Not Alice | Performance

01:30:17
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Summary

TLDRThe narrative weaves a complex tale of relationships, authority abuses, and personal struggles, primarily set in a school with connections to family backgrounds. Freya wrestles with repeated bullying and harassment, seeking advice from friends like Jenny. The school production of "Alice in Wonderland" stirs emotions, with Freya striving for the lead role amidst the chaos. Meanwhile, revelations about Mr. Harvey, the teacher involved with the production, unfold, uncovering manipulative and predatory behavior toward students, particularly impacting Grace. The characters navigate these challenges, with Freya revealing the truths behind secrets centered around Mr. Harvey's misconduct. Parallelly, the figure of Charles Dodgson reflects on themes of lost innocence and societal judgment, resonating with the main narrative's issues. As they confront these trials, friendships are tested, choices made, and the quest for justice against Mr. Harvey solidifies, making parallels with larger themes of childhood and innocence.

Takeaways

  • 🎭 "Alice in Wonderland" serves as the school production backdrop, reflecting major narrative conflicts.
  • 😢 Freya's struggle with bullying highlights severe emotional impacts.
  • 👥 Relationships among students and teachers reveal underlying tension and drama.
  • 🗣 Grace faces Mr. Harvey's manipulative actions, symbolizing abuse of power.
  • 🔍 The pursuit of truth against authority figures emerges as a primary narrative theme.
  • 💔 Eleanor faces the complexity of understanding Dodgson's affection for children.
  • 📚 The story reflects on the life and perceptions of Charles Dodgson (Lewis Carroll).
  • ✨ Themes of innocence and its loss thread through both personal and broader contexts.
  • 🧩 The narrative questions the roles and responsibilities within educational and familial systems.
  • 🔄 The characters exhibit growth and realizations amidst trials, particularly Freya and Grace.

Timeline

  • 00:00:00 - 00:05:00

    Two friends discuss the constant bullying one of them faces at school. Freya feels targeted by classmates and wishes for it to end, while the other friend suggests that she might be overreacting. There's tension between the two as they try to support each other, leading to further conflict when Freya's perceived arrogance and the pressure she faces are brought up.

  • 00:05:00 - 00:10:00

    An interaction occurs between a student and a teacher possibly over a secret relationship or misunderstood friendship. The teacher reassures their value of propriety, yet there's underlying tension around the rumors of inappropriate behavior regarding photographs taken by the teacher.

  • 00:10:00 - 00:15:00

    Students are practicing for a school play when one of them mentions the school's production plans. There's some banter and bickering among the students about auditions and who is trying out for the play.

  • 00:15:00 - 00:20:00

    A quiet moment on the playground brings conversation about life's difficulties and ambitions. Some characters reflect on their personal situations, dreams, and the realities they face, mixed with a bit of card trick entertainment from a character named Charles.

  • 00:20:00 - 00:25:00

    There's a gathering where card tricks and banter among adults take place. Discussions arise about potential relationships and social perceptions. Mention of a party or event where Charles is expected to entertain, and an excursion on the river is planned.

  • 00:25:00 - 00:30:00

    Discussion involves reflections on roles in a play and learning lines. Personal ambitions clash with the role selection process, indicating discontent among those who wanted more significant roles than they received.

  • 00:30:00 - 00:35:00

    Conversation between friends reveals potential relationship dynamics and hints of underlying issues. Speculations about someone being gay surface, as well as the serious discussion about school production roles.

  • 00:35:00 - 00:40:00

    Shocking revelations occur when a character is confronted about an inappropriate declaration of love to a young girl, leading to accusations of immoral behavior. The confrontation ends with threats of legal action and severed relationships.

  • 00:40:00 - 00:45:00

    Rumor and scandal about Charles and inappropriate behavior with children come to a head. He is confronted by a mother about his conduct, and the situation deteriorates, leaving him isolated from those he once interacted with closely.

  • 00:45:00 - 00:50:00

    Aftermath of scandal: friendships severed, relationships and reputations destroyed. There's a sense of impending punishment or judgment. Charles struggles with the consequences of his actions and the perceptions of those around him.

  • 00:50:00 - 00:55:00

    Further tension as Charles reflects on the gravity of his situation and the loss of his relationships. There's a deep dive into how his perceived love and passion were misunderstood and deemed wrong.

  • 00:55:00 - 01:00:00

    Characters discuss the realities of bygone friendships and broken trust, with emphasis on how personal relationships have been affected by scandal. Conversations about the impact of one's reputation and the fear of discovery.

  • 01:00:00 - 01:05:00

    Reveal of betrayal and an insight into Charles' personal struggles after his public shaming. Letters exchanged between characters emphasize the deep emotional wounds caused by the scandal.

  • 01:05:00 - 01:10:00

    Conversations between students reveal their struggles with past fears and current truths. The character of Freya shows signs of abuse by Mr. Harvey, revealing a broader issue within the school.

  • 01:10:00 - 01:15:00

    Reflections and confrontation unravel between characters, revealing much about intentions, past actions, and regrets. There is speculation on the nature of true innocence and societal judgement.

  • 01:15:00 - 01:30:17

    The narrative closes with a focus on the personal growth of the characters, despite their challenges. They confront their inner turmoils and move towards healing, with an overarching theme of regained agency and new beginnings.

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Video Q&A

  • Who is the character struggling with bullying in the story?

    Freya is struggling with bullying and harassment by others.

  • What advice does Jenny give to Freya regarding the bullying?

    Jenny tells Freya to toughen up and dismisses her feelings as exaggerated.

  • Who does Tom have a complex and troubling relationship with?

    Tom has a troubling relationship with Grace, with hints of manipulative behavior.

  • What is the profession of Mr. Harvey?

    Mr. Harvey is a teacher involved in a drama production at the school.

  • What role does Freya want in the school play?

    Freya is interested in the role of Alice in the school play 'Alice in Wonderland.'

  • How does Eleanor view Charles Dodgson's interest in children?

    Eleanor initially trusts Charles Dodgson but becomes aware of his inappropriate affection for young girls.

  • What real-world figure is referenced through "Mr. Dodgson"?

    Charles Dodgson is a reference to Lewis Carroll, the author of "Alice in Wonderland."

  • What secret is Freya keeping?

    Freya is struggling with issues related to Mr. Harvey, hinting at an inappropriate relationship.

  • What prompts the school to reconsider their drama production?

    Concerns about Lewis Carroll's appropriateness and the influence on the students prompt reconsideration.

  • What support does Freya receive from her friends?

    Despite her earlier self-doubt, Freya receives support and encouragement from friends like Grace.

