Not Alice | Performance
Summary
TLDRThe narrative weaves a complex tale of relationships, authority abuses, and personal struggles, primarily set in a school with connections to family backgrounds. Freya wrestles with repeated bullying and harassment, seeking advice from friends like Jenny. The school production of "Alice in Wonderland" stirs emotions, with Freya striving for the lead role amidst the chaos. Meanwhile, revelations about Mr. Harvey, the teacher involved with the production, unfold, uncovering manipulative and predatory behavior toward students, particularly impacting Grace. The characters navigate these challenges, with Freya revealing the truths behind secrets centered around Mr. Harvey's misconduct. Parallelly, the figure of Charles Dodgson reflects on themes of lost innocence and societal judgment, resonating with the main narrative's issues. As they confront these trials, friendships are tested, choices made, and the quest for justice against Mr. Harvey solidifies, making parallels with larger themes of childhood and innocence.
Takeaways
- 🎭 "Alice in Wonderland" serves as the school production backdrop, reflecting major narrative conflicts.
- 😢 Freya's struggle with bullying highlights severe emotional impacts.
- 👥 Relationships among students and teachers reveal underlying tension and drama.
- 🗣 Grace faces Mr. Harvey's manipulative actions, symbolizing abuse of power.
- 🔍 The pursuit of truth against authority figures emerges as a primary narrative theme.
- 💔 Eleanor faces the complexity of understanding Dodgson's affection for children.
- 📚 The story reflects on the life and perceptions of Charles Dodgson (Lewis Carroll).
- ✨ Themes of innocence and its loss thread through both personal and broader contexts.
- 🧩 The narrative questions the roles and responsibilities within educational and familial systems.
- 🔄 The characters exhibit growth and realizations amidst trials, particularly Freya and Grace.
Timeline
- 00:00:00 - 00:05:00
Two friends discuss the constant bullying one of them faces at school. Freya feels targeted by classmates and wishes for it to end, while the other friend suggests that she might be overreacting. There's tension between the two as they try to support each other, leading to further conflict when Freya's perceived arrogance and the pressure she faces are brought up.
- 00:05:00 - 00:10:00
An interaction occurs between a student and a teacher possibly over a secret relationship or misunderstood friendship. The teacher reassures their value of propriety, yet there's underlying tension around the rumors of inappropriate behavior regarding photographs taken by the teacher.
- 00:10:00 - 00:15:00
Students are practicing for a school play when one of them mentions the school's production plans. There's some banter and bickering among the students about auditions and who is trying out for the play.
- 00:15:00 - 00:20:00
A quiet moment on the playground brings conversation about life's difficulties and ambitions. Some characters reflect on their personal situations, dreams, and the realities they face, mixed with a bit of card trick entertainment from a character named Charles.
- 00:20:00 - 00:25:00
There's a gathering where card tricks and banter among adults take place. Discussions arise about potential relationships and social perceptions. Mention of a party or event where Charles is expected to entertain, and an excursion on the river is planned.
- 00:25:00 - 00:30:00
Discussion involves reflections on roles in a play and learning lines. Personal ambitions clash with the role selection process, indicating discontent among those who wanted more significant roles than they received.
- 00:30:00 - 00:35:00
Conversation between friends reveals potential relationship dynamics and hints of underlying issues. Speculations about someone being gay surface, as well as the serious discussion about school production roles.
- 00:35:00 - 00:40:00
Shocking revelations occur when a character is confronted about an inappropriate declaration of love to a young girl, leading to accusations of immoral behavior. The confrontation ends with threats of legal action and severed relationships.
- 00:40:00 - 00:45:00
Rumor and scandal about Charles and inappropriate behavior with children come to a head. He is confronted by a mother about his conduct, and the situation deteriorates, leaving him isolated from those he once interacted with closely.
- 00:45:00 - 00:50:00
Aftermath of scandal: friendships severed, relationships and reputations destroyed. There's a sense of impending punishment or judgment. Charles struggles with the consequences of his actions and the perceptions of those around him.
- 00:50:00 - 00:55:00
Further tension as Charles reflects on the gravity of his situation and the loss of his relationships. There's a deep dive into how his perceived love and passion were misunderstood and deemed wrong.
- 00:55:00 - 01:00:00
Characters discuss the realities of bygone friendships and broken trust, with emphasis on how personal relationships have been affected by scandal. Conversations about the impact of one's reputation and the fear of discovery.
- 01:00:00 - 01:05:00
Reveal of betrayal and an insight into Charles' personal struggles after his public shaming. Letters exchanged between characters emphasize the deep emotional wounds caused by the scandal.
- 01:05:00 - 01:10:00
Conversations between students reveal their struggles with past fears and current truths. The character of Freya shows signs of abuse by Mr. Harvey, revealing a broader issue within the school.
- 01:10:00 - 01:15:00
Reflections and confrontation unravel between characters, revealing much about intentions, past actions, and regrets. There is speculation on the nature of true innocence and societal judgement.
- 01:15:00 - 01:30:17
The narrative closes with a focus on the personal growth of the characters, despite their challenges. They confront their inner turmoils and move towards healing, with an overarching theme of regained agency and new beginnings.
Mind Map
Video Q&A
Who is the character struggling with bullying in the story?
Freya is struggling with bullying and harassment by others.
What advice does Jenny give to Freya regarding the bullying?
Jenny tells Freya to toughen up and dismisses her feelings as exaggerated.
Who does Tom have a complex and troubling relationship with?
Tom has a troubling relationship with Grace, with hints of manipulative behavior.
What is the profession of Mr. Harvey?
Mr. Harvey is a teacher involved in a drama production at the school.
What role does Freya want in the school play?
Freya is interested in the role of Alice in the school play 'Alice in Wonderland.'
How does Eleanor view Charles Dodgson's interest in children?
Eleanor initially trusts Charles Dodgson but becomes aware of his inappropriate affection for young girls.
What real-world figure is referenced through "Mr. Dodgson"?
Charles Dodgson is a reference to Lewis Carroll, the author of "Alice in Wonderland."
What secret is Freya keeping?
Freya is struggling with issues related to Mr. Harvey, hinting at an inappropriate relationship.
What prompts the school to reconsider their drama production?
Concerns about Lewis Carroll's appropriateness and the influence on the students prompt reconsideration.
What support does Freya receive from her friends?
Despite her earlier self-doubt, Freya receives support and encouragement from friends like Grace.
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- 00:00:14uh
- 00:00:17[Music]
- 00:00:18my god
- 00:00:22she's beautiful
- 00:00:33they didn't mean anything by it you know
- 00:00:34that don't you they
- 00:00:36they're just being silly you don't need
- 00:00:38to be like this
- 00:00:40they don't mean anything they shouldn't
- 00:00:41say anything and it's every day
- 00:00:44every single day i mean jen why me
- 00:00:47why have they chosen to talk with me
- 00:00:50every single day
- 00:00:51you're exaggerating it look
- 00:00:54you're having a bad day it's the time of
- 00:00:57your month
- 00:00:58you need to toughen up and grow up you
- 00:01:01don't it's not that bad you don't need
- 00:01:03to be like this
- 00:01:04no how would you like it they called
- 00:01:06your mother a slurp
- 00:01:08if they called you an abortion if they
- 00:01:10threw your lunch over the floor
- 00:01:12and made you pick it up and eat it then
- 00:01:14would you still say it's not that bad
- 00:01:16okay so they're stupid
- 00:01:20i know maybe about it oh and there it is
- 00:01:25there's the reason why you get so much
- 00:01:27hassle
- 00:01:28you know what freya sometimes you can
- 00:01:30just be such an arrogant prick
