PREGNANT IN THE ADULT INDUSTRY 🌽

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الملخص

TLDRCarla Kush shares her experience of being pregnant while working in the adult industry, reflecting on the complexities of balancing motherhood with her professional life. She discusses the decisions made during her pregnancy, such as continuing to perform in adult scenes and transitioning to OnlyFans content. Addressing societal judgments, she emphasizes the right of women to maintain their identities and sexuality even as mothers. Carla recounts specific moments during her pregnancy, her feelings about body image, and how she coped with the challenges of being an adult entertainer and a parent. Ultimately, she challenges the stigma surrounding adult entertainment and promotes a broader understanding of the individuals within the industry.

الوجبات الجاهزة

  • 👶 Pregnancy in the adult industry: A unique experience.
  • 💼 Balancing two jobs: Florist and adult entertainer.
  • 🤰 Performing while pregnant: Challenges and decisions.
  • 💪 Bold choices: Shooting adult scenes despite societal judgment.
  • 🌈 Embracing dual identities as a mother and sexual being.
  • 🏠 Work from home flexibility: Parenting benefits.
  • 💔 Feelings about body image during pregnancy.
  • 💬 Shifting societal perceptions of adult entertainers.
  • 💖 Normalizing adult work: Advocating for acceptance.
  • 🌟 Celebrating individuality in motherhood.

الجدول الزمني

  • 00:00:00 - 00:05:00

    The speaker introduces herself and shares her experience in the adult industry while being pregnant. She emphasizes the importance of preserving her child's privacy and touches on her previous career as a florist. She describes the need to balance both jobs and the decision she made to have her child in 2017 while continuing to perform in the adult industry.

  • 00:05:00 - 00:10:00

    The speaker discusses the difficulties of being publicly pregnant in the adult industry, facing societal judgment, and her belief that women should not lose their sexual identity upon becoming mothers. She advocates for the right of women to be both mothers and sexual beings without shame or judgment from society.

  • 00:10:00 - 00:15:00

    She explains how her child might later learn about her job and believes that as parents, we do not need to divulge the intricacies of our work to young children. She reassures that her job allows her to be present for her child, which increases the quality of their relationship.

  • 00:15:00 - 00:20:00

    The speaker reflects on her experience shooting scenes while pregnant and how it financially supported her delivery. She mentions the mixed feelings she has about how she looked during those scenes, despite being treated well on set, and concludes that she would not repeat the experience even if she had another child.

  • 00:20:00 - 00:28:30

    In closing, the speaker discusses the societal stigma surrounding adult entertainers, sharing her hope for more understanding and acceptance. She urges audiences to view adult entertainers as normal people fulfilling their duties like anyone else, and encourages questions or comments about her experience.

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فيديو أسئلة وأجوبة

  • What is the main topic of the video?

    The main topic is Carla Kush's experiences of being pregnant while working in the adult industry.

  • When did Carla Kush become pregnant?

    Carla Kush became pregnant in early 2017.

  • Did Carla Kush continue her work in the adult industry while pregnant?

    Yes, she performed a few mainstream scenes and started OnlyFans content during her pregnancy.

  • What are Carla's thoughts on being an adult entertainer and a parent?

    She believes it's possible to be both an amazing mother and an independent sexual individual.

  • How did Carla's pregnancy impact her career?

    It prompted her to prioritize her flower shop job initially, but she also performed adult scenes while managing her pregnancy.

  • How did Carla manage societal judgments?

    She chose to embrace her identity as both a mother and an adult entertainer despite facing judgment.

  • What were Carla's feelings about her appearance during pregnancy?

    Carla felt insecure about how she looked during her pregnancy, particularly in the scenes she shot.

  • How did Carla emphasize the normalcy of adult entertainers?

    She advocated for seeing adult entertainers as regular people with families, not just stigmatized individuals.

  • What does Carla say about the stigma of adult entertainment?

    She believes the stigma has lessened over time and hopes for continued acceptance in the future.

  • What is Carla's perspective on sex and parenting?

    She argues that being a sexual individual doesn't contradict being a good parent, as both identities can coexist.