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    [Music]
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    my god
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    she's beautiful
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    they didn't mean anything by it you know
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    that don't you they
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    they're just being silly you don't need
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    to be like this
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    they don't mean anything they shouldn't
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    say anything and it's every day
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    every single day i mean jen why me
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    why have they chosen to talk with me
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    every single day
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    you're exaggerating it look
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    you're having a bad day it's the time of
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    your month
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    you need to toughen up and grow up you
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    don't it's not that bad you don't need
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    to be like this
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    no how would you like it they called
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    your mother a slurp
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    if they called you an abortion if they
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    threw your lunch over the floor
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    and made you pick it up and eat it then
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    would you still say it's not that bad
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    okay so they're stupid
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    i know maybe about it oh and there it is
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    there's the reason why you get so much
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    hassle
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    you know what freya sometimes you can
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    just be such an arrogant prick
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    okay so you come across so clever
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    that you make all of us look stupid i
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    mean you're even good at sports
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    it's just people i don't do well with
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    well yeah get on with me and tyler and i
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    think we're people
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    so you say look jenny i just want it all
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    to end
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    tell me what to do i wish i knew
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    look the break's almost over and we've
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    got drama next
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    oh and um mr harvey said he's got some
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    big announcements to make
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    let's hope he's leaving can't see the
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    back of that creeper
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    what do you mean
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    it's very good of you to invite me to
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    tea mr dodson
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    but i'm not sure about the propriety of
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    me being here alone in your room
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    i mean what if the dean was to find out
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    i think you'll find that i'm not a man
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    for propriety
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    i'm not bound by society's rules i
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    follow
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    a higher power oh you mean god i assume
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    i mean
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    duty which may of course be the same
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    thing
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    but i can assure you that i do value
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    innocence
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    and would never knowingly cause anyone
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    to stumble
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    i hope you can find that of some comfort
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    some mr dodson but you do know what they
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    say about you around college
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    i couldn't possibly what do they say
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    about me around quality
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    well it's about your photographs you do
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    take a lot of photographs and
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    some might be deemed i'm not sure of the
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    right word to use here
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    indeed perhaps never never in all of my
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    days have i taken a photograph that
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    could have been considered indecent
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    i try to capture man before the fall
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    the image of man before sin crept in
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    we all must fall eleanor eventually
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    it's part of growing up i suppose that's
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    all your theological talk
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    well i don't understand any of it all i
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    know
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    is that the man i'm sitting with today
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    is a little eccentric
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    but wonderfully kind and i couldn't ask
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    for a better companion
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    now or in the future you are too kind
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    now how are those charges of yours
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    are you still managing to keep them
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    under your control almost but they are
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    children and full of life and sometimes
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    life just gets a little too
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    too lively exactly and who is the main
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    culprit
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    why that is easy it's alex it's always
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    alice
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    it's always alice i'm sure
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    cares about shoes but if you really want
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    to find her she'll probably be in the
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    bathroom somewhere
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    crying as usual as usual i don't know
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    why she cries so much
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    it's not like the teaser but it's most
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    the time grace
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    be honest you two could be real [ __ ]
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    sometimes
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    i hope so could you try
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    don't you ever think about what you
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    might be doing you're probably ruining
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    her life
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    she could be self-harming the tallest
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    right and how far you know not her
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    she wouldn't have the bottle anyways
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    it's you
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    don't tell me fancier oh don't worry i
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    won't tell you
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    i've gotta go i'll see you guys later
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    is just a nice guy though i'm not sure i
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    believe the nice guys
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    there is enough of this what do you mean
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    mr harvey's plans for a school
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    production
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    hustle man's a bit
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    so you're not going to audition of
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    course i'm going to audition
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    i'm not stupid i've had plans even
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    mcqueen
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    well i was she's a bit of a bully so i
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    you have to be really bored i bet you
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    think you're really funny
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    funny and ugly the perfect combination
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    you ever took anything
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    but crap alison guess not too much for
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    your tiny mind to handle
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    girls what's going on here nothing mess
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    i hope you can get outside then please
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    it's great time
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    alison can i have a word what i didn't
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    do anything and i didn't say you did
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    i was just wondering if you're going to
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    audition for alice in wonderland
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    because i thought being in a school
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    production would do you some good
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    i've seen you in drama you're a talented
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    actor well that's clearly a lie but
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    i might audition thanks
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    what are you doing here
