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thank
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you that's the most important thing I
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have to say right now if there's nothing
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else you take away from this video then
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please take my
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gratitude you the people who followed me
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through my days at lineus Media Group
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and you the people who found me only
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afterwards or even you the people who
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have no idea who the heck I am or you
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know hate my guts for one reason or
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another thank you all it's because of
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you that I reached the heights that I
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did and it's because of you that I'm
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here in front of the camera again if you
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just want to know what that means for
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this channel head to this Tim stamp but
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if you want to know more about what I
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mean
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well when I first started this career in
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content creation I didn't have any Grand
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Ambitions I didn't expect to ever be on
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camera I didn't expect certain people to
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like me even if I was and I certainly
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didn't expect to have
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fans like my my biggest goal was to make
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content that made people as excited
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about tech as I am and I was willing to
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move cross country to reach the largest
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audience I could I wanted to share the
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knowledge that I've gained throughout
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the years and Hope hopefully to help
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people through darker times the way that
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YouTube helped me through mine a decade
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ago honestly the first thing that went
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through my mind when I left
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lmg the first thing that I cried about
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was the realization
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that I might not be able to do that
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anymore the whole reason I came here in
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the first
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place think is before leaving I could
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still do that even without being on
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camera when I came out as Trans in 2023
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I kind of expected that to be the end of
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my on camera appearances and you know
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for the most part it was and I was fine
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with that I stuck with writing because
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you know even if I didn't host I was
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still making the content I was still
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able to work on cool things and you know
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share them with the class that was all
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that mattered to me
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being on camera was never the goal was
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never the
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point but even now I get so many
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mentions and
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messages asking when I'll be back on
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camera I get notes from people saying
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that they look up to
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me that they miss
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me somewhere along the
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line I started to realize
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that far from the negative response that
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I had
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expected people legitimately wanted to
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see me
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so that leaves me with a strange
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question that I honestly wasn't
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comfortable with
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answering at what point does being the
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center of attention go from the heights
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of hubris to the less selfish
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option you know the funny thing about
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hubris is that you often won't realize
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that you have it until it's clear that
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you're not quite as good as you think
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you are and well maybe it's the same in
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Reverse I've personally followed the
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Dunning Krueger curve on several topics
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including PC repair and you know I've
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consistently been shown that there's
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still far more to learn that I knew
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there's always something more to learn
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it's why I know there's plenty more for
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me to learn about myself and well far
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more to learn about being in the public
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eye like I was at
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lmg and now that I'm putting myself out
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there
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again it's also why I won't ever claim
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to be an expert at
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anything not even my favorite video
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games like can I play that on Maniac no
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like sure part of it's a self-esteem
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thing yeah
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but I also don't ever want to return to
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a position where I think I know
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everything
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and you know just get arrogant about it
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what I'd much rather do is is learn more
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and share what I've learned take Apple
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products for example like up until 2011
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or
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2012 I hated them on
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principle I thought Macs were stupid I
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thought iPods were an overpriced knockup
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of existing Tech that everyone thought
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was Apple's invention for some reason
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even the word podcast annoyed me because
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we already had words for
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that but what I hated was also what I
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didn't
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understand what Apple brought to the
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table wasn't new and revolutionary it
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didn't have to be but rather what it was
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was Tech that was packaged in a way that
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made it accessible to people who weren't
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you know snorting lines of tech like I
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was what I saw was a watering down of a
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passion of mine and I hated
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that a lot
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but thing is where did that leave me in
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my Tech Career I had no idea what to do
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when someone brought me a Mac to fix or
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set up I look like a complete idiot and
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that's because I
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was for as much as I thought I knew
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there was always someone else who was
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way more advanced like computer repair
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it wasn't until I was in in a high
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school work placement that I even
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installed a CPU for the first time not