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    hello everyone and welcome to my channel
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    if you are new here welcome welcome and
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    if you've been here before then welcome
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    back it's great to see you again if you
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    don't know who I am Google me make sure
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    your parents aren't behind you so today
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    I want to do a little bit of a story
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    time I guess we could call it a story
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    time I want to explain to you what it
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    was like to be pregnant and in the adult
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    industry um as a lot of you know but
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    maybe a lot of you also don't know I
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    have a child um I won't go into too much
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    about my child because I want to
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    preserve the privacy of my child um but
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    I had a child uh back in
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    2017 uh so I've been a mom for about six
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    years and I I when I got pregnant I was
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    actively working in the adult industry
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    I've been working in the industry for
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    about let's see I got it in
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    2013 the end of 2013 so when I got
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    pregnant it was the beginning of 2017 so
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    let's just say 24 so I've been in the
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    industry for a little over three years
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    when I found out that I was pregnant at
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    the beginning of
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    2017 um I was working as a pretty
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    uh I don't want to too my own horn but I
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    was a pretty well-known adult
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    Entertainer at that point um I was also
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    working as a florist um in my little
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    town that I was living in so I was sort
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    of oh by the way this is a Band-Aid
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    anybody in the comments who wants to say
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    what's on your thumb I hacked into my
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    thumb with a vegetable peeler but I'm
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    okay anyway um I was working as a
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    florist um so I had sort of a double
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    life of being like a normal person my
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    boss didn't know what I did as my other
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    job and
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    um yeah so I was kind of doing both I
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    liked having a regular job and learning
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    a trade while also being an adult
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    Entertainer and so I was having this
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    kind of cool double life found out I was
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    pregnant um and so it was time to make a
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    decision I decided it's I want to have
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    this baby and I decided to with the guy
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    seeing at the time stop shooting
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    mainstream uh stuff at the time uh only
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    fans
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    had just started or I think it was like
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    about to start so I did not I did yeah
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    no it was about to start started a few
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    months into my pregnancy in 2017 or
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    became like I became aware of it and so
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    I didn't have any kind of extra income
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    other than working at this flower shop I
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    just had perform pering mainstream stuff
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    and I had the flower shop and so my ex
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    my child's dad um at the time was like
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    I'll get a regular he said cuz he was in
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    the industry as well he said I will get
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    a regular job and you can just work at
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    the flower shop and and that's it and so
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    that was what we decided to do but I
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    actually still did perform a few
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    mainstream scenes during my pregnancy as
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    well as starting to do only fans content
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    once only fans
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    became a thing when I was about 3 months
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    pregnant roughly so right as I was
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    starting to visibly look
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    pregnant so the first scene I did in the