- 00:01:35okay so you come across so clever
- 00:01:38that you make all of us look stupid i
- 00:01:40mean you're even good at sports
- 00:01:43it's just people i don't do well with
- 00:01:46well yeah get on with me and tyler and i
- 00:01:49think we're people
- 00:01:50so you say look jenny i just want it all
- 00:01:53to end
- 00:01:54tell me what to do i wish i knew
- 00:01:59look the break's almost over and we've
- 00:02:01got drama next
- 00:02:02oh and um mr harvey said he's got some
- 00:02:05big announcements to make
- 00:02:07let's hope he's leaving can't see the
- 00:02:09back of that creeper
- 00:02:11what do you mean
- 00:02:25it's very good of you to invite me to
- 00:02:27tea mr dodson
- 00:02:28but i'm not sure about the propriety of
- 00:02:30me being here alone in your room
- 00:02:33i mean what if the dean was to find out
- 00:02:35i think you'll find that i'm not a man
- 00:02:36for propriety
- 00:02:38i'm not bound by society's rules i
- 00:02:41follow
- 00:02:42a higher power oh you mean god i assume
- 00:02:44i mean
- 00:02:45duty which may of course be the same
- 00:02:47thing
- 00:02:49but i can assure you that i do value
- 00:02:51innocence
- 00:02:52and would never knowingly cause anyone
- 00:02:54to stumble
- 00:02:56i hope you can find that of some comfort
- 00:02:59some mr dodson but you do know what they
- 00:03:02say about you around college
- 00:03:04i couldn't possibly what do they say
- 00:03:07about me around quality
- 00:03:09well it's about your photographs you do
- 00:03:12take a lot of photographs and
- 00:03:15some might be deemed i'm not sure of the
- 00:03:17right word to use here
- 00:03:19indeed perhaps never never in all of my
- 00:03:24days have i taken a photograph that
- 00:03:25could have been considered indecent
- 00:03:28i try to capture man before the fall
- 00:03:32the image of man before sin crept in
- 00:03:37we all must fall eleanor eventually
- 00:03:40it's part of growing up i suppose that's
- 00:03:43all your theological talk
- 00:03:44well i don't understand any of it all i
- 00:03:47know
- 00:03:48is that the man i'm sitting with today
- 00:03:50is a little eccentric
- 00:03:52but wonderfully kind and i couldn't ask
- 00:03:54for a better companion
- 00:03:56now or in the future you are too kind
- 00:04:01now how are those charges of yours
- 00:04:04are you still managing to keep them
- 00:04:06under your control almost but they are
- 00:04:08children and full of life and sometimes
- 00:04:10life just gets a little too
- 00:04:12too lively exactly and who is the main
- 00:04:15culprit
- 00:04:16why that is easy it's alex it's always
- 00:04:19alice
- 00:04:21it's always alice i'm sure
- 00:04:41cares about shoes but if you really want
- 00:04:43to find her she'll probably be in the
- 00:04:44bathroom somewhere
- 00:04:46crying as usual as usual i don't know
- 00:04:48why she cries so much
- 00:04:50it's not like the teaser but it's most
- 00:04:53the time grace
- 00:04:54be honest you two could be real [ __ ]
- 00:04:56sometimes
- 00:04:57i hope so could you try
- 00:05:01don't you ever think about what you
- 00:05:02might be doing you're probably ruining
- 00:05:04her life
- 00:05:05she could be self-harming the tallest
- 00:05:07right and how far you know not her
- 00:05:09she wouldn't have the bottle anyways
- 00:05:11it's you
- 00:05:12don't tell me fancier oh don't worry i
- 00:05:14won't tell you
- 00:05:16i've gotta go i'll see you guys later
- 00:05:27is just a nice guy though i'm not sure i
- 00:05:29believe the nice guys
- 00:05:31there is enough of this what do you mean
- 00:05:33mr harvey's plans for a school
- 00:05:34production
- 00:05:36hustle man's a bit
- 00:05:42so you're not going to audition of
- 00:05:44course i'm going to audition
- 00:05:45i'm not stupid i've had plans even
- 00:05:47mcqueen
- 00:05:49well i was she's a bit of a bully so i
- 00:06:06you have to be really bored i bet you
- 00:06:08think you're really funny
- 00:06:10funny and ugly the perfect combination
- 00:06:12you ever took anything
- 00:06:13but crap alison guess not too much for
- 00:06:16your tiny mind to handle
- 00:06:18girls what's going on here nothing mess
- 00:06:21i hope you can get outside then please
- 00:06:22it's great time
- 00:06:24alison can i have a word what i didn't
- 00:06:26do anything and i didn't say you did
- 00:06:29i was just wondering if you're going to
- 00:06:30audition for alice in wonderland
- 00:06:33because i thought being in a school
- 00:06:35production would do you some good
- 00:06:37i've seen you in drama you're a talented
- 00:06:39actor well that's clearly a lie but
- 00:06:42i might audition thanks
- 00:07:07what are you doing here
- 00:07:11resting getting ready for the rest of
- 00:07:14the day
- 00:07:16i just want some peace tyler can you go
- 00:07:18away of course okay
- 00:07:20but i won't
- 00:07:26why'd you do this as if foreign
- 00:07:30or allison said anything in fact they
- 00:07:32aren't as bad as they were
- 00:07:35i think jenny was behind me it's not
- 00:07:37them
- 00:07:38but they are still just as bad does
- 00:07:41everything tyler
- 00:07:43life sucks i don't understand how you
- 00:07:46are where you are
- 00:07:48when you scream shout fight anything
- 00:07:52instead you're just nice
- 00:07:56it's what i choose to be sure
- 00:07:59our staff was still here i wish things
- 00:08:02were easier at home
- 00:08:03bush grabbed money and nice clothes and
- 00:08:05could go on holiday
- 00:08:07but that's not going to happen these are
- 00:08:10the cards i've pinned out
- 00:08:11so i'm gonna make the most of them curly
- 00:08:14looking
- 00:08:15if you change everything and besides
- 00:08:17you're not gonna let life beat me
- 00:08:19neither should you say
- 00:08:39let me show you one of the tricks i've
- 00:08:40been learning i have been learning the
- 00:08:41most marvelous illusions with cards
- 00:08:43very well charles okay so first off pick
- 00:08:47a card any card
- 00:08:51make sure you remember which one it is
- 00:08:53yes i have it place it back in the deck
- 00:08:55wherever you please
- 00:08:57okay i shall now shuffle the cards as
- 00:08:59soon
- 00:09:00as there we go would you like to shuffle
- 00:09:02them as well thomas why not dudson i'll
- 00:09:04make it too easy on you
- 00:09:05of course of course you see
- 00:09:09wonderful that should do nicely
- 00:09:12now i'm afraid of my memory oh what day
- 00:09:15of the month
- 00:09:16we were born on again i want to say it
- 00:09:17escapes me come cam dodgson you know as
- 00:09:19well as i was the nine
- 00:09:21yes indeed it was the ninth now one
- 00:09:24two three four five six
- 00:09:27seven eight nine
- 00:09:30was this your card i say charleston
- 00:09:34damned if that's not it that's really
- 00:09:35rather good
- 00:09:37time for that one yeah it's why not very
- 00:09:39good now you've seen this is clearly a
- 00:09:41normal deck of cards yeah it was normal
- 00:09:44enough very good now
- 00:09:45we have here at the top the ace of
- 00:09:47hearts we have no way of knowing
- 00:09:49what is there at the back but i'm going
- 00:09:51to predict that i
- 00:09:52by maybe just twisting around at the
- 00:09:54back we'll be able to
- 00:09:56show you what the new card will be at
- 00:09:57the back so i'm going to predict that it
- 00:09:58will be the nine of hearts
- 00:10:00okay ready so i'm basically going to put
- 00:10:02it forward
- 00:10:04like so and there we have
- 00:10:07it should i do this
- 00:10:10why not one more very well next will be
- 00:10:13the eight
- 00:10:13of hearts here we go put it forward
- 00:10:25since when do card tricks form part of
- 00:10:27your role as theology tutor
- 00:10:29or librarian i mean i've seen these
- 00:10:32things done at
- 00:10:33children's parties isn't all this a
- 00:10:35little bit beneath you
- 00:10:37i mean who are you trying to impress
- 00:10:39surely not the divine eleanor
- 00:10:41she would marry you tomorrow if you were
- 00:10:43to ask she is magnificently impressed
- 00:10:45with the prospect of being mrs charles
- 00:10:48i have no interest in marrying eleanor
- 00:10:50at least not
- 00:10:52immediately sometimes i find her to be
- 00:10:56somewhat what's the word i'm looking for
- 00:10:59clinging suffocating desperate
- 00:11:02yes all of those and probably more
- 00:11:06but she is such a sweet one to look at
- 00:11:09don't you think
- 00:11:09quite childlike and she is such an
- 00:11:12innocent
- 00:11:13one can't help but like her very much
- 00:11:16well if you say so charles
- 00:11:18personally i find her insufferable
- 00:11:21but i do confess i find her very pretty
- 00:11:24a kiss beneath the mistletoe of