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    resting getting ready for the rest of
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    the day
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    i just want some peace tyler can you go
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    away of course okay
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    but i won't
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    why'd you do this as if foreign
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    or allison said anything in fact they
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    aren't as bad as they were
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    i think jenny was behind me it's not
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    them
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    but they are still just as bad does
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    everything tyler
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    life sucks i don't understand how you
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    are where you are
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    when you scream shout fight anything
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    instead you're just nice
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    it's what i choose to be sure
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    our staff was still here i wish things
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    were easier at home
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    bush grabbed money and nice clothes and
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    could go on holiday
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    but that's not going to happen these are
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    the cards i've pinned out
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    so i'm gonna make the most of them curly
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    looking
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    if you change everything and besides
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    you're not gonna let life beat me
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    neither should you say
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    let me show you one of the tricks i've
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    been learning i have been learning the
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    most marvelous illusions with cards
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    very well charles okay so first off pick
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    a card any card
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    make sure you remember which one it is
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    yes i have it place it back in the deck
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    wherever you please
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    okay i shall now shuffle the cards as
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    soon
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    as there we go would you like to shuffle
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    them as well thomas why not dudson i'll
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    make it too easy on you
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    of course of course you see
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    wonderful that should do nicely
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    now i'm afraid of my memory oh what day
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    of the month
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    we were born on again i want to say it
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    escapes me come cam dodgson you know as
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    well as i was the nine
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    yes indeed it was the ninth now one
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    two three four five six
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    seven eight nine
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    was this your card i say charleston
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    damned if that's not it that's really
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    rather good
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    time for that one yeah it's why not very
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    good now you've seen this is clearly a
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    normal deck of cards yeah it was normal
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    enough very good now
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    we have here at the top the ace of
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    hearts we have no way of knowing
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    what is there at the back but i'm going
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    to predict that i
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    by maybe just twisting around at the
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    back we'll be able to
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    show you what the new card will be at
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    the back so i'm going to predict that it
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    will be the nine of hearts
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    okay ready so i'm basically going to put
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    it forward
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    like so and there we have
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    it should i do this
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    why not one more very well next will be
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    the eight
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    of hearts here we go put it forward
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    since when do card tricks form part of
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    your role as theology tutor
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    or librarian i mean i've seen these
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    things done at
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    children's parties isn't all this a
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    little bit beneath you
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    i mean who are you trying to impress
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    surely not the divine eleanor
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    she would marry you tomorrow if you were
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    to ask she is magnificently impressed
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    with the prospect of being mrs charles
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    i have no interest in marrying eleanor
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    at least not
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    immediately sometimes i find her to be
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    somewhat what's the word i'm looking for
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    clinging suffocating desperate
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    yes all of those and probably more
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    but she is such a sweet one to look at
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    don't you think
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    quite childlike and she is such an
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    innocent
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    one can't help but like her very much
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    well if you say so charles
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    personally i find her insufferable
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    but i do confess i find her very pretty
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    a kiss beneath the mistletoe of
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    christmas would be a most pleasant
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    affair i should imagine
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    i presume you both have kissed by now
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    you have been courting the girl for at
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    least three months
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    we kissed at the end of our first
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    evening together
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    i think i took her by surprise she
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    called me forward
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    but she was not offended and we have
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    kissed many times since
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    oh bet you have you are the most
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    unconventional man dodson
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    sometimes i worry about you but you
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    haven't answered my question
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    who are these parlor tricks for if not
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    for eleanor
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    why they are for her children i am to be
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    entertainment at a party
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    that she is organizing i have been
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    learning new tricks and illusions almost
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    daily in preparation for the great event
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    i'm looking forward to it immensely
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    in fact i think i'm looking forward to
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    it more than anything else
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    well it's my view dodgson that you need
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    to get out more
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    yes i have been thinking the same thing
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    in fact i thought i might take a trip on
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    the river on a boat
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    would you be interested if i was to
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    organize it certainly i should like
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    nothing better
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    as long as the weather is fine and the
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    wind is slight i'm your man
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    do you still indulge in your
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    photographic hobby by any chance
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    yes why do you ask i was wondering if
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    you might do me a portrait
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    what that i can send home to my mother
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    to show her what a fine young man i have
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    become
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    she will frame it and hang it with pride
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    above the mantelpiece
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    and boast of me to all her visitors yes
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    yes you'll tell me a date when you are