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    industry while pregnant um was actually
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    one with the father of my child um I
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    hadn't like fully started to show yet I
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    was about two months pregnant uh and we
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    shot a scene together for a company that
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    I really love um that shot me a lot I'm
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    going to take off my bracelets cuz I
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    realized they're really
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    loud um so we shot that scene
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    together um it's funny because people
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    always asked later on if that was the
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    scene where I got pregnant um but I
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    would just like to say that I did not
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    get pregnant on an adult film set I got
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    pregnant in my own bed at home actually
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    on this
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    mattress so no it was not on set people
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    don't get pregnant on set it's a very
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    controlled environment
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    um I'm actually I will say one of the
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    only bigger name adult entertainers even
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    still who has ever shot mainstream
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    content while pregnant of course you can
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    find pregnant scenes out there but
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    they're by not well-known performers I
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    was a very well-known performer
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    awardwinning um and I shot three scenes
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    for mainstream companies fully pregnant
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    um I'm still like I said one of the only
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    people with my level of
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    of Fame if you for lack of better term
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    who decided to do that um or even put my
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    pregnancy out there at all because it's
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    very difficult it was very difficult to
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    be an adult Entertainer who was openly
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    pregnant because you're going to get a
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    lot of judgmental comments um so but I
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    decided to do it because I felt like I'm
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    still me despite a life growing inside
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    of me I am still an autonomous
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    individual and a lot of people disagreed
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    with that a lot of people you know think
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    once you become a mom or a parent that
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    you should like shut off that side of
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    yourself that openly sensual sexual side
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    of yourself but I think that that
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    is that's BS that doesn't that's not
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    fair and and I think it's misogynistic I
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    think it's woman hating to had this idea
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    that a woman should just become this
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    sexless um just pure mother as soon as
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    she becomes pregnant or as soon as she
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    becomes a mom that's just not true women
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    can have and do have entire separate
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    identities to their life as mothers and
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    you can be an amazing mother and still H
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    be an autonomous independent sexual
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    individual and I think that's something
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    that a lot of people have a hard time
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    with
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    conceiving that and I think a lot of it
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    has to do with the fact that a lot of
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    these people look to their own mothers
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    and who were maybe not in the happiest
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    relationships or maybe not in
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    relationships at all and they just saw
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    them as that she's just Mom Mom and and
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    I mean who wants to think of their
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    parents in a sexual way obviously I get
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    it but if you're being
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    realistic an adult is an adult and they
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    like think about someone who has 12 kids
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    or something like these really religious
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    people that have a bunch of kids what
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    are they doing what they' stopped having
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    sex no they had a kid and they kept
