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hi my name is Sarah Clark and welcome to
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the next video of power to the plurals
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the topic of this video has been on my
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mind for many years
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but especially in the last six months
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I've been trying to find a way to
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conveyed his message in the right way
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the word spoken in this video carry a
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weight and are a collaborate effort of
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our system it is impossible for us to
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record a video in the way there was
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written collectively by our system hence
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after a debating and voting insight we
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felt it was most authentic and honest to
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read the exact words that we
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collectively wrote this message contains
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the word I as we speak for our
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collective system and our collective
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vision we still often connect switches
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with triggers by now many people say
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switch has come from positive or
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negative triggers but do they or a
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better question would be our trigger is
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the only reason by talking about
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switching like this don't we make it a
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bigger deal than it actually is years
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from now when I truly can see myself as
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a collective non disordered system as we
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personally have no need for full
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alteration do I want a switch because of
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triggers and do I want to call it that
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would I still use the words positive and
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negative triggers once the PTSD is
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healed there is nothing wrong with
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switching for seemingly no reason when
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we sight someone else belongs in this
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moment if we are healed we should be
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able to switch at will there is a beauty
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and being able to be and work together
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so closely and that you choose together
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best suits a situation
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and if there are no music walls and you
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do not lose time and you can experience
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from the insight what is experienced on
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the outside without restricting
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switching all of you then I see nothing
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wrong with that
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nothing to be ashamed of more so
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something to be proud of I know that by
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writing this there will be some people
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might not even be able to imagine yet
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what this actually looks like that's
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okay obviously I did not have these
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thoughts when I just got diagnosed or in
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the years after when I just tried to
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keep it together we do not have a lot of
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great floral role models in the world
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yet reinvent the wheel together step by
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step and day by day I'm not sure if I
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will ever reach this level of
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cooperation with everyone in my large
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system but I do trust enough in my
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system in myself
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to reach this with our main frontiers
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and if you long for it we wish you the
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same
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from coping skill to trauma disorder to
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way of collective living together we are
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stronger and power to the plurals to
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feel pride in your di D is a struggle
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for many it's a sensitive topic and that
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many read or avoid the idea is a trauma
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disorder after all but if we read dsm-5
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closely it says Dendy ID is associated
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with early childhood trauma associated
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it does not say cost buy it it says it
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like this because else everyone will
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experiences childhood trauma and
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somebody ID and this is certainly not
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the case the trauma and/or abuse we
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suffered his horrible and none of us
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deserve it not a single one of us we
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were innocent children after all and
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they they were bad people who did very
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bad things and because of that our mind
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and brain needed a way to cope I know
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you already noticed but bear with me
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those bad people they did those bad
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things but you your child's mind and
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brain did an extremely smart thing
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subconsciously for most of us we found a
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way to protect ourselves we did that
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everyone in our system came to help
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hence we found a way to protect
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ourselves if we can see that grasp that
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we start to build pride if we work
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together and build that collective
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system together we can feel pride it's
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our work after all
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we made it we did not know at that young
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age that it might cost us later in life
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that it would be such a struggle for a
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while that it would feel as a sacrifice
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to some of us but if we lived in a
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slightly different world where being
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plural was accepted where help for PTSD
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and early childhood trauma was
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affordable and easy to find where
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abusers were rightfully punished
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where society cares for those they
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forgot about all those years ago if we
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lived in a world like that would it not
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be so much more okay would we not find
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comfort in when we are would we not feel
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sad for those who were traumatized like
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us but we live with all that pain in
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there one single my
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would we not lift each other up so much
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that pride in who we are as plurals
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today instantly brings hope to do spiny
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up their peril tomorrow I know we do not
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live in a world like that so let's build
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it together let's continue to be the
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loving and supportive community that we
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are and have built here and it
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alternation on Facebook together let's
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continue to heal ourselves and bring
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hope to others may this a face be that
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world we long for so much after all
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we've been through we are here in
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companionship and solidarity we listen
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to each other respect each other care
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for each other and it's amazing it's
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something I am extremely proud of it's
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something we all accomplished together
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by working together we are all strangers
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and we are all hurt yet we found a way
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here on this channel and in alternation