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    free and we shall fix it up
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    it will be the perfect opportunity to
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    try out some of my new equipment
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    but you're not taking as many
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    photographs as you used to
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    no i cannot find the subjects
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    it's a tragic shame but there it is
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    i don't understand mr harvey how do you
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    choose phrase plays alice is completely
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    beyond me
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    she doesn't even look like alice she
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    isn't even born i don't get why you're
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    so upset
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    i mean you got the part you wanted plus
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    friend can act
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    you should be great about this but i
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    wanted to be alice
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    instead i'm chorus and that sucks
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    i don't know when to do it at all now
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    because who wants to be chorus anyway
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    i'm boris well mostly i've got a few
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    parts of the cheshire cat but
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    i like being in the chorus he gets me
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    loads of scenes that get hard learning
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    lifestyle
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    yeah but i want to be noticed and i'm
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    not going to be noticed i'm in the
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    chorus
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    oh you'll be noticed all right you can't
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    dance and you're always out of stuff
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    it'll be hilarious don't take out me
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    just because you didn't get the part of
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    our list
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    sorry it was mean i was just getting
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    into my characters and queen you know
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    yeah none taken so tom
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    it'll be you and me dancing in the
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    chorus together i hardly
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    doubt that but you never know and would
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    you like that tom
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    would you like to be dancing with grace
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    in the chorus oh my
  • 00:14:39
    i can't stand innovation all day
  • 00:14:41
    homework revision
  • 00:14:52
    i think he's gay gay really
  • 00:14:56
    are you sure
  • 00:15:02
    because if anyone knows it [ __ ]
  • 00:15:04
    because they're best friends right
  • 00:15:06
    you don't think him in thailand are you
  • 00:15:08
    real of course it's for
  • 00:15:11
    need
  • 00:15:24
    right so jenny you're the mother needs
  • 00:15:27
    to be backing around with the picnic or
  • 00:15:28
    something
  • 00:15:29
    paige the older sister is reading a
  • 00:15:31
    really boring book except it's not
  • 00:15:32
    really boring over to alex
  • 00:15:35
    let's do the whole book thing first then
  • 00:15:37
    get on shore have to put in it do
  • 00:15:39
    you pick the book and entirely you can
  • 00:15:40
    come on as the white rabbit no
  • 00:15:42
    that's this is the hard image you're
  • 00:15:43
    doing director you come quite a dictator
  • 00:15:45
    do you know that millie no time to don't
  • 00:15:47
    even know if i like you anymore
  • 00:15:48
    of course you still like me paige you're
  • 00:15:50
    just saying that to annoy me
  • 00:15:52
    nobody else agrees i've become a
  • 00:15:53
    dictator do though
  • 00:15:57
    now you come to mention it ignore them
  • 00:16:00
    they'll be easily
  • 00:16:00
    i think you're doing a really good job
  • 00:16:03
    well thank you fred i think you're
  • 00:16:04
    perfect
  • 00:16:05
    mr harvey really loves you in the bowl
  • 00:16:07
    you told me sir the other day
  • 00:16:10
    what exactly did he say oh i can't
  • 00:16:13
    remember
  • 00:16:14
    the impression you know you can tell
  • 00:16:16
    them are we going to get on with this or
  • 00:16:18
    we're going to stand around gossiping
  • 00:16:19
    okay let's do this phone all right
  • 00:16:22
    you're off there
  • 00:16:23
    all right hand in the water
  • 00:16:41
    how about over there oh wonderful mother
  • 00:16:45
    i could live against a children could
  • 00:16:47
    reach you asleep
  • 00:16:48
    oh alice what do you think
  • 00:16:55
    lovely picnic mother i feel quite
  • 00:16:57
    startled
  • 00:16:58
    please do not use that kind of language
  • 00:17:02
    it is most common not quite suitable for
  • 00:17:05
    a growing young lady
  • 00:17:07
    oh feel sick's mother you can be so old
  • 00:17:12
    yes i can be well if you girls don't
  • 00:17:16
    mind
  • 00:17:16
    i'd like a little doze and i'm sorry
  • 00:17:22
    is that a good book ina wonderful it's a
  • 00:17:25
    gothic romance full of graceless
  • 00:17:26
    passions of false dudes
  • 00:17:29
    let me see
  • 00:17:34
    it's all just writing what's the use of
  • 00:17:37
    a book without pictures or conversations
  • 00:17:40
    if that's the kind of books grown-ups
  • 00:17:41
    reading that must be very boring when
  • 00:17:43
    you grow up
  • 00:17:44
    i don't think i'll ever grow up in fact
  • 00:17:47
    i don't think i
  • 00:17:48
    want to change at all i think i'll make
  • 00:17:51
    a daisy chain
  • 00:17:52
    well child if you must now leave me
  • 00:17:54
    alone i'm at the most exciting part
  • 00:17:57
    and that's your cue tyler you come on
  • 00:17:59
    from the left
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    weaving around on various members of the
  • 00:18:02
    audience checking your watch against
  • 00:18:04
    theirs and generally making you useful
  • 00:18:05
    to yourself
  • 00:18:06
    then you stop just in front of alice and
  • 00:18:08
    then you say your lines
  • 00:18:10
    i'm not wearing a watch
  • 00:18:14
    right got it weave around the audience
  • 00:18:16
    and then stop in front of
  • 00:18:17
    us we'll go on then
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    [Music]
  • 00:18:35
    oh dear oh dear i shall be too late
  • 00:18:43
    tyler you have hardly any life i have
  • 00:18:45
    got loads and i know them all already
  • 00:18:48
    well millie can we stop with that tyler
  • 00:18:50
    is hopeless
  • 00:18:51
    okay it's nearly the end of break anyway
  • 00:18:53
    and tyler learn
  • 00:18:59
    not even remotely funny very fortunate
  • 00:19:02
    sorry just slip down i'll get better
  • 00:19:05
    my friends make sure you do i'm in a bit
  • 00:19:09
    of a hurry now is there any chance one
  • 00:19:10
    of you can talk to mr harvey and
  • 00:19:12
    tell him how it's going freya
  • 00:19:16
    if i missed
  • 00:19:35
    i really do find your choice of reading
  • 00:19:37
    material to be most peculiar for a man
  • 00:19:39
    of god
  • 00:19:40
    why if you were my child i would
  • 00:19:42
    disapprove most strongly of that
  • 00:19:44
    particular novel
  • 00:19:45
    or this oh it's nothing escapism
  • 00:19:48
    pure fantasy and what is it you have to
  • 00:19:51
    escape from
  • 00:19:52
    it seems to me you have the almost
  • 00:19:54
    perfect life
  • 00:19:56
    yes i can see that you think that i
  • 00:19:57
    might
  • 00:19:59
    i'm surrounded by people that i admire i
  • 00:20:01
    am free to
  • 00:20:03
    write and discuss and argue to my
  • 00:20:05
    heart's content
  • 00:20:07
    i have three square meals a day rooms
  • 00:20:10
    that are more than adequate
  • 00:20:14
    and from my window a view of god's good
  • 00:20:18
    earth
  • 00:20:21
    and yet you feel that
  • 00:20:24
    something is missing missing
  • 00:20:27
    perhaps no it's
  • 00:20:30
    it's more than the world i inhabit fall
  • 00:20:33
    short of what it should be
  • 00:20:35
    isn't that what every clergyman thinks
  • 00:20:37
    it's certainly what every clergyman
  • 00:20:39
    preaches in my experience
  • 00:20:41
    why the dean himself was only speaking
  • 00:20:43
    about the fallen world following eve's
  • 00:20:45
    foolishness
  • 00:20:46
    last sunday and he was right to an
  • 00:20:48
    extent
  • 00:20:50
    everything was perfect in eden we lived
  • 00:20:53
    in harmony with creation
  • 00:20:55
    we were vegetarian i could have easily
  • 00:20:59
    stroked a lion as i stroked the college
  • 00:21:01
    cat
  • 00:21:02
    and furthermore we all walked about
  • 00:21:05
    completely naked and knew not shame
  • 00:21:07
    mr dodson you can't put an image like
  • 00:21:09
    that in a young girl's head
  • 00:21:10
    why ever not it is in the scriptures
  • 00:21:14
    genesis chapter 2 and verse 25
  • 00:21:17
    and though the man and woman were naked
  • 00:21:19
    they were not
  • 00:21:20
    ashamed you see when god made man and
  • 00:21:23
    woman he created them
  • 00:21:25
    innocent and their innocence was shown
  • 00:21:27
    in their lack of shame
  • 00:21:29
    for being without clothes it is
  • 00:21:31
    innocence
  • 00:21:33
    that we have lost sometimes we are lucky
  • 00:21:37
    enough
  • 00:21:37
    to see it in the glimpse of the eyes of
  • 00:21:40
    a child
  • 00:21:42
    but for the most part it is gone and we
  • 00:21:45
    are the poorer for it
  • 00:21:47
    sometimes charles i think you talk utter
  • 00:21:49
    nonsense
  • 00:21:50
    are you suggesting that it would be a
  • 00:21:51
    better world if we were to all walk
  • 00:21:53
    around without our clothes on
  • 00:21:55
    i for one would find the whole thing
  • 00:21:56
    utterly disgraceful
  • 00:21:58
    not to mention how impractical that
  • 00:21:59
    would be i don't think you understand
  • 00:22:01
    what it is
  • 00:22:02
    i'm saying i'm not advocating a return
  • 00:22:06
    to naturism
  • 00:22:08
    more what our nakedness represents
  • 00:22:12
    innocence a time when we
  • 00:22:15
    did not know right from wrong because
  • 00:22:17
    there was nothing wrong
  • 00:22:19
    in the whole world eve has a lot to
  • 00:22:22
    answer for but it was adam who took the
  • 00:22:24
    apple first so
  • 00:22:26
    maybe the fault lay with him for being
  • 00:22:28
    too weak or too eager to become like god
  • 00:22:31
    my dear eleanor i do think you have the
  • 00:22:33
    makings of a theologian
  • 00:22:36
    now would you like to take a trip with
  • 00:22:39
    me on the river in a boat
  • 00:22:41
    my friend goldstone is always saying i
  • 00:22:43
    should get out more and so i thought
  • 00:22:45
    was a lovely idea who would be our
  • 00:22:47
    chaperone
  • 00:22:48
    thomas yes he could share in some of the
  • 00:22:51
    rowing
  • 00:22:52
    i thought perhaps your children might
  • 00:22:54
    want to join us oh the young girls and
  • 00:22:56
    henry
  • 00:22:58
    yes perhaps not young henry
  • 00:23:01
    he might be a little too young too
  • 00:23:04