- 00:11:26christmas would be a most pleasant
- 00:11:27affair i should imagine
- 00:11:28i presume you both have kissed by now
- 00:11:31you have been courting the girl for at
- 00:11:33least three months
- 00:11:35we kissed at the end of our first
- 00:11:36evening together
- 00:11:38i think i took her by surprise she
- 00:11:40called me forward
- 00:11:42but she was not offended and we have
- 00:11:45kissed many times since
- 00:11:46oh bet you have you are the most
- 00:11:49unconventional man dodson
- 00:11:51sometimes i worry about you but you
- 00:11:53haven't answered my question
- 00:11:54who are these parlor tricks for if not
- 00:11:57for eleanor
- 00:11:58why they are for her children i am to be
- 00:12:01entertainment at a party
- 00:12:03that she is organizing i have been
- 00:12:05learning new tricks and illusions almost
- 00:12:07daily in preparation for the great event
- 00:12:10i'm looking forward to it immensely
- 00:12:12in fact i think i'm looking forward to
- 00:12:14it more than anything else
- 00:12:16well it's my view dodgson that you need
- 00:12:18to get out more
- 00:12:20yes i have been thinking the same thing
- 00:12:23in fact i thought i might take a trip on
- 00:12:26the river on a boat
- 00:12:28would you be interested if i was to
- 00:12:29organize it certainly i should like
- 00:12:31nothing better
- 00:12:32as long as the weather is fine and the
- 00:12:34wind is slight i'm your man
- 00:12:38do you still indulge in your
- 00:12:39photographic hobby by any chance
- 00:12:41yes why do you ask i was wondering if
- 00:12:43you might do me a portrait
- 00:12:45what that i can send home to my mother
- 00:12:47to show her what a fine young man i have
- 00:12:49become
- 00:12:50she will frame it and hang it with pride
- 00:12:52above the mantelpiece
- 00:12:53and boast of me to all her visitors yes
- 00:12:56yes you'll tell me a date when you are
- 00:12:58free and we shall fix it up
- 00:13:00it will be the perfect opportunity to
- 00:13:02try out some of my new equipment
- 00:13:04but you're not taking as many
- 00:13:06photographs as you used to
- 00:13:08no i cannot find the subjects
- 00:13:13it's a tragic shame but there it is
- 00:13:28i don't understand mr harvey how do you
- 00:13:31choose phrase plays alice is completely
- 00:13:32beyond me
- 00:13:33she doesn't even look like alice she
- 00:13:35isn't even born i don't get why you're
- 00:13:37so upset
- 00:13:38i mean you got the part you wanted plus
- 00:13:41friend can act
- 00:13:42you should be great about this but i
- 00:13:44wanted to be alice
- 00:13:45instead i'm chorus and that sucks
- 00:13:49i don't know when to do it at all now
- 00:13:50because who wants to be chorus anyway
- 00:13:52i'm boris well mostly i've got a few
- 00:13:56parts of the cheshire cat but
- 00:13:58i like being in the chorus he gets me
- 00:14:00loads of scenes that get hard learning
- 00:14:02lifestyle
- 00:14:03yeah but i want to be noticed and i'm
- 00:14:05not going to be noticed i'm in the
- 00:14:06chorus
- 00:14:07oh you'll be noticed all right you can't
- 00:14:09dance and you're always out of stuff
- 00:14:11it'll be hilarious don't take out me
- 00:14:14just because you didn't get the part of
- 00:14:15our list
- 00:14:16sorry it was mean i was just getting
- 00:14:19into my characters and queen you know
- 00:14:21yeah none taken so tom
- 00:14:26it'll be you and me dancing in the
- 00:14:27chorus together i hardly
- 00:14:30doubt that but you never know and would
- 00:14:34you like that tom
- 00:14:35would you like to be dancing with grace
- 00:14:36in the chorus oh my
- 00:14:39i can't stand innovation all day
- 00:14:41homework revision
- 00:14:52i think he's gay gay really
- 00:14:56are you sure
- 00:15:02because if anyone knows it [ __ ]
- 00:15:04because they're best friends right
- 00:15:06you don't think him in thailand are you
- 00:15:08real of course it's for
- 00:15:11need
- 00:15:24right so jenny you're the mother needs
- 00:15:27to be backing around with the picnic or
- 00:15:28something
- 00:15:29paige the older sister is reading a
- 00:15:31really boring book except it's not
- 00:15:32really boring over to alex
- 00:15:35let's do the whole book thing first then
- 00:15:37get on shore have to put in it do
- 00:15:39you pick the book and entirely you can
- 00:15:40come on as the white rabbit no
- 00:15:42that's this is the hard image you're
- 00:15:43doing director you come quite a dictator
- 00:15:45do you know that millie no time to don't
- 00:15:47even know if i like you anymore
- 00:15:48of course you still like me paige you're
- 00:15:50just saying that to annoy me
- 00:15:52nobody else agrees i've become a
- 00:15:53dictator do though
- 00:15:57now you come to mention it ignore them
- 00:16:00they'll be easily
- 00:16:00i think you're doing a really good job
- 00:16:03well thank you fred i think you're
- 00:16:04perfect
- 00:16:05mr harvey really loves you in the bowl
- 00:16:07you told me sir the other day
- 00:16:10what exactly did he say oh i can't
- 00:16:13remember
- 00:16:14the impression you know you can tell
- 00:16:16them are we going to get on with this or
- 00:16:18we're going to stand around gossiping
- 00:16:19okay let's do this phone all right
- 00:16:22you're off there
- 00:16:23all right hand in the water
- 00:16:41how about over there oh wonderful mother
- 00:16:45i could live against a children could
- 00:16:47reach you asleep
- 00:16:48oh alice what do you think
- 00:16:55lovely picnic mother i feel quite
- 00:16:57startled
- 00:16:58please do not use that kind of language
- 00:17:02it is most common not quite suitable for
- 00:17:05a growing young lady
- 00:17:07oh feel sick's mother you can be so old
- 00:17:12yes i can be well if you girls don't
- 00:17:16mind
- 00:17:16i'd like a little doze and i'm sorry
- 00:17:22is that a good book ina wonderful it's a
- 00:17:25gothic romance full of graceless
- 00:17:26passions of false dudes
- 00:17:29let me see
- 00:17:34it's all just writing what's the use of
- 00:17:37a book without pictures or conversations
- 00:17:40if that's the kind of books grown-ups
- 00:17:41reading that must be very boring when
- 00:17:43you grow up
- 00:17:44i don't think i'll ever grow up in fact
- 00:17:47i don't think i
- 00:17:48want to change at all i think i'll make
- 00:17:51a daisy chain
- 00:17:52well child if you must now leave me
- 00:17:54alone i'm at the most exciting part
- 00:17:57and that's your cue tyler you come on
- 00:17:59from the left
- 00:18:00weaving around on various members of the
- 00:18:02audience checking your watch against
- 00:18:04theirs and generally making you useful
- 00:18:05to yourself
- 00:18:06then you stop just in front of alice and
- 00:18:08then you say your lines
- 00:18:10i'm not wearing a watch
- 00:18:14right got it weave around the audience
- 00:18:16and then stop in front of
- 00:18:17us we'll go on then
- 00:18:33[Music]
- 00:18:35oh dear oh dear i shall be too late
- 00:18:43tyler you have hardly any life i have
- 00:18:45got loads and i know them all already
- 00:18:48well millie can we stop with that tyler
- 00:18:50is hopeless
- 00:18:51okay it's nearly the end of break anyway
- 00:18:53and tyler learn
- 00:18:59not even remotely funny very fortunate
- 00:19:02sorry just slip down i'll get better
- 00:19:05my friends make sure you do i'm in a bit
- 00:19:09of a hurry now is there any chance one
- 00:19:10of you can talk to mr harvey and
- 00:19:12tell him how it's going freya
- 00:19:16if i missed
- 00:19:35i really do find your choice of reading
- 00:19:37material to be most peculiar for a man
- 00:19:39of god
- 00:19:40why if you were my child i would
- 00:19:42disapprove most strongly of that
- 00:19:44particular novel
- 00:19:45or this oh it's nothing escapism
- 00:19:48pure fantasy and what is it you have to
- 00:19:51escape from
- 00:19:52it seems to me you have the almost
- 00:19:54perfect life
- 00:19:56yes i can see that you think that i
- 00:19:57might
- 00:19:59i'm surrounded by people that i admire i
- 00:20:01am free to
- 00:20:03write and discuss and argue to my
- 00:20:05heart's content
- 00:20:07i have three square meals a day rooms
- 00:20:10that are more than adequate
- 00:20:14and from my window a view of god's good
- 00:20:18earth
- 00:20:21and yet you feel that
- 00:20:24something is missing missing
- 00:20:27perhaps no it's
- 00:20:30it's more than the world i inhabit fall
- 00:20:33short of what it should be
- 00:20:35isn't that what every clergyman thinks
- 00:20:37it's certainly what every clergyman
- 00:20:39preaches in my experience
- 00:20:41why the dean himself was only speaking
- 00:20:43about the fallen world following eve's