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    having sex and had another kid and then
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    they and then they had another kid and
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    they kept having sex and kept having
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    more kids so it's not any more Pious
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    or good in the eyes of God to like stop
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    having kids or stop being sexual right
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    like you are supposed to make a lot of
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    babies or whatever but how would you do
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    that by being sexual so my point is is I
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    get that people don't want to see their
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    parents as sexual beings but adults are
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    inherently sexual and they should be
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    allowed to be inherently sexual and I
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    don't think that that just stops at you
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    know doing it secretly privately hiding
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    it never letting your kids see that you
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    have any part of you that is that like
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    of course we want to be appropriate with
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    our kids and and um age appropriate you
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    don't want to allow your kids to see
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    anything that would scar them but at the
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    same
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    time it's fair to be an adult with an
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    adult life and you can still be an
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    amazing parent
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    um and give your kid a perfectly healthy
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    happy appropriate well adjusted life is
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    my point I trailed off a little bit
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    there but I felt like that was an
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    important thing to
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    address so back to the story so I shot
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    that scene um well actually hold on I
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    want to add one more piece to that so a
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    lot of people say a lot
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    of crazy people say um well what are you
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    going to do when your kid asks you what
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    you do for a job or what are you going
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    to do when your kid is older and
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    eventually sees maybe one of your videos
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    or something and so I have a few things
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    to say to that first of all most people
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    unfortunately have walked in on their
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    parents doing something maybe a little
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    bit sexual that they they're like ah and
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    it's it's this horrible thing and you're
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    scarred and whatever but really if we
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    had a healthy idea of sex and' be like
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    whoa sorry didn't mean it's like walking
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    in on somebody in the bathroom going to
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    the bathroom oh I didn't want to see
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    that but I'm not going to be like oh my
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    God I can't believe you do that like sex
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    is a normal human thing like going to
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    the bathroom or anything like that so if
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    you accidentally see it it's not that
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    all of a sudden you're awakened to the
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    idea that your parents do that of course
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    they do that of course they are sexual
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    beings but maybe you didn't want to see
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    it so yeah of course if my kid stumbles
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    across my videos that might be a little
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    jarring and they're going to have to
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    click away really quick or whatever but
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    um the internet is highly saturated
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    already at this point now in another 15
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    years or 10 years or however long before
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    they start you know really getting
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    around on the internet there's going to
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    be so much more content and I'm not
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    making mainstream scenes anymore anyway
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    even if I was it's just not something
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    that that is likely they're going to
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    accidentally stumble across so there's
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    that aspect of it the other thing too is
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    that how many kids at least I wasn't