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until my first job till I built a
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computer from scratch for the first time
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and Linux like when I was dabbling with
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Mand Drake or whatever back in the day
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at least one classmate of mine was
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already setting up servers and
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networking and like red hat and later a
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coworker was daily driving it even back
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when wine couldn't at all pull off the
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latest games like sure I was always the
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person that my friends and family turned
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to for Tech help
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but I wasn't ever an expert like if
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you've ever wondered how someone can put
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proficient with Microsoft Office on a
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resume and then turn out to have no idea
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how to do even mildly interesting things
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with formatting or
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formulas like that's kind of where I was
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at and frankly that's still where I'm at
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with office like over time I slowly
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started to realize how little I really
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knew in the Years leading up to working
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in lmg I had a lot of time to evaluate
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that for reasons I'm still grappling
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with and won't get into today I tied a
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lot of my worth to my usefulness and
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expertise and let me tell you I suffered
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for
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that since then I've gotten familiar
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enough with all of the above basically
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to be what I consider to be useful and
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you know I think that one of my real
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strengths has always been in taking
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complex things and breaking them down
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into simpler terms I think that's
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probably where my reputation for being
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an expert comes from it's also why I
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don't want to claim to be an expert
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because really I'm not what I am is an
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Enthusiast with a drive to learn I'm
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someone who wants to share a passion
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with the world someone who wants to show
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others the cool shiny things that make
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their eyes light up and activates all
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the good neurons most of my knowledge
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comes from just casually reading and
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messing around with stuff and it's the
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kind of thing I want to encourage people
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to do so many people tell me that they
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could never do whatever it is that I do
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it's too
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complicated but the reality is as much
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as people put me up on a pedestal as
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some tech deity there's nothing special
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about
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me I'm not a comp sign major he A+ is
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the highest certification that I have
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and that's kind of text bottom floor
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there's a whole host of stuff that I
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have absolutely no idea about including
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stuff that those same people are good at
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and here's the thing like as far as I'm
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concerned they can totally do what I do
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and for that matter you can totally do
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what I do and I think that's what I want
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this project to be about I want to spark
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wonder and excitement and open the door
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so you can follow me down the rabbit
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holes I fall into and hey if you do
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that's great welcome to the party if not
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then well maybe you'll still get a kick
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out of some of the things that I dig up
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whether it's bleeding edge Tech or retro
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time or something else entirely I mean I
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do think about the Roman Empire a lot
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but it is important to remember that it
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is just me here I don't have the support
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staff that I did at lus Media Group I'm
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choosing my own topics I'm writing my
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own scripts I'm shooting my own videos
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editing my own videos and half of those
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things
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are not something that I've got much
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experience
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with I mean heck I've tried three times
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now to shoot this exact video because I
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kept messing up like the lighting or the
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framing
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or even just the delivery it's a huge
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learning process for me and that's the
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reality that comes with going solo to
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say nothing of things like no longer
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having access to test equipment and the
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uncertain income that last part worries
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me the most though um I've been exposed
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to a lot of camera work in editing an
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lmg and i' absorbed a fair chunk of it
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through
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osis but the business side that's a
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black box to me so here's how I think
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this is going to work you probably
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noticed this video is monetized why well
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aside from being able to pay rent this
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month which I definitely do want to do
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uh I want to get a feel for how feasible
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it is for me to go without using things
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like mid rolles that disrupt the flow of
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a the Sega Genesis has blast processing
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Super Nintendo doesn't I'm also looking
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to figure out if I can do all of this
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without sponsorships like I mean if
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sponsorships came my way I might
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consider them but I like to be very
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careful about who I sign with i' want to
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use my own voice rather than simply like
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paring talking points you know like VP
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sponsorships they're common on YouTube
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but I'd like to actually educate people
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on how to use them and I need to have
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used the product or service before I'm
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not going to say anything that I
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disagree with and that's something that
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I'm going to take directly from lmg but
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some channels don't have
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sponsorships and if I can do this
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without them I
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will but the only way to do that is with