- 00:20:45foolishness
- 00:20:46last sunday and he was right to an
- 00:20:48extent
- 00:20:50everything was perfect in eden we lived
- 00:20:53in harmony with creation
- 00:20:55we were vegetarian i could have easily
- 00:20:59stroked a lion as i stroked the college
- 00:21:01cat
- 00:21:02and furthermore we all walked about
- 00:21:05completely naked and knew not shame
- 00:21:07mr dodson you can't put an image like
- 00:21:09that in a young girl's head
- 00:21:10why ever not it is in the scriptures
- 00:21:14genesis chapter 2 and verse 25
- 00:21:17and though the man and woman were naked
- 00:21:19they were not
- 00:21:20ashamed you see when god made man and
- 00:21:23woman he created them
- 00:21:25innocent and their innocence was shown
- 00:21:27in their lack of shame
- 00:21:29for being without clothes it is
- 00:21:31innocence
- 00:21:33that we have lost sometimes we are lucky
- 00:21:37enough
- 00:21:37to see it in the glimpse of the eyes of
- 00:21:40a child
- 00:21:42but for the most part it is gone and we
- 00:21:45are the poorer for it
- 00:21:47sometimes charles i think you talk utter
- 00:21:49nonsense
- 00:21:50are you suggesting that it would be a
- 00:21:51better world if we were to all walk
- 00:21:53around without our clothes on
- 00:21:55i for one would find the whole thing
- 00:21:56utterly disgraceful
- 00:21:58not to mention how impractical that
- 00:21:59would be i don't think you understand
- 00:22:01what it is
- 00:22:02i'm saying i'm not advocating a return
- 00:22:06to naturism
- 00:22:08more what our nakedness represents
- 00:22:12innocence a time when we
- 00:22:15did not know right from wrong because
- 00:22:17there was nothing wrong
- 00:22:19in the whole world eve has a lot to
- 00:22:22answer for but it was adam who took the
- 00:22:24apple first so
- 00:22:26maybe the fault lay with him for being
- 00:22:28too weak or too eager to become like god
- 00:22:31my dear eleanor i do think you have the
- 00:22:33makings of a theologian
- 00:22:36now would you like to take a trip with
- 00:22:39me on the river in a boat
- 00:22:41my friend goldstone is always saying i
- 00:22:43should get out more and so i thought
- 00:22:45was a lovely idea who would be our
- 00:22:47chaperone
- 00:22:48thomas yes he could share in some of the
- 00:22:51rowing
- 00:22:52i thought perhaps your children might
- 00:22:54want to join us oh the young girls and
- 00:22:56henry
- 00:22:58yes perhaps not young henry
- 00:23:01he might be a little too young too
- 00:23:04overexcitable
- 00:23:05man overboard if you know what i mean
- 00:23:07right i shall ask mrs liddle i'm sure
- 00:23:09she won't mind
- 00:23:10then it is settled
- 00:23:12[Music]
- 00:23:14eleanor was just leaving i was talking
- 00:23:17to her about our boat trip
- 00:23:18i thought we might go for next weekend
- 00:23:21mr goldstone how lovely to see you
- 00:23:23i am very much looking forward to our
- 00:23:25little outing and for now
- 00:23:27goodbye charles
- 00:23:32i say dodson did you really have to kiss
- 00:23:35like that in front of me
- 00:23:36it was damned embarrassing for both of
- 00:23:38us well i thought as we are always going
- 00:23:40on about my love life
- 00:23:41you might want to see it in action so to
- 00:23:43speak
- 00:23:45no no well take a seat what can i do for
- 00:23:48you
- 00:23:49no thank you i just wanted to confirm
- 00:23:50the details for next weekend that's all
- 00:23:52because i'll be away for most of the
- 00:23:54week
- 00:23:54so it's just you me and eleanor is it
- 00:23:57and the children
- 00:23:58the three girls ah the three girls of
- 00:24:00course the littles you mean
- 00:24:02well that will make for the most
- 00:24:03pleasant trip not without its dangers of
- 00:24:06course
- 00:24:07dangerous you mean they might
- 00:24:11fall in well yes there is that of course
- 00:24:16what else thomas what are you implying
- 00:24:20oh nothing i've just been listening to
- 00:24:22too much gossip
- 00:24:23are you planning to keep them
- 00:24:24entertained with your party tricks
- 00:24:27no i thought i might rather tell them a
- 00:24:31story
- 00:24:44oh there you are yes here we are tom now
- 00:24:48what can we do here
- 00:24:49uh it was great actually um
- 00:24:52correct so wonderful to get together for
- 00:24:54lunch routines
- 00:24:57just you and me yeah does that make you
- 00:25:00feel uncomfortable
- 00:25:01no not really i was just a little
- 00:25:02surprised that's all yeah lunchtime
- 00:25:07tomorrow sure tomorrow
- 00:25:11did that really just happen did tom just
- 00:25:14ask you to spend time with him
- 00:25:16on his own i thought i thought he was
- 00:25:19gay
- 00:25:19i didn't really i thought the other
- 00:25:22thing called millie
- 00:25:23well once i've gone over and that's all
- 00:25:25i can say
- 00:25:26because just dance practice oh nothing's
- 00:25:28actually something
- 00:25:29you'll see i know boys yeah but tom was
- 00:25:32really nice well everybody seems like a
- 00:25:34girl who's never had a boyfriend
- 00:25:36are you jealous are you mad me jealous
- 00:25:40of you
- 00:25:40of course not i just didn't want you to
- 00:25:43get hurt that's all
- 00:25:46don't worry about me i'm stronger than
- 00:25:48you thinking well
- 00:25:49you're weaker than i thought if you
- 00:25:52would be listening to anyone
- 00:25:53ever again i'll kill you get it
- 00:26:06[Music]
- 00:26:09what have you been writing about today
- 00:26:11today i have written
- 00:26:14that i have become excellent friends
- 00:26:16with three
- 00:26:17most lovely young ladies i mark today
- 00:26:20with a
- 00:26:20white stone such as its significance
- 00:26:23what a strange way you have of talking
- 00:26:25dodgson
- 00:26:25i'll tell you what i thought was
- 00:26:27significant about today that story you
- 00:26:29spun
- 00:26:30marvellous it was exciting and fantastic
- 00:26:34and i really think you should write it
- 00:26:35down i'm not sure who enjoyed it most
- 00:26:37me all the girls not eleanor then she
- 00:26:40seemed quite happy
- 00:26:41though i caught her eyes drooping once
- 00:26:43or twice that was a hot day
- 00:26:45so what do you say will you write it
- 00:26:48down
- 00:26:48i'm not exaggerating when i say i think
- 00:26:51you have a best
- 00:26:52seller on your hands you will appeal to
- 00:26:54adults and children alike
- 00:26:56it will make you famous hmm
- 00:26:59i rather think that an oxford shooter
- 00:27:01should be known for his
- 00:27:03his studying his original thoughts not
- 00:27:06some
- 00:27:06childlike story i i told it for the
- 00:27:09girls
- 00:27:10you told the story for alice it was
- 00:27:12certainly alice you were telling it to
- 00:27:14you barely looked at the others ah
- 00:27:17she'll be a real beauty once she's all
- 00:27:19grown up
- 00:27:21pity children have to grow up don't you
- 00:27:22think we all have to
- 00:27:25time demands it society demands it
- 00:27:28if we remain children all our life
- 00:27:30nothing would ever get
- 00:27:32done it would be chaos it could just as
- 00:27:35easily be paradise
- 00:27:36write the book get it out of your system
- 00:27:40and then return to your mathematics
- 00:27:43yes well maybe i will alice asked me to
- 00:27:47as well
- 00:27:49she gave me a lock of her hair i shall
- 00:27:53treasure it
- 00:27:54alongside your luck of eleanor's hair no
- 00:27:56doubt
- 00:27:58i am not fortunate enough to possess
- 00:27:59such a thing have you asked
- 00:28:02no i i never could
- 00:28:05but you asked alice
- 00:28:09i overheard you oh it just won't do you
- 00:28:12know
- 00:28:12what would you do the way you carry on
- 00:28:14with these girls and not
- 00:28:16just the little girls it's as if you
- 00:28:18prefer their company to adults
- 00:28:20i do children are three quarters of my
- 00:28:23life
- 00:28:25when i am with them
- 00:28:28god is in his heaven it's as if nothing
- 00:28:32could ever go wrong
- 00:28:35it's really rather beautiful
- 00:28:38can't you see that i understand that
- 00:28:41that is how you feel
- 00:28:44i am less convinced that the dean would
- 00:28:46understand if he ever got to hear about
- 00:28:50if he ever got to hear what other people
- 00:28:52are saying
- 00:28:54are you saying i should take a step back
- 00:28:56i'm saying you should be careful
- 00:28:58god knows there isn't an ounce of harm
- 00:29:00in you look you live your life as if
- 00:29:02you're still living your childhood
- 00:29:05but out there people think differently
- 00:29:09they are less prepared to give you the
- 00:29:11benefit of the doubt
- 00:29:13no one believes in innocence anymore