    overexcitable
  • 00:23:05
    man overboard if you know what i mean
  • 00:23:07
    right i shall ask mrs liddle i'm sure
  • 00:23:09
    she won't mind
  • 00:23:10
    then it is settled
  • 00:23:12
    [Music]
  • 00:23:14
    eleanor was just leaving i was talking
  • 00:23:17
    to her about our boat trip
  • 00:23:18
    i thought we might go for next weekend
  • 00:23:21
    mr goldstone how lovely to see you
  • 00:23:23
    i am very much looking forward to our
  • 00:23:25
    little outing and for now
  • 00:23:27
    goodbye charles
  • 00:23:32
    i say dodson did you really have to kiss
  • 00:23:35
    like that in front of me
  • 00:23:36
    it was damned embarrassing for both of
  • 00:23:38
    us well i thought as we are always going
  • 00:23:40
    on about my love life
  • 00:23:41
    you might want to see it in action so to
  • 00:23:43
    speak
  • 00:23:45
    no no well take a seat what can i do for
  • 00:23:48
    you
  • 00:23:49
    no thank you i just wanted to confirm
  • 00:23:50
    the details for next weekend that's all
  • 00:23:52
    because i'll be away for most of the
  • 00:23:54
    week
  • 00:23:54
    so it's just you me and eleanor is it
  • 00:23:57
    and the children
  • 00:23:58
    the three girls ah the three girls of
  • 00:24:00
    course the littles you mean
  • 00:24:02
    well that will make for the most
  • 00:24:03
    pleasant trip not without its dangers of
  • 00:24:06
    course
  • 00:24:07
    dangerous you mean they might
  • 00:24:11
    fall in well yes there is that of course
  • 00:24:16
    what else thomas what are you implying
  • 00:24:20
    oh nothing i've just been listening to
  • 00:24:22
    too much gossip
  • 00:24:23
    are you planning to keep them
  • 00:24:24
    entertained with your party tricks
  • 00:24:27
    no i thought i might rather tell them a
  • 00:24:31
    story
  • 00:24:44
    oh there you are yes here we are tom now
  • 00:24:48
    what can we do here
  • 00:24:49
    uh it was great actually um
  • 00:24:52
    correct so wonderful to get together for
  • 00:24:54
    lunch routines
  • 00:24:57
    just you and me yeah does that make you
  • 00:25:00
    feel uncomfortable
  • 00:25:01
    no not really i was just a little
  • 00:25:02
    surprised that's all yeah lunchtime
  • 00:25:07
    tomorrow sure tomorrow
  • 00:25:11
    did that really just happen did tom just
  • 00:25:14
    ask you to spend time with him
  • 00:25:16
    on his own i thought i thought he was
  • 00:25:19
    gay
  • 00:25:19
    i didn't really i thought the other
  • 00:25:22
    thing called millie
  • 00:25:23
    well once i've gone over and that's all
  • 00:25:25
    i can say
  • 00:25:26
    because just dance practice oh nothing's
  • 00:25:28
    actually something
  • 00:25:29
    you'll see i know boys yeah but tom was
  • 00:25:32
    really nice well everybody seems like a
  • 00:25:34
    girl who's never had a boyfriend
  • 00:25:36
    are you jealous are you mad me jealous
  • 00:25:40
    of you
  • 00:25:40
    of course not i just didn't want you to
  • 00:25:43
    get hurt that's all
  • 00:25:46
    don't worry about me i'm stronger than
  • 00:25:48
    you thinking well
  • 00:25:49
    you're weaker than i thought if you
  • 00:25:52
    would be listening to anyone
  • 00:25:53
    ever again i'll kill you get it
  • 00:26:06
    [Music]
  • 00:26:09
    what have you been writing about today
  • 00:26:11
    today i have written
  • 00:26:14
    that i have become excellent friends
  • 00:26:16
    with three
  • 00:26:17
    most lovely young ladies i mark today
  • 00:26:20
    with a
  • 00:26:20
    white stone such as its significance
  • 00:26:23
    what a strange way you have of talking
  • 00:26:25
    dodgson
  • 00:26:25
    i'll tell you what i thought was
  • 00:26:27
    significant about today that story you
  • 00:26:29
    spun
  • 00:26:30
    marvellous it was exciting and fantastic
  • 00:26:34
    and i really think you should write it
  • 00:26:35
    down i'm not sure who enjoyed it most
  • 00:26:37
    me all the girls not eleanor then she
  • 00:26:40
    seemed quite happy
  • 00:26:41
    though i caught her eyes drooping once
  • 00:26:43
    or twice that was a hot day
  • 00:26:45
    so what do you say will you write it
  • 00:26:48
    down
  • 00:26:48
    i'm not exaggerating when i say i think
  • 00:26:51
    you have a best
  • 00:26:52
    seller on your hands you will appeal to
  • 00:26:54
    adults and children alike
  • 00:26:56
    it will make you famous hmm
  • 00:26:59
    i rather think that an oxford shooter
  • 00:27:01
    should be known for his
  • 00:27:03
    his studying his original thoughts not
  • 00:27:06
    some
  • 00:27:06
    childlike story i i told it for the
  • 00:27:09
    girls
  • 00:27:10
    you told the story for alice it was
  • 00:27:12
    certainly alice you were telling it to
  • 00:27:14
    you barely looked at the others ah
  • 00:27:17
    she'll be a real beauty once she's all
  • 00:27:19
    grown up
  • 00:27:21
    pity children have to grow up don't you
  • 00:27:22
    think we all have to
  • 00:27:25
    time demands it society demands it
  • 00:27:28
    if we remain children all our life
  • 00:27:30
    nothing would ever get
  • 00:27:32
    done it would be chaos it could just as
  • 00:27:35
    easily be paradise
  • 00:27:36
    write the book get it out of your system
  • 00:27:40
    and then return to your mathematics
  • 00:27:43
    yes well maybe i will alice asked me to
  • 00:27:47
    as well
  • 00:27:49
    she gave me a lock of her hair i shall
  • 00:27:53
    treasure it
  • 00:27:54
    alongside your luck of eleanor's hair no
  • 00:27:56
    doubt
  • 00:27:58
    i am not fortunate enough to possess
  • 00:27:59
    such a thing have you asked
  • 00:28:02
    no i i never could
  • 00:28:05
    but you asked alice
  • 00:28:09
    i overheard you oh it just won't do you
  • 00:28:12
    know
  • 00:28:12
    what would you do the way you carry on
  • 00:28:14
    with these girls and not
  • 00:28:16
    just the little girls it's as if you
  • 00:28:18
    prefer their company to adults
  • 00:28:20
    i do children are three quarters of my
  • 00:28:23
    life
  • 00:28:25
    when i am with them
  • 00:28:28
    god is in his heaven it's as if nothing
  • 00:28:32
    could ever go wrong
  • 00:28:35
    it's really rather beautiful
  • 00:28:38
    can't you see that i understand that
  • 00:28:41
    that is how you feel
  • 00:28:44
    i am less convinced that the dean would
  • 00:28:46
    understand if he ever got to hear about
  • 00:28:50
    if he ever got to hear what other people
  • 00:28:52
    are saying
  • 00:28:54
    are you saying i should take a step back
  • 00:28:56
    i'm saying you should be careful
  • 00:28:58
    god knows there isn't an ounce of harm
  • 00:29:00
    in you look you live your life as if
  • 00:29:02
    you're still living your childhood
  • 00:29:05
    but out there people think differently
  • 00:29:09
    they are less prepared to give you the
  • 00:29:11
    benefit of the doubt
  • 00:29:13
    no one believes in innocence anymore
  • 00:29:18
    do you understand yes yes i think you
  • 00:29:21
    are wrong
  • 00:29:24
    shall we change the subject you never
  • 00:29:26
    did give me a date that you were free
  • 00:29:27
    for your photograph
  • 00:29:29
    how about friday that would be wonderful
  • 00:29:34
    i'll see you then take care
  • 00:29:38
    charles
  • 00:29:47
    i shall tell her on monday
  • 00:29:51
    and then speak to her parents
  • 00:29:55
    that should put an end to all of the
  • 00:29:57
    gossip
  • 00:30:07
    drink me you will never guess what we've
  • 00:30:10
    got
  • 00:30:11
    it's so cool no idea go on
  • 00:30:14
    guess okay you've got me a wig
  • 00:30:17
    yeah we have but that's not it gotta
  • 00:30:20
    rewrite it
  • 00:30:32
    not just any shoes real shoes her shoes
  • 00:30:37
    miss lidl the girl knows carol wrote
  • 00:30:40
    about
  • 00:30:40
    these are her shoes
  • 00:30:44
    mr carpenter the history teacher he had
  • 00:30:47
    them
  • 00:30:47
    a family heirloom you thought we'd call
  • 00:30:49
    if you wouldn't win the play
  • 00:30:51
    they don't look my size try them on
  • 00:30:54
    they're a bit stiff
  • 00:30:55
    they've been really well looked up for
  • 00:30:56
    100 year old shoes
  • 00:31:02
    great
  • 00:31:04
    bad really
  • 00:31:08
    not bad so you wear them yeah okay
  • 00:31:11
    that's great but wear them in a bit and
  • 00:31:13
    then save them for the actual
  • 00:31:14
    performance okay
  • 00:31:17
    this is gonna be so great i hope so
  • 00:31:29
    new shoes no old ones really old ones
  • 00:31:33
    did you get them from a charity shop i
  • 00:31:35
    love buying things from a charity shop
  • 00:31:37
    i'm not proud no they're not
  • 00:31:41
    never mind yeah
  • 00:31:44
    okay yes
  • 00:31:48
    so still holding in that big secret no
  • 00:31:51
    i told you about alison grace yeah you
  • 00:31:54
    did and it got
  • 00:31:55
    better but that's not what that's not
  • 00:31:58
    what's eating you up
  • 00:32:00
    why can't you just tell the truth freya
  • 00:32:02
    it's nothing honest
  • 00:32:05
    nothing i can tell you about anyway
  • 00:32:08
    and i thought we were friends we have no
  • 00:32:12
    secrets now look at you you like locked
  • 00:32:16
    door
  • 00:32:17
    i don't even know who you are anymore
  • 00:32:19
    you've changed why
  • 00:32:21
    freya don't ask that's all i ask don't
  • 00:32:23
    ask if that's what you want
  • 00:32:29
    hiya what we are still friends aren't we
  • 00:32:33
    yes of course
  • 00:32:34
    already kid well i'll go
  • 00:32:39
    oh tyler said that he's been looking for
  • 00:32:41
    you yeah i know
  • 00:32:42
    i've been avoiding him
  • 00:32:45
    why what's going on with you
  • 00:32:48
    i thought you were in toilet maybe one
  • 00:32:50
    day that you thought
  • 00:32:52
    wrong that's all fine
  • 00:32:56
    tell me you're here yo don't
  • 00:33:02
    oh hi
  • 00:33:07
    what do you want um to talk
  • 00:33:10
    well here i am say something it's um
  • 00:33:14
    it's kind of difficult to say i haven't
  • 00:33:16
    got a date here
  • 00:33:18
    so just say what you want to say and go
  • 00:33:21
    don't tell me what i can or can't do
  • 00:33:23
    i've had nothing i think i'm in love
  • 00:33:25
    with you
  • 00:33:28
    what i think
  • 00:33:32
    i know i am and
  • 00:33:35
    i wondered whether you might feel the
  • 00:33:36
    same way we've been friends for so long
  • 00:33:39
    now that i thought this you have no idea
  • 00:33:40
    what that is
  • 00:33:41
    not a girlfriend never kissed anyone you
  • 00:33:44
    don't know what you're saying you're
  • 00:33:45
    talking
  • 00:33:46
    crap it's true don't feel anything tyler
  • 00:33:53
    how can i feel anything i don't think
  • 00:33:55
    i've ever been over my life love
  • 00:33:56
    sucks it's vile it's reduced and it's
  • 00:34:00
    controlling and
  • 00:34:01
    day and it has time we just get lost
  • 00:34:03
    it's not
  • 00:34:05
    will you true go away
  • 00:34:08
    okay
  • 00:34:18
    harris miss little please come in sit
  • 00:34:20
    down lord to see you are you
  • 00:34:21
    completely out of your mind sir not at
  • 00:34:24
    all please
  • 00:34:24
    i hate to see a woman standing i do not
  • 00:34:26
    wish to stay a moment longer than i have
  • 00:34:29
    to
  • 00:34:29
    please mrs little
  • 00:34:37
    is it true is this monstrous thing that
  • 00:34:40
    chalice tells me true monstrous so i
  • 00:34:42
    couldn't possibly think of anything
  • 00:34:43
    monstrous have you declared your love to
  • 00:34:45
    my daughter
  • 00:34:48
    well i well have you
  • 00:34:53
    yes my god
  • 00:34:56
    what kind of a man are you what kind of
  • 00:35:00
    a man says such things to a little
  • 00:35:02
    girl what did you say tell me
  • 00:35:05
    exactly what you said i know when a man
  • 00:35:06
    is lying mr dodgson what did you say
  • 00:35:11
    quite simply mrs little i i told alice
  • 00:35:14
    as i
  • 00:35:15
    that i loved her above all others with a
  • 00:35:18
    love that is that is pure
  • 00:35:20
    and good did she
  • 00:35:23
    did you indeed and by what right
  • 00:35:27