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    able to do this but how many kids are
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    able to actively accurately say
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    especially at a young age what their
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    parents do for a living like unless your
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    parent has a really straightforward job
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    like you're my mom is a lawyer my mom is
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    a teacher most most people don't know
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    most kids don't know even know what
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    their parents do they're like oh they
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    work in an office or something you know
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    what I mean like it it wasn't until I
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    was like I don't know in my early teens
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    maybe even later that I was even a
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    really aware of what my parents did
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    because a you don't care you're just
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    like your parent goes to work you go to
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    school you come home we all eat dinner
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    and we do normal day-to-day things
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    so that that's that's like a non-issue
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    to worry about what happens when your
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    kid asks you what you do most parents
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    who don't work in the adult industry
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    give a very simple kind of overview of
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    what they do to their kids without
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    actually explaining the the depth of
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    what they do because there's no point
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    your kid's not going to get it it
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    doesn't matter matter why would they
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    need that information anyway you know so
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    what my child knows of what I do is that
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    like a lot of parents especially now
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    after after
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    coid I work from home I work from home I
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    work on my computer and I get my work
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    done during the day while my kids at
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    school and then when they're home for
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    the day I am done doing my work and
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    that's an amazing thing is that I am
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    there every day to pick up my kid from
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    school without fail I don't have have to
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    send them to an after school program
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    like I used to have to go to because my
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    parents were still at work uh when I got
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    out of school I can immediately go pick
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    my child up bring them home and you know
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    make their after school snack go through
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    their homework with them go
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    through you know working on all the
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    things that they need to work on and
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    play with them and go on a bike ride and
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    I can I'm able to do all those things
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    because of my job so if anything I I'm
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    able to have a more meaning relationship
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    with my child that my parents were able
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    to have with me and a lot of parents are
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    able to have with their kids who have to
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    go to Office jobs and do things like
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    that so um I don't I think it's a
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    non-issue to worry about my kid finding
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    my content because it the internet is so
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    saturated um even if they do hey guess
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    what now you know Mommy has
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    sex that's that's it's normal um and
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    everyone has sex and some people do it
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    on camera and I'm Hope by the time my
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    kid is old enough to be aware of it the
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    stigma goes down even more because it's
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    already so much less of a stigma than it
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    used to be 10 20 years ago so I hope in
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    another 10 years or however long there
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    will be even less of a stigma but it's
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    not illegal I pay taxes I am a good
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    person I went and did my job I did it
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    well and I made good money for my family
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    so there's no shame there shouldn't be
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    any shame behind being a sexual person