- 00:29:18do you understand yes yes i think you
- 00:29:21are wrong
- 00:29:24shall we change the subject you never
- 00:29:26did give me a date that you were free
- 00:29:27for your photograph
- 00:29:29how about friday that would be wonderful
- 00:29:34i'll see you then take care
- 00:29:38charles
- 00:29:47i shall tell her on monday
- 00:29:51and then speak to her parents
- 00:29:55that should put an end to all of the
- 00:29:57gossip
- 00:30:07drink me you will never guess what we've
- 00:30:10got
- 00:30:11it's so cool no idea go on
- 00:30:14guess okay you've got me a wig
- 00:30:17yeah we have but that's not it gotta
- 00:30:20rewrite it
- 00:30:32not just any shoes real shoes her shoes
- 00:30:37miss lidl the girl knows carol wrote
- 00:30:40about
- 00:30:40these are her shoes
- 00:30:44mr carpenter the history teacher he had
- 00:30:47them
- 00:30:47a family heirloom you thought we'd call
- 00:30:49if you wouldn't win the play
- 00:30:51they don't look my size try them on
- 00:30:54they're a bit stiff
- 00:30:55they've been really well looked up for
- 00:30:56100 year old shoes
- 00:31:02great
- 00:31:04bad really
- 00:31:08not bad so you wear them yeah okay
- 00:31:11that's great but wear them in a bit and
- 00:31:13then save them for the actual
- 00:31:14performance okay
- 00:31:17this is gonna be so great i hope so
- 00:31:29new shoes no old ones really old ones
- 00:31:33did you get them from a charity shop i
- 00:31:35love buying things from a charity shop
- 00:31:37i'm not proud no they're not
- 00:31:41never mind yeah
- 00:31:44okay yes
- 00:31:48so still holding in that big secret no
- 00:31:51i told you about alison grace yeah you
- 00:31:54did and it got
- 00:31:55better but that's not what that's not
- 00:31:58what's eating you up
- 00:32:00why can't you just tell the truth freya
- 00:32:02it's nothing honest
- 00:32:05nothing i can tell you about anyway
- 00:32:08and i thought we were friends we have no
- 00:32:12secrets now look at you you like locked
- 00:32:16door
- 00:32:17i don't even know who you are anymore
- 00:32:19you've changed why
- 00:32:21freya don't ask that's all i ask don't
- 00:32:23ask if that's what you want
- 00:32:29hiya what we are still friends aren't we
- 00:32:33yes of course
- 00:32:34already kid well i'll go
- 00:32:39oh tyler said that he's been looking for
- 00:32:41you yeah i know
- 00:32:42i've been avoiding him
- 00:32:45why what's going on with you
- 00:32:48i thought you were in toilet maybe one
- 00:32:50day that you thought
- 00:32:52wrong that's all fine
- 00:32:56tell me you're here yo don't
- 00:33:02oh hi
- 00:33:07what do you want um to talk
- 00:33:10well here i am say something it's um
- 00:33:14it's kind of difficult to say i haven't
- 00:33:16got a date here
- 00:33:18so just say what you want to say and go
- 00:33:21don't tell me what i can or can't do
- 00:33:23i've had nothing i think i'm in love
- 00:33:25with you
- 00:33:28what i think
- 00:33:32i know i am and
- 00:33:35i wondered whether you might feel the
- 00:33:36same way we've been friends for so long
- 00:33:39now that i thought this you have no idea
- 00:33:40what that is
- 00:33:41not a girlfriend never kissed anyone you
- 00:33:44don't know what you're saying you're
- 00:33:45talking
- 00:33:46crap it's true don't feel anything tyler
- 00:33:53how can i feel anything i don't think
- 00:33:55i've ever been over my life love
- 00:33:56sucks it's vile it's reduced and it's
- 00:34:00controlling and
- 00:34:01day and it has time we just get lost
- 00:34:03it's not
- 00:34:05will you true go away
- 00:34:08okay
- 00:34:18harris miss little please come in sit
- 00:34:20down lord to see you are you
- 00:34:21completely out of your mind sir not at
- 00:34:24all please
- 00:34:24i hate to see a woman standing i do not
- 00:34:26wish to stay a moment longer than i have
- 00:34:29to
- 00:34:29please mrs little
- 00:34:37is it true is this monstrous thing that
- 00:34:40chalice tells me true monstrous so i
- 00:34:42couldn't possibly think of anything
- 00:34:43monstrous have you declared your love to
- 00:34:45my daughter
- 00:34:48well i well have you
- 00:34:53yes my god
- 00:34:56what kind of a man are you what kind of
- 00:35:00a man says such things to a little
- 00:35:02girl what did you say tell me
- 00:35:05exactly what you said i know when a man
- 00:35:06is lying mr dodgson what did you say
- 00:35:11quite simply mrs little i i told alice
- 00:35:14as i
- 00:35:15that i loved her above all others with a
- 00:35:18love that is that is pure
- 00:35:20and good did she
- 00:35:23did you indeed and by what right
- 00:35:27do you declare your love to somebody
- 00:35:29else's child what right
- 00:35:31the right of her friend you are a grown
- 00:35:33man
- 00:35:34you are not the friend of any 11 year
- 00:35:36old girl it's not
- 00:35:38natural it is natural it's natural to me
- 00:35:41i think she's the most wonderful
- 00:35:42creature i
- 00:35:43i simply adore her i should tell the
- 00:35:46police
- 00:35:48when my husband hears of this
- 00:35:51be lucky to avoid jail you most
- 00:35:54certainly lose your job
- 00:35:57you are a a thing of pure evil
- 00:36:00a predator of the lowest order and you
- 00:36:02sicken me no mr lil please let me
- 00:36:04explain
- 00:36:05you cannot possibly be able to explain
- 00:36:07this
- 00:36:08disgraceful behavior alice is distraught
- 00:36:13she doesn't understand mr daushan she is
- 00:36:16a child
- 00:36:18her head is filled with stories many of
- 00:36:20which you have placed there yourself
- 00:36:23she dreams she hopes she
- 00:36:26aspires to love and you bring it all
- 00:36:29crashing down on her head with your
- 00:36:31perverse declaration
- 00:36:32they're not perverse i think it is
- 00:36:34perfectly natural for someone to love a
- 00:36:36child without any thoughts
- 00:36:38of sex or anything stop please still let
- 00:36:41me explain
- 00:36:44i see in alice eve before the fall
- 00:36:50a child as as god intended
- 00:36:55the perfect woman
- 00:36:59and she is my friend
- 00:37:03my only friend of course i like her
- 00:37:06sisters also but
- 00:37:09alice is my life my my love my joy
- 00:37:13i cannot live without her why
- 00:37:18in three years time she will be 14 and
- 00:37:20free to marry
- 00:37:24are you insane
- 00:37:27now you listen to me mr dodgson you will
- 00:37:30not see
- 00:37:31alice ever again you will not speak to
- 00:37:33her you will avoid
- 00:37:34all contact with hen if you do not i
- 00:37:37will bring the full force of the law
- 00:37:38and the church upon your sick and
- 00:37:41fevered brain
- 00:37:43marry her my god what was the eleanor
- 00:37:47thing
- 00:37:48that poor girl i will tell her
- 00:37:51everything
- 00:37:52everything she deserves to know i will
- 00:37:54tell my husband also
- 00:37:56i will ruin you mr dodgen i will not
- 00:37:59rest until your name is despised and the
- 00:38:01very thought of you causes
- 00:38:03all right-thinking people to feel sick
- 00:38:05am i clear
- 00:38:07yes am i clear mr dorche and i didn't
- 00:38:11quite hear you
- 00:38:12yes yes mrs little you've been quite
- 00:38:15clear
- 00:38:17you have killed me with your words and
- 00:38:20your
- 00:38:20threats to be deprived of the
- 00:38:23companionship of alice is
- 00:38:25like death to me
- 00:38:30good i hope you die and your soul finds
- 00:38:33no rest
- 00:38:34now i will leave you and we will not
- 00:38:36meet again
- 00:38:59grace hi good to see you i'm
- 00:39:03glad you're good me too i'm really
- 00:39:06looking forward to this
- 00:39:09but the production stands and falls on
- 00:39:11how good we are right well that's what
- 00:39:12they say
- 00:39:14but freya is really good we'll be all
- 00:39:15right yeah she is
- 00:39:17so where do you want to start surgery
- 00:39:21you're all right a picnic you've only
- 00:39:24got an hour i've had plenty of time
- 00:39:26you know better
- 00:39:33so where's grace she's just tom tom
- 00:39:36yeah so what you're not seeing each
- 00:39:38other are you no we used to but not now
- 00:39:41we got bored and moved out i suppose
- 00:39:44millie got wise what do you mean
- 00:39:49no paige don't leave it what do you mean
- 00:39:53it got he got weird
- 00:39:57really quickly he wanted me to do
- 00:40:00things he was he was cruel militive
- 00:40:04and sick he's so nice everyone thinks so
- 00:40:08to fix your life just wasn't right and
- 00:40:10then when i wanted to leave him he's
- 00:40:12saying just tell everyone else just just
- 00:40:14this [ __ ] who just threw herself at him
- 00:40:16and everyone believed him because
- 00:40:17everyone thinks that tom is just so nice