    do you declare your love to somebody
  • 00:35:29
    else's child what right
  • 00:35:31
    the right of her friend you are a grown
  • 00:35:33
    man
  • 00:35:34
    you are not the friend of any 11 year
  • 00:35:36
    old girl it's not
  • 00:35:38
    natural it is natural it's natural to me
  • 00:35:41
    i think she's the most wonderful
  • 00:35:42
    creature i
  • 00:35:43
    i simply adore her i should tell the
  • 00:35:46
    police
  • 00:35:48
    when my husband hears of this
  • 00:35:51
    be lucky to avoid jail you most
  • 00:35:54
    certainly lose your job
  • 00:35:57
    you are a a thing of pure evil
  • 00:36:00
    a predator of the lowest order and you
  • 00:36:02
    sicken me no mr lil please let me
  • 00:36:04
    explain
  • 00:36:05
    you cannot possibly be able to explain
  • 00:36:07
    this
  • 00:36:08
    disgraceful behavior alice is distraught
  • 00:36:13
    she doesn't understand mr daushan she is
  • 00:36:16
    a child
  • 00:36:18
    her head is filled with stories many of
  • 00:36:20
    which you have placed there yourself
  • 00:36:23
    she dreams she hopes she
  • 00:36:26
    aspires to love and you bring it all
  • 00:36:29
    crashing down on her head with your
  • 00:36:31
    perverse declaration
  • 00:36:32
    they're not perverse i think it is
  • 00:36:34
    perfectly natural for someone to love a
  • 00:36:36
    child without any thoughts
  • 00:36:38
    of sex or anything stop please still let
  • 00:36:41
    me explain
  • 00:36:44
    i see in alice eve before the fall
  • 00:36:50
    a child as as god intended
  • 00:36:55
    the perfect woman
  • 00:36:59
    and she is my friend
  • 00:37:03
    my only friend of course i like her
  • 00:37:06
    sisters also but
  • 00:37:09
    alice is my life my my love my joy
  • 00:37:13
    i cannot live without her why
  • 00:37:18
    in three years time she will be 14 and
  • 00:37:20
    free to marry
  • 00:37:24
    are you insane
  • 00:37:27
    now you listen to me mr dodgson you will
  • 00:37:30
    not see
  • 00:37:31
    alice ever again you will not speak to
  • 00:37:33
    her you will avoid
  • 00:37:34
    all contact with hen if you do not i
  • 00:37:37
    will bring the full force of the law
  • 00:37:38
    and the church upon your sick and
  • 00:37:41
    fevered brain
  • 00:37:43
    marry her my god what was the eleanor
  • 00:37:47
    thing
  • 00:37:48
    that poor girl i will tell her
  • 00:37:51
    everything
  • 00:37:52
    everything she deserves to know i will
  • 00:37:54
    tell my husband also
  • 00:37:56
    i will ruin you mr dodgen i will not
  • 00:37:59
    rest until your name is despised and the
  • 00:38:01
    very thought of you causes
  • 00:38:03
    all right-thinking people to feel sick
  • 00:38:05
    am i clear
  • 00:38:07
    yes am i clear mr dorche and i didn't
  • 00:38:11
    quite hear you
  • 00:38:12
    yes yes mrs little you've been quite
  • 00:38:15
    clear
  • 00:38:17
    you have killed me with your words and
  • 00:38:20
    your
  • 00:38:20
    threats to be deprived of the
  • 00:38:23
    companionship of alice is
  • 00:38:25
    like death to me
  • 00:38:30
    good i hope you die and your soul finds
  • 00:38:33
    no rest
  • 00:38:34
    now i will leave you and we will not
  • 00:38:36
    meet again
  • 00:38:59
    grace hi good to see you i'm
  • 00:39:03
    glad you're good me too i'm really
  • 00:39:06
    looking forward to this
  • 00:39:09
    but the production stands and falls on
  • 00:39:11
    how good we are right well that's what
  • 00:39:12
    they say
  • 00:39:14
    but freya is really good we'll be all
  • 00:39:15
    right yeah she is
  • 00:39:17
    so where do you want to start surgery
  • 00:39:21
    you're all right a picnic you've only
  • 00:39:24
    got an hour i've had plenty of time
  • 00:39:26
    you know better
  • 00:39:33
    so where's grace she's just tom tom
  • 00:39:36
    yeah so what you're not seeing each
  • 00:39:38
    other are you no we used to but not now
  • 00:39:41
    we got bored and moved out i suppose
  • 00:39:44
    millie got wise what do you mean
  • 00:39:49
    no paige don't leave it what do you mean
  • 00:39:53
    it got he got weird
  • 00:39:57
    really quickly he wanted me to do
  • 00:40:00
    things he was he was cruel militive
  • 00:40:04
    and sick he's so nice everyone thinks so
  • 00:40:08
    to fix your life just wasn't right and
  • 00:40:10
    then when i wanted to leave him he's
  • 00:40:12
    saying just tell everyone else just just
  • 00:40:14
    this [ __ ] who just threw herself at him
  • 00:40:16
    and everyone believed him because
  • 00:40:17
    everyone thinks that tom is just so nice
  • 00:40:19
    and he's the devil
  • 00:40:21
    that's what i think
  • 00:40:25
    my best friend thank you milly
  • 00:40:33
    what's the problem you like me
  • 00:40:36
    i like you
  • 00:40:40
    both adults no tom i just wanted to
  • 00:40:50
    dance
  • 00:40:57
    you were sending out signals the whole
  • 00:40:58
    time i get it
  • 00:41:01
    this is what you were like living this
  • 00:41:03
    is what she broke up with you
  • 00:41:04
    know
  • 00:41:19
    just trying to pray for me don't know
  • 00:41:20
    what you did to poor milly
  • 00:41:22
    you know what i'm gonna do tom i'm gonna
  • 00:41:23
    get out here i'm gonna make grace and
  • 00:41:25
    we're gonna report you to the hang
  • 00:41:26
    you're gonna go to jail i hope you
  • 00:41:27
    brought
  • 00:41:27
    listen just leave it i couldn't bear it
  • 00:41:30
    grace are you mad
  • 00:41:32
    just leave them
  • 00:41:36
    oh what did i tell her she's crazy about
  • 00:41:39
    me
  • 00:41:39
    listen to me tom go live grace ever
  • 00:41:42
    again and i'll cover you with a knife so
  • 00:41:44
    sharp it'll cut you up from your mouth
  • 00:41:45
    before you could scream
  • 00:41:47
    i mean it going at any girl not ruin you
  • 00:41:49
    am i clear
  • 00:41:51
    yeah sure i can't hear you tom okay all
  • 00:41:54
    right
  • 00:41:56
    i'll lay off her for that honestly
  • 00:41:59
    i mean it's not as if anyone got hurt
  • 00:42:01
    you think
  • 00:42:17
    surely el no you should have known
  • 00:42:20
    how could you not have seen i thought he
  • 00:42:23
    loved me
  • 00:42:24
    i thought he was going to propose but
  • 00:42:27
    that trip down the river the night
  • 00:42:28
    before i had a dream
  • 00:42:30
    i dreamt that he proposed in front of
  • 00:42:32
    the girls and it was so romantic
  • 00:42:34
    it was beautiful but instead he spent
  • 00:42:38
    the entire time telling that ridiculous
  • 00:42:40
    story to alice
  • 00:42:41
    and the photographs have you seen them
  • 00:42:45
    were you with the girls when he took
  • 00:42:48
    them
  • 00:42:49
    sometimes the photographs he took with
  • 00:42:51
    me were
  • 00:42:52
    innocent he had them dressed as fairies
  • 00:42:55
    or urchins they looked adorable
  • 00:42:57
    and who dressed my daughters in these
  • 00:43:00
    outlandish outfits
  • 00:43:02
    you we both did it
  • 00:43:05
    you allowed him to dress and undress my
  • 00:43:08
    girls
  • 00:43:10
    god what kind of a governance are you
  • 00:43:14
    do you realize what your carelessness is
  • 00:43:16
    allowed to happen
  • 00:43:18
    i will see to it that you never have a
  • 00:43:20
    position again
  • 00:43:22
    you have rocked my girls of their
  • 00:43:23
    childhood you have
  • 00:43:25
    allowed them to be corrupted and spoiled
  • 00:43:28
    he is an evil man but you are a wicked
  • 00:43:31
    woman no mrs little i think you're wrong
  • 00:43:34
    charles loves children it's as simple as
  • 00:43:35
    that
  • 00:43:37
    he likes their simple ways their trust
  • 00:43:39
    their love to that of adults
  • 00:43:41
    i understand him even though you feel he
  • 00:43:45
    has betrayed you
  • 00:43:46
    i have betrayed myself i was convinced
  • 00:43:49
    he was in love with me and acted my life
  • 00:43:51
    as if it was so
  • 00:43:53
    i'm a sad creature mrs little but not a
  • 00:43:55
    wicked one
  • 00:43:57
    are you asking me to forgive you to give
  • 00:44:00
    you a second chance
  • 00:44:02
    no i am asking that you don't think the
  • 00:44:05
    worst of either me
  • 00:44:06
    or charts
  • 00:44:10
    and will you continue to see him
  • 00:44:13
    no not now i see it clear we are
  • 00:44:16
    finished
  • 00:44:19
    very well that is something i suppose
  • 00:44:22
    you must write him at once i have
  • 00:44:24
    forbidden the girls to speak of him ever
  • 00:44:26
    again
  • 00:44:27
    have you told your husband not yet
  • 00:44:32
    i will but he can be so
  • 00:44:36
    frustrating at times he always believes
  • 00:44:40
    the best in people
  • 00:44:41
    that comes with being a clergyman i
  • 00:44:43
    suppose i suppose
  • 00:44:45
    it is a weakness in men that they fail
  • 00:44:47
    to see the darkness that hides behind
  • 00:44:49
    their fraternity and civility
  • 00:44:52
    whereas we look for it
  • 00:44:56
    perhaps perhaps we do
  • 00:45:00
    thank you and all that for you all for
  • 00:45:02
    now consider yourself on trial
  • 00:45:04
    thank you mom
  • 00:45:19
    alison it's not about you to be on your
  • 00:45:21
    own is everything all right
  • 00:45:23
    i guess no grace i thought you two were
  • 00:45:26
    inseparable
  • 00:45:28
    we've had a a disagreement
  • 00:45:32
    yes over a boy but not in the way that
  • 00:45:34
    you think what do you mean
  • 00:45:36
    nothing never mind okay
  • 00:45:41
    so if you know other friends
  • 00:45:44
    look at me what do you think everybody
  • 00:45:47
    hates me no they don't
  • 00:45:49
    not really some are a little
  • 00:45:52
    scared perhaps but you have a reputation
  • 00:45:57
    i know i know it's my fault but i can't
  • 00:46:00
    help who i am of course you can
  • 00:46:03
    you're in control of your own life even
  • 00:46:05
    if you are tempted
  • 00:46:07
    it is one thing to be tempted tis
  • 00:46:09
    another tough fall
  • 00:46:12
    don't worry shakespeare on me what's
  • 00:46:13
    shakespeare measure for measure
  • 00:46:16
    seriously you're in charge of what you
  • 00:46:18
    do no matter how you feel you
  • 00:46:19
    choose how to react it's not easy i know
  • 00:46:23
    i'm right it's not easy anyways why do
  • 00:46:26
    you care
  • 00:46:27
    a few years ago this is me sitting on my
  • 00:46:30
    own
  • 00:46:31
    i would like to think someone was going
  • 00:46:32
    through the same thing i did don't
  • 00:46:34
    pity me i couldn't stand that it's not
  • 00:46:37
    pity allison
  • 00:46:39
    don't mistake someone caring for pity
  • 00:46:42
    that'd be tragic
  • 00:46:43
    you're right if you say so still sounds
  • 00:46:46
    like pity whatever you say
  • 00:46:48
    anyways haven't you got things to do
  • 00:46:50
    lessons to plan and all that
  • 00:46:52
    no not really one of course but i mean
  • 00:46:55
    no hurry
  • 00:46:56
    fitting so does that mean you're staying
  • 00:47:00
    if you want to no of course not well
  • 00:47:04
    if you really haven't got anywhere else
  • 00:47:06
    to go
  • 00:47:16
    ah yes right okay
  • 00:47:19
    so i'm just going to go and prepare the
  • 00:47:21
    room for your photograph uh
  • 00:47:23
    feel free to take a seat and get
  • 00:47:25
    yourself a smoke or a drink
  • 00:47:26
    thank you george
  • 00:47:34
    [Music]
  • 00:47:37
    do you have a letter charles smells like
  • 00:47:40
    a woman
  • 00:47:42
    openly to read it to me william are you
  • 00:47:44
    serious can't open your mail
  • 00:47:46
    could be a love letter that will be
  • 00:47:48
    damned embarrassing
  • 00:47:50
    we have no secrets you and i besides
  • 00:47:54
    it's probably eleanor begging me to take
  • 00:47:57
    her to the theater or
  • 00:47:58
    declaring her love for me in some
  • 00:48:01
    awfully poetic fashion
  • 00:48:02
    you are an opposition reader to me
  • 00:48:06
    if i must
  • 00:48:11
    dear charles i have spoken with mrs
  • 00:48:14
    little
  • 00:48:15
    i know what you have done i know how you
  • 00:48:18
    have used me these past
  • 00:48:20
    six months i understand
