single day to be able to make content on
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it uh I could do a whole guide on you
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know like heroic be sanctum by watching
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other other YouTube
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videos
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and you guys could see see the thing
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I'll mute the video and then like watch
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the video and react to the video while
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also explaining like how to do
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it [ __ ] I also fixed my cough a bit uh I
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remember like uh couple years ago uh I
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don't know in a lot of older videos I
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was
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like but I got a humidifier and
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um yeah it helps a lot with like
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speaking for long periods of time but
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even then
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um like going this long without drinking
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water or something could cause the
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cough just talking so much it's uh
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something you got to get used to so yeah
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all in all I think I I uh I kind of hit
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on everything in this uh video I am
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considering let me let me see the entire
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rundown I'm going to hit up the entire
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rundown before
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I oh that's
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disappointing oh
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wait okay yeah Minecraft World of
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Warcraft content talking chat so content
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like this right here I can include
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gameplay in the background where I will
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pre PR reccord the game play and then
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add my like live footage so um this
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right
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here like will be live whereas the game
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play up there will be up up there like
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the this right here will be game playay
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um that will be like pre-recorded so
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it'll be from like before so I'm not
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actually live playing or I could do it
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live while uh talking to you guys um I
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could do reaction content politics
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content game lore content as I just said
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so I could do like the lore of tristful
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Glades lore of uh every song woods and
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stuff I could like follow a whole bunch
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of the quest lines and stuff um I could
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also do variety content so there's a
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whole lot of things like just like give
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me uh give me some comments in uh in the
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comment section Don't Be Afraid by the
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way I know you guys always like uh like
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you always get scared to comment until
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you see other people commenting
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uh if you're the first commenter and
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somebody trash talks you or says
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something bad about you like I can I
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could delete their comment for you but
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yeah just uh let me let me know what you
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guys think hit hit me up in the comment
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section hit that like button so other
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people can see the video and uh yeah
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let's let's get this content rolling
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again I'll see y'all soon bye-bye