- 00:40:19and he's the devil
- 00:40:21that's what i think
- 00:40:25my best friend thank you milly
- 00:40:33what's the problem you like me
- 00:40:36i like you
- 00:40:40both adults no tom i just wanted to
- 00:40:50dance
- 00:40:57you were sending out signals the whole
- 00:40:58time i get it
- 00:41:01this is what you were like living this
- 00:41:03is what she broke up with you
- 00:41:04know
- 00:41:19just trying to pray for me don't know
- 00:41:20what you did to poor milly
- 00:41:22you know what i'm gonna do tom i'm gonna
- 00:41:23get out here i'm gonna make grace and
- 00:41:25we're gonna report you to the hang
- 00:41:26you're gonna go to jail i hope you
- 00:41:27brought
- 00:41:27listen just leave it i couldn't bear it
- 00:41:30grace are you mad
- 00:41:32just leave them
- 00:41:36oh what did i tell her she's crazy about
- 00:41:39me
- 00:41:39listen to me tom go live grace ever
- 00:41:42again and i'll cover you with a knife so
- 00:41:44sharp it'll cut you up from your mouth
- 00:41:45before you could scream
- 00:41:47i mean it going at any girl not ruin you
- 00:41:49am i clear
- 00:41:51yeah sure i can't hear you tom okay all
- 00:41:54right
- 00:41:56i'll lay off her for that honestly
- 00:41:59i mean it's not as if anyone got hurt
- 00:42:01you think
- 00:42:17surely el no you should have known
- 00:42:20how could you not have seen i thought he
- 00:42:23loved me
- 00:42:24i thought he was going to propose but
- 00:42:27that trip down the river the night
- 00:42:28before i had a dream
- 00:42:30i dreamt that he proposed in front of
- 00:42:32the girls and it was so romantic
- 00:42:34it was beautiful but instead he spent
- 00:42:38the entire time telling that ridiculous
- 00:42:40story to alice
- 00:42:41and the photographs have you seen them
- 00:42:45were you with the girls when he took
- 00:42:48them
- 00:42:49sometimes the photographs he took with
- 00:42:51me were
- 00:42:52innocent he had them dressed as fairies
- 00:42:55or urchins they looked adorable
- 00:42:57and who dressed my daughters in these
- 00:43:00outlandish outfits
- 00:43:02you we both did it
- 00:43:05you allowed him to dress and undress my
- 00:43:08girls
- 00:43:10god what kind of a governance are you
- 00:43:14do you realize what your carelessness is
- 00:43:16allowed to happen
- 00:43:18i will see to it that you never have a
- 00:43:20position again
- 00:43:22you have rocked my girls of their
- 00:43:23childhood you have
- 00:43:25allowed them to be corrupted and spoiled
- 00:43:28he is an evil man but you are a wicked
- 00:43:31woman no mrs little i think you're wrong
- 00:43:34charles loves children it's as simple as
- 00:43:35that
- 00:43:37he likes their simple ways their trust
- 00:43:39their love to that of adults
- 00:43:41i understand him even though you feel he
- 00:43:45has betrayed you
- 00:43:46i have betrayed myself i was convinced
- 00:43:49he was in love with me and acted my life
- 00:43:51as if it was so
- 00:43:53i'm a sad creature mrs little but not a
- 00:43:55wicked one
- 00:43:57are you asking me to forgive you to give
- 00:44:00you a second chance
- 00:44:02no i am asking that you don't think the
- 00:44:05worst of either me
- 00:44:06or charts
- 00:44:10and will you continue to see him
- 00:44:13no not now i see it clear we are
- 00:44:16finished
- 00:44:19very well that is something i suppose
- 00:44:22you must write him at once i have
- 00:44:24forbidden the girls to speak of him ever
- 00:44:26again
- 00:44:27have you told your husband not yet
- 00:44:32i will but he can be so
- 00:44:36frustrating at times he always believes
- 00:44:40the best in people
- 00:44:41that comes with being a clergyman i
- 00:44:43suppose i suppose
- 00:44:45it is a weakness in men that they fail
- 00:44:47to see the darkness that hides behind
- 00:44:49their fraternity and civility
- 00:44:52whereas we look for it
- 00:44:56perhaps perhaps we do
- 00:45:00thank you and all that for you all for
- 00:45:02now consider yourself on trial
- 00:45:04thank you mom
- 00:45:19alison it's not about you to be on your
- 00:45:21own is everything all right
- 00:45:23i guess no grace i thought you two were
- 00:45:26inseparable
- 00:45:28we've had a a disagreement
- 00:45:32yes over a boy but not in the way that
- 00:45:34you think what do you mean
- 00:45:36nothing never mind okay
- 00:45:41so if you know other friends
- 00:45:44look at me what do you think everybody
- 00:45:47hates me no they don't
- 00:45:49not really some are a little
- 00:45:52scared perhaps but you have a reputation
- 00:45:57i know i know it's my fault but i can't
- 00:46:00help who i am of course you can
- 00:46:03you're in control of your own life even
- 00:46:05if you are tempted
- 00:46:07it is one thing to be tempted tis
- 00:46:09another tough fall
- 00:46:12don't worry shakespeare on me what's
- 00:46:13shakespeare measure for measure
- 00:46:16seriously you're in charge of what you
- 00:46:18do no matter how you feel you
- 00:46:19choose how to react it's not easy i know
- 00:46:23i'm right it's not easy anyways why do
- 00:46:26you care
- 00:46:27a few years ago this is me sitting on my
- 00:46:30own
- 00:46:31i would like to think someone was going
- 00:46:32through the same thing i did don't
- 00:46:34pity me i couldn't stand that it's not
- 00:46:37pity allison
- 00:46:39don't mistake someone caring for pity
- 00:46:42that'd be tragic
- 00:46:43you're right if you say so still sounds
- 00:46:46like pity whatever you say
- 00:46:48anyways haven't you got things to do
- 00:46:50lessons to plan and all that
- 00:46:52no not really one of course but i mean
- 00:46:55no hurry
- 00:46:56fitting so does that mean you're staying
- 00:47:00if you want to no of course not well
- 00:47:04if you really haven't got anywhere else
- 00:47:06to go
- 00:47:16ah yes right okay
- 00:47:19so i'm just going to go and prepare the
- 00:47:21room for your photograph uh
- 00:47:23feel free to take a seat and get
- 00:47:25yourself a smoke or a drink
- 00:47:26thank you george
- 00:47:34[Music]
- 00:47:37do you have a letter charles smells like
- 00:47:40a woman
- 00:47:42openly to read it to me william are you
- 00:47:44serious can't open your mail
- 00:47:46could be a love letter that will be
- 00:47:48damned embarrassing
- 00:47:50we have no secrets you and i besides
- 00:47:54it's probably eleanor begging me to take
- 00:47:57her to the theater or
- 00:47:58declaring her love for me in some
- 00:48:01awfully poetic fashion
- 00:48:02you are an opposition reader to me
- 00:48:06if i must
- 00:48:11dear charles i have spoken with mrs
- 00:48:14little
- 00:48:15i know what you have done i know how you
- 00:48:18have used me these past
- 00:48:20six months i understand
- 00:48:23i truly do but knowing the truth does
- 00:48:27mean it would be pointless continuing
- 00:48:29i had hoped to become your wife i
- 00:48:32dreamed of having children
- 00:48:34of my own your children charles
- 00:48:38but i don't think you will ever be a
- 00:48:40father i think the thought that a child
- 00:48:42of yours would grow up would kill you
- 00:48:45you have behaved very badly to me and
- 00:48:47mrs little
- 00:48:49you have behaved worst of all to alice
- 00:48:52the sweetest little thing i have ever
- 00:48:53had the fortune to care for
- 00:48:57mrs little believes you have corrupted
- 00:48:59her
- 00:49:00i believe you were forced to grow up far
- 00:49:02too quickly
- 00:49:04you have robbed her of her childhood by
- 00:49:06showing her the adult world in all its
- 00:49:07brokenness and dirt
- 00:49:11your proposal showed her that wonderland
- 00:49:14is just
- 00:49:14and always will be a dream
- 00:49:20i know that these words will hurt you
- 00:49:22but they are true
- 00:49:23nonetheless i forgive you
- 00:49:27and really do wish you happiness in your
- 00:49:29future
- 00:49:30though i doubt that you will ever find
- 00:49:32it
- 00:49:35you shall see neither me nor alice
- 00:49:39again live well and be good
- 00:49:43your friend eleanor
- 00:49:47four said a grow up too quickly how dare
- 00:49:49she write such a thing
- 00:49:50elena has broken with you charles what
- 00:49:53do you have to say to that
- 00:49:56it is it is a relief
- 00:50:00she was a burden a soft and gentle one
- 00:50:05but
- 00:50:06a burden nonetheless there are days
- 00:50:08charles when i wonder whether or not you
- 00:50:10truly are human do you have a heart yes
- 00:50:14and it is broken whatever did you say to
- 00:50:18alice
- 00:50:21i told her that i loved her
- 00:50:24i was going to propose in three years we
- 00:50:27could have been married
- 00:50:28thompson you suck me you would have
- 00:50:30proposed marriage to a girl of 11.