  • 00:48:23
    i truly do but knowing the truth does
  • 00:48:27
    mean it would be pointless continuing
  • 00:48:29
    i had hoped to become your wife i
  • 00:48:32
    dreamed of having children
  • 00:48:34
    of my own your children charles
  • 00:48:38
    but i don't think you will ever be a
  • 00:48:40
    father i think the thought that a child
  • 00:48:42
    of yours would grow up would kill you
  • 00:48:45
    you have behaved very badly to me and
  • 00:48:47
    mrs little
  • 00:48:49
    you have behaved worst of all to alice
  • 00:48:52
    the sweetest little thing i have ever
  • 00:48:53
    had the fortune to care for
  • 00:48:57
    mrs little believes you have corrupted
  • 00:48:59
    her
  • 00:49:00
    i believe you were forced to grow up far
  • 00:49:02
    too quickly
  • 00:49:04
    you have robbed her of her childhood by
  • 00:49:06
    showing her the adult world in all its
  • 00:49:07
    brokenness and dirt
  • 00:49:11
    your proposal showed her that wonderland
  • 00:49:14
    is just
  • 00:49:14
    and always will be a dream
  • 00:49:20
    i know that these words will hurt you
  • 00:49:22
    but they are true
  • 00:49:23
    nonetheless i forgive you
  • 00:49:27
    and really do wish you happiness in your
  • 00:49:29
    future
  • 00:49:30
    though i doubt that you will ever find
  • 00:49:32
    it
  • 00:49:35
    you shall see neither me nor alice
  • 00:49:39
    again live well and be good
  • 00:49:43
    your friend eleanor
  • 00:49:47
    four said a grow up too quickly how dare
  • 00:49:49
    she write such a thing
  • 00:49:50
    elena has broken with you charles what
  • 00:49:53
    do you have to say to that
  • 00:49:56
    it is it is a relief
  • 00:50:00
    she was a burden a soft and gentle one
  • 00:50:05
    but
  • 00:50:06
    a burden nonetheless there are days
  • 00:50:08
    charles when i wonder whether or not you
  • 00:50:10
    truly are human do you have a heart yes
  • 00:50:14
    and it is broken whatever did you say to
  • 00:50:18
    alice
  • 00:50:21
    i told her that i loved her
  • 00:50:24
    i was going to propose in three years we
  • 00:50:27
    could have been married
  • 00:50:28
    thompson you suck me you would have
  • 00:50:30
    proposed marriage to a girl of 11.
  • 00:50:32
    yes i adore her
  • 00:50:37
    donson do you realize what all this
  • 00:50:40
    means
  • 00:50:42
    it's the end you're finished
  • 00:50:45
    guilty until proved innocent how
  • 00:50:48
    simple-minded of you you know the only
  • 00:50:51
    person that has done anything wrong in
  • 00:50:53
    this situation
  • 00:50:54
    is that haridan denying one of god's
  • 00:50:57
    universal rights
  • 00:50:58
    that to pure love it is her that shall
  • 00:51:02
    burn for this not
  • 00:51:03
    charles please calm down
  • 00:51:07
    you're talking like a madman
  • 00:51:10
    feel right i'm sorry
  • 00:51:13
    forgive me but please
  • 00:51:19
    tell me you understand
  • 00:51:23
    i think i do
  • 00:51:26
    at least partly but i'm not sure anyone
  • 00:51:30
    else will
  • 00:51:31
    this has nothing to do with sex i'm
  • 00:51:33
    relieved to hear that
  • 00:51:36
    though i think perhaps you did
  • 00:51:39
    anyone that sees a man with a child
  • 00:51:41
    thinks that somewhere
  • 00:51:43
    deep down in their psyche is something
  • 00:51:46
    burning
  • 00:51:47
    something evil something unnatural that
  • 00:51:49
    finds its
  • 00:51:50
    expression in sex it's true no one
  • 00:51:53
    trusts a man who likes children
  • 00:51:55
    least of all of clergy you go too far i
  • 00:51:58
    will not listen to you speak like this
  • 00:52:00
    speak truth speak
  • 00:52:01
    nonsense the time is coming my friend
  • 00:52:03
    and will soon be here when any man who
  • 00:52:06
    pats a child on the back or ruffles
  • 00:52:08
    their hair in a carefree gesture
  • 00:52:10
    or spins them by the hands in a giddy
  • 00:52:13
    arc will
  • 00:52:14
    be abused arrested
  • 00:52:17
    and for what for trying to show a child
  • 00:52:21
    they are loved valued
  • 00:52:24
    protected not
  • 00:52:28
    all men think like you charles
  • 00:52:31
    not all men are children you know as
  • 00:52:34
    well as i that
  • 00:52:35
    just down the road from here there are
  • 00:52:36
    fathers who beat their children
  • 00:52:39
    fathers who will do unspeakable things
  • 00:52:41
    to them
  • 00:52:42
    fathers who see them as nothing more
  • 00:52:44
    than an object on which they can heap
  • 00:52:46
    their
  • 00:52:46
    abominable abuses
  • 00:52:49
    for the sake of those is it not better
  • 00:52:53
    to think the worst of all men maybe
  • 00:52:58
    more the pity that anyone would think
  • 00:52:59
    ill of me
  • 00:53:03
    now come on your photograph
  • 00:53:07
    yes very well
  • 00:53:33
    are we ready it's the cocaine match yeah
  • 00:53:36
    so the queen is wandering around looking
  • 00:53:38
    for people to go ahead
  • 00:53:39
    tyler look it's fizzy
  • 00:53:52
    how do you like the queen not at all
  • 00:53:55
    she's so extremely likely to win
  • 00:53:58
    that it's hardly worth finishing the
  • 00:54:00
    game who
  • 00:54:01
    are you talking to me it's a friend of
  • 00:54:04
    mine a cheshire cat
  • 00:54:07
    would you like me to introduce you i
  • 00:54:13
    i'd rather not if you don't mind how
  • 00:54:16
    important
  • 00:54:17
    i think we should ask the queen to chop
  • 00:54:19
    off its head queen
  • 00:54:21
    queen where
  • 00:54:31
    it's so frustrating where is the
  • 00:54:33
    commitment i ask
  • 00:54:35
    welcome to my world i'll go look for her
  • 00:54:39
    take a break everyone yes
  • 00:54:50
    alison everybody's been looking for you
  • 00:54:53
    where did you go
  • 00:54:54
    you wanted to talk to grace oh
  • 00:54:57
    how is she
  • 00:55:01
    quiet yeah you don't like her
  • 00:55:05
    no i suppose we'll
  • 00:55:08
    start again in a minute i suppose
  • 00:55:12
    you know grace is like you
  • 00:55:16
    with nothing to like well no she's best
  • 00:55:19
    looking enhancer
  • 00:55:21
    but both quiet
  • 00:55:24
    so it's not natural i'm
  • 00:55:28
    shy it's a part of my personality no
  • 00:55:31
    it's not this is this is different
  • 00:55:34
    this is like the quiet as a funeral
  • 00:55:38
    like something's died that's how it's
  • 00:55:41
    removed
  • 00:55:42
    so you see i know what cause this
  • 00:55:46
    death requires i know what caused
  • 00:55:50
    everything for you
  • 00:55:53
    you know what i can't imagine
  • 00:55:56
    i think it's the same you're wrong i
  • 00:55:59
    think that
  • 00:56:00
    someone probably a voice hurt you
  • 00:56:03
    is hurting you still you're wrong
  • 00:56:06
    if anyone's happy it's you yeah
  • 00:56:10
    i know i'm sorry i've been a jerk
  • 00:56:13
    the truth don't push it freya not wrong
  • 00:56:19
    it's not a boy hooray
  • 00:56:23
    it's not this isn't it's a man
  • 00:56:27
    is it your dad
  • 00:56:30
    not your dad he's okay i like him
  • 00:56:35
    good god it's on here it is isn't it
  • 00:56:41
    it's mr harvey isn't it just not
  • 00:56:46
    fred you've got to tell us no please no
  • 00:56:49
    he was past grace
  • 00:56:50
    look if you don't say something i will
  • 00:56:52
    don't i'm pleased
  • 00:56:54
    sorry i can't keep quiet on this alison
  • 00:57:04
    you're crying is everything all right is
  • 00:57:07
    she bullying you again
  • 00:57:08
    no no she's been kind
  • 00:57:12
    she's kind but where's she gone now
  • 00:57:14
    we'll never get through this rehearsal
  • 00:57:16
    the whole thing's going to be a disaster
  • 00:57:28
    now dawgson said he'd left that
  • 00:57:31
    photograph
  • 00:57:32
    on the table
  • 00:57:35
    right here perhaps it's still hanging on
  • 00:57:38
    one of his washing times
  • 00:57:42
    good grief what an awful mess
  • 00:57:47
    how can he live like this ah yes
  • 00:57:51
    there is i must say mr godstone
  • 00:57:55
    you are looking most handsome mother
  • 00:57:58
    will be proud
  • 00:58:01
    what do we have here
  • 00:58:05
    let me just hold it up to the light
  • 00:58:10
    good god
  • 00:58:13
    good god thomas is that you
  • 00:58:16
    you know i don't allow people in my
  • 00:58:18
    study when i am not here and no wonder
  • 00:58:21
    when it's just filled with pictures like
  • 00:58:23
    this
  • 00:58:24
    it's ina isn't it the older girl
  • 00:58:27
    what is she 14 15 14. this
  • 00:58:30
    is this is
  • 00:58:34
    it's pornographic enough for god's sake
  • 00:58:37
    charles
  • 00:58:38
    you know what this picture tells me but
  • 00:58:40
    i can lie to nude superb
  • 00:58:42
    how can you joke about this you have
  • 00:58:45
    taken a full-length photograph
  • 00:58:47
    of a naked girl not
  • 00:58:50
    a girl a young woman but still
  • 00:58:54
    this photograph tells me you are a liar
  • 00:58:57
    and a devil
  • 00:58:59
    you protest your love of children you
  • 00:59:01
    have vowed to be their protector and the
  • 00:59:02
    preserver of their innocence and yet you
  • 00:59:04
    produced this
  • 00:59:05
    for whose use it was private knew that i
  • 00:59:08
    wanted
  • 00:59:08
    wanted to what wanted to see her like
  • 00:59:11
    this she said
  • 00:59:12
    she never did do not try and blame the
  • 00:59:15
    woman
  • 00:59:16
    this is not some demonic twist on eden
  • 00:59:20
    you saw the innocence you wanted this
  • 00:59:24
    you made her do this you are a fraud
  • 00:59:29
    nothing to say for yourself
  • 00:59:33
    i'd like my photograph back please what
  • 00:59:36
    my photograph
  • 00:59:37
    please this is evidence what future do
  • 00:59:40
    you think you have now once this gets
  • 00:59:41
    out
  • 00:59:42
    nothing you can say will excuse this
  • 00:59:44
    charles nothing
  • 00:59:47
    my photograph
  • 00:59:51
    here take it
  • 00:59:55
    just promise me you'll burn it
  • 00:59:59
    promise me charles never again
  • 01:00:04
    never again
  • 01:00:07
    promise me you are good friends i am
  • 01:00:11
    not your friend
  • 01:00:15
    do you promise
  • 01:00:19
    i promise good
  • 01:00:24
    and pity you charles
  • 01:00:33
    i took your advice
  • 01:00:37
    i'm going to call it alice in wonderland
  • 01:00:41
    is that not something yes yes it is
  • 01:00:44
    something
  • 01:00:46
    but god knows quite what
  • 01:00:50
    there is no wonderland charles
  • 01:00:53
    that is only this world and the
  • 01:00:55
    hereafter
  • 01:00:57
    my hope is in heaven i pray to god we
  • 01:01:01
    will meet there
  • 01:01:01
    he will forgive me even if you do not
  • 01:01:03
    are you sure of that
  • 01:01:06
    really sure
  • 01:01:09
    goodbye charles do not
  • 01:01:12
    try to contact me
  • 01:01:20
    the very sight of you seconds me now
  • 01:01:42
    as if my life couldn't get any worse
  • 01:01:44
    you're going to tell me that you haven't
  • 01:01:46
    learned your lines
  • 01:01:47
    just like everybody else actually not i
  • 01:01:51
    mean
  • 01:01:52
    i haven't that's not what i was going to
  • 01:01:54
    say
  • 01:01:57
    that makes sense what were you going to
  • 01:01:58
    say and
  • 01:02:00
    i don't think we should do this play why
  • 01:02:03
    and don't say it's because it's rubbish
  • 01:02:10
    it is kind of original
  • 01:02:14
    well you see i've been doing some
  • 01:02:16
    research very enterprising with you
  • 01:02:18
    tyler looking at white rabbits and how
  • 01:02:20
    they move happier yeah okay no need to
  • 01:02:22
    be sharky
  • 01:02:24
    i've been researching lewis carroll he
  • 01:02:26
    wasn't an artist
  • 01:02:28
    he's a classics children's author what's
  • 01:02:30
    not nice about that
  • 01:02:31
    do you know that he was do you know that
  • 01:02:34
    he wants
  • 01:02:34
    that he wanted to marry her do you know
  • 01:02:37
    that he used to take
  • 01:02:38
    pornographic pictures he was sick is
  • 01:02:41
    this true
  • 01:02:42
    well people in blocks are spit on this
  • 01:02:44
    but there's documentary on youtube by