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    and making money off of off of sex um um
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    and off of performances and so that that
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    solves that issue in my mind that people
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    have with it and the issue of explaining
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    what you do it's very simple I work from
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    home I work on my phone I work on my
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    computer that's it and when people ask
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    me what I do in the real world I say I
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    do website management because I do I
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    manage my own website that's literally
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    what I do um and that's all people want
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    to hear most people are like oh cool you
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    work on websit it's like that's we live
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    in an age now where it's not like oh
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    what's your job and there's like so few
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    jobs that people do there are so many
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    jobs that people do now so it's not an
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    issue I guess is my point it's not an
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    issue to be a parent who does sex work
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    especially if you're doing it safely you
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    pay taxes you're doing it legally you're
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    doing everything like a normal person a
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    private contractor um any kind of artist
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    there nothing wrong with it as long as
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    you take care of your kids you make sure
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    they have an appropriate healthy well
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    adjusted life um my kid is wellfed has
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    tons of friends has a beautiful clean
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    clothes uh has a wonderful life with
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    extracurricular activities um my kid is
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    so well-rounded intelligent and just
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    happy
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    and it doesn't I don't hinder my child
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    having amazing life in any way by what I
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    do if anything it's actually made it
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    easier to provide amazing life for my
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    child so now that that's out of the way
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    we can get back to the timeline so first
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    couple months in I shot my first scene
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    and after that uh I went back to just
  • 00:14:45
    doing flower shop and um my ex also
  • 00:14:48
    stopped shooting after a few months once
  • 00:14:50
    he got a regular job he worked in a
  • 00:14:52
    factory actually worked for my stepdad
  • 00:14:55
    and he managed a factory for my stepdad
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    um which was really cool because kind of
  • 00:15:01
    kept it in the family um and he made
  • 00:15:04
    Regular paychecks had health insurance
  • 00:15:06
    all that so it was really nice um but
  • 00:15:10
    then when I was about s months pregnant
  • 00:15:14
    I got offered to do a girl girl scene
  • 00:15:17
    for a company that I also really love
  • 00:15:19
    that I had shop for a
  • 00:15:21
    lot and I wasn't sure at first but I
  • 00:15:23
    asked my guy at the time my my child's
  • 00:15:27
    dad and he said that you thought it
  • 00:15:28
    would be cool and I was like yeah you
  • 00:15:30
    know what why not so I shot a scene with
  • 00:15:32
    another girl um very very
  • 00:15:36
    pregnant um if I'm being honest if I'm
  • 00:15:38
    being totally honest and everybody who
  • 00:15:40
    knows me has probably seen that scene um
  • 00:15:44
    I I hate how I look like I look back and
  • 00:15:48
    I'm like oh my God I look like a [ __ ]
  • 00:15:51
    like a whale like I and not not a fat
  • 00:15:53
    phobic thing to say or anything like
  • 00:15:54
    that but I was just I was so pregnant
  • 00:15:57
    and I was enormous
  • 00:15:59
    and everybody was like you're so
  • 00:16:00
    beautiful you're glowing and the girl I
  • 00:16:03
    worked with her name's Mona Wales um
  • 00:16:06
    she was amazing she couldn't have been
  • 00:16:10
    gentler Kinder sweeter the whole setup
  • 00:16:12
    was so beautiful um I was treated so
  • 00:16:15
    incredibly well um like I've always been
  • 00:16:18
    treated well uh in the adult industry
  • 00:16:20
    but it but it was a beautiful well shot
  • 00:16:24
    classy thing but I can't watch it
  • 00:16:27
    because oh my God I just like I don't
  • 00:16:30
    want anyone to like have seen what I
  • 00:16:32
    looked like during that time I could
  • 00:16:33
    barely dress myself during the day at
  • 00:16:36
    that point in my pregnancy cuz I was
  • 00:16:37
    just so big and I was very insecure
  • 00:16:40
    about it so but it was very well shot I
  • 00:16:42
    was very well taken care of I felt very
  • 00:16:44
    like loved on that set plus I'd already
  • 00:16:47
    shot for them a bunch of times before I
  • 00:16:48
    got pregnant for for that company so I
  • 00:16:51
    knew everybody and everybody was like oh
  • 00:16:53
    my God you look so pretty and the makeup
  • 00:16:56
    artist even that did my makeup was so
  • 00:16:59
    wonderful and I she's a good friend of
  • 00:17:01
    mine so it was
  • 00:17:04
    nice but I hate how I look so if I could
  • 00:17:07
    take anything back it would just be not
  • 00:17:09
    shooting it only because I don't want
  • 00:17:12
    that version of me on
  • 00:17:14
    camera um but not because I wasn't
  • 00:17:17
    treated well or you know the money