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may you find that way also in your
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individual life and may reflect as well
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in your inner world may you heal so much
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that you can feel pride in your survival
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and plurality you deserve it we stand
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with you all and we work for you this
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part of the video is especially for
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people who have trouble with the concept
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of plural pride
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and also addresses survivors of mind
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control programming and SRA abuse those
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whom survived deliberate and intentional
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creation of alters and inhumane ways I
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am a survivor of such horrors myself and
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I hear your pain and your concerns when
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we talk about plural pride I struggled
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with this myself for many years some of
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us feel as if the D idea was forced upon
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us and this can bring extra conflicts
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and debates inside we are all at a
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different place in our healing path and
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we all have our own concerns and so I
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don't think I'm gonna be able to address
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them all and address every individual
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person and their individual personal
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abuse stories if you want to I'm sure
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you can find a reason to not be proud
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it's always possible to find a reason I
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can name you at least 25 things that I'm
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not proud of and that somehow correlate
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with my di D but what I want to
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challenge you to though and what I
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challenge myself to a few years ago is
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to find something that you can be proud
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about that is if you want to I'm not
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gonna force anyone to kill right I don't
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think plural pride is something that can
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be rushed either it took me 10 years to
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be able to kinda stay in this state of
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mind and it also really helped to
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connect with others who already
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experienced
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pride is not a label not an event not an
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end station it's a feeling a sensation
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and to believe about yourselves for
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years I just kept surviving and I was
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not proud of that not happy about it
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even I found a sense of I have to and I
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was not even sure why for most at the
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time it took a lot of healing working
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through programming believing in
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ourselves feeling worthy working through
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shame accepting ourselves and all its
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aspect and it's a work in progress for
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me that pride started with being proud
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of surviving and escaping and later
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staying away then I became proud of
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working together then I found pride in
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breaking programming now I'm proud of
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being able to help others on a daily
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basis all those layers of pride had to
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build up into a foundation that may be
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able to feel plural pride then it took
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more time to be able to say it out loud
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and even more time to speak about it
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proudly inside and outside of our
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community you cannot feel pride until
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you accept your plural and that is
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really really not easy for most of us it
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also depends on our culture friends and
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family what our lives look like today if
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help is available if we have good role
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models where we are in the world if we
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have support and a community we are part
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of but it gets especially difficult when
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you do not feel you own your plurality
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when you not only feel it was done to
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you on purpose you know it was done to
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you on purpose or when you are or feel
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still connected to perpetrators
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it's not realistic that everyone in a
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system experiences plural pride at the
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same time also in our own systems are
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weird different places in our healing
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paths what helped us greatly is to think
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about plural pride not as being proud of
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how or why I became plural it's not
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about the origin of my plurality and it
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has zero percent to do with my abusers I
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give them no credit whatsoever even
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without programming we know there are
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sick people in this world who have
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children with the sole purpose of
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abusing them but those children are
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shaped by their parents and have their
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DNA even but they are still their own
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individual person and so are we all of
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us even if they don't know it today one
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day they will find out they love
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painting or music or writing or gaming
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or flowers or pets and they realize that
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was not programmed in they discover
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their someone outside of that
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programming and this is when most of our
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alters truly start to thrive
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plural pride is about finding pride in
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when we are today it's about being a
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survivor it's to honor my system
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gratitude they made us a survivor pride
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of the struggles that we over
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came together it's about having our
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voice hurt it's to remember those who
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came before us and did not find a
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community in your health it's to
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remember those when we lost it's about
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making progress in my own life and the
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world it's about making a change if not
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for me then for the next generation I've
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been at that point for all the hairs on
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my arms stood up when someone spoke by
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plural pride I felt anger towards my
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abusers for making me this way I have
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cried and shouted to the universe why me
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and I have suffered after escaping my
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suffering but most importantly I over
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come
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and this is where I choose to focus on
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overcoming growing healing together as
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pearls in our system and community
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building culture and community inside
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and outside I am a survivor I am my best
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support network I am my best
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deprogrammer
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I am a collective system I am stronger
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when working together I am Perl I find
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pride in that and I hope you can - thank
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you so much for watching
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you