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direct support from well regular viewers
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out there like you and that
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is that is a difficult topic for
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me
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like I wanted to establish myself on my
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own merits before taking people's money
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for basically just work that I did at
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lmg for those of you who sent super
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thanks when I got monetization for the
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channel and accidentally retroactively
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enabled
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them well thank you
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genuinely you have no idea how much that
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support means to me morally but at the
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same time people have also legitimately
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asked do I have a patreon that they can
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send money to to support me
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and
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I I don't know it's it's something that
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is just so completely out there for me
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because I
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don't see my own worth in the same way
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that a lot of people seem
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to kind of blows my mind here's the
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compromise I can commit to only so much
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right now so I'm going to launch a
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patreon so you can support me if you
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want but think of it more like a tip jar
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I can offer some of the standard stuff
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like videos a day early names in videos
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a Discord server maybe some behind the
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scenes stuff or updates on what I'm
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working on but I can't really do much
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else for that right now if that sounds
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good to you though you can find the link
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in the description but please don't feel
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like you need
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to I'm still going to be making the
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videos and to start with I'm aiming for
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a bi-weekly schedule to accommodate for
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let's call it
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training and I'm planning to start with
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useful Tech tips and Tech quickie style
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content to cut my editing teeth on like
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for example did you know that Bluetooth
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audio doesn't have to suck on PC or that
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it matters which USB ports you use aside
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from just whether they're 3.0 or
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whatever or have you ever wondered why a
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10,000 milliamp battery Bank looks like
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this but laptops only usually go up to
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like 2,800 milliamp
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hours I'm also looking the documents and
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things that I've been having to learn
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over the past few months and there will
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probably be a project or two thrown in
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there too like I had to get my
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workstation back up to date Hardware
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wise and uh well I mean it was like 2018
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Hardware not terrible but not really up
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to Snuff and I can go into the decisions
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that I made during the process of
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acquiring that new hardware the problem
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is I still haven't built it yet this is
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actually still my old workstation I um
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really need to get on that but I just
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won't be able to do things like review
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amd's upcoming ryzen 9 9950 X 3D or the
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Nvidia 5000 series Blackwell gpus that
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are basically launching now like that
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doesn't mean that I don't have opinions
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on Tech or anything to be clear but you
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know anything that I say about nextg
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CPUs or gpus or whatever that should be
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taken as the opinion that it is informed
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or
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not as for a uh certain other elephant
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in the room if you've seen the only
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other video on this channel then you'd
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know that I'm
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transgender now I don't intend to make
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the channel about that don't worry but I
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do hope that that puts me into a unique
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position of being an inviting figure for
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every one of every persuasion and like
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to that end I'm not going to hide it and
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not going to hi hide my gay little
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screwdriver either I just wanted to get
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that out of the way because while I am
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going to keep being who I am I don't
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care to get into the things like fan
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Wars I don't want to get into politics
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or drama YouTube or to be compared to
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other creators like positively or
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negatively I want to stand on my own I
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want the community that Sprouts up
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around my content to be open and
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accommodating without gatekeeping or
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unnecessary snark at least that's how I
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feel today and in some ways it's how I
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felt for years now like I want to prove
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that you can be successful without
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clickbait without hot takes without
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flashy spectacle and hopefully without
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stupid YouTube thumbnail faces I don't
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ever want to do another one of
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those like no shade to the people who
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are playing the game I get it
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but I want to prove that the stuff that
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I like the stuff that I'm interested
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in people are just as interested in it
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as I
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am after all isn't that kind of what
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YouTube's supposed to be
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about
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so come and learn with me remove the
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blocks saying you can't do it open your
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mind and become an expert like me the
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way that I did you'll be able to find me
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on YouTube Blue Sky Twitter threads and
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fediverse to start with and I'll do my
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best to cross poost everything so
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nobody's left
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out and I guess that's it that's
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everything I needed to say I'm looking
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forward
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to getting back to
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it in the meantime take care of
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yourselves and
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well let's do great things
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okay I really hope that's it this time
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