  • 00:17:20
    didn't help during that time and all of
  • 00:17:23
    that cuz it did um okay and then the
  • 00:17:26
    final scene that I shot was with
  • 00:17:29
    actually the father of my child um
  • 00:17:33
    anybody who knows me has probably seen
  • 00:17:35
    that scene as well um I think it was
  • 00:17:37
    actually a two-part so maybe it counts
  • 00:17:38
    as like two scenes since we went two
  • 00:17:39
    days in a row to shoot um same thing
  • 00:17:43
    there that the money from that actually
  • 00:17:46
    it was amazing and it actually paid for
  • 00:17:49
    the entire cost of me giving birth at
  • 00:17:51
    this birth center because I didn't give
  • 00:17:53
    birth at a hospital I gave birth at a
  • 00:17:55
    birth center um and it was an amazingly
  • 00:17:59
    beautiful wonderful birth center and it
  • 00:18:01
    it they don't take insurance there so I
  • 00:18:03
    had to pay for it out of pocket which
  • 00:18:05
    was a lot at the time for me cuz I was
  • 00:18:07
    just working at a flower shop and then
  • 00:18:09
    making a little money on the side from
  • 00:18:10
    only fans so um we ended up being able
  • 00:18:14
    to pay for the birth the entire birth
  • 00:18:17
    center experience with that shoot or
  • 00:18:20
    those two shoots that we did together
  • 00:18:22
    for that company in that two days it was
  • 00:18:25
    expensive so it was really nice um but
  • 00:18:28
    again
  • 00:18:30
    I didn't like how I looked I felt like I
  • 00:18:32
    was huge and of course people still tell
  • 00:18:34
    me and still post and retweet the scene
  • 00:18:36
    and post about it and oh you look so
  • 00:18:39
    beautiful and will you ever get pregnant
  • 00:18:41
    again and shoot more and
  • 00:18:44
    whatever it was a great experience they
  • 00:18:47
    took amazing care of me I I was my
  • 00:18:50
    makeup was beautiful The Outfits they
  • 00:18:52
    put me and were beautiful the scenes
  • 00:18:54
    were very well shot and classy and like
  • 00:18:56
    romantic um
  • 00:18:59
    but no I would never do that again even
  • 00:19:01
    if I did get pregnant again I would
  • 00:19:03
    never shoot a big scene like that again
  • 00:19:06
    pregnant because I just I I don't like
  • 00:19:10
    how I looked I I was huge so and it's
  • 00:19:13
    normal I was pregnant but I just no no
  • 00:19:17
    thank
  • 00:19:17
    you
  • 00:19:19
    so yeah um I'm also probably never going
  • 00:19:22
    to get pregnant again cuz being a parent
  • 00:19:25
    is
  • 00:19:26
    exhausting um and you know being an
  • 00:19:31
    adult Entertainer I have to really work
  • 00:19:34
    anyone who's a parent you have to work
  • 00:19:35
    your whole life around your child your
  • 00:19:37
    life stops being for you and it starts
  • 00:19:39
    being for this other person and that's
  • 00:19:43
    really hard and I don't love it I don't
  • 00:19:45
    love that I have to
  • 00:19:47
    completely not look out completely for
  • 00:19:50
    my own interests which sounds terrible
  • 00:19:52
    and I know that that's the case so I do
  • 00:19:54
    it I I selflessly give my whole life for
  • 00:19:56
    my child but I can't imagine having like
  • 00:20:00
    another one and having to double down on
  • 00:20:02
    that
  • 00:20:03
    like constantly worrying about a child
  • 00:20:06
    over worrying about myself um my child
  • 00:20:09
    is amazing I love my child more than
  • 00:20:11
    anything in the world and I take such
  • 00:20:13
    pride in giving my child an amazing life
  • 00:20:17
    a
  • 00:20:18
    beautiful
  • 00:20:20
    wholesome well-rounded life I love doing
  • 00:20:23
    that but I could not do I don't want to
  • 00:20:27
    do it again I don't want to start the
  • 00:20:28
    timeline all over with a brand new baby
  • 00:20:31
    and and do that again I'm going to just
  • 00:20:34
    do this one thing perfect and that's
  • 00:20:37
    going to be that um very much a
  • 00:20:40
    oneandone I also had a very difficult
  • 00:20:42
    birth I had an all natural birth so no
  • 00:20:45
    medicine no
  • 00:20:47
    C-section just natural and it was
  • 00:20:51
    rough um and yeah so I don't want to go
  • 00:20:55
    through that again I'm not going to talk
  • 00:20:57
    about my birth story because it's very
  • 00:20:59
    personal to me maybe I will one day but
  • 00:21:02
    definitely not now um but it was rough
  • 00:21:05
    we got through it we're fine I have a
  • 00:21:07
    beautiful healthy happy awesome child
  • 00:21:11
    but um giving
  • 00:21:13
    birth
  • 00:21:14
    sucks and I'm scared of medication I'm
  • 00:21:17
    scared of getting like
  • 00:21:19
    uh epidural a big long needle in my
  • 00:21:22
    spine I don't want to do that so um so
  • 00:21:25
    if I ever did have another one which I
  • 00:21:26
    won't but if I did I definitely would
  • 00:21:28
    have to do it all natural again and it
  • 00:21:30
    was rough so and it's hard on your body
  • 00:21:33
    too you know I show my body for my work
  • 00:21:37
    so I gained this is a fun little insight
  • 00:21:40
    I gained about 50 lbs when I was
  • 00:21:42
    pregnant so losing that and having my
  • 00:21:45
    body you know trying to get my body back
  • 00:21:47
    into a shape that I feel is visually
  • 00:21:51
    appealing for me personally um was was
  • 00:21:54
    hard and then it caused other things
  • 00:21:57
    like I caused the thyroid issue so I
  • 00:22:00
    after I had lost the pregnancy weight I
  • 00:22:02
    then lost another like 20 lbs which
  • 00:22:04
    looked nice on camera I guess cuz I
  • 00:22:06
    weighed like 100 pounds and I was really
  • 00:22:07
    skinny but I wasn't healthy um and then
  • 00:22:11
    once I healed the thyroid problem my
  • 00:22:12
    weight swung back and I gained another
  • 00:22:14
    like I gained like 25 PBS and just it's
  • 00:22:19
    been having a baby changes your body in
  • 00:22:22
    every way and I feel like I already went
  • 00:22:25
    through it so and it was hard so I'm not
  • 00:22:28
    going to do it again to myself um I
  • 00:22:33
    think people think of birth as a really
  • 00:22:35
    kind of P thing
  • 00:22:37
    because so many women have done it so
  • 00:22:40
    many people have done it but um it's not
  • 00:22:46
    it's like the hardest thing you could
  • 00:22:48
    ever do in your entire life and saying
  • 00:22:50
    that will never really get across the
  • 00:22:55
    um the weight of it but
  • 00:22:58
    that's all I can say is it's I've never
  • 00:23:01
    done anything I've never gone through
  • 00:23:02
    something so traumatic and it was not it
  • 00:23:07
    was not some beautiful wonderful
  • 00:23:08
    experience it was very hard on me I was
  • 00:23:09
    also very sick through my whole