- 00:50:32yes i adore her
- 00:50:37donson do you realize what all this
- 00:50:40means
- 00:50:42it's the end you're finished
- 00:50:45guilty until proved innocent how
- 00:50:48simple-minded of you you know the only
- 00:50:51person that has done anything wrong in
- 00:50:53this situation
- 00:50:54is that haridan denying one of god's
- 00:50:57universal rights
- 00:50:58that to pure love it is her that shall
- 00:51:02burn for this not
- 00:51:03charles please calm down
- 00:51:07you're talking like a madman
- 00:51:10feel right i'm sorry
- 00:51:13forgive me but please
- 00:51:19tell me you understand
- 00:51:23i think i do
- 00:51:26at least partly but i'm not sure anyone
- 00:51:30else will
- 00:51:31this has nothing to do with sex i'm
- 00:51:33relieved to hear that
- 00:51:36though i think perhaps you did
- 00:51:39anyone that sees a man with a child
- 00:51:41thinks that somewhere
- 00:51:43deep down in their psyche is something
- 00:51:46burning
- 00:51:47something evil something unnatural that
- 00:51:49finds its
- 00:51:50expression in sex it's true no one
- 00:51:53trusts a man who likes children
- 00:51:55least of all of clergy you go too far i
- 00:51:58will not listen to you speak like this
- 00:52:00speak truth speak
- 00:52:01nonsense the time is coming my friend
- 00:52:03and will soon be here when any man who
- 00:52:06pats a child on the back or ruffles
- 00:52:08their hair in a carefree gesture
- 00:52:10or spins them by the hands in a giddy
- 00:52:13arc will
- 00:52:14be abused arrested
- 00:52:17and for what for trying to show a child
- 00:52:21they are loved valued
- 00:52:24protected not
- 00:52:28all men think like you charles
- 00:52:31not all men are children you know as
- 00:52:34well as i that
- 00:52:35just down the road from here there are
- 00:52:36fathers who beat their children
- 00:52:39fathers who will do unspeakable things
- 00:52:41to them
- 00:52:42fathers who see them as nothing more
- 00:52:44than an object on which they can heap
- 00:52:46their
- 00:52:46abominable abuses
- 00:52:49for the sake of those is it not better
- 00:52:53to think the worst of all men maybe
- 00:52:58more the pity that anyone would think
- 00:52:59ill of me
- 00:53:03now come on your photograph
- 00:53:07yes very well
- 00:53:33are we ready it's the cocaine match yeah
- 00:53:36so the queen is wandering around looking
- 00:53:38for people to go ahead
- 00:53:39tyler look it's fizzy
- 00:53:52how do you like the queen not at all
- 00:53:55she's so extremely likely to win
- 00:53:58that it's hardly worth finishing the
- 00:54:00game who
- 00:54:01are you talking to me it's a friend of
- 00:54:04mine a cheshire cat
- 00:54:07would you like me to introduce you i
- 00:54:13i'd rather not if you don't mind how
- 00:54:16important
- 00:54:17i think we should ask the queen to chop
- 00:54:19off its head queen
- 00:54:21queen where
- 00:54:31it's so frustrating where is the
- 00:54:33commitment i ask
- 00:54:35welcome to my world i'll go look for her
- 00:54:39take a break everyone yes
- 00:54:50alison everybody's been looking for you
- 00:54:53where did you go
- 00:54:54you wanted to talk to grace oh
- 00:54:57how is she
- 00:55:01quiet yeah you don't like her
- 00:55:05no i suppose we'll
- 00:55:08start again in a minute i suppose
- 00:55:12you know grace is like you
- 00:55:16with nothing to like well no she's best
- 00:55:19looking enhancer
- 00:55:21but both quiet
- 00:55:24so it's not natural i'm
- 00:55:28shy it's a part of my personality no
- 00:55:31it's not this is this is different
- 00:55:34this is like the quiet as a funeral
- 00:55:38like something's died that's how it's
- 00:55:41removed
- 00:55:42so you see i know what cause this
- 00:55:46death requires i know what caused
- 00:55:50everything for you
- 00:55:53you know what i can't imagine
- 00:55:56i think it's the same you're wrong i
- 00:55:59think that
- 00:56:00someone probably a voice hurt you
- 00:56:03is hurting you still you're wrong
- 00:56:06if anyone's happy it's you yeah
- 00:56:10i know i'm sorry i've been a jerk
- 00:56:13the truth don't push it freya not wrong
- 00:56:19it's not a boy hooray
- 00:56:23it's not this isn't it's a man
- 00:56:27is it your dad
- 00:56:30not your dad he's okay i like him
- 00:56:35good god it's on here it is isn't it
- 00:56:41it's mr harvey isn't it just not
- 00:56:46fred you've got to tell us no please no
- 00:56:49he was past grace
- 00:56:50look if you don't say something i will
- 00:56:52don't i'm pleased
- 00:56:54sorry i can't keep quiet on this alison
- 00:57:04you're crying is everything all right is
- 00:57:07she bullying you again
- 00:57:08no no she's been kind
- 00:57:12she's kind but where's she gone now
- 00:57:14we'll never get through this rehearsal
- 00:57:16the whole thing's going to be a disaster
- 00:57:28now dawgson said he'd left that
- 00:57:31photograph
- 00:57:32on the table
- 00:57:35right here perhaps it's still hanging on
- 00:57:38one of his washing times
- 00:57:42good grief what an awful mess
- 00:57:47how can he live like this ah yes
- 00:57:51there is i must say mr godstone
- 00:57:55you are looking most handsome mother
- 00:57:58will be proud
- 00:58:01what do we have here
- 00:58:05let me just hold it up to the light
- 00:58:10good god
- 00:58:13good god thomas is that you
- 00:58:16you know i don't allow people in my
- 00:58:18study when i am not here and no wonder
- 00:58:21when it's just filled with pictures like
- 00:58:23this
- 00:58:24it's ina isn't it the older girl
- 00:58:27what is she 14 15 14. this
- 00:58:30is this is
- 00:58:34it's pornographic enough for god's sake
- 00:58:37charles
- 00:58:38you know what this picture tells me but
- 00:58:40i can lie to nude superb
- 00:58:42how can you joke about this you have
- 00:58:45taken a full-length photograph
- 00:58:47of a naked girl not
- 00:58:50a girl a young woman but still
- 00:58:54this photograph tells me you are a liar
- 00:58:57and a devil
- 00:58:59you protest your love of children you
- 00:59:01have vowed to be their protector and the
- 00:59:02preserver of their innocence and yet you
- 00:59:04produced this
- 00:59:05for whose use it was private knew that i
- 00:59:08wanted
- 00:59:08wanted to what wanted to see her like
- 00:59:11this she said
- 00:59:12she never did do not try and blame the
- 00:59:15woman
- 00:59:16this is not some demonic twist on eden
- 00:59:20you saw the innocence you wanted this
- 00:59:24you made her do this you are a fraud
- 00:59:29nothing to say for yourself
- 00:59:33i'd like my photograph back please what
- 00:59:36my photograph
- 00:59:37please this is evidence what future do
- 00:59:40you think you have now once this gets
- 00:59:41out
- 00:59:42nothing you can say will excuse this
- 00:59:44charles nothing
- 00:59:47my photograph
- 00:59:51here take it
- 00:59:55just promise me you'll burn it
- 00:59:59promise me charles never again
- 01:00:04never again
- 01:00:07promise me you are good friends i am
- 01:00:11not your friend
- 01:00:15do you promise
- 01:00:19i promise good
- 01:00:24and pity you charles
- 01:00:33i took your advice
- 01:00:37i'm going to call it alice in wonderland
- 01:00:41is that not something yes yes it is
- 01:00:44something
- 01:00:46but god knows quite what
- 01:00:50there is no wonderland charles
- 01:00:53that is only this world and the
- 01:00:55hereafter
- 01:00:57my hope is in heaven i pray to god we
- 01:01:01will meet there
- 01:01:01he will forgive me even if you do not
- 01:01:03are you sure of that
- 01:01:06really sure
- 01:01:09goodbye charles do not
- 01:01:12try to contact me
- 01:01:20the very sight of you seconds me now
- 01:01:42as if my life couldn't get any worse
- 01:01:44you're going to tell me that you haven't
- 01:01:46learned your lines
- 01:01:47just like everybody else actually not i
- 01:01:51mean
- 01:01:52i haven't that's not what i was going to
- 01:01:54say
- 01:01:57that makes sense what were you going to
- 01:01:58say and
- 01:02:00i don't think we should do this play why
- 01:02:03and don't say it's because it's rubbish
- 01:02:10it is kind of original
- 01:02:14well you see i've been doing some
- 01:02:16research very enterprising with you
- 01:02:18tyler looking at white rabbits and how
- 01:02:20they move happier yeah okay no need to
- 01:02:22be sharky
- 01:02:24i've been researching lewis carroll he
- 01:02:26wasn't an artist
- 01:02:28he's a classics children's author what's
- 01:02:30not nice about that
- 01:02:31do you know that he was do you know that
- 01:02:34he wants
- 01:02:34that he wanted to marry her do you know
- 01:02:37that he used to take
- 01:02:38pornographic pictures he was sick is
- 01:02:41this true
- 01:02:42well people in blocks are spit on this
- 01:02:44but there's documentary on youtube by
- 01:02:46the bbc that printed out as a paedophile
- 01:02:49seriously alison wonderland
- 01:02:54again and disney made a movie of it
- 01:02:57now do you see what i mean i guess can i
- 01:03:00talk to mr harvey about it
- 01:03:02with you thanks tyler
- 01:03:29allison not lately not really
- 01:03:32it's private
- 01:03:38hi friend tyler i need to talk to
- 01:03:43alone oh okay
- 01:03:50grace
- 01:03:54i've been talking to allison and miss
- 01:03:55since that's nice for you
- 01:03:59i think i know where there's been three
- 01:04:02are still going through something awful
- 01:04:07life you mean yes life and
- 01:04:11those who take it from us what do you
- 01:04:14mean
- 01:04:15can i tell you something
- 01:04:18about three months ago i know it's the
- 01:04:22team
- 01:04:23mr harvey he seemed to be
- 01:04:27looking at me a lot when i was working
- 01:04:30so
- 01:04:31don't all teachers yes but
- 01:04:34not like this he asked me to stay a