  • 01:02:46
    the bbc that printed out as a paedophile
  • 01:02:49
    seriously alison wonderland
  • 01:02:54
    again and disney made a movie of it
  • 01:02:57
    now do you see what i mean i guess can i
  • 01:03:00
    talk to mr harvey about it
  • 01:03:02
    with you thanks tyler
  • 01:03:29
    allison not lately not really
  • 01:03:32
    it's private
  • 01:03:38
    hi friend tyler i need to talk to
  • 01:03:43
    alone oh okay
  • 01:03:50
    grace
  • 01:03:54
    i've been talking to allison and miss
  • 01:03:55
    since that's nice for you
  • 01:03:59
    i think i know where there's been three
  • 01:04:02
    are still going through something awful
  • 01:04:07
    life you mean yes life and
  • 01:04:11
    those who take it from us what do you
  • 01:04:14
    mean
  • 01:04:15
    can i tell you something
  • 01:04:18
    about three months ago i know it's the
  • 01:04:22
    team
  • 01:04:23
    mr harvey he seemed to be
  • 01:04:27
    looking at me a lot when i was working
  • 01:04:30
    so
  • 01:04:31
    don't all teachers yes but
  • 01:04:34
    not like this he asked me to stay a
  • 01:04:38
    while after lessons
  • 01:04:40
    he told me he thought i had amazing
  • 01:04:42
    potential that
  • 01:04:43
    i could make it if i really tried i
  • 01:04:46
    believed him
  • 01:04:48
    you should be good yes i know
  • 01:04:52
    i know you think i'm being headed i'm
  • 01:04:54
    not i'm good at john but
  • 01:04:56
    i'm not that good for a while
  • 01:05:00
    he made me believe that he offered me
  • 01:05:03
    extra tuition after school
  • 01:05:06
    so you stayed who else knew
  • 01:05:09
    he asked me not to tell anyone he said
  • 01:05:12
    he didn't want
  • 01:05:13
    anybody else thinking they had a right
  • 01:05:14
    to his time when they were just
  • 01:05:17
    mediocre at best made me feel special
  • 01:05:23
    go on we were doing a scene
  • 01:05:28
    romeo and juliet as we finished
  • 01:05:33
    who kissed you yes
  • 01:05:36
    i was so shocked i just stood there
  • 01:05:39
    he looked at me to see how i reacted
  • 01:05:42
    and he must have thought i was happy
  • 01:05:44
    about it so
  • 01:05:46
    he kissed me again and that was that why
  • 01:05:49
    don't you tell anyone
  • 01:05:51
    he told me i missed him he said it was
  • 01:05:53
    just acting i needed to
  • 01:05:55
    immerse myself in the role i believed
  • 01:05:58
    him
  • 01:06:00
    but next time he took it further i tried
  • 01:06:03
    to stop
  • 01:06:04
    i tried i told him i'd tell but he said
  • 01:06:07
    he'd believe me
  • 01:06:08
    said it was all just acting it wasn't
  • 01:06:11
    real
  • 01:06:12
    but it was it was real grace and ever
  • 01:06:15
    since
  • 01:06:17
    whenever he's been near me he's touched
  • 01:06:20
    me
  • 01:06:21
    just little touches
  • 01:06:24
    as if to say he owned me
  • 01:06:27
    i'm so sorry and now you understand
  • 01:06:31
    if you talk about tom i feel i can talk
  • 01:06:34
    about mr harvey
  • 01:06:37
    it's the shame i feel so ashamed
  • 01:06:41
    it's not our fault
  • 01:06:44
    the shame is there not ours
  • 01:06:48
    i don't want it anymore grace
  • 01:06:51
    what do you say
  • 01:07:03
    [Music]
  • 01:07:18
    let's do my book
  • 01:07:28
    hello charles oh thank god
  • 01:07:31
    you know you're the first one to speak
  • 01:07:32
    to me tonight i don't know i've been
  • 01:07:34
    watching you all
  • 01:07:34
    evening you shouldn't have come you know
  • 01:07:37
    i don't see why not
  • 01:07:39
    the rest of the fact i can't understand
  • 01:07:40
    can you we
  • 01:07:42
    mere mortals are not like you we judge
  • 01:07:45
    ah you as well especially me
  • 01:07:50
    thomas told me about your latest
  • 01:07:52
    indiscretion i bet it did
  • 01:07:55
    are you going to do about it he promised
  • 01:07:57
    it would never happen again
  • 01:07:59
    that she burned any evidence i asked ina
  • 01:08:03
    about it in a roundabout kind of way
  • 01:08:06
    she says i must be mistaken but she
  • 01:08:08
    never posed for any photographs with you
  • 01:08:10
    on her own
  • 01:08:11
    that it must be a girl that looks just
  • 01:08:13
    like her or something
  • 01:08:15
    good girl perhaps
  • 01:08:18
    and are you going to tell on me not i
  • 01:08:21
    nor ina nor alice we are all too shamed
  • 01:08:24
    by this little episode
  • 01:08:26
    we'd rather forget it ever happened we'd
  • 01:08:28
    rather forget you
  • 01:08:30
    but you won't my book has been published
  • 01:08:32
    i know
  • 01:08:34
    it caused quite a stir in the little
  • 01:08:35
    household
  • 01:08:37
    why the dean says he hopes for a sequel
  • 01:08:39
    as does alex
  • 01:08:41
    and i shall write one straight away i
  • 01:08:43
    have no doubt that you will
  • 01:08:44
    but i shan't read it i shan't read alice
  • 01:08:47
    in wonderland i was there when you first
  • 01:08:49
    told that story i know the truth of
  • 01:08:51
    things
  • 01:08:52
    and you shan't be asking me for a signed
  • 01:08:54
    copy
  • 01:08:55
    i shall ask you for anything ever again
  • 01:08:58
    mr dawson
  • 01:09:04
    goodbye
  • 01:09:06
    you're leaving good that's sensible
  • 01:09:10
    i'm always sensible mrs little always
  • 01:09:12
    your problem is you never have been
  • 01:09:15
    insensible perhaps perhaps
  • 01:09:18
    did alice get my copy of the book i
  • 01:09:20
    dedicated it to her
  • 01:09:22
    so i saw that was most irresponsible of
  • 01:09:25
    you
  • 01:09:26
    selfish and arrogant did you read it
  • 01:09:30
    she did she said she preferred it the
  • 01:09:33
    first time you told it
  • 01:09:35
    but she did like the illustrations which
  • 01:09:37
    thank god bear no resemblance
  • 01:09:40
    yes well stories are made for telling
  • 01:09:45
    i'm thinking of writing a sequel
  • 01:09:48
    you know shane do you ever look in the
  • 01:09:51
    mirror and see yourself for the monster
  • 01:09:53
    you truly are
  • 01:09:54
    i never look into the looking glass mrs
  • 01:09:56
    liddle
  • 01:09:57
    the fear of what i might find there then
  • 01:10:00
    maybe you should
  • 01:10:02
    maybe i was just going now
  • 01:10:06
    send my love to alice you are a wicked
  • 01:10:10
    man
  • 01:10:10
    and you have wormed your way into the
  • 01:10:12
    hearts of thousands of children through
  • 01:10:14
    your dreadful book if i had my way i
  • 01:10:16
    would burn
  • 01:10:17
    every single copy no if you start there
  • 01:10:20
    where will you stop
  • 01:10:22
    let everyone else make up their own mind
  • 01:10:24
    about me and let's leave it at that
  • 01:10:26
    goodbye mr dodson
  • 01:10:36
    and will you certainly not i didn't pass
  • 01:10:39
    on alice's love to him and she expressly
  • 01:10:42
    asked me to if you were at this party
  • 01:10:45
    no mr dodge doesn't understand love
  • 01:10:48
    what he calls love is nothing more than
  • 01:10:51
    fantasy
  • 01:10:53
    dangerous and counterfeit criminal
  • 01:11:22
    you [ __ ] you told people about me i've
  • 01:11:25
    had police around my house
  • 01:11:26
    i'm suspended from school my parents
  • 01:11:28
    have gone ahead it's all your fault no
  • 01:11:30
    tom you did this maybe spoken out to you
  • 01:11:34
    everyone knows exactly what type of boy
  • 01:11:35
    you are
  • 01:11:36
    if i'm so bad to stop me from hurting
  • 01:11:40
    you now
  • 01:11:41
    there's no one around if i'm gonna get
  • 01:11:43
    done as we get done for the real thing
  • 01:11:46
    because nothing happened grace nothing
  • 01:11:48
    just back off tom
  • 01:11:50
    don't make it worse worse how can this
  • 01:11:54
    get any worse
  • 01:11:56
    my life is over i'm gonna be a sex
  • 01:11:59
    offender
  • 01:12:00
    do you know what that means i'm dead
  • 01:12:04
    and it's all your fault it's not her
  • 01:12:06
    fault back out of him mrs simpson you
  • 01:12:09
    run again
  • 01:12:11
    yes it is it's every woman's fight
  • 01:12:14
    why should we have to put with people
  • 01:12:16
    like you you could have destroyed grace
  • 01:12:19
    million god knows how many others but
  • 01:12:22
    they stopped you
  • 01:12:24
    this is an overview i think it is you'll
  • 01:12:27
    be arrested
  • 01:12:28
    you will be charged and you will go to
  • 01:12:30
    prison
  • 01:12:32
    that's reality tom just keep
  • 01:12:46
    get out because you clearly need it
  • 01:12:48
    there's nothing you can do that can hurt
  • 01:12:50
    any of us anymore
  • 01:12:52
    just go
  • 01:12:57
    [Music]
  • 01:12:59
    well done grace yeah well done
  • 01:13:02
    thank you
  • 01:13:06
    what's this
  • 01:13:31
    i wonder if there is another me beyond
  • 01:13:35
    the looking glass
  • 01:13:39
    a kinder me
  • 01:13:42
    a more truthful me
  • 01:13:46
    the wicked of me
  • 01:13:49
    we are all legion
  • 01:13:52
    as the scripture so poetically puts it
  • 01:13:56
    demons wrestle for control of our souls
  • 01:14:01
    sometimes i win
  • 01:14:04
    often i win
  • 01:14:08
    sometimes i
  • 01:14:15
    i have lost alice
  • 01:14:19
    and no amount of sequels will bring her
  • 01:14:22
    back
  • 01:14:25
    all i have now are her photos
  • 01:14:29
    the memories
  • 01:14:34
    i cannot even hear her voice anymore
  • 01:14:39
    she was like god's gift
  • 01:14:43
    a reminder a challenge
  • 01:14:47
    a dream
  • 01:14:52
    i'm famous now
  • 01:14:56
    known the world over
  • 01:15:00
    children write to me
  • 01:15:03
    they send me letters
  • 01:15:06
    some offer to pose
  • 01:15:11
    they're not her they never will be
  • 01:15:17
    even if they pretend
  • 01:15:24
    and what will history make of me
  • 01:15:29
    will i be damned or praised
  • 01:15:33
    or people smile or
  • 01:15:36
    shake their fist
  • 01:15:41
    i will never know
  • 01:15:46
    but i think i care
  • 01:15:49
    i would hate to differ
  • 01:15:54
    no
  • 01:15:57
    nothing matters
  • 01:16:02
    nothing matters anymore
  • 01:16:15
    so you're gonna have the whole
  • 01:16:17
    production despite everything
  • 01:16:20
    [Music]
  • 01:16:31
    i finally told the truth i know you're
  • 01:16:33
    not alex and i never thought you were
  • 01:16:36
    well a little bit
  • 01:16:40
    do you remember that conversation yes
  • 01:16:43
    i remember look
  • 01:16:46
    it's still soon i don't know if i'll
  • 01:16:48
    ever be able to
  • 01:16:51
    love anyone but can we leave it
  • 01:16:55
    for now yeah sure
  • 01:16:58
    sorry i'm being insensitive
  • 01:17:14
    say goodbye to thailand friend you did
  • 01:17:16
    bye tyler
  • 01:17:17
    my house was in 15 minutes 15 minutes
  • 01:17:24
    we're going for a couple of households
  • 01:17:26
    we just wanted to know if you wanted to
  • 01:17:27
    come with us
  • 01:17:29
    yeah give me five minutes i'm just
  • 01:17:30
    waiting for this
  • 01:17:32
    it's gonna be all right
  • 01:17:47
    well the staff have been told and it's
  • 01:17:50
    no longer a secret
  • 01:17:52
    it's going to be a trial press
  • 01:17:55
    it's going to be hard do you think i
  • 01:17:58
    have to
  • 01:17:59
    call possibly i don't know
  • 01:18:02
    don't know if i could face him of course
  • 01:18:04
    you can
  • 01:18:06
    you're strong you have heart
  • 01:18:09
    when the time comes you'll do it you
  • 01:18:11
    have your family
  • 01:18:12
    your friends do you have me i guess
  • 01:18:17
    don't you think it's weird well i've
  • 01:18:19
    been going through all of this
  • 01:18:20
    i've been doing alice to play it's like
  • 01:18:22
    alice's self-made been through the same
  • 01:18:24
    thing she did nothing he got away with
  • 01:18:28
    it
  • 01:18:28
    i don't think he did i think he was
  • 01:18:32
    completely destroyed by it all
  • 01:18:35
    good i hope he was mr harley hasn't got
  • 01:18:38
    away with it
  • 01:18:39
    thanks to you you're amazing
  • 01:18:43
    so proud
  • 01:19:08
    alice i am not
  • 01:19:20
    alice
  • 01:30:17
    you
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