  • 00:23:11
    pregnancy which doesn't mean anything
  • 00:23:12
    bad for my baby it runs in my family to
  • 00:23:14
    have really hard pregnancies um I was I
  • 00:23:18
    was sick like throwing up like every
  • 00:23:21
    single day for like eight months like I
  • 00:23:23
    would literally hand a bouquet of
  • 00:23:24
    flowers to someone at my job have a nice
  • 00:23:27
    day ring them up and then throw turn
  • 00:23:29
    around to the bathroom and throw up like
  • 00:23:31
    every single day so if there's any
  • 00:23:34
    chance I could go through that and the
  • 00:23:37
    difficult birth and then the yo-yo
  • 00:23:40
    effect that it did to my body afterwards
  • 00:23:42
    ever again another kid's not worth that
  • 00:23:45
    plus they're
  • 00:23:46
    expensive it's it's too much so never
  • 00:23:49
    again um but that said being an adult
  • 00:23:54
    Entertainer with a child being an adult
  • 00:23:56
    Entertainer who was pregnant
  • 00:23:59
    may seem like an incredibly
  • 00:24:00
    controversial crazy thing that people
  • 00:24:03
    have a lot of different judgments about
  • 00:24:05
    it's a very
  • 00:24:06
    um intense topic but I just wanted to
  • 00:24:10
    come on here and say that it doesn't
  • 00:24:12
    have to be seen that way adult
  • 00:24:14
    entertainers are humans we have lives we
  • 00:24:18
    have families I remember before I got
  • 00:24:20
    into the industry I remember thinking
  • 00:24:23
    about adult entertainment very very
  • 00:24:25
    differently and honestly not very
  • 00:24:27
    positively I would consume the content
  • 00:24:29
    but then I would think negatively of the
  • 00:24:31
    people that were in it the people that
  • 00:24:32
    helped me feel good um so on the other
  • 00:24:37
    side now looking back I can understand
  • 00:24:39
    why people have negative thoughts
  • 00:24:41
    because there's so much stigma around
  • 00:24:44
    being an adult Entertainer but at the
  • 00:24:47
    end of the day we're people most of us
  • 00:24:51
    are good people who love our families
  • 00:24:54
    and are good we take good care of our
  • 00:24:56
    homes and care of our bodies of our pets
  • 00:25:01
    um we we care about causes we're we're
  • 00:25:05
    just normal good people we're not like
  • 00:25:07
    bad people and and the industry is just
  • 00:25:09
    full of a bunch of Regular People some
  • 00:25:10
    are not so great but some are also great
  • 00:25:13
    if you walk into an office and you scan
  • 00:25:15
    the beliefs and the activities and the
  • 00:25:19
    lives of all the people in that office
  • 00:25:20
    and all their past traumas and
  • 00:25:22
    everything it's going to be the same
  • 00:25:23
    thing when you go into an adult
  • 00:25:25
    entertainment into the adult ENT mment
  • 00:25:28
    world and you scan all those people some
  • 00:25:29
    people are have had a rough life they've
  • 00:25:31
    been through trauma they they are
  • 00:25:35
    struggling but it's going to be the same
  • 00:25:37
    thing if you look at an office with a
  • 00:25:38
    bunch of seemingly normal people there
  • 00:25:40
    are people there that have gone through
  • 00:25:41
    trauma and had rough lives um and are
  • 00:25:44
    struggling um or are doing really really
  • 00:25:47
    well that's the same thing too there's
  • 00:25:48
    going to be there's a there's a full
  • 00:25:50
    spectrum of The Human Experience in
  • 00:25:52
    every industry you examine so being an
  • 00:25:57
    adult Entertainer does not automatically
  • 00:25:58
    mean you had a rough life you're having
  • 00:26:00
    a rough life you are struggling you're
  • 00:26:03
    there just because you need the money
  • 00:26:05
    like we're all doing a job because we
  • 00:26:07
    need the money anyone you ask in the
  • 00:26:09
    whole world is doing a job because they
  • 00:26:10
    need the money um so I just challenge
  • 00:26:13
    everyone to look at adult entertainers
  • 00:26:15
    in a way that it's the same as any other
  • 00:26:18
    job yes it's very different the actual
  • 00:26:22
    type of work you're doing but we all get
  • 00:26:24
    up we all put our clothes on and and
  • 00:26:28
    take them off some of us um but we all
  • 00:26:30
    get up we brush our teeth we take a
  • 00:26:32
    shower and we drive to work or maybe we
  • 00:26:35
    don't even drive to work cuz we work
  • 00:26:36
    from home but we we go and we we sit
  • 00:26:39
    down to get a job done or stand up or
  • 00:26:41
    whatever it is but we all go we wake up
  • 00:26:43
    we eat we go and do a job everyone
  • 00:26:47
    everyone in this world because because
  • 00:26:49
    capitalism because life and just it
  • 00:26:53
    would be really healthy to think it
  • 00:26:56
    would help the world a lot for people
  • 00:26:57
    people to see adult entertainers in that
  • 00:27:00
    way instead of in this this
  • 00:27:03
    mystified oh what could possibly have
  • 00:27:05
    happened in your life to bring you to
  • 00:27:07
    this what would you be doing if you
  • 00:27:09
    weren't doing that no they're just
  • 00:27:11
    normal people it's like the Barista that
  • 00:27:13
    gives you your coffee in the morning the
  • 00:27:15
    adult Entertainer is the same thing
  • 00:27:18
    we're just doing a service we're
  • 00:27:20
    providing it we're getting paid to
  • 00:27:22
    provide the service and then we pay
  • 00:27:24
    taxes on that we go home to our families
  • 00:27:26
    we make some dinner and we just we're
  • 00:27:28
    just getting through life so I'm here to
  • 00:27:31
    help demystify what it means to be an
  • 00:27:34
    adult Entertainer in every aspect
  • 00:27:35
    including what it means to be a parent
  • 00:27:37
    to have been pregnant and um and a
  • 00:27:41
    successful adult Entertainer
  • 00:27:44
    so I think that's all I want to say if
  • 00:27:48
    you have questions on this topic I'm
  • 00:27:50
    definitely down to expand I feel like I
  • 00:27:52
    covered everything I want to cover but
  • 00:27:55
    if you have more questions about this
  • 00:27:56
    this specific aspect of being an adult
  • 00:27:59
    Entertainer or just any aspect of being
  • 00:28:01
    an adult Entertainer I'm definitely
  • 00:28:03
    happy to do more videos about this
  • 00:28:05
    because I think it's important um so
  • 00:28:07
    please leave them down in the comments
  • 00:28:09
    let me know what you thought of this
  • 00:28:10
    video let me know if you have more
  • 00:28:12
    questions and yeah I'm Carla
  • 00:28:17
    Kush thanks for being here thanks for
  • 00:28:19
    spending this time with me and I'll see
  • 00:28:21
    you in the next
  • 00:28:26
    video
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