- 01:04:38while after lessons
- 01:04:40he told me he thought i had amazing
- 01:04:42potential that
- 01:04:43i could make it if i really tried i
- 01:04:46believed him
- 01:04:48you should be good yes i know
- 01:04:52i know you think i'm being headed i'm
- 01:04:54not i'm good at john but
- 01:04:56i'm not that good for a while
- 01:05:00he made me believe that he offered me
- 01:05:03extra tuition after school
- 01:05:06so you stayed who else knew
- 01:05:09he asked me not to tell anyone he said
- 01:05:12he didn't want
- 01:05:13anybody else thinking they had a right
- 01:05:14to his time when they were just
- 01:05:17mediocre at best made me feel special
- 01:05:23go on we were doing a scene
- 01:05:28romeo and juliet as we finished
- 01:05:33who kissed you yes
- 01:05:36i was so shocked i just stood there
- 01:05:39he looked at me to see how i reacted
- 01:05:42and he must have thought i was happy
- 01:05:44about it so
- 01:05:46he kissed me again and that was that why
- 01:05:49don't you tell anyone
- 01:05:51he told me i missed him he said it was
- 01:05:53just acting i needed to
- 01:05:55immerse myself in the role i believed
- 01:05:58him
- 01:06:00but next time he took it further i tried
- 01:06:03to stop
- 01:06:04i tried i told him i'd tell but he said
- 01:06:07he'd believe me
- 01:06:08said it was all just acting it wasn't
- 01:06:11real
- 01:06:12but it was it was real grace and ever
- 01:06:15since
- 01:06:17whenever he's been near me he's touched
- 01:06:20me
- 01:06:21just little touches
- 01:06:24as if to say he owned me
- 01:06:27i'm so sorry and now you understand
- 01:06:31if you talk about tom i feel i can talk
- 01:06:34about mr harvey
- 01:06:37it's the shame i feel so ashamed
- 01:06:41it's not our fault
- 01:06:44the shame is there not ours
- 01:06:48i don't want it anymore grace
- 01:06:51what do you say
- 01:07:03[Music]
- 01:07:18let's do my book
- 01:07:28hello charles oh thank god
- 01:07:31you know you're the first one to speak
- 01:07:32to me tonight i don't know i've been
- 01:07:34watching you all
- 01:07:34evening you shouldn't have come you know
- 01:07:37i don't see why not
- 01:07:39the rest of the fact i can't understand
- 01:07:40can you we
- 01:07:42mere mortals are not like you we judge
- 01:07:45ah you as well especially me
- 01:07:50thomas told me about your latest
- 01:07:52indiscretion i bet it did
- 01:07:55are you going to do about it he promised
- 01:07:57it would never happen again
- 01:07:59that she burned any evidence i asked ina
- 01:08:03about it in a roundabout kind of way
- 01:08:06she says i must be mistaken but she
- 01:08:08never posed for any photographs with you
- 01:08:10on her own
- 01:08:11that it must be a girl that looks just
- 01:08:13like her or something
- 01:08:15good girl perhaps
- 01:08:18and are you going to tell on me not i
- 01:08:21nor ina nor alice we are all too shamed
- 01:08:24by this little episode
- 01:08:26we'd rather forget it ever happened we'd
- 01:08:28rather forget you
- 01:08:30but you won't my book has been published
- 01:08:32i know
- 01:08:34it caused quite a stir in the little
- 01:08:35household
- 01:08:37why the dean says he hopes for a sequel
- 01:08:39as does alex
- 01:08:41and i shall write one straight away i
- 01:08:43have no doubt that you will
- 01:08:44but i shan't read it i shan't read alice
- 01:08:47in wonderland i was there when you first
- 01:08:49told that story i know the truth of
- 01:08:51things
- 01:08:52and you shan't be asking me for a signed
- 01:08:54copy
- 01:08:55i shall ask you for anything ever again
- 01:08:58mr dawson
- 01:09:04goodbye
- 01:09:06you're leaving good that's sensible
- 01:09:10i'm always sensible mrs little always
- 01:09:12your problem is you never have been
- 01:09:15insensible perhaps perhaps
- 01:09:18did alice get my copy of the book i
- 01:09:20dedicated it to her
- 01:09:22so i saw that was most irresponsible of
- 01:09:25you
- 01:09:26selfish and arrogant did you read it
- 01:09:30she did she said she preferred it the
- 01:09:33first time you told it
- 01:09:35but she did like the illustrations which
- 01:09:37thank god bear no resemblance
- 01:09:40yes well stories are made for telling
- 01:09:45i'm thinking of writing a sequel
- 01:09:48you know shane do you ever look in the
- 01:09:51mirror and see yourself for the monster
- 01:09:53you truly are
- 01:09:54i never look into the looking glass mrs
- 01:09:56liddle
- 01:09:57the fear of what i might find there then
- 01:10:00maybe you should
- 01:10:02maybe i was just going now
- 01:10:06send my love to alice you are a wicked
- 01:10:10man
- 01:10:10and you have wormed your way into the
- 01:10:12hearts of thousands of children through
- 01:10:14your dreadful book if i had my way i
- 01:10:16would burn
- 01:10:17every single copy no if you start there
- 01:10:20where will you stop
- 01:10:22let everyone else make up their own mind
- 01:10:24about me and let's leave it at that
- 01:10:26goodbye mr dodson
- 01:10:36and will you certainly not i didn't pass
- 01:10:39on alice's love to him and she expressly
- 01:10:42asked me to if you were at this party
- 01:10:45no mr dodge doesn't understand love
- 01:10:48what he calls love is nothing more than
- 01:10:51fantasy
- 01:10:53dangerous and counterfeit criminal
- 01:11:22you [ __ ] you told people about me i've
- 01:11:25had police around my house
- 01:11:26i'm suspended from school my parents
- 01:11:28have gone ahead it's all your fault no
- 01:11:30tom you did this maybe spoken out to you
- 01:11:34everyone knows exactly what type of boy
- 01:11:35you are
- 01:11:36if i'm so bad to stop me from hurting
- 01:11:40you now
- 01:11:41there's no one around if i'm gonna get
- 01:11:43done as we get done for the real thing
- 01:11:46because nothing happened grace nothing
- 01:11:48just back off tom
- 01:11:50don't make it worse worse how can this
- 01:11:54get any worse
- 01:11:56my life is over i'm gonna be a sex
- 01:11:59offender
- 01:12:00do you know what that means i'm dead
- 01:12:04and it's all your fault it's not her
- 01:12:06fault back out of him mrs simpson you
- 01:12:09run again
- 01:12:11yes it is it's every woman's fight
- 01:12:14why should we have to put with people
- 01:12:16like you you could have destroyed grace
- 01:12:19million god knows how many others but
- 01:12:22they stopped you
- 01:12:24this is an overview i think it is you'll
- 01:12:27be arrested
- 01:12:28you will be charged and you will go to
- 01:12:30prison
- 01:12:32that's reality tom just keep
- 01:12:46get out because you clearly need it
- 01:12:48there's nothing you can do that can hurt
- 01:12:50any of us anymore
- 01:12:52just go
- 01:12:57[Music]
- 01:12:59well done grace yeah well done
- 01:13:02thank you
- 01:13:06what's this
- 01:13:31i wonder if there is another me beyond
- 01:13:35the looking glass
- 01:13:39a kinder me
- 01:13:42a more truthful me
- 01:13:46the wicked of me
- 01:13:49we are all legion
- 01:13:52as the scripture so poetically puts it
- 01:13:56demons wrestle for control of our souls
- 01:14:01sometimes i win
- 01:14:04often i win
- 01:14:08sometimes i
- 01:14:15i have lost alice
- 01:14:19and no amount of sequels will bring her
- 01:14:22back
- 01:14:25all i have now are her photos
- 01:14:29the memories
- 01:14:34i cannot even hear her voice anymore
- 01:14:39she was like god's gift
- 01:14:43a reminder a challenge
- 01:14:47a dream
- 01:14:52i'm famous now
- 01:14:56known the world over
- 01:15:00children write to me
- 01:15:03they send me letters
- 01:15:06some offer to pose
- 01:15:11they're not her they never will be
- 01:15:17even if they pretend
- 01:15:24and what will history make of me
- 01:15:29will i be damned or praised
- 01:15:33or people smile or
- 01:15:36shake their fist
- 01:15:41i will never know
- 01:15:46but i think i care
- 01:15:49i would hate to differ
- 01:15:54no
- 01:15:57nothing matters
- 01:16:02nothing matters anymore
- 01:16:15so you're gonna have the whole
- 01:16:17production despite everything
- 01:16:20[Music]
- 01:16:31i finally told the truth i know you're
- 01:16:33not alex and i never thought you were
- 01:16:36well a little bit
- 01:16:40do you remember that conversation yes
- 01:16:43i remember look
- 01:16:46it's still soon i don't know if i'll
- 01:16:48ever be able to
- 01:16:51love anyone but can we leave it
- 01:16:55for now yeah sure
- 01:16:58sorry i'm being insensitive
- 01:17:14say goodbye to thailand friend you did
- 01:17:16bye tyler
- 01:17:17my house was in 15 minutes 15 minutes
- 01:17:24we're going for a couple of households
- 01:17:26we just wanted to know if you wanted to
- 01:17:27come with us
- 01:17:29yeah give me five minutes i'm just
- 01:17:30waiting for this
- 01:17:32it's gonna be all right
- 01:17:47well the staff have been told and it's
- 01:17:50no longer a secret
- 01:17:52it's going to be a trial press
- 01:17:55it's going to be hard do you think i
- 01:17:58have to
- 01:17:59call possibly i don't know
- 01:18:02don't know if i could face him of course
- 01:18:04you can
- 01:18:06you're strong you have heart
- 01:18:09when the time comes you'll do it you
- 01:18:11have your family
- 01:18:12your friends do you have me i guess
- 01:18:17don't you think it's weird well i've
- 01:18:19been going through all of this
- 01:18:20i've been doing alice to play it's like
- 01:18:22alice's self-made been through the same
- 01:18:24thing she did nothing he got away with
- 01:18:28it
- 01:18:28i don't think he did i think he was
- 01:18:32completely destroyed by it all
- 01:18:35good i hope he was mr harley hasn't got
- 01:18:38away with it
- 01:18:39thanks to you you're amazing
- 01:18:43so proud
- 01:19:08alice i am not
- 01:19:20alice
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